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LOL what do you mean attacks and stalks you, we've spoken like 3 times in my life, all brief interactions. What have my past sexual escapades got to do with you or my interactions with you??! What another strange post of yours. I have highlighted your blatant obvious insecurity around men in some of your posts, but anyone can see that a mile away, how does this relate to my sexuality though? Deeply confuzzled

I thought about this a lot, there are different and more subtle degrees to it depending where your at in your life and spirtiual development. At the base level as the poster above points out, I think mutually consensual, honest sexual interacitons are base healthy. No coercion or manipulation or explotiatiion at all Next level would be removing all trauma-coping from sexuality: no form of degradation, shaming, abuse in any form Next level would be having sexuality itself contained within a higher context or stabilised within a context: deep freindship, relationship, reverence and respect for each other. Having more to your relationship then the sex, nor the sex being the main aspect End level would be sex will natural and spontaenously arise within when the dynamics and contexts and moments are right, with no pre-planning or expectations or care if it does or doesnt

TBH at some point I knew I was going to end up in hell, but I thought it shouldnt be possible, it shouldnt be a possibility if Im God I can goto hell, so I would take psychedelics and set the intention to delete all the hell realms lol! Didnt work That period of my life was so so so unstable, I was doing ketamine, psychedelics, alcohol, and cociane at periods for nearly a year every day. Id wake up meditate, do a line of ket and a glass of rum lol I seriously regret doing all this, I completely ruined 2-3 years of my life, and have put myself through unimaginable pain and trauma, simply down to be de-stablized, and seriously frustrated/pissed off with the whole game of life. I think I maybe listened to a few wrong voices in my head lol! Probably demonic voices. I had schizophrenia/demonic voices for ages, I couldnt leave the house or socialize with anyone for over a year. The good news is, you have to try pretty hard to get to hell. TBH If I hadnt have already had God-realisaiton experiences, there is 0% chance I would have gone so far not even 10%. Those God experience were essentially hijacked by my ego to think it could do what it wanted with 0 repercussions.

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Yes it bothered me too since a kid, I was indoctrinated by an Islamic scholar regarding eternal hells (i wasnt personally muslim), but it put a deep fear in me. Also my dad died from a heroin overdose and this deeply scared me on where he would end up. We used to do Islamic saence etc to try and figure out what happened to him lol! I was always subconciously terrofied of hell, thats probably why I ended up there. And for the first part of this year I wasnt sure I could heal, I had literally torn my chakras, not blocked, torn them. The channels and wires were torn and shredded, and Ive basically spent most waking moments of 2024 telling myself 'God can heal anything, Love heals all, if it has a beginning it has an end' Thats basically been my mantra. My precursor into hell was 1) Severe drug abuse in my 20s, cocaine combined with porn./escorts/sex alcohol for years. Think 3 day no sleep benders, with $1000 of cocaine and 3-4 litres of vodka. Every weekend for years 2) At age 30 I had a breakdown, something broke inside of me, and I was completely fucked 3) I started sobreity and celibacy, and did deep spirtual work, including many vipassana retreats etc etc. 4) Started to recover and feel good, started hitting Jhanas etc in meditation 5) started to have Godrealisatiion experiences on pscyhedelics, and also the solipsism perspective 6) Started drinking doing cocaine and escorts etc, deep relapse 7) Pain started to come strong, daily nightmares being eaten alive by dogs etc 8) Started to have icnredibly dark psychedelic experiences, the ones where you die into the void, where happening, but the context was now dieing and reborn into hell 9) my resenentments greww exponetially and started taking psychedelics to challenge God about the crazines 10) divide between me and God and mind grew 11) Doubled down on cocaine and alcohol 12) Started having vivid dreams being told Im going to hell 13) My waking life was total pain from moment waking, during sleep, and then awakening 14) My forehead chakra and all the wires in my head were totally torn, uttrly shattered the forehead chakra, totaly destroyed, felt beyond repair 15) Finish a 5 day cocaine bender, and got the message from mind if I do another line or drink, Im not coming back 16) Go full sober and celibate 17) 2 months into sobriety, where everyday I wake up and put all my attention onto the 12/10 pain in my forehead and pray these broken wires will heal, can feal them trying to reconnect and rebuild, but its broken 18) Decide to man up and take heroic doses of psychedelics 19) Have the lived experience in full real time of being sent to hell on psilocybin trips -> by far most traumatic experiences of my life, will have PTSD for long time 20) Have LSD experiences of hour long immersions of being in demonic hell realms, followed by this whole realms being destroyed infront of me, and then being taken to a white light of God, in wich I begged for mercy 21) 19 and 20 were repeated several times. 22) Cant handle another being sent to hell experience so stop psilocybin 23) Remain sober, meditating, doing 12 step meetings 24) The LSD/Psilocybin brighht white light experiences at least showed me the negativity in my mind 'fuck you God' 'I hate you God' 'burn in hell forever', this type of voices 25) My forehead chakra is slowly healing, 26) Had some nicer LSD experience, broke through to Love and other temporary nice experience 27) Out of hell and now in purgatory, what a relief, what a relief, im never going back, never 28) My forehead seriously concerns me, cannot find anyone anywhere who knows about this damage, using AI find some esotoric literautre that describes severe severe rare cases of 'short circtuiing' a chakra when deep spirtiual transgressions are done 29) typing this post!

I class myself as one of the most qualified human alive on this one, Ive been to the hell realms and lived there for around 15 months. Verified by several psychedelic experiences, I cant see for sure if you could go so deep into hell you could never get out, it seems unlikely, its just the pain would become so large, and also hell is a literal disconnect, youd have to severe yourself energetically from reality via your chakra system (thats the method I used), Youd also have to continually refuse to surrender (i.e. stop doing what ever your doing that is bringing you to hell), but before you get to hell you have had to have already disobeyed God/higher self many times, and ignored all warnings (usually dreams or psychedelic trips) My chakras arent healed yet and im not out of hell fully so well see how it goes. But I often asked myself if I didnt surrender and beg for mercy and forgiveness, and kept up my bad attitudes/resentments to life and God, would I ever made it out? By this point I didnt want to know, I was living in 11/10 terror on a daily basis, at this point it isnt possible to go any deeper as far as I can see, I wasnt willing to find out. The most terrofying thought would be leaving your physical body whilst in this state, thats terrorfying, I often thought would there be a final act of mercy from God and come save you. The problem here is emperical when you look around the world you dont see many acts of mercy, so I wouldnt gamble on this happening. Theres also a real sense that your actions, attitudes and behaviours have led you here, so its a consequence, and there is no quick fix, or anyone to save you TLDR hell exists, whether or eternal or not in the sense your asking, I dont know, You could definatley get stuck there a very long time. The issue is your actions yourself take you there, and its your attitudes/actions your being that keeps you stuck there. Youd imagine the deeper into hell you go, the deeper the surrender required. Wouldnt recommend finding out

I would say thats how most people are getting enlightened lol, seems like a wierd or loaded question

I have this white light experience on LSD with 250ug, was incredibly intense and quite terrofying considering the previous 1hr was spent in demonic hell realm visions Now its more like being on the outer orbit of the white light, I take it, energy buils up and then theres a feeling of sucking up out of rabbit holes and threads of conciousness and merging slowly towards this centre thing, kinda wierd actually

Are they always the same type of experience your having? Do they change in quality of aspect? Any negative ones?

I concur LSD is my favourite psychedelic so far

LOL this theory doesnt hold up in reality, most people tend to have incredibly stressful and traumatic experiences on 5meodmt. I hope its the relxing experience you depict Im gonna have to fly internationally to get some, my other batch got destroyed by post

What about 5meo mipt is it the same?

Because thats literally what it is. Its degrading, degradation is a form of shame, demeaning somone, we are just blinded its normalised. In a bangbang the women is treated like a whore, thats degrading. No self respecting women with high self esteem would be used like that, and no high respecting men would treat women like that Further without the degradation, they simply arent enjoyable lol! Without that paradigm theres no pay off or reward especially for men Look Im sure someone will make the picture or claim of a loving orgy, thats based on mutual respect joy, without any shame or degradation. That definately is not the format of most gangbangs, and even those type of events, they can be fun but ultimately theyre unfulfilling too, your doing them simply for novelty In my experience, and Ive tested this alot, sharing your body intimately with people you dont know, simply isnt enjoyable, we force ourselves to do it to get the cheap high or orgasm or the dopamine from chasing sex Novetly without any context or container simply becomes addictive and desctructive, it has nothing to ground it or stabilise it in reality. Look I did my time in promiscuity, so I dont blame guys for wanting to explore it all. I have had 500-800+ partners, and my biggest regret was sleeping with people simply for the novelty or high, and also mixing alcohol and cocaine at period. By far my most enjoyable times with dating and sexuality was with girls I was attracted to, and had a good time hanging out with, it was fun, relaxed, intrinsically enjoyable outside of sex and inside of sex, and I genunely enjoyed spending time with them Things aren't mutually exclusive, which I completely missed when younger, you can get all your needs met and more by finding the right partner

Good questions. I would say a fundemental shift in; identity, worldview, intentionality, and behaviours

I appreciate that you're trying to help, but I didn't ask for advice, and it feels totally unsolicited. I'm comfortable making my own decisions and setting my own boundaries. I would prefer if we could avoid giving advice unless it's requested. Thanks for understanding

For me this is just Praxis : https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Praxis_(process)

Agree, but Id say that the intersection of understanding and experience is the beginning of embodiment.

I respect your opinion, but I didn't ask for advice. I'm entitled to set and enforce my boundaries with others, and there's nothing wrong with that. I don't appreciate any suggestion that it's inappropriate to do so.

100% agree, but understanding in the pure form has grave limits. There is a maximal amount of pure understanding you can obtain about any given thing, before you need to experience or become the thing to furhter your understanding and deepen your knowledge. Only when understanding meets experiental knowledge (embodiment), does true understanding begin, before this its mainly in the abstract, a limited type of understanding or knowledge, it was purely conceptual modelling and approximating, hypothesizing, inducting and inferring

Lol nor should they want to, or even try, thats not cool.

Agreed, but thats where the intellectual - embodied dichotomy breaks for me. Intellectual knowledge is a type of misnomer, its mostly just understanding

Fun? I think at some point earlier he was trying to impose and mandate his values onto me without my permission, that isnt fun thats perverse and abusive. He isnt engaging at all in the conversation, and is either trolling or deflecting. This isn't cute or fun, its toxic and childish.

I would say you only need to understand something to a certain leve of depth to make a valid value proposition. I dont need absolute understanding of child molestation (i.e. living infitinely as all possible child molestors), to make the call I dont want to do it. I simply only need to assess the value of the process (obessesing about children, the emotional trauma that comes with that, the isolation, pain and suffering) and outcomes (harm to myself, children, family, society, the humungous guilt, shame remorse etc etc) ffrom whatever vantage point I have now. Its a heuristic.

Sure, but thats becuase I dont want to embody it, it isnt valuable or beneficial, or rather its totally destructive. I also cant say I fully understand child molestation, I understand the outlines and mechanics to certain degree, but I certainly dont know what its like to be one, theres a whole host of emotional, psychological and behavioural facets I have no real understanding of, I can only do gross inaccurate inferences Further Id make the claim there is a limit of your pure understanding before embodiment has to happen, else no further depth is possible.

Okay got it, so your basically either stating There are trans-human understandings, which transcend typical human experience and should be pursued for their own sake, possibly offering intellectual or philosophical insights beyond practical applications. There are intra-human understandings that are rooted in human experience but might be too difficult or impossible to fully embody, or that might not provide any significant value if embodied, making the effort potentially useless. I dont see any other outcomes so far