Razard86

Addiction is love, addiction is preference, habit is addiction, your point of view is an addiction. Addictions are only a problem if they interfere with things you are trying to get done otherwise addictions are inevitable. At the end of the day...you are addicted to your own personal self-expression.

Life surprisingly takes care of itself. Impermanence for the win!! Good luck!!! See you when you return!!!

I have a personal struggle currently, well in reality all of my life I have struggled with it. I have been gifted many insights and much knowledge in my life, if I put my mind to it I could become a subject matter expert on anything I apply myself too. But I've noticed I have a certain quality that messes me up....I don't care about survival, so no matter what I learn I resist using it to manipulate to get what I want. I hate all the games that humans play as I see them as unnecessary, convoluted, hypocritical and counter-productive. I've had this issue my whole life, which has stopped me from becoming wealthy because when ever I get close to any business model I see it fraught with under-handed tactics to gain approval, to gain credibility, etc. What I struggle with is the radical acceptance that evil doesn't exist, and that it is a human concept, a projection of the societal conditioned mind used as a means to gain control and ensure the survival of society and all of its interconnected parts. If I don't overcome this hang-up I guess I will just end up living a life of simple means, since I really have no desire to become wealthy even though I have all the knowledge, and ability to actualize that if I wanted too. Such a shame, that manipulation is such a key component to making money. I'm still glad I found Spirituality as it validated my desire to be loving, kind, and compassionate as the fundamental building block of being able to cultivate love for yourself and as a result love for others and life. I respect the right of others to survive I just don't agree with some of their tactics but to each their own.

Calling Leo biased is itself biased!! You can only recognize what you are!!! So God in formless state cannot recognize anything, only form has the benefit to recognize any type of difference. What do you think bias is? Bias is a preference for a particular thing. You want Leo to perceive things as neither good nor bad, as thus you are biased. To criticize anything is to be biased!! This is obvious and reveals that you do not do self bias or inquiry work thoroughly enough. Instead of being so quick to criticize someone, ask yourself if you are guilty of the same thing!! THIS IS HOW YOU CATCH SELF-DECEPTION!!! You still have shadow work to do, because you are too easily deluded!! You don't even realize that criticism creates the emotion of humour!! It FEELS GOOD TO CRITICIZE because it gives you an air of superiority. You of course will deny all this because you want to see yourself as good and THUS FEED INTO THE LIES AND BULLSHIT you like to use to feel like "Oh but I'm not biased!" All form is biased as hell, this is an absolute!! You cannot be a form and not be biased!! If I asked you would you like to take a swim in a volcano you would decline!!! It is this B.S. that you have presented which is the reason that humans cannot get along in politics, because they are always looking to ignore their own biases and point at others. This is why I win all arguments about bias, because if you point out mines I ADMIT THEM. I AM BIASED AS HELL and because I am AWARE of my bias BY ADMITTING IT, I can see the world CLEARLY!!! If you do not admit your bias, THEN YOU ARE BLIND!!! So you are a blind person right now trying to teach others!!! Remove your belief that you aren't biased!!! Then guess what happens? SILENCE!!! I only spoke because I have a BIAS against people WHO DENY THEY ARE BIASED!!! It pisses me off because it is chock full of hypocrisy and a denial of truth. Why are so many of you on these spirituality forums denying truth? Go to some other forum, it's like going to a website about working out and denying the benefits of working out on that very forum. When you engage in your current activity you actually confuse people and disrupt progress towards truth. Truth is about looking at what is, and discovering eventually it is ALL YOU. So you are the part of me that I am biased against, the part of the human condition that loves to point the finger without realizing that the moment you point a finger, it points back to you IT IS CALLED THE PROBLEM OF SELF-REFERENCE or paradox if you will.

The shadow is actually the light, it's the light of truth being suppressed. All of your negative feelings are rooted in a lack of control, the fear of death, fear of being alone, fear of not being in control, fear of not being good enough, anger at what is perceived as lack of fairness, etc. This is the truth of your feelings, your feelings are not just the happy ones, but the ones rooted in anger. Through a thorough understanding of your shadow, you discover that it is actually the light and there is no shadow at all, and now since you have integrated it you see yourself and others more clearly. There is a danger here though, your patience for bullshit will need to be cultivated because once you can see your shadow, you now have the ability to see the shadows that others try to suppress clear as day. The more intelligent you become, the less intelligent others will seem in comparison.

1. Ways I have left behind? Speak for yourself, I've never acted in the ways I have described, that's literally what I just said if you actually read what I posted. But you didn't you projected your own experiences into my post. You talk about ego....yet you intepreted from a place of ego just now, don't be so quick to give advice,,,,until you actually learn to drop your own ego and actually understand what is being presented. 2. Also again I am hung up on accepting evil, I literally just described that when you look at business models all require a sleight of hand, advertising for example requires exaggeration, omission, and a bit of theatre to truly stand out. When you look at almost anything such as dating, this too involves deception as well. All of nature and all of existence includes manipulation and deception of some kind, I'm aware of this but it doesn't make it easy to accept. There is always some deviation from integrity at play for example, white lies are deviation. Even flirting is a deviation because what is being communicated is paradoxical and through the form of subtlety and if the person is too dense they can take it literally and be offended. If you try to be too honest and straightforward all the time, you would be killed or ostracized from society. For example, walk around telling everyone how you feel without any filter at all times will put an end to all your relationships. Truth is the most dangerous thing in the world. The issue is yall don't really understand what I mean when I say truth, I mean perfect and complete honesty communicated in every moment, that standard....will get you killed.

Tough Love is bullying, you have obviously never been in the military or boot camp for that matter or ever played any tough sports. Shaq in basketball bullied his opponents, in football as a offensive or defensive lineman bullying is essential to getting the job done. So bullying is love, in fact being tough on your son or daughter growing up (rough and tumble play) has been shown to have positive benefits in life. I was bullied when I was young and while it did cause some emotional trauma, the payoff was it gave me resilence and the ability to forgive quickly and easily. When you get bullied long enough, you actually stop taking things so personally because holding all that baggage in actually becomes counter productive. Humans crave comfort, and thus do not understand the value of bullying, everything in life has a purpose and the design is intelligent.

The criteria for the human created concept of mental illness. Not denying that mental impairment exists, but I do not believe in mental illness. In fact I have cycled through various so called "illnesses" like ADHD, and psychosis, the issue is when one gets stuck in one of these states. Yes these are states of consciousness you can experience. I've been to the hospital many times and have met the people in the mental wards, many of them are there either from sexual abuse, or some type of spontaneous spiritual awakening, some from minor to extreme drug abuse. The West is currently ill-equipped with dealing with awakening so majority of people who have mystical experiences and have a temporary loss of control get sent to the mental ward for a brief stay and classified as psychosis, but if they start admitting to hearing voices and other such symptoms can be slapped with the schizophrenia label. It's going to take awhile before Western Medicine can ascertain a difference.

This!!!! He could just...not seek any guru and be his own guru. Why are you complaining about someone try to fix you, that is what logic, which is what humans are primarily using to survive engage in. In one sense he is not wrong, don't try to fix people or yourself, he isn't even the first to say it...Allan Watts and other teachers say it all the time. In truth you cannot be fixed, because you were never broken, so why are you complaining about others trying to fix you, let them!!! They do it because they believe themselves to be broken as well lol.

It's impersonal because the first person perspective you have as you walk around does not belong to your human character. Your human character is housed WITHIN the perspective. For example in a video game when you are in a first person perspective it technically is not the perspective of the character but the entire game itself. The character you play in the game is no more real than the characters it interacts with. So what is the TRUE real in that game...the player who is PLAYING the character. So you as GOD are the entire perceptual bubble, the trees, the grass, the air, the people you like and dislike etc. So as a result it is IMPERSONAL, and loves everything being perceived. Does your game shut off when someone kills your character? NO, because your game you play doesn't have favorites, but when you play the character you selfishly pursue the agenda of the character. So to you the character is deeply personal, but others you see who you do not know are impersonal. When you can see all others are equally valid as the character you are playing, then you have reached an impersonal awareness. Easier said than done, this game called life will send annoying people your way just to enhance your patience and capacity to love.

Seems we have a comedian here. Solipsism is so obvious to deny it is to admit absolute delusion. It is literally impossible for solipsism to not be the case. You have never confirmed anything outside of your direct experience in your entire life. Why do you think loneliness exists? Why do you think someone can feel lonely in a crowd of people? But guess what? If you destroy the psychic barrier that is your human psyche (socialization/education) you will feel the entirety of your surroundings within you. That's right! If you are in a restaurant you will taste all the food being consumed, you will feel the heat of every person, you will feel the subtle ting of the tongue hitting the walls of the mouth of every speaker in the room. THEN YOU WILL KNOW THAT ALL EXPERIENCE IS WITHIN YOU AND THUS EVERYTHING IS YOU!!! Anyone who denies solipsism reveals themselves to be a fraud on the forums and reveals they have not done any work. It's becoming annoying when I see people on the Spirituality forums doing this, because you do the same nonsense that every fundamentalist of religions do, you corrupt the teachings!!! You haven't even tried to go all the way and you come back with the B.S. that you have confirmed something, YOU HAVE CONFIRMED NOTHING!!! I can even use your petty little science to prove solipsism if I wanted too, its not even hard to realize, but it is infinite in depth of how it can be explored. All this is said out of love, you only fool yourself in life, it's called self-deception.

Lol I love your signature, I am Batman. Yes you are, yes you are!!! Also the entire video of the people....they are fools for one reason, they have never tested their premises. Spirituality is a Science!!! It's a Science of testing to see if these things are true. If you go far enough in this work YOU WILL VERIFY that you are the only thing that exists. That's why I laugh at people who make claims of, how do you know what work I am doing. Easy, because solipsism is so obvious, so apparent, that you cannot discover it. It's like oxygen, you cannot easily discover oxygen or the famous analogy of a fish in water. The fish was always in water, that it cannot find water because it is in it. But even that analogy falls short because the truth is the fish and the water are the same thing, so how the hell can the fish become aware of this? Anyway all intellectuals trying to use rationality to disprove Solipsism are too easy too beat in a debate because your direct experience is all you have. If you use that one tactic eventually all arguments collapse. So at a certain point, you will force them to admit....they know nothing. Then if they are brave enough they can venture forth. Why Solipsism is amazing. 1. You created everything you see. 2. You created the human you are currently playing as, as well as everyone you love. 3. Every person you admire and pedastilize....IS LITERALLY YOU! So it kind forces you after awhile...to stop judging the character you are currently living as, and to stop putting limitations on your character. 3. You start to stare and marvel at everything you see. 4. As you do the work more and more, reality starts to appear MORE ALIVE, AND INTIMATE!!! 5. You can gain various spiritual abilities you didn't know you had which makes life seem even bigger than before. 6. Your appreciation for life expands even more. 7. You start to realize the silliness of identity, and how could you ever let something so flimsy as identity ever control you. Identity is a tool, identity is NOT you. 8. You start to realize that all belief systems are just constructs to limit your experience of reality and you start to look at life from a place of unknowing, of exploration, and discovery.

You already can, I do it all the time. Do the work, and you can become so intimate with reality that you can BE whatever you perceive instead of viewing it currently where you are at as an other.

Not getting wrapped up in activity of mind....is an activity of the mind because you used the mind to make that decision. There is only mind, and that mind is either playing a game of avoidance/observation, or engagement. 1. Also complaining about criticism is just criticizing criticism which just makes you just as guilty. 2. Everyone here is at different stages of development and they can only express themselves at the level they are at. 3. The whole point of consciousness/love is to literally experience...every possibility, so.....failure literally doesn't exist. Any preference for something as superior or better, is just an egoic projection, nothing wrong with that because egoic projections are fun but they are just a circular, up and down trip. Literally that's all they are, an up and down trip that goes full circle for all of infinity. At a certain point in the words of Allan Watts you ask the question "Haven't we been here before?" Here is an exercise in hilariousness, go cycle through the various posts of the people on this forum...do it enough and you will realize....it is just ONE BEING, ONE MIND, ONE BIG ECHO CHAMBER, having and inner conversation WITH ITSELF!!! It's rather hilarious if you actually do it. You can literally awaken this way if you want, so right now....you have ONE MIND claiming it needs to be nicer to itself. Very hilarious indeed. But to ground this message away from this talk since for some reason....people on the spirituality forum...don't like this sometimes, Leo is a big boy. Your words on a screen are not going to bother or effect him in a meaningful enough way to divert him from his goals. Part of his charm is his relentlessness, it's why his name is fitting, Leo is a name of royalty often associated with being a Lion the king of the jungle. The King of the Jungle isn't worried about the chirpings of the animals there, it has bigger things to worry about. This isn't to discount his personal issues, or even to dehumanize him, he isn't invulnerable, let's just say....people like him have a sadistic side to them. Competitive people....actually enjoy a little pain, a little torture. Leo is very competitive, so understand, the only thing he would dislike, is something that is too easy all the time. If you pay attention you will notice he literally seeks adversity, he literally spends his time studying and listening to people he disagrees with. So you really think your petty insults and disagreements bother him when he listens to people like Newt Gingrich to understand the ignorant conservative mind? Do you know how hard it is to listen to someone you vehemently disagree with? It's like listening to someone scratch chalk on autorepeat. Leo may have his imperfections just like anyone....but his heart is in the right direction and the man is a warrior.

Humans are both geniuses and stupid at the same time. When we get things right we get it right and when we get it wrong we get it wrong. It is what it is. But honestly the OP's post just seems he is blowing off steam. People can only get to you when you don't have an outlet to blow that steam off. Human stupidity usually comes from ignorance and self-centeredness. The lady not realizing she needed to come get you came from her only worrying about getting ready. After that she put her mind to "other things." If you actually believed it was her goal to MAKE you wait and to be inconsiderate for the person picking her up......guess who the stupid one is? She just didn't think clearly, and guess what? Whenever we get mad research says our intelligence drops and we are unable to think as clearly, so her stupidity did something nice....it taught you that stupid people make you stupid by causing you to get angry at them. LOL. Life is so funny.

You are overly complicating it. God doesn't need to jump through all those hoops. Literally you are just walking around in your mind talking and interacting with yourself. The end. That's it. This is why I suggest people microdose. Stop doing psychedelics in high dosages, microdose, walk around and just pay attention. Over time you will discover....that it's only you. For me it's the best discovery ever, because I already liked people before now I love them cause they are me. Sure some are harder to love from the relative perspective but it's easier to accept life when I realize it's me. Now integrating that and accepting it on a personal level takes work obviously but it's better than believing the folly that their are others. So right now I am just talking to one of the favorite characters I created, with one of the favorite characters I'm currently living through right now.

Everyone is born with some type of aptitude, an advantage, something that just comes natural and sometimes they take it for granted and assume others have the same ability. What's worse is many people are not even aware they have talents and as a result believe themselves to have little to no value. Your role in life is to experiment and discover what your talents maybe. Here is a list of talents many people take for granted. Many of the listed talents are also skills as well, not all talents are skills like height for example is not a skill but it is a talent. Every talent's value is tied to its application, being tall can help in basketball but will hinder you if you wanted to be a jockey in horse racing. 1. Good at organizing gross material objects (Cleaning, tidying): Some people you can drop them into a junky room and they can figure out how to clean it, not just get rid of dirt and dust bunnies but actually put things together in an organized manner, some can even make it look stylish. This is a great ability and yes you can get paid for it, look into interior design. 2. Good listener, really good at picking up on subtle body and emotional clues along with the words spoken: A person like this can make a good interrogator, psychiatrist, Detective/Police Officer, Debater/Lawyer, Salesman, and Teacher. This is actually one of the most paramount skills you can learn, and some people just have a natural aptitude for listening. Listening can be the difference between a marriage and a divorce, getting a raise, signing a big business contract, and whether there is peace or war. Don't underestimate the power of this talent. 3. Speaking: This one is self-explanatory, your ability to communicate your thoughts clearly will get you noticed, your ability to educate or inform will get you respect, your ability to entertain will get you loved, and your ability to inspire will get you sought after. Speaking is a fundamental skill we all must learn, but as always some do have a natural aptitude to express themselves much more easier than others. 4. Fashion: In the modern world image is powerful. When trying to build a brand those that follow you design a mental image of who you are based on how you are visually represented. Your clothes, your facial expressions, your mannerisms expressed in body language, the different images and branding you use to separate yourself. Fashion isn't just the clothes you wear, its how you express yourself in it. This is the difference between someone saying "You rocking that suit man, versus "That's a rocking ass suit you got man." Think presence, the gait of your walk, your demeanor it all matters. Those who understand fashion usually become designers, and some Image Consultants. 5. Jokes: Know how to lighten up an environment with a well-timed joke? Many a comic was a victim of either bullying or hard times and used jokes as a weapon to defeat their bullies or soften the tough times. Jokes are one of the few ways where honesty can actually be rewarded. Many times people fear the truth but if you can wrap it up in a joke people can accept it and laugh at the silliness we collectively engage in. Jokes while great, are hit or miss. Jokes are a wonderful talent to have and a nice skill to develop if you lack it. 6. Restraint: Some people are naturally good at self-control, they know how to control their impulses and not allow them to run wild. Learning not to give in to emotional whims, and how to not give in to biological desires easily is a talent some are born with, but it would still need cultivation/fine tuning to turn into the powerful force it can ultimately be in your life. With restraint in place, many things like overeating, and overindulgence of any kind can become a piece of cake. 7. Forgiveness: Yes forgiveness is a talent, some people have the ability to forgive rather easily, and do not take most slights personally but develop an impersonal perspective to life. People like this can shake off sleights and misgivings of other people, and can even overcome traumatic experiences a lot easier than those who lack this talent. Think of forgiveness as your ability to be detached from the things that people have done to harm you thus allowing you the ability to move on. So there you have it some talents (that are also skills) that people can be born with that most take for granted and do not see the value in it. There are many more I could list of course I just listed the ones I noticed get overlooked a lot by people I have come across in my life. The most overlooked one I noticed is listening. As stated earlier listening is powerful it is one half of communication. As such if you master just listening alone, you are half-way from becoming a master of socialization. In fact I would argue that listening is more important than speech, since most people you deal with are self-centered and would rather hear their own voice than yours. Anyway take from this what you will, have a blessed day!!!

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Contemplated on the meaning of life and was given this from God which is myself. God's ego wants to be the greatest hero in every story. That is why every ego struggles to find out what it wants to do in life. That is why it is always looking for role models and can get lost in dogma. But in God's eyes every ego is equally as great a hero which is why in God's eyes there is no evil but from the ego anything less than your best at being the most loving from their point of view is what they call evil. This is why every ego is addicted to self-development, video games, movies, and T.V. shows all in pursuit to try to become the greatest hero from their limited point of view. This issue is they are God so their limited point of view is also absolute. That is why it is so hard for awakened people to accept their ego. Their biggest desire is to escape the world of form and be with their beloved. While simultaneously realizing that the greatest gift they can give themselves is to love the present moment, and realize they are already with the beloved. Life and death are one!! Kobe Bryant is my favorite character as Razard86 because he epitomized hard work and valued getting results but not more than giving it his all in the process of winning. In his first NBA finals as a leader he took that Finals loss personally and made an effort to be a better leader by being more compassionate and empathetic without devaluing his principles. In the next NBA finals he had his worse game of the series but was able to win by putting his ego and pride aside and trust in his teammates. This proved that Kobe wanted to win at all cost because his biggest barrier to overcome in his life as a leader was his arrogance. He learned how to be compassionately arrogant. The problem humans have is they use logic to figure life out. What they fail to understand is life is translogical every trait matters you can't leave something out. Seek ye first paradox and then you can see life clearly. Life is just an ocean of self-paradox due to the problem of self-reference. Also God represents the highest most good non-judgmental thought you have. To access God you need to have a unitive world view, or one that sees all is infinite perfection. You wield the ego in service to your conditional relationships with survival such as food, money, friendships etc. There is nothing wrong with being selfish, if you do not be selfish you cannot live. So how to be selfish in a Godly way? Easy!!! Be the perfect gentleman or gentlewoman. Learn to be compassionately arrogant. How to accomplish this? Make listening your greatest skill. Learn to stop thinking when people are talking and give them your full undivided attention. How God integrates its egos, is through listening. If you listen long enough, and you are God realized you will realize that the person you were listening to IS GOD!!! Now if you are not God-realized its fine, listen anyway with the understanding that the more you listen to others the more you will understand them and learn how to get along with them. Now here is where arrogance comes in. Make a commitment to never accept anything that you believe to be Bullshit as true! You need to take complete authority for your world view. Now this does not mean you don't listen to others, but you stay true to your highest values. This means you need to create or adopt a value system that you follow. This value system must not be dogmatic, make it vague enough that you have some wiggle room to work with. Compassionately Arrogant is the key to life. If you are too compassionate you will bend over backwards for everyone and be a stepping stool. If you are too arrogant you will become a tyrant. A good way to help is think of it like this. God is that which empowers, so true compassion is in service to empowerment. A parent wants there kid to be a stronger version of them. Seek to empower those around you, and only keep close those who seek to empower you as well. If you choose to be a martyr like Jesus all is well, you will just suffer the same fate he did. If you are up to the task of martyrdom more power to you. But a more practical application is to care about your survival while helping others with theirs. By doing this you dissolve the boundary between selfish and selfless, between good and evil. Had this insight from God watching this video! God is AMAZING!!! Kobe Bryant is you!!

Spirituality mostly deals with breaking free of conditioning, the prison of the ego. Many gurus and teachers as a result sometimes forget to mention the importance of Emotional Mastery, which is learning to deal with unpleasant feelings. When you become free of your egoic identity, you will start to become penetrated by every identity (ego) around you and the only way to deal with this process as it will become very unpleasant is learning to deal with unpleasant feelings. Here is an emotional Mastery Researcher, Speaker and Teacher who obviously is a GOD send with 35 plus years of research in her direct experience dealing with studying this topic. I love her already and I just was introduced to her by John Assaraf. But I digress, if this resonates with you check it out!!

Oh one last thing, the phrase/identity compassionately arrogant must eventually collapse when you become God Realized. The path of God-Realization is ONENESS. Do not let anyone tell you any different. Why? You perceive reality based on your beliefs, if you retain any divisive identities you will only see conflict and problems, the reason God Realization removes all problems....is because all distinctions/identities are seen through for the illusions that they are. Remember as you go through your trips especially the ones you deem BAD trips, the key to getting through them is to relax the best you can and do not allow any thoughts to become negative thought patterns that spiral into demonization of any kind. I'm not judging just offering a suggestion. My aggression I'm currently displaying, the directness of my communication style is all because this is what got me through some bad trips, those bad trips literally transformed into mind-blowing and altering revelations of how I was dividing up reality into us and them, its a beautiful thing to realize and I hope one day you can too!!! Safe tripping psychonauts I salute you!!!

You literally cannot have the unknown, a surprise without deception. Want to do a cross over in basketball= Deception. Want to through a pitch to strike out a batter? Deception. Remember...our opinions about things is rooted in survival. Good and bad is really just saying...what is good for my survival and bad for my survival. If you wrote a story about characters and wanted to add drama and adventure....you would add deception in it, otherwise your story would be PREDICTABLE. Predictability is boring. It's why women get bored with guys that are too nice, too predictable, too smooth, a woman needs some sexual tension, emotional tension, to be excited in a relationship. Deception is flirting, deception is comedy, deception is makeup, deception is costumes in a play, deception is actors on a stage, deception is a video game!! Deception...is love.

This.... literally this.

The problem is people don't understand how awakening happens. Awakening is a natural process like breathing, or a heartbeat. You don't awaken from doing something, you awaken from openness, and exposure to that which can awaken you. For example, let's say your consciousness was naturally very loving and accepting, and the only thing that stops you from realizing solipsism is a Teacher/Guru talking about it. All you would have to do is sit and listen to what is being said without thinking. Then your consciousness will just naturally wake up. How do I know this? From direct experience. Consciousness wakes up from exposure...on its own, at its own rate. The truth is anybody with an open enough mind....can awaken. People only DO NOT awaken out of fear/judgment.

God is a sentient (Sentience meaning God has feelings, feelings is not a human quality but a quality of God) love and truth simulator that spontaneously manifests itself in the most loving truthful way possible in every moment, this is why every moment is perfect because what is more perfect than love and truth?