Arthogaan

When we perceive the world from the ego lense then the ego is a subject and the world is an object. When we transcend the ego depending on the technique, words, tradition, our conditioning we are either left with the feeling of 1. I am Consciousness, and Everything is Consciousness, so I am Everything - everything becomes a subject and there are no objects left. 2. There is no Self, there is only reality happening. So everything becomes an object and subject disappears. So the whole discussion really just comes down to acknowledging both sides and dropping them both and being left in pure _____.

I think I get what you mean. Just like nightly dream is suspended in Mind/No-dream-space.

There is no deep sleep. You just think there is. But in direct experience we just time jump. Deep sleep is "non-esisting", and obviously non-esistence is also non-existing. So there's none. And even if there would be some kind of non-existence it would just be experienced as a time jump because it is not existing.

I could say my body liberates me from the prison of infinity. Or that body gives me the freedom to explore Consciousness. Prison/Freedom is just a duality. Neither and both.

Exactly. Is Eternal Beingness that can not stop existing worth it? The question doesn't make sense.

Brilliant!

99% of humans get this insight on their deathbed, so 30s are pretty decent.

What is that knowledge?

People smiling at you does not equal to not leaving you alone. It's not patting you on the back. It's their face and they can do what they like with it, and smiling is a pretty damn good thing to do with one's face. It's like expecting no one will look at you.

That is just the beginning reaction of ego. It's web of useless meaning has been shaken. But that is just a perspective. Yes it's colors and sensations in nothingness. But it's no JUST. Its the most beautiful, inteligent, breathtaking design of those colours possible. Its a perfect illusion. There is full of meaning in just appreciating this illusion, this inteligence, the freaking immesurable beauty of your own dreamed up body. When you sleep at night and realize its just a dream you can sit there and be sad about it. Which is kinda lame if you ask me. You can become lucid and now marvel at your own mind, at the beauty and joy of dreaming, exploring and having fun with shit and being loving. Cheers mate

As ego yes. As consciousness you are just always Here Now.

That's not fair! Jealousy seems to appear Here Now.

Waiting then.

Okay fine. Thinking that small acts of optimisim and kindness in this divided world are cringe - thats cringe. Spiritual journey eventually requires you to accept cringe parts of yourself. No need to be that intelectual, that smart, that serious.

I am always sitting here in the room called "Now, Here". Or rather Sitting is happening in the room "Now, Here". Or rather rather there's just "Now, Here". And a bunch of constructs just happen to flow through this room "Now, Here". Construct of a street being out there. Construct of other forum members that are going to read this. Constructs are just intelligent firework shows of sensations. A bunch of bodily sensations coupled with mental sensations make up a Construct of Me. All of this firework show constructing a story, a context for The Absolute to experience itself. Always Here Now. My life, your life, Leo's life are all happening in the same room -> "Here, Now" one after another. One set of firework show of sensations after another. All mental/feeling/visual constructs. It is the same as Leo saying All is Imaginary. But for my mind saying all is Constructs of Sensations seems more visceral, I actually feel the "construction" happening, where imagination is more difficult to actually feel. @Breakingthewall @Leo Gura @Inliytened1 @Bazooka Jesus

Oh, then I think you wanted to ask @Yimpa. He was talking about some infinite waters. I am only in my Meh River.

I'm not sure what you are asking about. What is being experienced Here and Now seems to be all there is.

Diviiin deep. But do you agree that the notion of infinite waters does not line up with you current direct experience? Therefore it is a belief?

Yes, but there are no "others" either. Yes, what I meant is that once it becomes fluid hmmm let's say it;s like standing in the river. And then I dissolve/penetrate and Self is gone. Therefore there is just River without self, with no structure. Just River/Flow. And what I say is that there is only this flow, only this river, only one POV. There are no other Rivers/Realities in which other egos can penetrate and dissolve. You could say that this River/Flow is Alone, which obviously doesn't make sense because how could river be alone, but there is only THIS ONE RIVER. Would you agree? Okaaay, but the same could be said inside a nightly dream right? Everything is real inside the dream, but the fact remains that it is dreamed up/imagined by Mind/Absolute/Whatever. Jed Mckenna used to say that reality is real, but it's not TRUE. And calling it imaginary makes space for all the dualities. If this is a dream then it can be dreamed in a way that feels either real, or magical or materialistic or whatever the hell absolute dreams up. But in materialistic worldview there is space for only one of those dualities being real - reality is material and objective. So if we are to say anything about THIS, and collapse into a structure, I would say Imaginary and Alone/One is pretty damn good as far as collapsed can go.

With this I think I agree. I mean when I realize all is just a construct then the natural effect of this is dropping all constructs and therefore structure. It just becomes a Lucid Soup. The idea of being alone is also a construct. But on the other hand there seems to be only this one Here Now. Only this one Lucid Structurelessness. So Alone seems pretty close. It gets wonky.

Hmm. But the direct experience during meditation tells me that even the idea of some reality that construct could be contingent on is also a construct. Just a contraction in mind-field. There is no reality for construct to be contingent on. In other words Consciousness/This is completelly contingentless. We could even call All This -> Contingentlessness haha.

Yes! It's all gonna be well brother. You designed it for yourself. Aaand it just so happens that You are infinitely inteligent. So it's going to be fine. It's going to be epic. It's gonna be WOO WOO. It's going to be a marvelous Soul's Flight

This video made me have a Leo-is-Cute-Awakening. It's time to remind us again about it.

I have one thing to say to you my friend. Love more, care less.

You mentioned permanent damage done to your system via 5-meo. Could you describe the symptoms? Are they still pertaining?