Razard86

Yes we are both looking at our own reflection, our own image, our own imagination.

So I clicked on this video clip and it talked about a concept that literally resonates with my current situation. On the one hand I have become cognizant of the realization that all meaning, and purpose is just the projection of the ego and that any pursuit in that direction is just folly at this point as an infinite number of variables are always at play so any meaning we are deriving is complete and utter delusion. But recently in my personal experiences with people I have had interactions in which their attachment to meaning and purpose creates a divide between me and them. I have found liberation in the recognition that all meaning and purpose is projection, and it allows me to see with a clear view every situation but now I find myself in a pickle of sorts. You see....I have now learned how to deconstruct all meaning and purpose effortlessly and I constantly walk around and do that. When I interact with those I am close too and they ask my advice on anything...I am both able to validate their perspective while simultaneously showing them how it is just something they are projecting and compared to the absolute has no meaning and purpose. This causes their ego...pain. So now I am wondering...if this is in alignment with my desire to align myself with Reality. It is my interpretation that meeting each POV where it is at, is a proper expression of Infinite Love. Now obviously this interpretation is projection and ego, but it is one I believe....from my POV can allow me to live in accordance with my selfish desire to be in alignment with Infinite Love. If I am to take on the task of living a life in accordance with Infinite Love, I will master learning how relate to others at their POV. I realized that I am too in love with my POV, that it makes me impose my POV and basically this is like a default function that executes on autopilot. My arrogance is displayed through each communication as I am totally in love with my perspective. Of course I am, it took years to build this POV, and when I interact with others who have not taken such care who don't spend time really trying to expand their POV it creates resistance in me. Here is the clip by the way. My main issue I realize is....there is a resistance to engage with different POV on an emotional level. I can easily interact on a logical level, but I notice that different POV's desire for me to connect with them on the emotional level which is something I resist heavily. You see emotions...are very sticky. Different POV do not understand that to ask one to engage on that level....is equivalent to death. Each time you unite and become in synch with a POV....your POV needs to die. So the resistance that exists in each POV to connecting with any POV is the fear of annihilation. Many POV do not realize how selfish it is to pressure a POV to agree or submit to their POV. You are asking for the death of that POV. All egos are constantly unconsciously going around trying to kill each other lol. They do it on all levels, physically, emotionally, and intellectually. When you become aware of this you avoid this game...but its funny....the game....tries to pull you back in. Its like no matter what you do....this death seeks you out. Reality is going to kill you many times....throughout your avatar's life. Its pretty interesting when you notice this trend. This cycle of division and unity is going to continue forever and ever.....

I didn't know about this, so thought I would share this. It popped up on my feed.

^^Well this is true to an extent Leo. A more accurate description is you can't bullshit Reality because it is you. So if you are watching cartoons and eating pizza but you have a deep desire to get moving but are full of fear and ignorance....reality will allow events to unfold to get you moving. It meets you where you are at. Now if you are bullshitting yourself and actually don't want to take action....nothing along those lines will appear for you. So while you do need some courage, reality knows if you really want truth/love and based on your level of fear versus desire it will guide you towards it. This has been my experience, it gives you events equivalent to your level of courage, and sometimes might give you tense events sometimes you think you cannot handle (you can) and in retrospect you realize that event was at the exact limit you were capable of handling which might have felt terrifying at the time. But all in all, reality is your slave and gives you the desires of your heart, but are you open to the experience....because..ITS A TRIP!!!

^^This. But I completely get the desire. I would say you can write about it publicly, post some videos on Youtube, and if you hear some people are into Spirituality you can ask them about their beliefs and what they know. You could then offer if they are open to going deeper, but also with the caveat of the dangers of going deeper. If they are not open to it fine, if they are....which most are deluding themselves that they are open to going deep then you can proceed but proceed with caution. Most people I have come across do not understand that Spirituality= Death....the actual legit experience of the end of your life to discover that you are actually dead and alive right now. But you have to actually experience what that actually feels like....to truly be able to accept it.

Look at how these two celebrities...are discussing how maybe its time to address feelings, and deconstruction, and construction. I wasn't even looking for this it just fell into my lap.

https://www.bodyandsoul.com.au/mind-body/comparison-is-the-thief-of-joy-a-psychologist-explains-how-to-stop-doing-it/news-story/e4ff079b144d743427305efa37c0d1f5

Yep. Also read this.....they say Steve Jobs may have written it before his death. Its funny how every rich person I have ever studied....realizes the same thing lol. So funny. https://equalman.com/steve-jobs-last-words/

Its definitely interesting.

When the knowledge of ME drops (Good and Evil) then all that is left is unfiltered love. Your natural expression of love. Your love has been conditioned, and your entire life has been a silent rebellion of that conditioning. Every time you conform, it feels fake, inauthentic, and meaningless. You are confused!!! You live in a society that creates so much meaning....but it all feels inauthentic!! As if they are SELLING YOU A STORY!!! Your society is so agenda based!!! Always asking you to do for it, but it always asks....should I really do for you? Think of society as your romantic partner. Do you sacrifice for it? Do you give your all to it? Do you feel it does the same for you? If it doesn't....should you really be in a relationship with it? Should you let society tell you whether you are smart, pretty, and valuable? Ask yourself if your personal relationships....are they identical to what you think society is? Is your worldview....just the reflection of your personal relationships.....are your personal relationships....just reflective of your own personal opinions of "you." What is "you?" Is it your backstory? Is it your pain? Is it your successes? Is it all of those things? If I wiped all of your memory right now....would "you" still be there? Are you just a bunch of memories? Or are you that which houses everything? Maybe you are just addicted to those memories...so much that you have become them!!! Maybe you are too far into character, like an actor on a movie set who can't let go..... You want to experience variety, you want to experience everything....that is what runs your life. But you are also scared of everything as well....that too runs your life. So you bounce around back and forth....but you want everything...EVERYTHING!!! BECAUSE YOU ARE EVERYTHING!!! When the ME drops....that is what you realize...you are everything...so there is nothing to obtain. Can you obtain your body? Can you obtain your memories? How can you OBTAIN what you are? So many chase after a man or a woman.....its like looking at a mirror and trying to obtain the reflection. YOU ARE LOOKING AT YOU!!! Once your belief in a ME drops, a belief in being a person.....then you GET THE LOVE YOU BEEN DENYING YOURSELF!!

^^^This!!! You got it!!! I am so happy to hear that some are getting it. Awakening is just escape from a false identity, which allows you to see it for what it is. You can still love and cherish it, while also realizing that it isn't you. It is your creation, this is freedom, this also frees you up to love all of your creation now since you realize you are immortal and that all of creation is equal to what you thought was self. The reason that self isn't you, is because all of creation is you. So beautiful when this is recognized...you get the peace that passes all understanding....what Allan Watts likes to call "phew." Because you realize...everything is alright. There are no problems....you just create problems through interpretation.

The storm before the calm, the darkness before the light. I know a lot people have had strained relationships, have painful memories, and are so sure that things cannot get better. But look around you, there is joy, there is love....go find it for yourself. I know its scary, I know its painful, but its waiting for you!!!

You believe you are stuck, you are not stuck. Go take 5 MEO DMT....and you will exit. You can then stay there for all of eternity....but then you will probably decide to come back. So go take 5 MEO DMT....and let me know how it goes for you. All this belief in time and being stuck....will be seen for the illusion it is. Also yes I enjoy this illusion. Once you realize what is going on...how could you NOT enjoy it? Its absolutely wonderful. THANK YOU FOR CREATING ME!!! I am honored.

Yes its guiding you towards growth but all growth is illusion. The only growth it is guiding you on is towards infinite love. Its a game you can't fail because at the end of the dream....you go infinite. So....you literally can't fail at life...but you could....make a nightmare. So you also placed awakening as a way to escape the nightmare....but that would take you overcoming fear to even accomplish that. This game is won when you become impartial. If you can love all of life equally then you have reached balance. So that means you cannot be afraid to die, so you won't experience life through the lense of fear. Instead you are able to be open to every experience. Since life is just your own subconscious thoughts and your avatar is itself a thought....your life is just you thinking and traveling through your own mind/exploring. Its a hologram. Everywhere you go.....there you are.

I also invite you, not to create a false world as well.....or maybe....just maybe....you are ME and I AM YOU....so how does a false world exists...if it did...how are we communicating right now? Could it be we are in the same world and you are calling me and my interpretations FALSE.....but they are just your own thoughts that you have disassociated from? You are looking at a mirror right now, and these are your own thoughts communicating to you. You created me!!!! And you don't like what your creation is telling you!!! But since whatever you create is also 100 percent you!!! Everything you just wrote...is how you feel about yourself!!! Maybe...you should follow your own advice....after all you are just talking to yourself.

Nice go for it!!! A Construct Awareness board game would be fire!!!

As you walk the Spiritual Path, if you are very logical you will have to eventually drop that attachment and start to get in touch with your more intuitive side. Now in your life you have always been using it, in fact your intuition has guided your entire life and you have actually only deluded yourself that you were logical in the first place. Your intuitive side is the feeling part, the part that led you to express yourself a certain way based on how you felt and you only used logic to justify that expression. Now how you can use feeling to discover or figure yourself out, is anytime an event happens and you respond focus on your feeling and identity....is it fear, is it anger, is it joy etc.. Then ask....is this emotion out of protection, defensiveness, is it out of pursuit of trying to aggressively obtain or control something? By checking in the moment or slightly afterward often you can become aware of the motivations behind your feelings. This will allow you to learn the causes of certain emotions (the beliefs that trigger this feeling) and give you a greater understanding of your ego and its patterns. This will show you more and more how your entire life is just run on feelings, and you weaponize logic to defend these feelings. The delusion is pretty masterful if you have no desire to deconstruct it. It amazes me how even when you reveal to one through their own logic, that their beliefs are wrong....they can look you in the eye and defy their logic and convince themselves that their beliefs hold true....even when you just showed them it doesn't. This reveals....that you were never logical....you are feelings, that is your truth. That feeling is LOVE, and that is what runs you and everything in existence. The only truth is love, the only truth is your feelings. The only way to reach the truth...is to overcome your fear/feelings, and you overcome it not by fear, but by accepting it and allowing it to express itself without judgment. The only thing that holds you back from truth is fear/judgment....that is the only culprit. As humanity inches closer to closer to truth (they are getting really close) the fear will increase, which means judgment is going to increase as well. Think of humanity getting ready for a massive bad trip, they are going to collectively have to face their own judgment. The game of reality...is just a path of facing your own judgments until you get tired of judging yourself. Once you do, you die and are reborn. Then the process to embody this is to keep dying and being reborn....until you no longer judge. Judgment is delusion, judgment is sleep, judgment is ego, judgment is fear, judgment is imprisonment, dissolution of all judgment is liberation and full acceptance of yourself. God realization is the full acceptance of your avatar, which is the symbol of your life. Others are just your subconscious judgments against your avatar. This game's theme is to learn to love your avatar fully and completely, at the level you can love your avatar, is the level you can love all the avatars you see. Once this is accomplished...all fear falls away and you are finally able to give all of your self....love.

Lol great reply...caught me off guard!!! Just like that climax will at the end of the dream!!!!

^^^This!!! Absolutely THIS!!! This is the only message...everything else is just distractions. The whole point of awakening....is to realize everything is you. If everything is you....what is the problem? But the funny thing is....you love problems!!! Problems are juicy!!! That is why every great movie, book, has trials and tribulations for the hero to overcome!!! Who doesn't enjoy a good story? The only issue is....if the story stops being an illusion and you think it is REAL!!! I know about this guy I came across him around January of this year. I recognize him as an interesting story character.

I'll just interpret your whole response as "Do what thou wilt."

Thanks and yes Love is the most powerful force indeed. Its so powerful it is awe inspiring, frightening, and beautiful.

^ I am not a man on earth and that is not a fact. Facts are also imaginary. You are attempting to force your delusions onto me. Just like how most of POVs do. Measurement is also imaginary, which your imaginary science has already proved. They proved that all measurement is imaginary. They also proved your precious free will is imaginary as well. All your points have already been debunked by your so called facts, which reveal you just are not open to truth and just want delusions. That is fine, enjoy your delusions you have that right. Also everything that has just happened...including this interaction...is all completely imaginary and you are dreaming.

I was talking to a friend of mine about their recent trip on 5 MEO and more about the integration of the trips into the relative and he pointed to me an old video of Leo's video with Martin Ball. He told me there are some hidden gold mines in that video that talk about the energetic aspect of reality and how the ego expresses it. Really interesting video. I watched this awhile ago but the lens I have now is much different than before. This link starts where they have the discussion but you can just watch the whole video from start to finish if you want too as well. Best of luck!!

Exactly.

Very beautiful picture.