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So I had a person ask me how you get out of depression and the answers just flowed into me so I thought I would share. This is a copy and paste: When you are tired of being sick and tired as the famous adage goes you will seek out truth. When you are young the desire that drives you the most is validation. You want others to acknowledge that you exist, and to speak glowingly about you. This usually expresses itself as a desire to make your parents proud, or your friends proud. In truth you don't need to prove anything but telling you that is not going to help you. So I am going to tell you how you get out of depression. You have been borne into a world that teaches and preaches results. Therefore you have tied your self-worth to results. Now this is a foolish thing to tie your self-worth to because you cannot control results absolutely. So first we need to tie your self-worth to something you can control. You can control preparation and effort. So pick something you want to become good at, it can be drawing, writing, singing, dancing, thinking about life, cooking, making jokes, whatever pick something and choose to do that every single day. When you become a master at something you gain the most valuable reward, self-worth. By mastering something you proved to yourself your value. Now this won't get you to the highest levels of self-worth but it is a solid foundation to build on. The next thing you need to do is find hobbies you enjoy. It can be ANYTHING video games, reading books, watching movies, hanging out with friends and shooting the shit ANYTHING!! You will have people including Leo telling you that these things are a waste of time....here is a secret of life NOTHING IS A WASTE OF TIME!! It is literally impossible to waste time!! I am not making this up, the reason why life is perfect is every action is equally valuable. So do whatever the hell you want because everything is a learning experience!! Do not allow others to tell you something is bad THIS IS DELUSION!! To discover what you are, which is akin to discovering what you love most and struggle to experience/resist most you need to gain experience! The truth is you were born a genius and were conditioned into thinking you are an average person. Nobody is average!! Not a single person born is average this too is DELUSION!! If you believe these lies and delusions people tell you then you will literally live that experience! Here are things you are always in control of. 1. You are always in control of how you frame a situation. Frame is basically just interpretation. 2. You are always in control of your opinion of yourself. NEVER blame others for your opinion of yourself. It is true that others can influence your opinion but never state that you don't have the power to change it, YOU DO. 3. You always have the ability to prepare (which is every action you have taken before you perform a task) and how much focus and effort you put forth. 4. You control who you associate with (it's limited in childhood but adulthood you have complete control within limits i.e. work for example) so only allow people in your life who EMPOWER YOU. Empowerment is not just encouragement, it is also being held accountable and holding others accountable. 5. NEVER feel guilty EVER! Never feel depression EVER! You can feel regret, which is wishing TEMPORARILY that something else happened. But after you feel that regret you release it. Why? Because IT IS WHAT IT IS. Once something has happened YOU CANNOT change it. All you can do is PROCESS IT. Don't allow the process to turn into guilt or depression. We all make mistakes, mistakes are an ABSOLUTE PART OF LIFE. This means mistakes are as inevitable as AGING. This means MISTAKES ARE DESTINY! They will happen and cannot be changed. So why be depressed, why feel guilt for something THAT EVERYBODY DOES AND HAS TO EXPERIENCE? Notice how everything I said makes sense and yet this is not taught!!! Let this make you aware that majority of human kind is DELUDED! This means you have to ultimately construct your own world view yourself because you live in a world of MASS DELUSION! Don't let the world construct your world view for you else you will be MASSIVELY DELUDED and you will SUFFER THAT DELUSION. You only ever suffer your world view, so construct one that serves you and those around you. Here is one principle to guide your life in this process. Only hold onto that which empowers you, and only do onto others that which empowers them. A power that is secure in itself has nothing to prove, so it ultimately transcends the need for results and validation from others because it is self-validating. As a result it is secure, as a result it will seek to empower others because a world of people that are secure in their power is a secure world. Why wouldn't you want to devote your life to first ensuring your own personal security and then improving the security of others? There is no greater use of your time in life.

I created my own self-affirmations you can borrow this and expand it to fit your own personal preferences. Going to sleep while listening to this can help you construct a mindset that you desire. Here is mine. I AM able to deal with pain I AM able to decide to do something and stick with it I AM able to be okay when I don't get the results I desire I AM able to learn new things I AM in love with learning new skills I AM able to figure anything out given enough time I AM an endless flow of motivation I AM completely in love with myself even when I AM confused or feeling doubt I AM self-validating. I always approve of myself. I AM always good at all times. Bad does not exist, only preference exists. I AM in love with caring about my appearance, and the appearance of my surroundings I AM in control of how I frame a situation, I control preparation which is the culmination of all preceding actions, and I control my effort. The above statement is how I constantly create WHO I AM.

Fully awakening is not going to solve your issues with emotional expression. I have become aware of a fast process of self-healing to supercharge your ability to get over your insecurities. This process is counter-intuitive but it is super effective. Many people are afraid of bad trips, not realizing that bad trips expose your insecurities and bring them to the forefront and force you to deal with them. How bad trips usually manifest is your first trips are very compassionate, and then eventually the brutality happens and you feel like the psychedelic substance betrayed you. It didn't it had to lure you in so it could give you what you actually wanted which is healing. Healing is two fold process. Trauma is like a deeply rooted parasite that feeds on you constantly. To dislodge it you have to rip it out of you but that parasite is lodged deeply so to rip it out is going to hurt like hell! But after you rip it out and the pain subsides you can finally live life free from the constraints that the parasite had on you. So what I am about to say is going to seem like nonsense and you may resist this but it works. You consciously and purposefully give yourself bad trips. You honestly visualize all the things you hate about your individual self and life and you face it visually. You face it till it cannot faze you. This is going to hurt, but if you do this enough you will gain a better ability to face situations like this in the future. For example if you have been a victim of bullying you can relive that memory, watch those emotions come up and do not allow them to take control. Be the observer of the situation and play out the scenario. You can even use this exercise to teach yourself how the optimal way to respond is. I've recently been doing this and it is a powerful exercise to raise your ability to understand how to respond to different scenarios.

1. I can tell you are new to Spirituality. Spirituality has its own language, it engages in the translogical which means you can care and not care at the same time. You are clearly a novice so you are getting confused so I will simplify it for you. YOUR ACTIONS REVEAL HOW YOU REALLY FEEL. This is an absolute!! This is why feelings are truth!!! Everyone walks around in a state of desire and fear. Whichever one wins out determines the outcome. So somebody can desire to do something, but if they are TOO AFRAID they will not engage in that activity. Most times when you bring this up the person will deny it because they are full of shame and guilt and have not worked through their issues. Next you said that Spirituality and contemplating the Absolute cannot help you in the relative. This is delusion. The Absolute and the relative are ONE and I could easily show many examples of how the Absolute applies to the relative but I won't. I will use the most obvious one! Spirituality is deeply tied to Psychology. It teaches you to take charge of how you frame situations, it teaches you how to heal from trauma, it teaches you how to connect metaphysically with everything around you and realize your true nature, it empowers you to share love and it teaches you to have boundaries. So notice everything I said literally helps with the relative because your perspective LITERALLY RUNS YOUR LIFE. Everything you do and don't do is completely based on how you interpret a situation. But notice in your arrogance you denied the Absolute's connection to the relative. Do you know how much delusion you have to have to do that? Do you know how much ignorance that is? The relative is MADE of the ABSOLUTE. The relative always changes, while the Absolute never changes. So explain to me how something that is the totality of everything, and is your TRUE identity has no connection to survival? Also if you listened to me I said I would trick the person out of their suffering. So clearly if I am trying to trick them out of their suffering I care about their suffering. So why did I say I don't care about their suffering. There are too types of caring, there is a passionate attached caring, and an indifferent unattached caring. For example if a man is held hostage and has a bomb strapped to him and you try to save him but when you look at the timer it says 5 seconds and there are other hostages around him and you....what do you do? You grab him and throw him as far as you can because if you don't him, you, and the other hostages will die. You can only do that if you have an indifferent unattached caring. You care for his sake, but you are not attached to either outcome. This allows you to see things clearly. Additionally clearly the reason I advocated trickery to help someone escape suffering is a result of the fact that some people just want to suffer. If you have any extension dealing with people who are full of trauma they are not going to release that trauma without a fight. That trauma has become a part of their identity. But they did come to you because they want help but they will fight you tooth and nail to prevent you from helping them. Paradoxical right? That's because life is paradoxical. If you use practicality you will forever be deluded. Life has never been practical and never will be. Practicality is duality, paradox is not practical. TRUE practicality is paradox which is the same as saying counter-intuitive. So what you do is you trick the person into getting what they want which is being able to let go of their trauma and move on. But you have to trick them into getting it. Using trickery which is deception to help someone get what they want is the only proper way to deceive someone. Deception is a part of life. The pitcher in baseball deceives the batter to miss, and the comedian deceives you to deliver the punchline. Deception is the unknown, which means to say the future is deceptive and can never be predicted with perfect accuracy. So wouldn't you like an unpredictable unknown future to turn out in your favor? This is what it means to trick someone into getting what they want.

I do not care that others suffer. Why? Because I know the truth! The truth is, your actions reveal how you really feel. The truth is what is!! I am God, You are God. God is all powerful and has complete authority. As a result I cannot force you to stop suffering. I can guide you out of it but I cannot force you out of it. Why? Because you have complete authority equal to me. Your authority is equal because we are ONE! Since I am not more powerful than you, I cannot force you against your will to stop suffering! Additionally I shouldn't attempt to force you out of suffering because that would actually increase your suffering because suffering is the belief that a greater force has power over you and is subjugating you so for me to do the same would make me appear evil in your eyes. So how do you solve this problem? Since you are suffering a belief of a direct force, you use an indirect force to illuminate and wake up the individual. Jokes are indirect. Compliments are indirect. Peaceful, graceful presence is indirect. Patience is indirect. This is how you help awaken someone who is suffering. Another way is to be direct, but not direct the message at anyone in particular. The person may become offended by the message and you let them know it isn't directed at anyone in particular, you are just expressing a viewpoint. If they argue with you and tell you that you are wrong you thank them for sharing their perspective. Unbeknownst to them you have raised their awareness and it will be harder to keep deluding themselves because you brought into their awareness a new way of looking at things. Indirectness is a long term strategy, while force is always a short-term strategy. Most people like to use force because people like shortcuts. Shortcuts work sometimes, but are never sustainable. Only long term strategies are sustainable and they are housed in being indirect. To be indirect is to use force to hit a target but to hit the target secretly. Selflessness is force, but its hidden. People think submission is weakness, but it's strength disguised in appearance as weakness. This makes it stronger because YOU NEVER SEE IT COMING!!! This is one the greatest secret to life!!

1. Projection I would never put a chainsaw to your dick. 2. If you listened to my perspective I literally said I would act in ways to help the suffering person get what they want indirectly. This means I will trick the person into getting what they want. 3. So what I would do is use trickery to help my sister escape her suffering. 4. You didn't realize this because your ego clouded you from my point of view and thus you could not understand my perspective even though you claimed you did which is self-deception. 5. You deluded yourself that you were open minded but you weren't at all. 6. This is too easy.

Many believe that wisdom is the understanding of how egos work and learning how to manipulate in the egoic world to get a desired result as wisdom. It's sad that this is perpetuated as wisdom and at one time I even was misled to believe in this. Its amazing how my intuition has served me in my life, but the true definition of wisdom is actually different than you have been led to believe once you understand what is going on here. What is the definition of wisdom? Which ever action cultivates the most self-love. So what does this mean? Whatever actions that you take that help foster more unity, less division that is driven by self-judgment and fear. The less fear you cultivate in your environment through your actions the more wise your actions are. Wisdom unites, it dissolves boundaries, and propagates more love. Now many can corrupt this and think it means conformity which it does not. Unity can actually support and encourage more diversified individual expression. So how is that an example of unity if it is diversified? Because it is allowed to be expressed, not judged, and thus it is a form of diversified unity. Nature is a unified diversity, thus wisdom would be a unified diversity. As long as you are in alignment, then wisdom will shine through. Egos love to play the game of divide and conquer, while wisdom aims to unify all expression by cultivating diversity but also appreciation as well.

God's only problem is it has too much self-love, and it is too good at fooling itself. This is why it is so hard for God to awaken, because God's true nature is infinite acceptance of everything. To understand God as a character in the dream you must love torture, genocide, child molestation, and ultimately even the existence of an eternal hell of fire and brimstone! This is much too radical for majority of God's creation but because God is infinite possibility it is not impossible for God's creation to accept this. Why? Because the creator and the created are ONE. So God doesn't just create the creation, the creation also creates God. If you want to reach Godhood and access Administrator mode in your life all you have to do is never believe the lie that there is anything but ONE. You see you get lost in INFINITY, the illusion is the INFINITY. The one constant is ONE. You have a voice telling you your in danger, you have a voice telling you all is well, those two voices are actually one voice. The voice that represents danger is fear, the voice that represents safety is the feeling of unity. Since you are too good at your job, the fear always makes logical sense, to follow the feeling of unity you have to deny what you are viewing and the fear that is associated with it, and surrender to the knowing that what you are experiencing as danger is just an illusion. But this does not make sense, and this is why the path to God is insanity. Life is not sane, Life is insanity that hides behind a wall of sanity. What you call sanity is logical, so Life is the lack of logic that hides behind and appearance of logic. The only way to figure out life, is to accept that it is designed to be illogical, then you will understand the logic of life. So the secret of life is everything in life can teach you. This means that nothing is a waste of time. If ANYONE tells you that you are wasting your time, that person is ASLEEP!!! Do you hear me? The purpose of life is to EXPERIENCE life!! How do you experience life? Observation!!! How do you learn? Observation!!! What is meditation? Observation. What you don't realize is thinking is meditation, it's to observe your thoughts!! So then what is the issue? The issue is your judgments hide you from the truth of what you are. The truth of what you are is in plain sight, but when you say oh that is bad you hide yourself from what you are. So you can only find the truth by realizing that only good exists, to say only good exists removes all guilt, removes all trauma, removes all blame, removes all problem, and reveals perfection. If you can do this in your life, you unlock the master key to see that everything is you. It's so simple, but it's the most difficult thing you can only do, but paradoxically it's the most intelligent thing to do. The problem is you use Spirituality to put yourself to sleep. So understand this, any teaching that demonizes drugs, sex, killing, ANYTHING at all will block you from realizing yourself as God. As long as you believe that drugs, sex, killing and any of the quote on quote horrible things are evil you will NEVER fully awaken. This is why I said, God's love is too radical, too strong, and logic will not suffice. You must throw yourself into the abyss, and have complete self-confidence that ALL IS WELL.

Spirituality is ultimately about your ability to move throughout life with no resistance. The Ego= resistance/judgment/criticism. When there is nobody left on trial for their crimes and transgressions ESPECIALLY YOU, then you are able to move with no resistance in life. Its called Liberation because you have placed yourself in jail and until you believe you are worthy to be released (overcome feelings of unworthiness) then you will be imprisoned. This means Spirituality is mostly centered on releasing yourself from your energetic constraints by detaching yourself from the stories that you tell that you are guilty. You are not guilty, you were unconscious. All egoic activity is unconscious. Stop blaming yourself or others, take responsibility for the stories you tell yourself, and allow your emotions to express themselves without resistance. At the level you resist in life you will suffer. There is a famous saying, what you resist persists. Enlightenment is not liberation until you stop believing your own lies/stories you tell about yourself and others. If you still believe the lies/stories you tell...then you have not been liberated. This is the most avoided work in Spirituality and is the number one reason people get stuck. Meditation will not do this for you, chanting will not do this for you, psychedelics without inquiry and a desire to confront trauma will not do it for you. I don't care how many videos you watch of Spiritual Teachers, I don't care how many gurus you study under, I don't care how much scripture you can recite, ultimately the work is centered around dropping all judgment of yourself and others. If you are not waking up with the intention to work with your judgment and constantly searching for more ways to be less resistant with life, then you are not doing Spirituality you are just messing around.

God is a singular Absolutely True Being which generates infinite lies. These infinite lies are impermanent constructions hidden behind the denial of Singular Absolute Truth. As a result the ultimate lie detector, the ultimate dissolver of illusion is the acceptance of One Being as the Only Truth. Absolute Truth cannot know experience. Absolute Truth cannot know separation. Absolute Truth cannot know a lie. So Absolute Truth must trick itself into believing infinite impermanent lies and then awaken to its true nature as One singular Absolutely True Being then it has full Self-Knowledge. This is the Spiritual Path. 1st part of the path: Live as a character in the dream. Experience separation as the Absolute Truth. 2nd part of the path: Expand personal identity until the character identity is discovered to not be in control, but being controlled. 3rd part of the path: Expand personal identity to realize that both the character and the perceived world are ONE, recognizes that character is always in control because the World which appears to be acting separately of the character is actually acting in unison. If everything is unified and only appearing to be separate then the whole is controlling itself. Since the only identity is in the whole, then the whole is always in control. This revelation is the realization that the character's will, and the perceived world's will is the same will. This removes all guilt, blame, and dissolves the illusion of bad/evil and a separate will and controller. This causes the character to recognize that whatever the character experiences is it's own creation, it's own will, and it is always good since it is always in control. 4th part of the path: The character/creator will experience its creation with the recognition that it is literally talking to itself and experiencing itself at all times. The character/creator experiences both ONENESS and INFINITY simultaneously and can go to sleep and awaken at will over and over again. 5th part of the path: Creator/character decides to stay awake? Practices the art of complete detachment. 5th part of the path is completely optional, you can stay on the 4th part once you fully awaken. Additionally at any point in this process of these parts it can choose to put itself completely asleep practicing complete attachment, which majority of the time it will do as it enjoys duality.

That itself is the delusion!!! Reality is LITERALLY MADE OF SELF-DECEPTION!!! You just fooled yourself into thinking you don't want to fool yourself. If that was the case, then why are you on a Spirituality Forum sharing how you are unraveling and discovering the truth!!! If you are infinitely conscious then there is nothing to explore!!! You can only explore if you lower your consciousness and you can only do that by fooling yourself and lowering your consciousness!! You are so asleep right now it is actually funny!!

The funny thing is you think there are masters of masters!!!! You are like Stan Lee the creator of Spider-man looking at Spider-man and saying Spider-man is the master of masters. You do this by jumping into the movie of Spider-man that you created as an innocent bystander that Spider-man saved from a building. You gloat and gloss over how amazing Spider-man is. As a result you never realize as that innocent bystander that the Spider-man that saved you is YOU. So because you feel less than your own creation, you become trapped behind the wall of your feelings of worthlessness. YOU ARE THE MASTER OF MASTERS. So ask yourself WHY DID YOU GET SAD WHEN SHOWN A PICTURE OF HIROSHIMA? As long as you think babaji is someone other than you, you will never awaken!! Stop falling for your own delusions!!!

Thanks I'll check it out.

He didn't discover it, he made it up. Because he is God, he can delude himself into thinking whatever the hell he wants. What he doesn't realize is thinking something is higher than anything is pure delusion. He is creating hierarchy, which is separation, there are no levels. Levels are created for self-understanding by God. So one being because it is able to express itself as separate in an infinite number of ways that is what it does. But each expression is an appearance within ONENESS. This is why all appearances are impermanent. Anything that is impermanent is not absolute true. So this means that the ONLY thing that is absolutely true is ONENESS. Amanen is afraid of the absolute truth, so he must construct fairy tails. God has the ability to construct infinite fairy tails, and since God is the creator and created it can delude itself into thinking its fairy tails are true. So Amanen can enjoy these delusions until he faces the truth, that there is ONLY ONE APPEARING AS MANY.

1. The problem is you think you need someone or something outside of yourself for validation. Hence you used the word I need someone to tell me its ok to be a loser. Why do you believe this nonsense story? You don't need ANYONE to tell you its okay to be any which way. The ONLY opinion that matters in life is YOUR OPINION. And you fool yourself into thinking you have never thought this way. When you disagree that is you saying that is my opinion that you are wrong. When you agree with someone you are saying it is my opinion you are right. So notice you have always been choosing what is right and wrong based on your OPINION!! So if you have been doing that why do you delude yourself into believing the fantasy that you need someone to tell you its okay to be a loser? Notice all that will happen is if they TELL YOU WHAT YOU WANT TO HEAR, you will either accept it or reject it. This means you ALWAYS have power over your own view points and you are deluding yourself that you need HELP to figure out if it is okay to be a loser. Even more loser and winner are co-dependent, they rely on each other. You can't have a winner without a loser and vice versa. This means that a loser and winner ARE THE SAME THING and only appear different! You say I don't agree they can't be the same thing how is it possible. Easy because win and lose is a frame. We can play a game and I can view just playing the game as winning, whereas you can view winning as beating me in competition. Then you can brag to me and say haha I beat you. If I don't accept your definition of winning then I can NEVER lose. I literally have to accept your definition of what winning is, for there to be a loser. So if there is no loser, a winner cannot exist. A game is a set of rules that creates winner and loser, but you are not required to accept that definition to play the game. Thus all you need is to take back your authority and stop looking to OTHERS to define YOURSELF. YOU define yourself NOT OTHERS. Why? Because OTHERS are YOU. Being with others is the same as being in your room by yourself. Go in your room, contemplate ONENESS and break through your illusions.

You are experience, if you don't want to experience something you can avoid the situation. But this presents a problem, nothing is seperate from you, and no experience is ultimately different. This means wherever you go there you are. So if you demonize selfishness you will suffer whenever someone is selfish. Not only that you will become blind to your own selfishness. So you can choose to not spend time with them, but you cannot escape the selfishness of others. There is a saying, "Hell is other people." There is another saying "To live is to suffer." So you cannot escape other people and even if you do you cannot escape suffering. You can transcend it by accepting it. You can only be happy with total acceptance at all times with what is. If not, then you choose to ONLY be happy with your preferences, and anything outside of it you will suffer. This is why I always say you "Only suffer your perspective." Which is to say you only suffer that which doesn't align with your preferences.

The True key to happiness is conscious suffering. You must face what you fear/avoid the most daily! For example people who are neat freaks abhor dirt and dust. But they face their aversion to dirt and dust consistently and as a result they enjoy a clean environment. Everybody resists physical pain, but if you exercise and face physical pain you are rewarded with a strong fit body. People resist learning something new, especially if it is outside their comfort zone, but if you face that it can completely transform who you are and broaden your perspective and your capabilities immensely. So the entire point of life, is counter-intuitive. Your senses tell you AVOID THIS AT ALL COSTS!!! And your job is to completely ignore it and face it anyway!! This is why life doesn't make sense because the GOOD LIFE is behind what you avoid the most. So to be comfortable in life, you have to chase discomfort!!! Notice how non-practical that is? You actually have to consciously choose to put yourself through hell? YES!!! Because heaven/paradise is that which can only be accessed after you go through the gates of hell! This is why the Dark Night of the Soul is a staple Spiritual Concept. You must face the dark night, which is the unknown. You must accept that there is no ground, and fall into the abyss of the darkness, and then you discover that you can create a ground within the groundless. How? You fall into the abyss, you hurtle to your doom, and then you realize everything is ONE!!! So to fall for infinity into oneness is to NOT GO ANYWHERE!!! This is equivalent to being still, which means its the equivalent to having a ground!! So you can only experience being grounded, which means to be stable and secure, by hurtling through the Dark Night of the ABYSS. So are you ready to be happy? Or are you happy playing the victim? Remember there are no victims, all victimhood is delusion. This is the absolute truth which means it cannot be disproven. So if you resist that which cannot be disproven, you will suffer your delusion. You face suffering to be free of it, or you can resist suffering and continually experience it!!! The choice is yours!!

What parts are you not seeing? I'll see if I can illuminate my communication better.

So much delusion in this message, so much I don't have the patience to even deconstruct it. Your response reveals a lack of lived experience and knowledge of reading. You reveal your lack of understanding in pretty much everything you just stated. In fact you reveal your lack of understanding of Self-Deception. What you don't understand is EVERYTHING is trickery, and you just demonized it. So much ignorance in your response.

Good job experiencing that, the next challenge is to make that your baseline experience where you don't need to take any substance to experience it. A video that will help with that is this.

Once I heard this video I realized that Tate uses Pimp Psychology to make his webcam money and the people on this video noticed it too. Pimp Psychology is all about tricking a woman into making you her world, her everything. Through this process she will basically do your bidding and the pimp manipulates it to use her as a conduit to get money from desperate men who are starved for sex. The term for men who spend money on women for sex is called tricks. So pimps use their women to get money from tricks. It's all a game with a deep psychology. You can read the book The Pimp Game by Mickey Royal to understand the Dark Psychology involved in this process. Understand that this was the guy you all were mesmerized and drawn too. This is his true face.

Everyone is toxic, I AM TOXIC, toxic is an interpretation. If you earnestly ask people on the forums someone will tell you that I am toxic! Don't believe me here is proof!! According to some in that thread I am toxic. You see? Also notice some liked my message. So to some I am toxic and to others I am not. You calling someone toxic is just your interpretation. And the funny thing is, because you think they are toxic, you are liable to respond to them with toxic behavior. If you do, and justify it you have now given your power away. Whenever you reward what you deem toxic behavior with toxic behavior the so called toxic person has defeated you. You have now been brought down to their level and have taken on their identity as your own. You justify this behavior like a child that says "Well he hit me first." If someone comes around and see too people engaging in toxic behavior with each other they cannot tell the difference. Notice you also become a hypocrite because how can you deem someone as wrong when you did the same thing? No justification can erase the fact you engaged in the same behavior, all you can do is erect a reason for why you felt it was a valid response. By saying your response was valid, you admit that toxicity is valid under certain circumstances. So without realizing you just made their behavior VALID and AUTHENTIC and GOOD from your point of view. This is why anytime you judge anyone you are just deluding yourself and are being a hypocrite.

As long as you interpret the world as unfair and having atrocities that is what you will experience. Notice you are separating yourself from the world yet the proof in your direct experience is the world is YOU. When you go to sleep the world that you know disappears. So unless you are here there is no world. But you deny this and blame the world. The world is literally your own creation. Stop complaining, stop deluding yourself and actually investigate this. Every single judgment you ever make about the world is a judgment against yourself. By saying the world is unfair, you will walk around and justify your selfishness with the motto "Life is unfair deal with it." Because you believe the world gives atrocities this reveals you have a victim mindset. This means you believe you are weak, and have limited power to experience what you want to experience. This means you do not take accountability, and blame others, this means you are dishonest and get lost in the lies you tell yourself. As a result you will experience every lie, every judgment you have against the world until you are willing to drop it. You have sentenced yourself to hell, because the truth is you are both God and the Devil. So say hi to Lucifer for me, and let me know how Hell feels like.

Genius!! You got it!! lol.

I've never licked his ass, I sensed his inauthenticity from a mile away. When you make your life purpose to be the most honest person you can ever be, you will sense dishonesty from a mile away. You will sense something off but not understand why.