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I completed 2 hrs of reading. I am currently reading Forrest Knutson mastering meditation in eight steps from beginner to adept. I started the day with Leo’s meditation letting go. My other two meditations were HRV resonant breathing by Forest Knutson. My mind is so wayward during longer meditations I am favouring shorter meditations currently.

Trying to create accountability for myself to be more disciplined with my reading and meditation practice. I would like to spend two hours per day reading my books, and complete 3 meditation sessions per day with the aim of slowly building up towards three hours. Currently, I find it difficult to meditate for prolonged periods of time. I will do my best to update this journal every day.

If I take the non-provoked urine test and I test strongly for heavy metals,would it not make more sense to do this and find my results first before taking the provoked test. As Leo suggests in his protocol video to do both an unprovoked and then a provoked test before getting the results, and then sending them off at the same time. Would it not be a mistake in terms of risk to then take the provoked urine test using dsma when I have already tested to a level where I know I want to do the full protocol? I suppose my point is what are the actual benefits if I do test strongly on the non-provoked urine test? Is it the case that the unprovoked test provides such unreliable results compared to the provoke test that as a baseline point of reference it is more valuable and worthwhile to perform the provoked test as mandatory. I am slightly concerned as my data in 23andme shows I have the variant of the MHTFR gene that does not allow for proper methylation, and put me in the bottom 10% of the population.

This looks interesting might try it out 🙏

Yes you are correct I am doing some work but need to lock in more than I am. I am trying to read a book a week and have started studying kryiga yoga and astrology these studies are moving me deeper into spirituality. I am schizotypal but do not have adhd. I am on zero medications and feel pretty good most the time. But thank you. Thank you 🙏

All my friends for one reason or another have left me. I am naturally incredibly lazy and only care about psychology and spirituality. This seems obvious to me god made me this way to not care about anything so I can reach enlightenment. Every time I try and be social or do anything it’s like god smashes me in the face and says this normal life is not for you.

Some context- I have very little experience with psychedelics I have only experienced mdma and cannabis. 8 years ago I had 1 tab of acid in rave, had some nice visuals but nothing much. Yesterday my friend comes round we drink a fair bit of alcohol spirits and beers and tiny bit of weed but nothing excessive but was fairly drunk. He goes home and leaves me a tab of acid and I think to myself I will have this before I go to sleep and experience some nice visuals. The next thing I know I am lying in my bed looking at my body feeling like this is not my body in a blissful state. I then have mystical visions for next few hours where I see myself talking to my friends but I can see that I am god creating them whilst I am talking to them. I then have a realization that I am the only being in existence, where I’m walking in some wasteland like I have always been here since the beginning of time. After the visions have passed I just lie in bed saying to myself WOW JUST WOW over and over again in pure bliss for about 5hrs. I tried watching porn which was something I would do when on mdma but I was finding it difficult as the bliss was too intense which surprised me as I did not expect this blissful experience compared to mdma. So I just watched YouTube videos and could not believe how beautiful the music was that I had previously never really noticed from artists like Nelly furtado who I previously had no interest in. Overall I was blown away by this experience and was not expecting such a feeling of ecstasy having taken ecstasy about 10 times previously. This completely blew away all those times I had taken mdma, and I feel very encouraged to start taking this work more seriously as Leo would say.

I am far from an expert on russia but my understanding is that russia especially in the main urban areas is quite well developed. Leo says that to understand the actions of Putin we must understand that Russia is not a well developed country (stage red) and an iron fist is needed to rule, in the same way Saddam did in iraq. Theres something about this that just seems a stretch to me. Its certainly not iraq level of development which is stage red so what is it then and is it really that bad? Do you really think if Putins current regime was over thrown Russia would not be ready for a more democratic leader given there level of development?

It is already clear to me putin is mentally ill but people including leo it would seem just refuse to see it and view him as some sort of 5d chess player lol.

There is something here that does not add up. He must know that annexing ukraine will not go well for him so then I dont think we can rule out he actually is insane. You presume he is not insane and that he is playing a subtle chess game. But what if we are thinking i cant see his end game in ukraine that looks like a bad mistake. And in his mind he is thinking the actual end game is nuclear war which i can survive by hiding in a bunker. He could think well i am 67 i have a hatred for the west who give a fook? My point is we really do not know how insane he is.

i enjoyed your post thanks for sharing

Well if i was you i would definitley still check myself in to talk to a professional about that if im being totally honest.

What is the best way I can put in the groundwork before this course is released. I presume the focus is going to be very psychdelics heavy and less foucsed on meditation techniques or maybe im wrong? Either way it would be nice to know in which direction I should put focus on as a newbie in terms of spirituality as i have zero awakenings and only small amount of meditation.

1, At the time I didnt even have any concept of building anything meaningful and it was before I knew anything about that stuff so i cant turn back time can I, 2. Yeah it its a crazy thing but its like many market places if you think about it. If you try and start a business most newbies will lose money setting up a business becasue they dont know what they are doing similar to trading. Does not make it morally right just saying. 3. Now I am going to foucs on getting really good at chess maybe become a chess coach and help people learn or maybe i become a psychologist.

I dont know about the other trading teachers you mentioned but i know for sure alex becker is a scam.