Razard86

Do it long enough somebody will thank you. People only thank you when your post resonates with their paradigm. So the weirder you are the less resonance you will emit. Also if your message is not clear enough then people won't resonate with it either.

Every young kid experiences the world as alien. The running questions of why, how, what, and constant surprises is normal. What happens when you get older is you forget your childhood experience of not knowing anything. Nothing wrong with alien.

I got one for you, God can put itself into slavery. That is some scary authority.

Lol you got it, it's a construction, it's just done by an infinite intelligence so we call it real. It created emotions and physical pain to really sell it. Picture if humans could construct something even close to this.

For awhile dissociate from depressing emotions or thoughts. Always remember that the body and brain react on their own to things, but you have the ability to dissociate from it. You can also try to practice being okay feeling depressed. One of the things to look out for is toxic positivity. You don't have to feel good emotions to enjoy life. When I discovered I could feel fearful and secure at the same time it blew my mind. You are infinity, which means you are not some individual emotion and thoughts. You have the ability to receive emotions and thoughts and generate the opposite at the same time.

You know, you have a problem like many others with not understanding how to properly use the interpretation powers you have been given. Your discernment power is rusty. You have no proof for your sloppy interpretation that I have any obsession over a guru and if you actually questioned me I could easily debunk any of your shallow interpretations with proof that I don't have any obsessions. In fact I have too many examples I could use. The issue is you have a fear of being controlled and it distorts and corrupts your ability to make sense of reality so you see an obsession instead of me sharing. For example when you made that thread recently about a guru being a potential trap, I have written a thread about that long before. But here is something you don't understand.....everyone is your guru. You learned to walk by making the humans around you your guru and devoting your attention to them to learn how to walk. You did the same with writing and speaking. You used the reactions of human's around you to learn the social mannerisms and created a patterned form of expression to fit in your surrounding environment. Your entire life human civilization was your guru, and in many ways it still is even in spirituality. You are not just an individual, you are also part of a larger system of other humans and as a result must bend to the ways in some form or fashion (laws and cultural norms) or face execution. Oh and here is the thread I wrote in the past. Stop all this fear mongering, apprenticeship, school, life coaches, sports coaches, and gurus exist for a reason. There is wisdom in practicing what works, the secret is to not pedestalize or aggrandize the teacher which is the problem. Unless you want to be a fool and reinvent the wheel. By all means go learn from scratch how to create fire, and invent a wheel.

Nice, many people are unaware that weed can give you an experience of God, I use to wonder as a kid growing up why the Rastafarians smoked weed and after I ate an edible and awakened I realized why they did it. But here is a secret, you can retain the high. I ate an edible and tripped for 2 months and then manually brought down my high. If you want to know how let me know and I'll share it but it may impact your survival lol.

The ego is the character you play, the self you constructed. The roots of the conditioned responses are deep because they are held together by love. When conditioned love comes into contact with unconditional love, it will fight against the dissolution of itself as it must because it is constructed to do that very thing. In this thing we call life some changes take time to integrate and this is just one of the many examples of it. It's fun to ponder about it though.

Interesting NDE. https://www.nderf.org/Experiences/1gaby_d_ndes.html

The ego only wishes for the survival of all it identifies as good, and the destruction and the minimization of all that it deems bad. The ego is God with preferences, unaware that it is God. The crazy thing is, God doesn't have a point of view, because God is every point of view that could ever be. What God has...is TRUTH. There is a famous saying, there is your point of view, there is my point of view and then there is the truth. God's viewpoint= TRUTH. God knows the correct answer to every question. The correct answer is the truth. God knows every mistake that could ever be made by a limited intelligence, knowing the wrong answer and all possible wrong answers is the Truth. So to know both, is to know God which is why KNOWLEDGE, and BEING are one in the same. To know all of being, is to have all knowledge, but if you have all knowledge...there is nothing to do. The price of all knowledge and thus all power is the eradication of time, and space, and ultimately other. God has no friends, God has no relationships, until it created YOU!!

Other people are like your hand. Is your hand other to you? The only reason anybody holds onto other is a result of their inability to accept truth. Put your hand in front of you, notice the only reason you don't consider your hand other is because you feel the connection of your hand, and you feel like you can control it because it is completely predictable. If you break the boundary between self and other you will experience the same connection of your hand with other, and if you break it high enough you will be able to predict what other does. This is why the highest awakening is death to the individual self because your sense of a body expands to include everything. This is what it means to say you are everybody, everything is your body. When that happens you discover....there are no other POV. You need to hide this connection from yourself to experience an OTHER. You also need to make it tough to break, so you can't easily destroy duality and only destroy it if you really want too. When I see people on here keep pushing for other and reality not being a dream it shows me why corruption exists and why humanity cannot awaken. All of you who push these falsities no full well you don't have the answers, and are just speculating. When you hear the truth and judge it, you claim its false without an investigation, and those of you who were shown the truth rebuff in horror and deny it. The funny thing is you don't even need a psychedelic for proof. When you go to sleep at night, your individual self disappears, and so called others disappear, JUST LIKE IN A DREAM. So if they were permanent....why do they all disappear? Because they are not permanent. The strength of truth is it's integrity, and their integrity is not strong enough to remain when you go to sleep. If you were to go to sleep without dreaming and wake up in the void....all you would see is the void. You won't see a person, you won't see your body, all you would experience is everything there ever was and will be. Other is a trick of consciousness, no different than if your hand gained eye balls and a mouth and you couldn't feel it attached to your body. This is what it means when it is said you are talking to yourself. You are a virtual reality simulator that simulates a life, through the process of creating something out of nothing which is pure magic. Oh and one other pointer to Oneness. Your hand cannot grasp itself. It must either grow another hand or become something other than a hand (die and become something else) to perform that function which negates that point of the hand grasping the hand. Being can only grasp itself by becoming aware it is itself. So the hand can become aware that it is the hand, and thus the hand is grasped through self-recognition of what it is....Oh I'm a hand. But it can't grasp itself with the functionality of the hand. Because functionality is dualistic...and duality which is a splitter cannot unionize. Awareness is that which connects, that which unionizes. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=niDdVYrfsV0&ab_channel=ActualizedClips

God represents the collapse of all dualities. God is a singularity. All dualities are imagined, forged through the power of nonexistence, the power of annihilation, of destruction, constructs, carves the barriers we call separation. The ego represents Gods desire to experience other, instead of being other. The ego wants to possess other because it is not aware that it wants to become other. But if it becomes other, then it loses is separation and there is no other, so the ego perpetuates separation while desiring the opposite of it, As such the ego is a push pull, it pulls close and then pushes away with all of life, not aware that what it wants most it has demonized. God is that which consumes all things, because its nature is to be all things. If there is other God is only a part of itself. The creation of other is lowering of God's awareness of itself. God can never have other, because the moment it imagines other, it unifies it into itself. The issue is egos think other is a finite physical thing. It's not, physicality doesn't exist. Other is just a thought in God's mind. As such other is eternal and still exists whether it appears or not. So God can lose nothing, and God can gain nothing because the moment God imagines something to gain it consumes it into itself and becomes it. Duality is the only way God can experience a relationship/other, but it keeps this hidden from itself with the power of nonexistence/annihilation. This is why Absolute Truth is all that appears, nothing else. If it is not present in your experience, it doesn't exist in actuality, only as potentiality.

What triggered this awakening...do you know?

There is only existence. There is no other, other is a duality. There is an infinite singularity, which can have no other, and even if it were to imagine an other (which you are doing) it would be completely identical, thus proving to itself that it has no other. This singularity can only have an other by denying that it is one. Infinity of Gods is no different than just God. Infinity of Gods is not other, it is God imagining the possibility of other, but the moment it becomes aware of that it collapses again as all dualities must. Why? Because...there is no duality which is the same as saying, there is no other.

You don't need the posture in the video, that's some of that ritualistic stuff, just a posture that is open, honest, and secure/comfortable that fits your body expression. Also God is both your heart and mind, so while the words don't matter because God can't be confused by what you mean (no barrier God is literally you) the words do matter because each word is an expression of your intention. Each vocal expression, the pause, the inflection and deflection, the drop and rise in volume it all matters. In truth though you don't even need to speak! You can meditate in your heart on what bothers you most, and God will respond to your NEED. It's a good video all in all though. I like this video they made as well.

Congratz. Welcome to the first day of your life.

You can also just stare at this playlist long enough, and something....may happen.

The separation between now is the separation of knowing and being. This is the birth of logic, which needed to happen for a surprise present/future. If there was no separation between being and knowing being imagined you would know everything/be everything and there would be nothing.

I sit down on my couch and took a breather, as I needed to really let it sink in that my days as a nobody are coming to an end. I have always wondered what it was like to have fame, to struggle to live with barely any privacy, to be the topic of roundtable discussions in family and friend gatherings. Okay maybe I’m putting it on a little thick, I’m not a super star, but a material witness to a college student’s suicide influenced by one of the most famous Professors in the world who is being charged as contributing to the suicide like a Doctor Kevorkian is certainly no small feat and all I had to do was show up. It reminds me of a famous Woody Allen quote about how one of the keys to success is just showing up and while I do not think he would include this in his success bracket from a self-marketing perspective it works. If you want to be relatively famous just wake up and show up to the day I had. I decide to call my friend Steve Assurdo and tell him about what is happening and as soon as I get ready to dial his number my phone starts ringing…. it’s him. I pick up and as soon as I do…” WHAT THE HELL MAN?!!! I winced as the volume was already high on my phone and he nearly blew out an ear drum with that screaming. “Ouch man not so loud.” There was a slight pause then “My bad man, I just wanted to check on you because I saw your funny face plastered all over the news. It’s saying you saw some kid blow his brains out so I was checking to see if metaphorically your brains are still in place and didn’t fall out along with him.” I shook my head instinctively even though he wouldn’t see it since we didn’t video call, “ Hahahah you didn’t have to say it like that man, when he killed himself I didn’t die with him, although it did feel like a death of sorts, cause I have felt hollow and empty inside ever since he did that.” Steve laughed. “I bet you were like why the hell I wake up to see this shit!” I laughed right along with him” You read my mind.” Steve responded “You think this will make you interested in the medical field? Cut open some cadavers?” “Hell no,” I responded. “This makes me cringe even more that its somebody’s job to clean up our mess when we die. Like we did something we weren’t supposed to and the coroner’s job is to sneakily take us away for crossing the uncrossable line. Steve laughs again and says “Seriously? I thought this would make you more comfortable around death now that you seen it up close.” I thought about it and replied “Truthfully it did, I’m much more comfortable around death because I saw how instantaneous it can be. One second you are alive and emoting and vocalizing, the next second you are stiff and rigid and motionless. The boy was suffering a whole lot but death probably gave him the peace he desired.” Steve replied “Your lucky I got things to do right now otherwise I’d get on you for trying to sound all mature and introspective. I was just calling to check on you and see if you were fine and you seem okay.” I let out a sign “Steve I’m honestly all over the place. It’s like I’m an emotional paradox right now. I feel fear, calm, frustration, tranquility, acceptance, and confusion all at the same time.” The phone went dead just as I said that and I realized…I didn’t charge my phone. I took my phone and put it on the charger and the phone rang and this time it was my Mom. I ignored it, the phone was on 1% and I didn’t feel like being stuck stationary holding onto my phone while it was charging (the chord was going bad so movements caused the charge to go off sometimes) and I had already got out my desire to talk to somebody about what happened. I decided to go to sleep, it had been a long day and certainly it couldn’t get any worse right? In fact I’ve watched enough movies to know you never ask that question so now I’ll just assume it will get worse….at least I won’t be caught off guard when it happens.

Reality is a mental simulation

The secret is.....the I AM is also a dream, its a continuous dream of existence, and the I am not is the dream of non existence. You can say God is a continuous imagination.

Please don't turn this into PTSD. If you study PTSD, it is entirely based on how you choose to interpret an event, how you hold it in your mind. The reason PTSD is so hard to get rid of is based on how personal that interpretation is. The more fear, the more justification of evil involved, the more of the interpretation of the event being unfair/victimization the more difficult it is to shake off the event. So be careful, PTSD is not an inherent human condition like some illness, it is entirely created. I know I've purposefully experienced and even forcefully put myself in certain situations to test this theory and from my direct experience I was able to overcome intense fear through recontextualization and put things behind me. So be careful with how you are choosing to construct/interpret things.

No matter how spiritual you are, in this dream it takes money to get things done. There are things called bills. Your not going to meditate away your bills. So just because they say they aren't about money, doesn't mean they aren't going to charge money. The time they spend with you not charging you, is time losing money to pay their bills. Its why some Spiritual circles ask for donations, and if they don't get donations they end up having to close up shop. So either you ask for donations and get donations or you charge, it doesn't mean you are about money, if you want something different go climb a mountain and find a yogi and get trained and live in the mountains.

You jail break your mind, by your perception changing, your sense of self/awareness, expands out of your body to include your entire surrounding. To accomplish this you need something to overload the senses, psychedelics, sensory deprivation tank, kundalini yoga, etc. This breaks the dualistic perceptual system you have been indoctrinated into/brainwashed into/ which caused your neurological system to only point/focus on your physical body. When you jail break your mind, your sense of a ME, spills out of your head, it feels like the top of your head opened up and you become aware that reality is a mind, and you can interface with it directly. This proves to you that your thoughts, and emotions are linked to all that is and your human body is just a small part of a larger system and on closer investigation never had control to begin with. You can then start a new investigation into Will, and learn to align your Will with the flow of the natural intelligence you can feel. But you won't feel that flow unless you jailbreak your mind.

A darkness that is so dark, it cannot know it is there. It's so dark anything that exists is faded out from appearing, it engulfs all that is until there is nothing to know, A light so bright it cannot know lack of appearance, a light so bright it includes everything there ever was and will be until there is complete knowing, Then the resolution in the light that it is both all that is appearing, the light, and it is all that isn't the dark. The recognition that this light is so powerful that it exists even when it doesn't appear, The recognition of the dark that it's own lack of appearance is made visible because of the light, So darkness and light both exist and do not exist, and coexist simultaneously, This union is pure love, and the recognition of all possibilities in actuality. The darkest dark is God, is holy, is divine, The lightest light is profane, is mundane, The lightest light is holy and divine, and the darkest dark is profane and mundane. It is all things, but cannot experience unless it forgets, it must put itself a step behind, to generate itself a life. The show is to not know, but to seek to know, and then awaken and realize all is known. To recognize that its being is knowing, and that to have life, knowing must separate from being and create logic. Logic is being is prior to knowing, and starts behind, and thus creates a seeker to become one with being. But if it becomes ONE, there is nothing left, because it becomes the darkest dark where there is nothing, and it becomes the lightest light which is everything, and thus it cannot explore itself as past and future have disappeared. Now there is nothing to gain, and nothing to lose because it is everything and nothing.