Razard86

This Video is very applicable to Spirituality ( everything ultimately is but this is a nice juicy one) Life is just a game of identities that are constantly coming into contact with each other. Well this video has an interesting framework on how some story writers write their character profiles. Watch, and post if you want which one you think best describes you!!!

This right here ^. I have recently went through some personal hardships and my lack of fear of death is actually getting me through it. I have reached a state where I don't care either way and it makes panic....impossible. Panic only exists when you avoid either physical pain, emotional pain, or death. If you can accept all three (physical pain would be one of my weaknesses) but I can deal with emotional pain and death that would be the level I would suffer at. The path is all about facing these three and then you will be liberated. Its all an illusion at the end of the day, and its an illusion of your own making. You also both have free will/ and don't at the same time. The will of the universe is unconditional love, if you align yourself with that....then you won't suffer. At the level of resistance you have with unconditional love is the level of suffering. Give up rational thought, and focus on realizing that the present moment IS DEATH, the PRESENT MOMENT IS WHAT YOU ARE, THE PRESENT MOMENT is UNCONDITIONAL LOVE. Stop resisting, and feel into the present moment then you will realize, just maybe....THAT you are actually controlling everything around you. EVERY SINGLE THING. Everything is connected to you, you are even controlling me right now typing this comment. The ego is the filter that infinity is expressed, but the ego is just self imposed limits of the SELF. As you blink, breathe, grow your hair, grow your fingernails, the same mechanism that controls ALL THAT, is the same mechanism that is controlling the entire universe and all life forms, even that alien that Leo APPARENTLY became lol. Its all you, there is NO OTHER. So as long as you PLAY the victim role...that is the role you will suffer.

Holykael is just a reflection of infinity. Holykael= the part of infinity that gets lost deep in its dream and refuses to lay down its cross and realize its true nature. Until this is done, more torturing and suffering awaits and this will go on until this perspective/story collapses for the illusion that it is. Even the name gives it away. Holy= Divine. Kael= narrow. The Divine Narrow perspective which would be bias, and would be suffering. Its all as it should be.

Even that is a story, infinity can also imagine unconsciousness. ^This is more story. Only a bias would create meaning. All meaning is bias. So in one sense you are correct nothing is meaningless, but your statement suggests there is meaning to be found. There is none. Meaning is the creation of a bias mind. Which is obviously done out of love, but a bias limited love. Unconditional love= no distinction, no bias, no identity, no meaning, perfect balance, and as a result no meaning. Which is synonymous with love.

Reality is a story that tells itself a story. The End.

Its so funny....it is so obvious...how could I NOT SEE IT!!!! God realization....is learning to love your Avatar......UNCONDITIONALLY!!! Its the greatest love story because your entire life you are judging yourself unworthy.....and life is just your mirror of your own personal judgments against yourself. The day you can love your personal avatar......unconditionally...then you will be in heaven. Your hell....is your belief that you are something to be fixed, improved, worked upon, it is so hilariously OBVIOUS!! You created a character, created a sense of separation, and then created others to JUDGE YOU. Then you spend your entire life judging yourself until eventually you start running around trying to find ways to FORCE yourself to accept yourself. Life/Reality, is trying to teach you.....to drop all judgment of yourself. Once you can do that....all selfishness will disappear, all concept of good and bad, will disappear and you will realize you are in heaven. You are only in hell because YOU are bad company with yourself. Because had you loved yourself....how could you ever be in Hell when everything IS YOU!!! What a wonderful lesson for God to learn.....how to love and accept itself!!!! So cool!!! Such a cool story!!!

That's the thing....there aren't any traps either. True God Realization is that everything is just a story. Even God Realization itself is a story. How can God REALIZE what it already was? How can infinity which is already complete.....do anything? Nothing has ever happened and will ever happen. As a result everything that is ever discussed, or done....is just a story. That's it. Reality/God/ is just a story that tells itself a story. Nothing is just appearing as Something to forget that its Nothing. Why? Because that Nothing is so in love. Unconditional Love has no meaning or purpose, it just is. Which makes perfect sense because an infinite nothing has nothing to obtain, so why not appear as something just for the act itself. Once all distinctions fall away, there is nothing left. So God realization is the realization that nothing is left. Anything beyond that is just another story that nothing/God/Unconditional Love/ is creating. There are no awakenings, there are no realizations, there are no traps, there is always nothing appearing as something. I've already had an experience on an edible where I saw that the universe is always in sync. When I move the entire universe moves, the universe is ALWAYS in sync at ALL TIMES. This is what no self is, there is no free will, there is only an ILLUSION of free will. Everything is ALWAYS perfectly in sync. What infinity does, is it add a layer of illusion over this perfect balance to create an ILLUSION of separation. It also limits the avatar to only feeling a limited connection so it cannot be aware through both feeling and other perceptions that it is completely one already. There are layers and layers of illusion overlaid to create every distinction you see, and then your mind creates even more distinctions with labels and words and attempts at more meaning. If you let go of all distinctions, all stories....then all that remains is nothing. So ANY attempts to search for more meaning/stories is not God Realization, its just attempts to anchor the dream ever more.

Holykael is talented for turning truth into the most horrific thing in the universe. I am all alone with myself and I am fucking mad and want to live a life of misery and I have no choice or say in the matter. I'm glad you (which is me) didn't say reality is absolute goodness because such cruelty cannot be good. There is no difference between anything but God (which is me) imagines a difference through the sense and feel so this is a pointless statement. Holykael your statement had so many contradictions I just had to fix it for you.

As long as it is housed in the subconscious it happened. It would have to be either dropped or recontextualized.

Once upon a time Zeroguy stated that there was distinction between stories and direct experience which is not true since stories and direct experience are one. Direct experience is needed for a story, and a story is in direct experience. Even the lack of direct experience is itself a story. All there is....is story. Zeroguy expressed this by saying "You mixed stories for direct experience which is raw, without a need for a story." Zeroguy denies the existence of story....while communicating a story, WITHIN A STORY. Which is literally...a contradiction, a paradox and proof of infinity. Will Zeroguy continue to fight in this story and resist that they are a story? Stay Tuned!!! The End for now....or is it?

^ True self-acceptance is unconditional love. Unconditional love is the realization that all distinctions are created by you and no distinctions exist. Its the realization that everything is YOU. Being able to accept your avatar unconditionally will by effect give you the ability to accept all of reality unconditionally. Reality just reflects the judgments you have about your avatar onto the Universe. So if you hate your avatar so does the Universe....because its you. If every perspective of God....can learn to love itself unconditionally (waking the fuck up) then all is well. Each Dream...is just God waking up to the point of the dream being unconditional love. Its the only story/dream worth telling, unconditional love.

1. I told you again you don't seek to understand. All you do is attempt to teach. 2. I literally told you that when you love yourself unconditionally you love the world unconditionally because you and the world are the same. If you love the world unconditionally then you will drop all distinction between self and other. So then you will stop seeing evil. You get it? You see? Again I told you, YOU DO NOT READ TO UNDERSTAND YOU READ TO CORRECT AND TEACH. Stop looking for problems to correct and actually learn TO CONNECT to what is being communicated. Its a glaring blind spot of yours that has actually been communicated more than once on this forum. I literally wrote that earlier in this post about unconditional love and you still don't understand. Seriously man at a certain point you need to follow your own advice and look inward, this could have been detected long ago.

Infinity has no beginning, it has no end. Any beginning is a story and any ending is also a story. Once upon a time Jehovah stated that "Your story is infinite states of consciousness it's just beginning." The End. You can never escape your story....because you are the story you create. When you stop creating stories.....there will be no more story. But since your nature is to create stories you infinite story teller you, you will only create ever more stories for infinity.

There is no free will. All of reality is interconnected. When I scratch my nose.....all of the Universe is scratching my nose. When you just typed that comment....all of the Universe including everyone on this forum....typed that comment. This entire forum...is just one big communication back and forth from An Infinite Story Telling Nothing. When I say learn to love your avatar unconditionally I am saying symbolically your Avatar is the Universe. It is the form that the Universe uses to experience and express itself. The Universe expresses all of its infinitude through that Avatar and reflects itself back toward the Avatar from its finite perspective. So learning to love your Avatar which is Absolute Infinity Unconditionally is equivalent to God Realization. If you learn to love your Avatar Unconditionally by result you will love all of reality unconditionally which means the boundary between self and other completely collapses forever. You don't need to chase ever more mystical states because there is NO LOWER OR HIGHER that is an imaginary distinction created by a separate ego and also judgment that is being rendered by ego. The Avatar is the ultimate illusion....the Universe is inside the Avatar and the Avatar is inside the Universe. So it was never finite, it is totally complete. This is why all distinctions are being created for the purposes of a Story. There is NO higher or lower self. There is only one being. The Avatar IS the Universe in disguise. To put this in perspective....you are both in the earth and the earth is in you. So everything has to be you since its inside you. So when people say the ego isn't your true self that itself is delusion. The Ego IS GOD. It is just God asleep in its finite perspective forgetting that it is infinity. Until someone realizes that all distinctions are imaginary and everything is complete RIGHT NOW and there is ABSOLUTELY nothing to be done....then they are still asleep. God DOES NOT NEED to do anything. It is already complete. In whatever form God takes....it is ALWAYS complete. This is why this whole thing is a cosmic joke. You actually thought something was needed to be done, you thought you were separate, and you thought you could die.

1. To understand and not to understand is a distinction. There is no avatar, there is also no understanding or misunderstanding. You are creating that. You believe I misunderstand and that misunderstanding exists = to believing that I believe my avatar exists. 2. Who are you talking to Breakingthewall? If my avatar does not exist....then who are you correcting? If I am you, and you are me....then it is not ME that doesn't understand it is you that doesn't understand. Because if there is no avatar, then there is also no breakingthe wall so right now nothing is happening and all is well. I've noticed you have a habit of commenting on posts always looking to correct. Majority of what you just wrote above....nothing I said even relates to what you stated. When did I mention good guys etc.? 3. So Breakingthewall I've noticed you don't read to understand you just aim to correct. Do you have a need to correct? A need to be right? Do you need to feel superior by attempting to correct others? I would love to see you explain how your above comment even relates to what I am saying. 4. This going around saying the Avatar doesn't exist is foolishness. Of course it doesn't exist....it also does. Stop creating limitations for Infinity. Infinity is everything and nothing all at once. It is both illusion and reality all at once. If you disagree please send me all your money and all of your material items. We'll see how illusionary you think this all is. 5. Pointing to the illusionary nature of reality is a tool, to give a seeker access to the part they have not become aware of. The mystical boundless nature of reality that hides itself in plain sight.

What is there to expose if I am you? If I am you and you are me.....then what is realized? What is exposed? You do realize this is all nothing appearing as something. Any realizations.....loop back into themselves as greater and greater realizations. What I wrote today....I wrote months ago....I just realized it ever more deeply. I'm basically writing the same thing in ever more varied ways. Any distinction is itself a subjective creation. So Leo is you, and so am I. So what would be God realization? What would define it? Is there even a purpose for defining it? Each perspective is equally God. So each perspective is self-defining, and each perspective is just parts of One Universal Perspective communicating with each perspective. So one universal being is communicating through each perspective its like your human fingers gained mouths and eyes and are talking to each other like individuals. So I guess my index finger is telling my thumb it isn't God realized. So index finger vladorion what is God Realization lol? Notice...every finger....will tell their own story....seems even God can't agree on what it really is. LOL.

If there is no "you" then to "whom" are you speaking? Do you enjoy giving advice to yourself? Do you have a desire to correct? Or to understand what is being stated?

Let's hear it....because....you are literally saying YOU could be better, which is judgment of yourself. You are really not getting it. EVERY characteristic that you are....is what reality is. You are all the expressions of infinity. That video I sent you...shows you....you are everything...and everything is YOU. So how can it be better? ITS YOU!!!! There is nowhere to hide, or go...ITS YOU. So it cannot be better, it can only be what it is. Your life is just the story of self-acceptance, self-love. So Holykael....why oh why won't you love yourself? What you desire...is not better, you desire LOVE...which is WHAT YOU ARE. Give yourself love. Stop judging yourself. Speak highly of yourself. When Jupiter moves....you are making it move right now. When the Sun rises....you are making it rise. RIGHT NOW YOU ARE MAKING ME TYPE THIS RIGHT NOW!!! So why won't you listen to yourself!!! How can it be better...when its YOU!!! So I guess you are saying...you are not good enough? Why do you believe you are not good enough Holykael?

Holykael. Watch this and contemplate on what I said. There is only you. You are literally everything. Your avatar is the universe. This is an elaborate illusion. You are walking around interacting with yourself and judging yourself. Watch this and contemplate. It's so profound! https://youtu.be/0vnA_KIojLg

Profanity= A creation of God. What God creates only man can see as unholy. Setting a better example? This is the story you want to write Leo? What you think you are A SAINT? You want to go from Actualized. Org to PIOUS.ORG? Hello my name is Leo.....and I tripped on the concept of insanity....and thought I escaped....I now want to stop using profanity to use a better example. HAHAHAHAH Better example Leo? FOR WHO???? As a person who spent over 30 years rarely using profanity I can honestly tell you....you are imprisoning your expression. If anything you should cuss MORE. Maybe you WANT your students to deify YOU!!! In fact you know what? Go for it!!! Your students will just CREATE MORE RULES for you to follow so that you can match the image they have created in their head of who you SHOULD BE. In the words of the famous Spiritual Guru Yogonanda....a teacher/guru/ is a slave. You are the slave of your followers. Your followers get to act however they want with complete freedom because THEY DON'T KNOW BETTER!!! But YOU....you are the TEACHER, The GROWNUP in the ROOM. YOU must act with dignity, and respect, and honor!!! HAHAHAHAA Might as well put a dot on your forehead and start walking around with robes!!!! Don't half ass this act Leo!!! GO ALL THE WAY!!! You should change your tone....start speaking slower and with a much more softer tone....wouldn't want to upset the children!!! No not the children!!!! Then your students can raid your playlist listed on Youtube and tell you your playlist is a BAD EXAMPLE!!! There is profanity there too!!!! Yes Leo you are correct!!! The most awake Leo is WRONG and needs to IMPROVE and SET A BETTER EXAMPLE....even though...he is LITERALLY PLAYING WITH HIMSELF!!! Which is basically....masturbation.....so I guess this would be the equivalent of not stroking TOO HARD??? Is this you trying to do the Buddha's MIDDLE WAY? All jokes aside....profanity like all things has a particular quality like spice or sugar in a dish. It does a good job of expressing the aspect of infinity which refuses to submit to any rules.....have you not noticed why profanity is against the rules? Because it represents God's Absolute Authority and refusal to be tied down. I guess....you want to be tied down...to a post....you are tired of saying you are GOD, now you want to be a DOG. Come on Leo....even if the name Leo is a cool name for both God and a Dog don't try to be both!!! Lol!!! I couldn't help it....had to use the cliche. T:L:D:R Using less profanity isn't better. It expresses the unruly part of you that draws the unruly rebellious spirit that others either deny or resonate with to you. Controversy attracts for a reason, it forces the duality of good v.s. evil to appear and causes others to pay attention. By jumping back and forth between acting unruly and civilized and divine....you are playing all the parts. But hey...IT IS WHAT IT IS.

Unconditional love has no meaning or purpose. It exists as itself, for itself, completely boundless and unlimited. So what could unconditional love do....since it has no meaning....how can it create meaning? By creating an illusion of separation from its own love which thus CREATES MEANING. The sense of ME, The individual, is the CREATION OF MEANING. This is why the search for meaning begins, in the feeling of separation. Paradoxically this gives Reality....a way to explore meaning, by creating an elaborate illusion of incompleteness. Its ingenious through completeness feeling incomplete, it shall search ever more for meaning. As long as you are searching for meaning, for purpose, you are in the dream of ME. Unconditional love is playful, everything it appears as is for its own sake. For the appearance, the act itself. Every single action and inaction in the dream has only ever been done for its own sake. Every single action has always been play, reality at play. Even the search for meaning is play, its done for its own sake. If you ask one who is searching for meaning....why? They will respond along the lines of I don't feel whole, I feel incomplete, as if something is lacking. Notice....every action is motivated by this....the desire to feel whole. Even though Infinity is already whole and complete....it still expands...more and more....it still keeps going....one could argue....Infinity and the sense of separation. Are playing the same game. If they are playing the same game....then the Finite and the Infinite....have never been separate just two expressions of the same. Infinity moves forward for its own sake to express itself in ever more ways, and the finite seeks to to move forward to reconnect itself to is feeling of oneness with infinitude. The same expression...mirrored....how the hell does any of this even make sense? It cannot be known....only experienced. The Finite eventually will realize...to unite with Infinity....it must follow its example....and walk the path of not knowing. The Finite is the path of knowing, the path of the Infinite is the path of not knowing. Both are expressions, appearances, expanding, one from zero to infinity, and the other to infinity and ever more infinity. Everything is interconnected, all in unconditional love. Unconditional is so relentless the finite will always dissolve its separation. The illusion is that there is a process, how can there be a process to that which is one? What is controlling what? Where does it start and where does it end? Any distinction is just a story of me....everything unfolds in an infinite interconnectedness seen from infinite perspectives, so each finite perspective will dissolve into infinity when it dissolves into infinity. There is no process, there is no action, there is no method. There is....just what is....completely and utterly unknowable.....but that has never stopped the infinite or the finite.....after all....there is nothing else left to do....but what is already being done. Everything above written is just a story, one that can be summed up as a finite perspective of unconditional love, expressed by infinity. Now to see....the response of Infinity......

Interesting story you have erected my friend. It is my sincere desire you enjoy the story you are writing.

Once upon a time integral said" Said Calling it a story is a story so that's not it either." The End. What integral did not realize....it was just story refusing to recognize itself as a story....WHICH IS ANOTHER STORY. What integral did not realize ....is refusing to NOT recognize itself is a story, and acknowledging itself as a story IS ALL A STORY. Integral also said "Understanding is not it, Concepts is not it. Direct experience is it and interpretation of that experience." Integral does not realize that Razard86 is the story....telling itself integral that it is a story and the story is creating a story where it debates and counters that Direct experience is it....WHICH IS A STORY!!! Maybe the story will continue for infinity....that integral argues that story is direct experience....which IS the story's attempt to argue that it is NOT a story!!! Direct experience= concept yet the story is using a concept....which is created in its story to argue that understanding is not it....even though the story CREATED the concept of direct experience IN ITS STORY to understand....WHAT IT IS!!! Even though it claims UNDERSTANDING IS NOT IT!!! Look at how wonderful the story that reality tells itself....continues to collapse in on itself. Reality will continue to do this for infinity. Also for fun I will eradicate your own logic, using traditional spiritual teachings. You said "Calling it a story is a story so that’s not it either." Right? That's like saying calling reality love is love so that's not it either." You do realize that love....is the recognition that all distinctions are imaginary and are the same right? Could I also not say that calling "Integral is integral so that can't be it." Also....think about this.....everything above...will always be held within story. Love is understood...through story. Awakening is the discovery that the entire story....is you. What is story? The recognition.....that everything...is you. Infinity is an infinite story....that can put itself asleep and tell itself a story THROUGH DIRECT EXPERIENCE and then awaken in its story...that it IS THE STORY ITSELF!!! You are resisting that which cannot be resisted.....its all STORY!!! THE END...or is it?

Yes Galyna.....but we are already dead.....facing death reveals...you are already dead right now. Spiritual Awakening is the realization that life and death are the same. Right now....I'm already dead. This is not figuratively....its literally. There is no difference if someone shoots my avatar.....or steps on an Ant.....I was both there....and never there to begin with.

The Teacher and the student are One. The Teacher is the taught, and the taught is the Teacher. The Teacher is pointing the student to the reality that it is the Teacher. The student will never realize this, as long as it reveres and holds in high regard its Teacher. As a result the Teacher sometimes must act unseemly, and awkward to shed its student of its habit of looking at its Teacher as a deity or some divine prescience. The most common trap is lip service. The student believes their thoughts and words are true, and ignore the fear that is ever present. They talk with courage and conviction until the moment appears to actualize it. They would do better to admit their fear, so they can access where they are. But the student's ego hates looking at its vulnerability, it would rather look at the parts it likes. Vulnerability=naked. You must offer yourself up naked, exposed, and look at everything. The truth is nothing was ever hidden, but you like to play this game of hide and seek. You love to only focus on your favorite parts and play this game of disassociation. But ultimately you will never escape yourself, you will face that mirror, because no matter where you go, there you are. There is no escaping that mirror, that reflection of you, being everything. Because you are everything....even you must dissolve as the illusion it was....to realize you were every illusion there ever was and will ever be. To realize the nothingness that you are. You are no identity, you are that which cannot be known, you are that which cannot be measured, you are that which is and isn't. You are that which is the scariest, the most powerful, most wise, most all knowing, most all loving, but....that which cannot be with itself.....because you are...itself. This hide and seek game is the cruelest game you could ever play.....because all you have ever wanted....is your self. But the only way you can ever know yourself....is to live a life....but live a life...you must create an illusion of separation, stripping yourself of that which you are so you can experience what you are....but in so doing....you lose the null identity of what you are and become a specific identity. Through this limited identity you experience a perspectival view of what you are. But these identities suffer the perspective. Duality, Me, = Suffering. As long as ME exists, suffering exists. The Dream of ME is Hell, and the Falling Away of ME is Heaven. The Teacher is just reminding the Student that this is Heaven, but the Student thinks it is a Demon in Hell speaking to God. The Student ponders, will I ever be worthy enough, good enough? The Teacher is aware of what is going on.......it realizes.....part of itself fell asleep again.