Razard86

I discovered I could put myself in a psychedelic state (sadly no intense visuals but the same intensity of the feeling is there) at will. Did last night and then asked for it to stop cause I wasn't in the mood. I'm telling people on here, if you want it you can get it lol. Just ask...that shit was unstabilizing I can literally ask for it like a menu in a restaraunt. "Umm sir I'd like to experience intense groundlessness." Sure coming right up........"Woahhhh I change my mind maybe tomorrow I haven't done that in awhile and forgot what it was like."

You are borne into a world. As a child you are told sharing is caring. You are told to be honest, to give your best effort, to prepare and practice because this leads to perfection. You are taught that there are values, things like beauty, efficiency, functionality, power, virtue, morality, and that there are things that are bad like ugly, inefficiency, lack of function/usability, weakness, unethical, lacking in morals. You notice the majority of the world functions off of this and this is reinforced in business, movies, t.v. shows, and the general population. You are born into a world that chases the acquisition, and expression of these things. You notice that things hold universal value, but you have not yet realized that the value they hold is dependent on the opposite. You also realize if you are objective that the opportunity to acquire and express these things according to how the world currently defines them is not equal. You realize that discrimination is inherent in this world view and then you get pulled into how to alleviate this discrimination to create a more equal opportunity world. But as you continue down this path you discover that biologically we are not equal either according to this constructed paradigm the world has created and also additionally these biological differences are not by choice, but some how you are punished for it as if it was. Now this confuses you too, humanity fights over things like intelligence, competence, physical attractiveness of appearance, country/town of origin, who your family is, how much money you come from. Then you start noticing you even get judged for your past actions, even though many of your mistakes were either a result of ignorance or lack of competence which is the same as saying immaturity or lack of development. You really start to wonder...what the hell is going on? How do I make sense of this world, because strictly speaking this world seems....insane. Easy....self-honesty. But you reply this world it doesn't even stick to its own metrics, they told me when I was a kid that sharing was caring, and to be honest, to give my best effort, to practice and yada yada yada. But they do the opposite!!! But look, religion is telling me to do the things they told me as a child, maybe I'll join a religion!! So you join a religion and everything they say makes perfect sense!! You are like, yes if everyone just lived in alignment with this message all the world would get along smoothly. But then..you notice...the religions are doing the same thing!! They each claim their religion is the true religion and even within the congregation they have cliques, there is gossip, there is politics and hierarchy. So you leave the religion because they are a reflection of the current state of the world that you think is insane. So now you go to the study of history, psychology, sociology, you want to discover why things are the way they are and why you function the way you are. You get into self-development and make it your mission to develop your body as well as your mind. You struggle with your failures and beat yourself up over them. You watch yourself like a hawk, you become your greatest taskmaster, choosing goal after goal, building yourself. Every time you crash, fail an objective you take it personal and crash with it. But you rise again. You fall and you rise, like the rising and setting sun you pursue and pursue. As you go through this process you notice those around you don't have this same fervor, they lack passion. You judge them, you call them out, you see them as weak. But at the same time you don't want to be mean, you don't want to be a bully but you just want to help them improve. You realized that because you took the lessons everybody gave you seriously you were able to see the value in the virtues. You noticed that you were more resilient, and you had less fear. You realized that it takes strength to be honest, it takes strength to be accountable, to have integrity, and you wonder why people don't do this? You noticed that these ideals that society says everyone should aspire for, are the same ideals that religion preaches. So you get confused, you ask so if everybody is saying the same thing then why aren't they actually doing it? This creates a righteous anger within you, you seek to go out and correct this. As you push this against the world, the world pushes back at you. This keeps happening and you get confused. Then one day you do a job for the first time and you are a beginner. Everyone is impatient with you, they judge you, they ridicule you but you are honestly trying your best. They complain about you until finally you breakthrough and become competent, then you become a master and everyone loves you. When a new beginner comes into this job you are patient and kind and giving because you remember what it is like to be a beginner completely confused and as a result you have compassion for them. Through this process you learn, that anyone struggling to do something is struggling because they are a beginner. To a master who has forgotten what it is to be a beginner, the beginner looks like a fool. They look lazy, undisciplined, clumsy, and as a result they berate them and insult them. For most beginners this would make them give up, why try when everyone tells you that you will fail. Why try when nobody wants to help you. Well the secret is, if you persevere you can become a master and then be the change you want to see. You can be the master that helps all beginners become a master by offering them the help that was denied you. But you ask why don’t those masters realize this? Because they have not mastered being a master. A true master remembers what it was like to be a beginner. There goes that truth thing again….always combining/creating a union between two apparent opposites. Be the change you want to see in the world. Everybody complains about the world, but nobody wants to be the reflection that they wish to see. Everyone always looks for someone else to fix the problem, to be the change. So why is the world in its current shape? Because the motto of the world is do as I say, not as I do. Notice a message like this resonates. I have never had this message not resonate, it has resonated ABSOLUTELY!!! Everyone agrees, there only disagreement is, why me? HAHAHHAH. They say why do I have to do it, why not someone else.....and then they realize they are just passing the buck to someone else just like the world. You see? It's so simple. Now someone will say, I hear you if we all act according to our ideals then we can create an ideal world. But that would take too long and I may not live to see it. To which I would reply, there is a secret. You see God is that which hides in plain sight, so God hides the truth of what is going on in plain sight. What is strength? Strength is the courage to do the right thing regardless of the results. Why is it considered strength? Why is it considered courageous? It is considered that because the results look disadvantageous, like a waste of time. Because you are taught that your time is only properly used in the pursuit of individual self-aggrandizement, self elevation, self-illumination. The world teaches you that visibility, popularity is self-illumination. The world believes that power, status, popularity, is enlightenment. This is why the world acts this way. You will often hear someone promise to give you a strategy or "game" on how to get something. This is what the world thinks is value. But notice, value is based on limitation. But isn't it true you can only know your value through self-sacrifice? A master of something has to give its all in devotion towards something to master it. But only someone who has experience in what the master is doing can understand the value of the master's work. Once you become a master at something you understand all mastery. Because mastery is self-understanding, mastery is self-illumination, mastery is enlightenment. So you see the world is actually chasing enlightenment they are just at various stages of development. Now once someone has chased mastery enough, eventually they will come to a realization that they are not in control. How does this happen you say? By living a life so steeped in a belief in control and pursuing it with reckless abandon. Eventually your lack of control will become so apparent, that you will surrender. Now the problem is, you cannot cheat or skip steps. If you attempt to surrender before you are TRULY WILLING, that will end in failure no different than if you try to perform a task that you are unwilling to perform you cannot give your best, which is your ALL. You cannot surrender all, if you are unwilling. Are you getting it now? Self-Sacrifice is equal to maturity. Maturity cannot be forced!!! You cannot force a flower to grow faster. You can biologically design a flower to grow faster, but notice....it is written into its design. However something is, is what it is. It is, its own limit. THIS IS SELF-ACCEPTANCE!!! So notice, once you get tired of trying to control or change things and can accept them where they currently are, then you can do that not just with your human self but with the ALL. A master has nothing to prove anymore, why? Because the journey of his mastery and the fruit of his results is PROOF ENOUGH. He has learned the value of the total experience of his strengths and his weaknesses and the miracle of self-surprise, of the surprise present. When you pursue something with reckless abandon eventually exponential growth happens, growth that you did not expect. Through this you fall in love with yourself, and as you fall more and more in love with yourself the less love you need from others. As you investigate the life you lived and look at the confusion around you eventually you realize even more what is going. The pursuit of value teaches the lack of value, which makes all things equally value. Life is absolutely relative because everything is inter-defined, but this is something only a Master can know because he lived the journey of walking the path of self-truth, self-love, and is given the gift of clarity. Think about it, if a man masters something could he ever feel like he has no value? He proved to himself his value in his mastery. His value has become SELF-EVIDENT. This is why you CANNOT BULLSHIT LIFE!!! This is why they say you can only cheat yourself! If you lie, cheat, manipulate, you bar yourself from mastery, self-understanding, self-respect, and ultimately self-love. As a result you live in Hell!!! This is why life is PERFECT!!!! The Kingdom of God is within!!! If you work your hardest and someone tells you your slacking off, you cannot be fooled!! Only you know the truth of your inner experience, if you gave your all you cannot be fooled!!! Are you getting it? You can only have low self-esteem if you take on the low self-esteem of others. Live by your truth to the best of your abilities and you cannot have regrets. Regret nothing, but learn from mistakes. You can learn from the past, but you cannot regret a past that was true. If you gave your all then that was the limit of your actions at the time. If you held back at all then that was not your limit. So you see? If you don't give your all and someone calls you out on it, they are correct. But if you lie and say you did give your best, you now have created a FALSE LIMIT. This is how LIMITING BELIEFS ARE FORMED. You do not know your limits, you DISCOVER WHAT THEY ARE!!! Knowing your limits is like you at 5 years old predicting how tall you will grow to be. The same way you have no clue how tall your adult height will be is the same way you have no clue how or what heights you can reach when you pursue something. An Enlightened Master has lived a full honest life of self-expression. He listened to the teachings of every religion HONESTLY. He has learned the value of self-sacrifice so when it came time to face his death he could surrender contently because he lived a FULL LIFE. I only speak of my own experience. Humans look for the kingdom of God on the outside, not realizing that Self-Mastery, Self-Knowledge, Self-Acceptance is forged within. Once you master Masculinity, which is the pursuit of mastery through action, can you surrender to being, which is the recognition of mastery through inaction which is Femininity. The value of Being is Self-Realized through the Self-Realization of Action. This is how the paradox is resolved that Being and Action are one and the same. A man that is a master visibly is seen as beautiful. A woman who is beautiful in appearance is treated with the same reverence as a master for her appearance. So a man who is considered ugly in appearance but whose movements are masterful can be given the status of beauty because of his action. A woman who is considered beautiful in appearance but whose movements are clumsy is only given the status for her being. The issue is a woman given beauty but no adversity will sit on her laurels, no different than a man born to unearned riches. Seek to forge both inner and outer beauty by discovering the interconnectivity of the ugly and the beautiful, the short and the tall, the strong and the weak. When you can merge action and inaction/being= BEING. T:L:DR "I can tell you all day you have value but until you prove that to yourself it is a mere illusion."

In one sense this is true, because you are aware its a dream. But you can certainly discover more and more levels of why you constructed everything the way it is. So one awakening is oh I'm God I created everything, the rest is like answering all the dumb ass questions your baby self has...ummm Why? Why? Why? Why is this like this, Why is this like this, and you can do that forever.

Have you ever daydreamed while driving and have no clue how the hell you got home without paying attention? Notice if you try to do this on purpose you can't....but it can happen on its own. Ever sit down to write something and the words just came effortlessly? God in its infinite intelligence designed life on love. So of course you can't help but be love, so yes the "only things I love" is the truth of all of us. When we love something we are PULLED towards it. When we hate something we are PULLED away from it. Life has that push pull dynamic to it. It's why they say Love is magnetic. You can't force popularity, it just happens. It's why you can be the smartest person in the world, but if you live in a world that cannot speak your language you are all alone. So think if someone makes a goal to become the smartest person in the world and after they reach this goal the rest of the world cannot understand them, the only thing they can do is to become dumber which is the smartest thing they can do. If they don't they will actually be stupid. This is why the highest intelligence is always acceptance. This is how you can be so smart you are stupid. Instead of accepting you are smarter and figure out how to dumb things down you overly complicate it to SHOW OFF your intelligence. LOL. So funny. Insecurity is absolutely dumb even in the hands of a supremely smart individual. Security is the highest intelligence, and the dumb and the weak teach the strong that. You have never heard me say do not seek understanding, that is a bias which is self-hatred. All experience is self understanding whether you acknowledge it or not. If it appears it means it is fully accepted, only the ego is rejecting it which it must to create a perspective. The ego is LITERALLY REJECTION, SELF-DENIAL and it HAS TO BE THIS WAY to have a perspective. So only people who are SCARED OF THEIR EGO, preach the denial of understanding or knowing anything which is delusion. If I came at them with a chainsaw they would KNOW to move. A baby wouldn't because it has not yet LEARNED the truth of that experience that chainsaw to the arm will be a VERY BAD DAY!! LOL.

Yeah that is one way you can look at it certainly. But notice in that picture....nothing is being shared. The frame is the ONE. That's the point, you can experience it as other but it's not actually other. It's like walking into a bathroom but you see a different reflection that has its own personality different than your current human avatar. If you want you can trip and do this. Even better you can actually dissolve the boundary between other if you want and hear their thoughts no different than you hear your own thoughts. In fact I would challenge all of you who are brave enough to do that with someone, maybe that can be the proof you need if you dare.

^^^^ So first you claim you don't know, then you claim you know? You don't actually know. So what is the truth? The truth is it is Absolutely Solipsistic, but because it is Absolutely Free and Unlimited it can be however you hold it. So is it like the way you just said? Sure if that is the way you hold it. BUT!!!!! That boundary WILL COLLAPSE as all boundaries will collapse and when it collapses....there will only be, being. Anyone of you that have experienced ONENESS, you never found an OTHER. Any of you that have been to the void you never found other. Any of you who have gone into DEEP SLEEP you never found other. In fact if you want to believe in other, then you must view your body as other because your body is equally part of the scenery no different than other. Anyway the truth is you hate Absolute Solipsism/Oneness and that is why you resist it. But its fine Infinite of Gods doesn't negate Solipsism so if you want to look at it as Infinite of Gods go ahead. But Infinity of Gods is just a DEEPER FORM OF SOLIPSISM. Infinity of Gods says each person you meet is literally in their own separate reality, as such that is actually a greater form of isolation than the materialist paradigm. I noticed most don't realize that. In your rush to run from Solipsism you create a deeper form of it. Absolute Solipsism says everything is One. Infinity of Gods says everything is ONE but everything is a separate absolute dream within a dream. If you use that perspective then why only the humans? It would mean even a dust particle is a separate dream within a dream. If you want to view it that way its fine. Why? Because all dreams are Absolutely relative, so you can Absolutely form whatever relation you want to it. That is proof of unconditional love.

It's a temporary condition, you get it back after you give it all away.

No fair post when I correct Leo. LOL.

You can reach a point where your feelings are like clothes you wear. They are an expression of yourself but they are not yourself. Feelings only matter when you are trying to accomplish something, protect something, and heal something. For fun I recently did a deep dive into some dark moments in my childhood and an extremely large hole of pain emerged. When I discovered it I felt like a surgeon operating on a patient who was surprised some damage was still there. Look the emotional pains we feel are only as strong as the importance we give to the story. The whole point of awakening is being able to jump back and forth between personal and impersonal consciousness. I finally get what they mean by we fall asleep. Our true nature is impersonal, you really do forget this and fall into this deep personal belief about whatever and the pain and agony can really pull you in. But there is really a space there that unfortunately right now you think its nothing. But that nothing hilariously is what you actually are. You need to become aware of that space. How can you do it? Now this is not going to be something you like but it worked for me but it can be dangerous. I have done some emotional deep dives that has brought up repressed deep seeded emotions, and have become really good at sitting with them as they express themselves. It is truly amazing to realize you can have really painful emotions expressing and you can just watch them. You can start small, think of a small event that bothered you. Really focus on that until the pain of that event comes up, then sit with it. Allow it to express while sitting, feel if you can detect any space. The better you get at detecting that space, the less you can get pulled into that feeling. If you get really good at this, you will have broken your human identity. No longer can you get stuck in character, no longer can the voice in your head or other people tell you what you are. Hell even your feelings won't be able to tell you who you are because you realize...they are just a temporary expression that eventually fizzles out. Using music can help with this process also.

You know of him, the bits he has shared. That's all though. But with some discernment...you can extrapolate a lot. But nothing beats daily interaction to really get the devil in the details on a person.

LOL here are my references!!

Look at you out here giving away trade secrets. Man I wonder if they will catch on?

Any money you lend assume you are not going to get it back, otherwise don't lend any money at all. Why? Because you do not control people, and attempts to control people will always cause conflict. Nothing wrong with conflict, just be prepared for that. Global debt is the total amount of money owed by corporations, governments, and individuals around the world. In 2022, global debt was $305 trillion. In the first half of 2023, global debt fluctuated and then rose $10 trillion to a new record high of $307 trillion. ^^^Humans are not good at paying back money they borrow. LOL

^^^There are more than 5 senses you know. Be open to that possibility.

Because you are raised in a results-oriented world you have been told that if you don't know what to do you are confused. This is false. Not knowing what to do is just ignorance, which is just a lack of sufficient information. What confusion is, is thinking ignorance is confusion. So then you might ask okay then what is confusion? Confusion is believing you are going to always have sufficient information at hand to make a decision. Confusion is thinking you will always have the capability to go through life without having to make snap decisions without knowing if that was a smart decision or a foolish one. Confusion is thinking you can avoid mistakes. Confusion is just a denial of your own limitations. Once you can accept that no matter what you do ignorance will always be at play in some form or another then you actually cannot be confused. You will either be gravely ignorant or slightly ignorant but never confused. Your life is just a bunch of educated/informed guesses. Sometimes you guess right and sometimes you guess wrong according to which direction you are trying to go.

Okay well clarity I can help you with. I've made a post on Self-Honesty before. But now I have a question for you. Why are you doing Spirituality? You don't need to answer here if you are not comfortable because this isn't about any of us. You really need to dive deep and discover why you are doing Spirituality. Is it to find inner peace? Most people do it for that reason. If all you want is inner peace I can help you with that but ultimately you will have to discover it as I can only be a guide. There is also a long way and a direct way but the long way maybe be better for you and most people. Both paths will involve much pain and suffering, sadly my friend pain and suffering are an essential tool of the path. I'll give you an example, think of your attachments like a stove, now the stove is becoming hot but you don't want to let it go, so it burns you and burns you until you finally let it go. Then the stove disintegrates into nothing and you mourn the loss of it. ^^^^This is the path whether you take the longer version or the shorter version. I have realized for many of you the longer version is probably more beneficial. I'm in my 30's, I cannot imagine trying to wake up in your 20's. For me that would have not been beneficial for me, because I was so attached to meaning and purpose, so ambitious. You need to understand that this path is counter to ambition, counter to meaning. You are destroying all meaning, this WILL create deep suffering the more attached/personalized your story of your life is. This is why in my opinion you need to be satisfied with the life you have lived before you come to awaken. Any beliefs of I am missing out on other things etc, is going to stop you. You cannot awaken by force, this is the path of surrender. Also understand in my journey I didn't only listen to Leo, I had many people who came into my life and helped me along the path. Now understand that creating bliss is actually not hard, but it is counter intuitive. I discovered how to create bliss and I can share it with you in a private message but your masculine mind is not going to like it. In fact the biggest barrier to this process is your desire to be sane, pragmatic, and logical. Which is funny because that is the same mindset that causes wars, and all the other crap humans do. Anyway if you message me I will tell you how I discovered how to create bliss, but a warning...it will seem airy fairy, naive, child-like, romantic rubbish, and this is the very reason most men will never discover a deep connection within themselves or in their relationships. In fact its the demonization of this that prevents intimacy because the most intimate nature is our child like nature.

If we all agreed on everything perfectly= DEATH. Can't have that. When I became aware that conflict actually avoids death it blew my mind. Yes conflict can lead to death, but it's also an avoidance of death. How would you feel if you walked outside and everything you said and did....everyone agreed with? Then when you thought of something....someone said it out loud? It would completely destroy everything. This thing is so well done that even when you wake up it can pull you back in. I mean my sensory experience is that of duality and nonduality at the same time...and still if I got kidnapped and subjected to torture that would be one hellish experience for me. I have yet to master my consciousness to an extent to remove my awareness of all that pain. I admit I could still love them afterwards if they let me survive, but ummm I would avoid them like the plague and would have to spend some time working through that shit. But with that said it would depend what state of consciousness I was in, because at a high enough state that torture would feel like ecstasy. The Love of God is so powerful it can drive a human to suicide, its too seductive.

Is everything God's will? LOL. God speaks through every form. When you become a creator you realize truly in your direct experience, that the creator determines everything. Your life is like Stan Lee zooming into one of his characters asking what determines the outcome in the story. You are given the answer....and you don't like it. So you keep on questioning. Everything Stan Lee said is true for all of humanity. LOL. God has spoken!!! And he didn't need 5 MEO DMT this time!!! HAHAAAHA

Let's just say....the best grounding is nothing. If you ever find yourself in a hellish experience, you can ground yourself in nothingness. I don't disagree with anything you have said thus far because you have spoken truth obviously. But let's just say the point is to stop ourselves from falling too deep in the dream. It is wonderful to know that the safety valve is NOTHING. LOL, sounds so stupid to say considering what humans actually think nothing is.

It can be dangerous if you do not have a strong grounding. I've been posting NDE's of people experiencing Hell for a reason....your mind is one with Universal Mind. As such it is the strongest force/only force in existence. You can enter states that are otherworldly. In one sense you are not wrong that dangerous is an illusion, but God's ability to trick and delude itself is TOTAL. So if you are not properly grounded there is no limit to hellish experiences you can conjure up. Humbled the mess out of me when I discovered how strong the mind can be.

Its the best drug!!

Going somewhere IS THE ILLUSION. Its nothing, therefore nothing is going anywhere. Nowhere=nothing. You are so focused on distinction you aren't getting it. Whether you allow or don't allow doesn't really change anything. Perspective is just a game. That's all it is. It's a game that takes it self seriously because of fear of being uncomfortable and fear of annihilation. All your post was, was trying to come up with a better strategy. Think about this....all human strategy is a strategy about NOTHING!!!! Now tell me how that is not funny!!! This is why men don't understand the point of participation trophies...as they blow their brains out when they lost their jobs or their girl cheats on them and leaves them. Nothing=the ultimate value because it is the same as everything that could ever be. Only your divisive mind thinks something is actually superior.

You got it!!! Now that's wisdom right there talking!!! Look at wisdom thy name is Princess Arabia!!

Yes he understands. Always judge a teaching by self-love, for those who don't like the word love, you can replace it with care. You only pay attention to what you care about. You will only sacrifice and give your all for what you care about. You will only die for what you care about. So don't like the word love? Use the word care. You can only fight, kill, and survive, because you care. But the greatest care, is to care so much...that you don't care. Why? Because the greatest care is always at play so there is nothing to care about. LOL. Nothing to care about, so care about what you want.