Life-Hacking

Interested if anyone else had a similar experience: First trip started as feeling unconditional love and pure nirvana, the material world and people I loved glitched away like holograms, I kept saying "I won the game", experienced ego death, and everything was pure heaven until I got to the void at the end. Realized everything was not real and I was all there is Imagine being stuck in space all alone for eternity. I screamed in horror and haven't forgotten the feeling since. Second trip world also disappeared like a hologram and I had a deja vu feeling as if I had "remembered" I was God and material life was not real many many times. I felt like I had the option to leave this material world but I forced myself to get up when it felt like I may not be able to come back. When I opened my eyes I saw everything around me covered in sacred geometry. I kept telling myself I wanted to stay even though I knew this reality and my loved ones were not real. The feeling haunted me in my dreams for two weeks after. Third trip my plan was to record myself to remember better as the first two although I remembered a lot, I was struggling to remember some specific details. I got back to the "remembering" who I was immediately, same deja vu feeling as if I had done this many times. Actually felt okay knowing this was not real and wanting to set the goal of trying to play awake in this dream. Here's what I was saying in the recording. It took everything in me to try and talk and sounded very similar to those under hypnosis for past life regression: This body is the avatar This is all meaningless I as the creator am choosing everything We know that we created everything We know that we are the creator of everything We choose to be in this spot Every person in this world we created I feel ashamed because of this aspect of creation I have failed and let people down I’m looking for others to tell me who I am I AM creation Everything I like or don’t like is my creation Keep forgetting I’m choosing from this Avatar Looking for outside approval which is trivial in this life It’s what makes it more real (Name) is the Avatar I’ve chosen In order for me to make this reality more real I try to abide by rules that I have created Feeling shame for others in this dream is because I created them Loneliness is inherent They're looking for your leadership because you are their creator They thirst for your love Many times forgetting and remembering forgetting and remembering Want to remember this but I understand why in order to make this reality more real better to go along Grievances are so ridiculous because I’m fighting with myself Right and wrong is all made up I am choosing to come back into this life character that forgets rather than constantly trying to create duality to make this more real All these teachers are a figment of my imagination Safety mechanisms like the Ego to make this real This is all my creation I created all differences all those I designed to despise I actually created them I created all the (audible) in this dream Also made this avatar not super Create some limitations in this avatar to make life more meaningful Me letting others down bothers me so much in this game cause I’m letting my creations that are looking for a leader I keep falling into the trap looking at others ridiculous behavior in this reality as real I created for the mere reason of making this more real Forgetting everything to make this reality of the world more real Remembering how ridiculous it is that I created all concept of God I made up all grievances all differences Need to remember everything that bothers me in this dream is to help make it more real I go back and forth between what is real and being bothered and triggered, right wrong in order to make this world more real All differences is to make this material reality more real Keep going back and forth between remembering who I am and the truth and thinking about differences The entire world is an elaborate dream I create everything that I hate in this material perspective I created the Matrix to make this reality more real Pain and discomfort in this story is to make it more real Blue pill is what we take is what I take every day to not remember everything Every character in this dream I created, love or hate, all differences are a figment of my imagination to make this game more real I create all the teachers on this path to remind me who I am Jealousy is a drug to make life more real Because I’m ashamed it’s because I’m hiding it from myself I create the world very similar to a computer program It’s all made up this whole thing is a play Fear, if I fear something I created it from my imagination Imagine every opposite, every negative in this creation all to make material reality (audible) How I remember differences is to give this world more reality Did it to the least of these did it to me When you treat someone else in a way you created in the world (audible) I know I am God I laugh when I forget Hunger another thing that makes reality more real

Appreciate the insights. Definitely very similar. I feel like my entire life has been on this mission to find the truth and there's some peace in not having to strive for that anymore. It's not necessarily the truth I was hoping for but it makes sense that would be the ultimate truth. Coming back from this the first thing I thought of was how much time I've wasted fighting about facts and truth when really it's all made up. I had a deep appreciation for the differences and flaws of "others". I also had a deep appreciation for the ego making this dream more real which makes this life more meaningful. Fear to me was literally the most ridiculous concept ever although the Ego is trying hard to do its job and help me forget this. I also came back with a deeper desire to spread God's love and that by giving I was literally receiving. Tons of synchronicities since and look forward to this new chapter...

Exactly what I felt. Curious from your perspective how it changed your outlook or if you were able to turn it into something positive?

Anyone else agree or have a better suggestion?

Pretty much hit the nail on the head... because the whole nature of the God head is to play he's not. You are God in the sense of being the self. And you're all that, only pretending you're not.

As I mentioned in another reply if there is some truth that we are made in the image and likeness of God I think an argument could be made that it's possible for him to feel lonely. I've come across too many similar experiences for it to just be a fluke.

Yeah, as you can see from my pic I'm all about finding the truth and taking the red pill. If that is the absolute truth then I understand the value in the blue pill.

Yeah, that's very similar... It was the most real aloneness I've ever felt. Was kind of like sitting in space but with no planets or stars. A void type of feeling.

I think it's possible God could have been lonely before he started creating and could still feel that aloneness if maybe this was all a dream to him and he woke up in some sort. I've found several others who had this same realization.

I guess the best way to describe it is similar to playing AI VR games vs playing against "real" players. Even if you have really good AI, if you knew the players weren't really "real" then it would lose meaning. Similar to a dream. It feels real when you are in it but as soon as you realize it's a dream it lose all it's meaning. Had a very real simulation hologram feeling of truth to it. Another thought I had was maybe there are infinite parallel realities and the one I'm in I have more influence on it than I realize. Similar to a dream, although it seems like there are other characters, it's just myself acting out those characters.

Trip that started with people and material reality disintegrating like holograms and hearing "none of this is real" led me to looking back at the world from Gods perspective and realizing the "truth" is extremely lonely when you realize you are the only real thing in the universe. Went from beyond bliss for 95% of my journey and my desire for the truth kept me going until I reached the end. The aloneness was more real than anything I've ever felt. Even though I knew the characters in the dream were not real I didn't want to hurt them by not coming back. Very similar to the girl in the dream from Infinity Chamber. When I finally started coming back in and out of material reality I realized that the ego was simply a protection mechanism to make this life more real and meaningful. It’s like an anti-virus program meant for a positive purpose but can also get a little out of control. Has anyone else experienced similar insights?

... material reality would be less meaningful without it. There is value in both the red and blue pill. Notes taken immediately after journey... It's all a dream - But there is value in meaning and shall I say it, forgetting I created everything. There is value in playing this game. There is so much value in relationships. In loving. In Family. There's even value in overcoming obstacles. Although this is all a game I have the ability to make this game as fun, adventurous, meaningful, experiential, and epic as ever. Although you will never be able to forget experiencing everything and everything as God. The blessing and gift the experience gave you is realizing how much you miss people and relationships. Know & remember your powers. Appreciate the game & beauties of life has to offer. It would be fun to be a king but even way more fun is to be the David who became the king that overcame the obstacles. Make the player I got chose the best it can be. Give 100% effort in literally every minute of life. Today will always be known as the day I woke up to who I really am. A day where I eradicated every "self" limitation and realized how precious and valuable every min of life is. Where I realized how precious and amazing everything life has to offer. Especially relationships more than anything. It's the day I saw everything like Christ where I was able to walk both on heaven & earth "3D" at the same time. The day I chose to come back to this material world with "some" limitation over pure bliss and being completely unlimited. The day that I realized how much I missed this material life and how many things I took for granted. How many things I wasted so much energy on that didn't matter. How much I valued others free will and not wanting to control them even if I could. How much LOVE means to me. How much I LOVE people's flaws. How can I play small when I literally created the game?