Razard86

I applaud your raw honesty!! I once felt the way you have felt, in fact a lot of what you wrote has happened to me so I understand exactly how you feel. But a couple of things to respond... spirituality isn't B.S. it's the truth. How I found a way out of the pain you experienced is I first learned to love myself. The only opinion when it comes to you IS YOUR OPINION. If you cannot find a way to love yourself you are doomed to be miserable for your entire life. You are a loveable person, take joy in the thought that no matter how bad you want to be a devil you cannot. You cannot because you are conscious, you understand emotional pain at a HIGH level and as a result you do not wish that on anyone. How can someone who understands the depths of pain wish to inflict that on anyone else? This is proof of how loving you are!!! You are already on the path of Spirituality, Spirituality is the path of truth both personal and existential. It is about being honest with yourself and others and taking ownership, I'm talking EXTREME OWNERSHIP!! You are already walking that path ready you realize it or not. Your honesty is a breath of fresh air!!! Dig deeper, unravel more layers of pain, keep digging until you bring ALL OF IT to the surface. If you want fast results psychedelics can assist in that regard. You only heal when you use the raw honesty you are using now, tune into that. Spirituality teaches you to love yourself, to stop searching outward and focus inward, to take ownership for everything in your life, and as a result to acknowledge the value of your existence. You have no clue how important your life is to you.....until it is truly threatened to be taken from you. All your pain is an illusion that feels real, if you go through the Dark Night of the Soul process all this will be revealed to you. It gets worse before it gets better, keep on keeping on. I've been where you are, and it is totally worth it in the end!!!

The fact they are on this forum at all is denial itself. This forum is pretty spirituality dominated. They just made a thread on a website that is spirituality /consciousness focused and claimed that those who are in that path are miserable and how they themselves are less miserable. Projection- To put your inner state onto something outside of you. So because trying to walk the path of Spirituality isn't fulfilling for you, to avoid feeling negative feelings you claim the others who are pursuing it are somehow miserable and are just fooling themselves. The many games the ego plays..... I feel bad so I point at you and say you are bad. Now for the obvious response, to accuse me for pointing this out as me projecting or being somehow insecure or bad. Oh the wonderful games we play as humans. Instead of taking accountability for our actions, our thoughts, and emotions we continually point outwards in delusion a label something. You will then say that is exactly what you are doing, EXACTLY the only way to call someone out on something...is to recognize that trait IN YOURSELF. So anytime you become upset at something or someone....you are actually upset at yourself. Your entire life is a mirror, whenever you point your finger at something...you are pointing at yourself. The difference between me and you....I'm aware that as I write this message....I'm pointing at myself. LOL. i

Yeah a lot of virgin guys feel that way about a vagina until they penetrate it and then their entire perspective shifts and they can see the beauty in the vagina. You only feel this way because you are a virgin, the moment you lose your virginity (if it is a good experience) then you will see vaginas as pretty.

.......The ego is the greatest trickster....because even though it isn't real BOY does it feel real. I thank you for this thread because I was ruminating over the no self-concept and this thread reminded me of the power of the ego. 1. The ego does not exist. There is no self. What is the easiest way to understand this? Easy...we will use the example of you going to sleep. When you go to sleep you experience your dream usually from a first person perspective (sometimes I experience it from a third person but you get my point) and you IDENTIFY with that perspective as being YOU and everything else as being other. But when you wake up, you realize that it was ALL YOU. You dreamed and created EVERYTHING. 2. This is how reality works. You are DREAMING your LIFE. But because you have attached yourself to the current perspective you think that is you. As a result through that attachment you create a self or ego and thus you become who you are. Understand that ego always creates story. Ego is always engaged in activity. That the key to discovering yourself is in BEING. Being is stillness, not thinking, not emoting, not doing anything but just stillness. You do it long enough....and the dream will start to reveal itself every so slowly as a dream. 3. I thank you for this thread.....it reminded me of the illusion of ego as for some reason I was starting to forget.

Love is Union, but it goes deeper, Love is the embrace of all distinction into ONE. Essentially all distinction will eventually collapse into ONE and that is the definition of Love. Love DOES NOT SEE DISTINCTION. LOVE DOES NOT SEE DIFFERENCE. All love sees is itself, reflected back to itself. The further you are from absolute love, the more distinction you will see. And the further you are from love, the more you will play favorites with each distinction. To play with the dial analogy that Leo likes to use. As you raise in awareness you see less distinction until all distinction collapses and all you see and experience is ONE. Essentially from that perspective Feces would be equivalent to Pizza. This is kind of ridiculous....to think Love sees no difference. I know many have said it including me, but when you actually understand what that means. All distinction is illusion only Oneness actually is here. But the ability to turn your awareness down so you can actually experience distinction is the only way to enjoy this dream. If you deconstruct this dream too much....you will go insane, and see the truth, and the wool will be pulled from your eyes. How deep do you want to go in search of the truth.....because it may not be what you want to know....

1. I wish I could give you pointers. What I have constantly learned about giving advice....is that the advice only works if it speaks to you, if it resonates with you. The best I can say is remember that the phrase "I am that I am" is your reality in every moment. Words are spells, they are magic. You become whatever you think, or feel you are. Now the words themselves are not what creates the magic. Its what you believe from your heart to be true. I am sad is true when you believe it from the depths of your being. Once that happens your mind then goes to work to JUSTIFY why that belief is true. Understand feeling comes first...that feeling is Love, then as a result of Love, Truth comes into existence. (Of course my understanding and interpretation is dualistic in reality they exist simultaneously and always have but I need to illustrate it this way). So if you can learn to navigate your feelings and learn how to guide them toward something EMPOWERING, then you can say... I feel good Take conscious control of your feelings. You can choose your feelings....you just need to go through the process of making the decision every day to construct yourself into the person you want to be... PIECE BY PIECE. Understand that every pain you feel....is illusionary even though it feels real. So as you feel pain tell yourself, I SEE THE ILLUSION FOR WHAT IT IS. Process the pain if you must....but don't dwell in it. YOU ARE THE GREAT I AM!!! YOU CAN CHOOSE TO BE THE SAD I AM, OR THE GREAT I AM IN EVERY MOMENT!!! This guy did a great job of explaining what I learned through my awakening.

Good idea... nice suggestion!!!

Based on what you have written....the nice guy syndrome is definitely NOT your problem. Your issue is just you are trying to figure out how you want to change. That's it. You are just going through a transitional period which means you are growing and maturing and you are trying to figure out what image or persona you want to create. All we can do at this point is give suggestions but ultimately it will be you that chooses what you want. Instead of suggestions I will ask some questions to get the screws winding around in your head. 1. What type of relationship goal do you have? Monogamous Marriage, life partners? Poly? 2. What type of sexual relationship do you want with your partner? Frequent sex? Tame? Exploratory? 3. Do you want kids? 4. If you want kids do you want your wife to stay at home or work and you guys hire a babysitter? Questions Questions. This should get the gears turning in your head.

Its not too radical, its very simple actually. If you see everyone as YOU, then why would you harm them? Why would you judge them? THEY ARE YOU!! Morality creates unrealistic expectations. And whenever you fall short in words, thoughts or deeds you are deemed unworthy. The fact that you believe in morality means you deem others and yourself unworthy. This causes you and others to creates distortions or shadow aspects of yourself. Again morality is a trap, one of the greatest traps actually and is the cause of so many people walking around angry. Ever heard of righteous anger? Righteous anger is born out of morality and is literally the most hypocritical thing. In the words of Jesus "He who is without sin cast the first stone." You cannot judge the imperfection of others if you yourself are imperfect. If you lie, you are just a couple degrees from thievery, if you steal, you are just a couple degrees from murder, if you try to control other people you have become a rapist, as rape is not just physical, it is also mental and emotional. For example slavery is rape, it is forcing yourself upon someone against their will. So violence is rape, bullying is rape. We all have committed evil just in various degrees and then we think we have the right to judge someone? It is so hilarious!!!! and so hypocritical!!! Even worse the irony is everything you see and experience IS YOU!!! So you are just judging yourself!! And what does that accomplish? It accomplishes absolutely nothing. So again I say to you....Morality is a trap. If you engage in morality you are choosing to be a devil, and that is fine...be a devil if you want!!!

I found a video where Jordan Peterson talks about doing Kundalini Yoga....I never knew he did that.... Anyway I think as a result there may be hope for him yet. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s-YYpKnRgcQ&list=PLimK6clJHdM2Rf1ZYfYQqAhd2YrNZ_prA&index=2 I think this video is important because it reveals something a lot of people do not realize.....life's true nature is insanity. Sanity is just another illusion, the closer you get to the deepest most hidden truths the deeper you will go in losing your touch with reality. As they say the true nature of reality is that it is groundless, so any grounding you have is due to you being sane. You cannot dabble with the true nature of reality and not become groundless yourself, basically your understanding of reality becomes groundless and infinite and if that happens and you KNOW IT TO BE TRUE at THAT EXACT MOMENT you will be SUCKED OUT OF REALITY. The secret to reality is that you are only able to stay in this dream because you have a series of beliefs that you (KNOW to be true, yes your belief is so strong it reaches the level of knowing) hold so strongly that ground you here. You could literally leave this dimension if someone or something could cause you to KNOW a different reality emotionally....then LITERALLY everything will shatter and collapse into an infinite singularity. If you take a psyadelic or have enough mystical experiences you will discover this. I lost my mind a week ago and experienced this and discovered I had to tell myself lies to STAY HERE. Its really quite amazing that God must lie to itself to exist in this 3Dimensional dream. Really funny if you ask me. Your entire life...IS A GAME OF PRETEND THAT YOU PLAY WITH YOURSELF!!! HAHHAHAHAH so funny. Anyway Jordan Peterson is obviously far from this realization but he is certainly on his way.....

Great post!!! You are on to something great!!! One of my lessons my True Self told me was to be more emotional and be more playful. Playfullness is actually one of the paths of Yoga. Sadhguru talks about this.

Morality is a trap. Morality judges.... and judgment is not of God, only Satan/Devil/Ego judges. So if you use morality as a map of life you will just be a devil and will judge yourself and others.

Ummm sorry to inform you.... mushrooms are a catalyst.... the one doing the mind fucking is YOU. Your true self just wants to reveal itself to you but you won't let it. So when you take a mushroom and relax.... your true self is like FINALLY I CAN SHOW YOU A GLIMPSE OF WHAT YOU TRULY ARE!!! And the games begin!!!! You do it too much....and you may awaken your kundalini.

What do you guys think of this video?

I agree that you can certainly use the concept of Satan to describe distinction. But the truth is the narrator in your head your entire life, the voice you use to think that speculates, and analyzes, and crafts stories and perspectives and opinions....THAT IS SATAN. So yeah you have had a intimate relationship with Satan your entire life.

I do agree with everything but one part....there is one part where Your Higher Self becomes forceful.....when you activate the Dark Night of the Soul Process. That was the only time my Higher Self was forceful with me.

Hey Leo I wanted to respond to something in your latest video. The fastest way to raise your baseline consciousness is to release your kundalini energy that is stored in the base of your spine. Without a psychedelic I can reach mystical states of consciousness if I clear my chakras, (I found a guy who gave me a good morning routine to follow using kriya yoga) once I complete it. All I have to do is be in a state of love, gratitude, you can do this by listening to videos or music that speaks of this. Ironically your consciousness video raises my vibrations also so your own content does it as well. Anyway at this point all you have to do is meditate and focus and then the energy will go up all your chakras and then divine energy will reach your crown and you will instantly have access to higher states of consciousness. If you use a psychedelic while in this state....it will supercharge it even further (I'm not doing that but you are welcome to try). I released my kundalini by accident, I didn't even know if chakras and all that stuff was real until after taking mushrooms it was revealed that they were. Now to accomplish this once you release your kundalini it will put you through the dark knight of the soul and it will put you through hallucination after hallucination. I remember you did a video where you discussed (Hallucinogen persisting perception disorder) I can tell you the truth about that one. All that disorder is, is people who are running from the Dark Night of the Soul Process. That Process forces you to DIE IN YOUR MIND OVER AND OVER to release limiting beliefs and blocks inside you. After you overcome that the energy flows throughout your body getting rid of any other impurities and slowly it dies down and only raises when you are in a loving state. It is a VERY tough ordeal though, if you are not careful apparently it can fry your nervous system. It didn't happen to me but I am more emotionally stable than most. It was the most difficult and horrifying best thing that ever happened to me. But I can definitely see how it can be traumatizing for most people.

I do it from time to time Leo....but when it hits you, it HITS YOU!!! I don't know if my consciousness has ever risen as high as yours as mine came from the combination of mushrooms, edibles, and a car accident that put me near death. My consciousness skyrocketed so high I felt several times like I would dissolve into the ONE and leave this dream state. But thanks I will remind myself of what you said.

Amazing post and absolutely true. We don't see reality as it is, we see reality as WE ARE. Great post!!! I am glad you noticed what you noticed!!!

How do you deal with the feeling of being so small in comparison to the divine power? I have been able to process it but it is a very slow day to day process. And thanks for the warning, I really appreciate it.

Lol you triggered this within me with your most recent video. Also Leo....I actually deconstructed reality so much...that reality collapsed...I had to enter a psych ward to regain my footing in reality. I found out that a lot of people in this psych wards....did the same thing...they deconstructed reality in their own way. Now some are just low consciousness who saw the seams of reality through drug abuse or bodily harm (The closer your body gets to its demise the more of the mystical nature of reality is revealed) but some actually intuitively knew the mystical aspect of reality. When I was there I was basically learning about certain things like how based on your level of consciousness your perception changes, i.e. me and you can look at something and see TOTALLY different things. For example I could see a man with an angry face shaking his fist at me and you could see a calm man smiling waving for you to come over....this literally floored me. Your state of consciousness influences the reality you experience when it comes to people!!! The truth is very scary!!!! I'm going to pace myself....

The idea came to me watching Leo's most recent video about Consciousness. I think that video is so potent it will drive you insane because he is so directly pointing you at the truth more than any other speaker of Consciousness I have ever come across. My vibration literally went to divine levels just watching that video. Its a powerful video, in fact its the most powerful video I have ever watched....and I haven't even completed it. Go watch it if you think you are ready and REALLY think and visualize what he is saying.

All science and technology that actually functions is gained through intuition. You don't know this because you are not conscious of it. In the words of Nikola Tesla. "“My brain is only a receiver, in the Universe there is a core from which we obtain knowledge, strength and inspiration. I have not penetrated into the secrets of this core, but I know that it exists.” Its fine, one day you will learn the truth.

When people refer to spirit they are talking about what is behind the veil of the dream. The dream obviously itself is also spirit because there is only spirit and any separation we create to explain. There is no understanding without distinction, there is no experience without distinction. So we create all distinction so we can learn. The only true statement is everything is ONE. That ONE is infinite, and it is LOVE. That's it. Anything that diverges from this is just a relative truth which means it has some truth but also some falsity to it as well. It's hard for us to grasp this because everything we experience is distinct and separate. Its why the highest form of knowledge is Intuitive. Whenever the truth is presented to you, you can feel when it is true and cannot explain why. It is because the highest truths cannot be explained. Can we really explain Non-Duality in its entirety? No. All we can do is use simply generalizations and that's it. Everything is One is the highest truth along with Everything is Love. But any attempts to explain it will just be mere attempts. It cannot ever truly be spoken, it can however be experienced and felt.

The irony of this entire thread. He said why did God make this hellhole....and yet me reading all the responses to this thread...all the variations...was literally heaven!!! Without variety, without contrast, there is no meaning. The distinction, the hate, the greed, the pain, the pleasure, the love, the holy, it all creates the unpredictable, the brand new day. All of these infinite loops are amazing, and unique. Here is a secret you may not realize....words are magic spells powered by love. Its one of the greatest secrets out there, raise your consciousness and you will notice this. So tell me....how is something a hell hole when by your choice you can CHOOSE to make it heaven or hell? If you live in hell its because you have CHOSEN that for yourself. Remember words are magic spells, so by your thoughts, emotions, and words you CREATE your reality. Don't react to your environment....consciously create it by speaking and feeling the reality in the present that you want. It takes discipline and practice but if you do it you will get it....or you can just unconsciously create your reality through reaction and live in hell. YOUR CHOICE!!! Choice by the way is HEAVEN, and Heaven is LOVE!!