Arthogaan

Great! I relate a lot to what you have written and to the purpose itself. For many years I felt bad for not having a true consistent passion. Parents often criticized me for changing hobbies too often. I liked to do that since I was a kid. Thanks to spirituality I realized that changing, exploring, wandering is what is my passion. I will never have the some stable career or way to live. For some it may sometimes feel selfish, or that the purpose has to be connected to giving something to the world. But actually living in that joyfull state of exploration, change, cheerfullness and adventure we create so much more good, we inspire so much more.

We are tripping on serotonin, dopamine and adrenaline right now

LSD and shrooms definitely always show me that Sexuality is not some additional feature of reality but is fundamendal to reality. Sexuality/Zest/Vigor is like the child of Higher aspects like "Love" and "Life". Often during my trips I saw that the whole world is a woman and my consciousness is a man and each experience in each nano second is like a kiss/sexual play between these two lovers. When I walk through a park its like I was walking through a huge grassy belly of mother Gaia that wants me to experience her. And each negative experience is life is like a BDSM role play of lovers - reality and consciousness - which are one.

Isn't it suspicious that in every experience of your life you seem to be in the center of the (yo)Universe?

You are alone because you are so together! In solipsistic paradigm you are totally connected to everyone you love. It like you are making love to them just by thinking about them. They are aspects od you. Dont you see the beauty of it?

You will get there. Just try to be more positive sometimes even just as a experiment. Try faking being happy and enlightened a little bit. What do you have to loose? You will get back to negativity when you will want to but there is a chance that you will channel a little bit of true happiness and clarity just by faking and having fun a little. Btw sorry @Sincerity for going off topic here in your thread XD

Do you actively work towards it via daily meditation and psychedelics?

@Holykael Dear bro, I agree with some of the things you've written but with some twists. Please try to read my comments with open mind. I agree with that - so the solution is to become conscious enough to not be the ego. Okay, lets even assume that this is true and it is not possible to know. But then also there is no possibility to know if actually it is Mickey Mouse controlling you, or some ant from Australia or whatever. So if there is no way to know the only logical action to choose more productive/fun approach, and it so happens that for you lack of free will is disappointing, so focus as though you have it and cherish it. But you are that infinite inteligence! You can become that inteligence in your life and therefore become the Pure Free Will. Just like in your nightly dreams you are the dreamed character, ego with no controll but then you become LUCID and you have Absolute Free Will. You become the whole dream and the whole inteligence. Saying God will run the same way because of infinite inteligence is like saying that the Great Painter will always paint the same picture according to his Infinite Taste. That does not work like that. What if Infinite Inteligence actually realized the best way to paint reality is: 1. so that it maximizes your free will 2. each action is totally unique in order to maximize variety of experience. Open your mind to the possibility that you actually are Pure Free Will. Just try to feel that for a moment as an exercise. Much love bro Please consider watching this video in you free time:

Why? (Out of curiosity)

I relate to much of what you have written. My approach is to milk the corporate job for few years, enough to save money to live freely and spontaneously for lets say 10 years. And then we will see what happens, if I run out of money. I am more at peace with the idea of dying out of hunger at 40 years old or just living extremelly frugally ever after being grateful for each new day, rather than slaving away my whole youth in corporate worrying about money.

12 hours/day far better

Damn I am so proud of him. Remember when whole internet was hating him for sucide forest but I knew there is something deeper inside him. Wonder if Tyson talking about the toad and god on his podcast has something to do with it

There is also a possibility that boredom and will to create are God-like qualities and actually are not anthropomorphized but we inherited them from God so to speak.

@Holykael Each action you take, each words you write on a forum is a direct, empirical and undisputed evidence of your own free will. All your stories, explanations and fairytales of how you do not really decide to do it but God makes you to do it are just delusions and stories of the mind. Actually you have so much free will that you can even delude yourself into believing that you don't have free will which you are doing.

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Other than the ones mentioned: - able to connect to his inner child, - able to not always be serious, able to be joyful, - able to embrace his cute side

I wouldn't worry too much. Ego has great mechanisms to forget that stuff when you do not actively pursue deepening it. Also whenever you feel it is getting a little bit too deep to fast just ground yourself. Appreciate the simple beauties of life such as exercising, making good food, appreciating the beauty and uniqueness of your friends. Appreciate the beauty of life. Leo has a great video on it called "How to fall in love with life".

You are the one thats stopping Brahman from appreciating Life. Notice that If you start to appreciate life, then Brahman will be appreciating it through you. Notice that if you love the universe the whole universe becomes loving. Just like in your nigtly dreams. Thats how much power you have. You have the power to direct Brahman what to focus on. That much power and you decide to focus on negatives.

Almost all of people I know that played Sims, tried to trap the sims in the swimming pool to make them suffer and die.

Because I have to focus now on finishing my university, saving money whilst maintaining high level of consciousness. Not much place for casual people.

It's fine. Number of people I meet with is steadily lowering since I started to follow spirituality. Besides my fiance, I meet regularly with max 2 people like once every 2 months. I love it. But I also know that it is such time for me and that in the near future I may become more social. So maybe this is what your path needs now. Know yourself, accept yourself, become the creator.

I bite a little piece of skin of off my forearm because I wanted to prove to myself that pain is imaginary. And it was pleasurable. Just like max 0.2 centimeters. So Now I got a small dot on my forearm always reminding me that suffering is an illusion. Other than that when the trips end and i go out to the town for a walk I always see the weirdest fucking people that I never see normally. Like disabled child that walks like a dog being on a leash. Or someone being drugged out with that paranoid look. Does it happen to you when you go out?