Toby

http://cwsv.belurmath.org/complete_works.htm

Have you practical experience or just theoretical experience?

@cetus56 http://www.palikanon.com/english/wtb/b_f/bhavanga_sota.htm Did it today. Interesting experiences. I cannot really tell what exactly causes what, so there might be other influences that day, but that's what happened. Meditation was alternating between sleepiness and dropping into some sort of peace. Then during dream some of the awareness seemed still there. Different aspects seemed to resolve themselve and dreams were easier to remember. I don't know if it's even helpful to describe or evaluate the experiences. I'm not really interested in that, but I certainly will experiment with the practice as such the next days.

It did not work today, but I will try it again. I set the clock at 3hrs but woke up at 2.55hrs and was laying there already awake and decided not to do it. But I will try again today.

The end justifies the means. Orange. For some it might be interesting.

I certainly will do it again out of curiosity. Was tired during it. Didn't even make it to 40min. Very tired next morning, but also somehow more present/alive. Dreams were more colourful (compared to last days), more witnessing, less entanglement during dream. But this could have also other reasons.

@Sri McDonald Trump Maharaj I'm in. 40min.

Reminds me of this one, goes something like this: A young father meditates. He is doing the Metta-Meditation, a meditation on loving-kindness. It goes pretty well as suddenly his little daughter comes in. "Daddy, daddy..." The father angrily yells: "GET OUT OF HERE, CANT YOU SEE I'M MEDITATING ON LOVING KINDNESS!!??!!!"

Maybe you just tap into certain layers of trauma. With accidents there can be a trauma afterwards: one layer is the "fight or flight" response which can show up as panic, restlessness or disoriented running around (flight) or intense aggression and hostility towards outside or oneself (fight). If the body mind has not the resources to deal with it it goes to to a layer of freeze, immobility, depression or collapse. And back and forth between the two layers. I'm not saying this is the case with you but it is not uncommon that people have reactions like that. A book which describes this and solutions is: https://www.amazon.com/Unspoken-Voice-Releases-Restores-Goodness/dp/1556439431/.

"What Is Awareness?" is actually a really good question for self-inquiry.

In what country exactly do you live?

Both drop away, I guess.

No.

Just select one teacher and then stick with that. Good introductions as audiobooks could be Shinzen Young, Jack Kornfield or Adyashanti.

It's a grape seed extract and a strong natural AO.

Moringa is pretty dope. Other than that I only use OPC from time to time.

@Arik Weren't you the one that wanted to go to Antaji? Did you explore the Zen-Group in Berlin? I just read these days that they both have similar roots (Kodo Sawaki). Where I live there is a Zen-center associated with it and they do Sesshins quite regulary (in Schönböken). And no, I'm not endorsing them, I only was to this group one time, even if I did like it there.

It was a mistake responding indirectly to you in another thread. You were on my blocked-list already but I couldn't resist. Actually I'm not interested in arguments, so we just leave it at that.

Actually, children don't have the ability to relax and sooth themselves directly after birth (parasympathetic) but is a function that - given appropriate support - develops afaik.

The "I" that has to convince others that there is no "I". Typical trap.

Papaji, Nisargadatta, Siddharameshwar, Ramana, Adyashanti.