Arthogaan

I wouldn't worry too much. Ego has great mechanisms to forget that stuff when you do not actively pursue deepening it. Also whenever you feel it is getting a little bit too deep to fast just ground yourself. Appreciate the simple beauties of life such as exercising, making good food, appreciating the beauty and uniqueness of your friends. Appreciate the beauty of life. Leo has a great video on it called "How to fall in love with life".

You are the one thats stopping Brahman from appreciating Life. Notice that If you start to appreciate life, then Brahman will be appreciating it through you. Notice that if you love the universe the whole universe becomes loving. Just like in your nigtly dreams. Thats how much power you have. You have the power to direct Brahman what to focus on. That much power and you decide to focus on negatives.

Almost all of people I know that played Sims, tried to trap the sims in the swimming pool to make them suffer and die.

Because I have to focus now on finishing my university, saving money whilst maintaining high level of consciousness. Not much place for casual people.

It's fine. Number of people I meet with is steadily lowering since I started to follow spirituality. Besides my fiance, I meet regularly with max 2 people like once every 2 months. I love it. But I also know that it is such time for me and that in the near future I may become more social. So maybe this is what your path needs now. Know yourself, accept yourself, become the creator.

I bite a little piece of skin of off my forearm because I wanted to prove to myself that pain is imaginary. And it was pleasurable. Just like max 0.2 centimeters. So Now I got a small dot on my forearm always reminding me that suffering is an illusion. Other than that when the trips end and i go out to the town for a walk I always see the weirdest fucking people that I never see normally. Like disabled child that walks like a dog being on a leash. Or someone being drugged out with that paranoid look. Does it happen to you when you go out?

Does anyone have a photo of this guy called Leon Gura? He is posting a lot on this forum.

Thats actually a cool insight I didn't think about. That there is a certain treshold that you are wise enough to have lessened the suffering greatly so there is less motivation to change. Only the few ones will continue to become wiser and wiser. Thanks.

Is suffering always required part of acquiring deeper wisdom? Often we step on the path of spirituality after depression or dark night of the soul or something within that archetype. Often it is the pain of Ego itself that is the fuel for spiritual growth. Just like with the kids that have the mutation that makes them never feel pain, and they can't learn not to harm their bodies and they scrap their eyes off. Or maybe in ideal environment deep suffering is not required. Like Ramana Maharishi surrounded from young age by monks or some Alien world in some other galaxy filled with harmony and love that enables children to grow spiritual and wise from the get go without the need for psychological turmoil. What are your thoughts?

1. There is so much teachers that are more soft and lovey dovey. Let Leo be the unicorn he is. That is one of his unique value propositions. 2. I understand the criticism but if the criticism is already being acknowledged by Leo which it was earlier on this thread then what is really the point of continuing to say the same things. It is like you come to someones house, and the host cooks you dinner for free. Yeah sure, you can make some respectful advice that the food is too salty or that the meat could be a little bit more soft. But if the host already acknowledges that and explains that actually he thought about it and he wants his meat to be salty and firm then if you want to come to his house and eat his free dinner you should be appreciative and not moan about the food at the dinner table.

It sure will be easier than that mask that made your face painful for 3 hours.

Why in you nightly dreams do you dream up scenarios in which you experience pain and fear?

If second sentence is true then first is false.

I think what you mean is that: Pain is only experienced by Ego. God sees the pain of the ego as an illusion and sees that it is actually pleasure. And God wants us to awaken and see that all is pleasure. But consider that God, actually willed Ego into creation. He wanted to experience pain from the point of view of Ego. So he created pain of ego out of Love. So he loves ego and pain. God loves everything that he creates, because why would he create something he does not love?

If for God pain = pleasure, and God loves pleasure, then God also loves pain. You are saying the same thing, only more convoluted.

100mg - but I always try to take it earlier than 7am.

Yup, I recommend it. But I would not exceed a maximum of 3-4 times a week. It helps me to get shit done, especially the one that I do not find purposeful. I like to stack up certain mind boring tasks (as learning for an exam from the subcject I do not find interesting) in one day, and just spend the whole day on it. It cerainly helped me quit coffee. I prefer this than coffee. I feel less withdrawal symptoms and it is more intentional - I won't take modafinil just to chat with friends. I don't notice any negative side effects so far other than you just have to watch your body to get enough sleep, and if you take it like 3 days in a row plan your 4th and 5th day so that you can catch up on sleep.

When I started taking it even 100mg at 6 am made it hard to fall asleep at 11pm. But later it got easier.

@MsNobody I think when it comes to badassness of a photo you win so far.

@Leo Gura Do you have any feeling about such stuff when it turns up? I am sure you don't really care, and are really used to such kinds of critiques but I mean it in a more existential way. Like do you ever get sad that there are people who try to picture your life purpose as devilry? That people just are that way? Or that part of the shadow is totally mastered for you and you never get your vibration lowered by such things?

Some of them you will forget but some of them will reappear every once in a while and you will know that those are the crucial ones for your journey. For those reocurring Iike to create a certain symbol, that I can quickly summon to my mind and feel it.

I totally agree. Just like in a lucid dream, when you are a Loving person, whole dream becomes loving. If you are a selfish person in your nightly dream you will generate a selfish world. But still, technically, when I wake up in my room and start to fill my mind with pictures of famine and hunger in Africa I imagine suffering where there was none just a second ago. Out of empathy and selflesness we sometimes feel the pull to imagine and think about those things, but from Solipsistic point of view we create that suffering where there was none. So in a way when we are lovingly ignorant there is no one suffering. So then arises a certain paradox, that to be empathetic I should be ignorant to not create suffering by my imagination. It is convoluted I know, but I yet have to crack that nut of insight to reconcile it.

Well, that's why I am @user'ing you, because I am open to such possibility. But my highest states do not indicate that and thats why I would appreciate your pointings.

Now I am parroting, but I was in states where that was the direct experience.

@Leo Gura But still technically there is only one being suffering, and that is I. But out of Love I can still feel empathy and the suffering of the illusion, and the relative.