A Fellow Lighter

How does this happen? What would the Totality be?

Easier said than done it would seem. I've also had a similar idea along those very lines of reason: Being conversing with Itself for the purpose of knowledge. But I kept running into the constant problem of plan instantly disintegrating in the face of actuality. It's like some other inner persona immediately takes the driver seat of attitude and action, as if called by the environment itself, called by the situation which is peculiar to its function. This is especially difficult when you feel like attacked, or sensing a deliberate injustice of some sort. How I respond to that would be completely undirected or unplanned. The defensive or aggressive persona just takes over if provoked.

@themarkacosta Have you ever considered that perhaps manifestations aren't meant to be sought but, rather, discovered?

@r0ckyreed The process is mind. The cause is caring. When you care to be aware of sth, or experience sth, it manifests in your consciousness.

I like this definition.

The words Love and Light have never made more sense than now. Suddenly I know my purpose, I know my potential, and I know my work. Mind is not a noun, Mind is a verb. It's the movement, the activity - the only activity in the entirety of existence.

This journal is specifically for the purpose of integrating my self-realisation as Mind. There is so much potential in this, my ways of thinking about the world is literally less rigid and liquid-like at the moment, potent with reformation and repose. I'd like to keep track of it as it happens, as I explore the spectrum of ways for integrating this into my day-to-day experience. Here we go ?

Energy flows It's the most remarkable thing ever, not merely the consciousness of it, but the nature of it as it is - the nature of reality - it is energy flow. Energy flows from one state into another, from liquid to gas, or liquid to solid, or, rather illuminatingly, from unconscious to consciousness. The point being the flow, the inevitability of the flow that is, against the background of transience. It seems we are all co-Creators of the same energy which is the pure essence of knowledge itself. The energy, potent with transfigurative possibilities, enables any creation, any reality, any thought of creation. And the Mind is its wielder, and its master if willed.

I'm here, but at the same time.. I'm actually not here. I'm here as the Nothingness, here as nothing,.. but here. And I am the source - the nothing - I am the source.. just watching.. and willing things into existence as well as out of existence. My Will is the only Way for any sort of creation in the whole cosmos. Will is the Way.. I am the Way.. there is no other Way but me. My Will is the light of the world. And, in deed, I am willing, for look.. there is Mind, right here, to reflect my Will. I am willing for this moment to exist. I am willing.

It's such a miraculous thing to observe - Mind. It's really just beyond anything abstract. It literally feels like a live work of art. I'm not really here as a person, but here as the source of energy which enables this artistic/generative activity called Mind. I can feel the energy flowing, I can observe the energy being channeled. I don't know how to describe it. It is as though the Mind is somehow just knowing itself, like it's digging into to itself, trying to awaken to itself. But the potential feels limitless, and the progress still very rigid and definite as to not be illusive or evasive of itself. Work is Law. I guess that's one way to describe it.

I feel like I'm searching for something, or feel like I should be searching for the foundation of information, but I'm still looking for the best way to go about this. To bring things into one's consciousness. This seems to be the all-in-all function of Mind. And how effortlessly this seems to come about - so effortless that we have confused common sense with true wisdom/knowledge. I honestly don't know how I am able to do what I do: how I am able to count; how I am able to read; how I am able to do anything intelligible. In fact, I just realised that I actually don't know anything. I used to think that I knew, but now I realise that everything that's been happening has been doing so on its own. The only thing I contribute is the Will to drive this process. Otherwise I really don't have a clue as to what is happening where there is cognition involved. I am looking for the source, think. Or in actual case just waiting for it to be revealed I guess - the source of intelligence, that is to say.

I'm having trouble reading/studying, weather academic or nonacademic, content. I'm finding it annoyingly difficult to try to learn about how to make sense of things. I don't know how to think. I don't know how I am to make sense of the data in the world.

A notable shift in consciousness: Self-observation has taken the place of meditation. I no longer find an urgent need to meditate as I did before. Simply observing myself, observing the mind bringing whatever into consciousness, is efficiently enough. There is, though, the new urge, the new need for me to learn how to be still. There is a new degree of awareness of the energy coursing through me. This energy I would use, before, rather mindlessly and irresponsibly which would have then resulted in that chaos that is mania. Now there is a sharp awareness of this energy. I understand myself, now. And life has become a little bit more orderly (or rightfully natural). I can make out the direction I'm being pulled toward - inwards. And I'm learning to go with the flow. However, in order to learn with less friction (or resistance), I need to first learn how to be still. This will increase the level of self observation, thus further enable me to be mindful in my ways. To be more and more Mindful - the goal of the self realised, it would seem. I'm attracted to what I already am, or, at least, higher potentials me.

I've also been waiting.. watching.. looking to see if this realisation is still as truthful as it was initially. The good news is that it still is, the truth stands as towering as before. It also had me thinking: How could I have missed this for so long? How could I have failed to notice this earlier on? I mean it's so obvious and so constant, without a single glitch. There is no way you can miss it. And yet I did miss it. And then it hit me as to why I missed: simply because of the nature of the truth itself - I am Mind, I am what I care to be aware of, what I want to be conscious of. That is to say, my Will is the only way for anything to come into experience. But now, there is no escaping this truth. Perhaps momentarily forgetting it, but never escaping from it. It shall forever be a towering one, so long as my spirit it true to itself.

Somehow my life just seems a little less chaotic. Mainly because I now feel like a child. Suddenly everything about me, everything that I once considered good about me and everything that I once considered bad about me.. suddenly that's lost all conceivable meaning, and, in turn, a new fundamental layer of innocence has been unveiled. I feel like a child version of a god.. of a creator. Like I can do/be/create anything that I Will. I am already doing just that, only I'm doing in it in the most childlike manner. And the so-called physical body, here, is that equivalent of the training wheels on a kid's bicycle.

What is Self is ultimately the Mind. Or, put exactly, life is only that activity which we call Mind. This is such an out-of-this-world experience for me, and yet, not really because it's the only experience I've ever had.. it's only that I'm just realising it now for what it is. It changes everything! What is conventionally considered as the mind is not Mind.. well it is, but that's just a really small aspect of it. The mind is not just the thoughts, or the intellect and imagination in our heads as we're led to believe. It's much more grandeur than that. It's literally the only world which you can know. The so-called physical or material world is one big elaborate hoax. Nothing about the world is material, nothing about the world is mechanical. In fact, if anything, reality is purely organic - everything behaves as though it is one grand organism. It's not connected - it's all one thing. Guys, the mind isn't even a cognitive thing, it's not that faculty of reason or comprehension. It is literally Everything, it is all that there is, and it is a mystical and spiritual thing. I don't feel like I have a mind of my own, I am the Mind alone. There are too many profundities to say from this yet too little logic to use in expressing these same profundities. However, I can say as much as this: it feels like I've just entered a state of lucid dreaming. This is it. This is the Self-realisation, for there is no other self to realise but the Mind. I'm yet to explore the spectrum of the potential of this Truth. For now I'm just watching the system of thinking doing all kinds of twists-and-turns. There is so much going on energetically and emotionally within me, right now. I feel like running. Yet, something is telling me to keep still and experience this energy in its raw form. Anyway, I just thought I should probably share this while it's still in my interest to do so. I might journal about this later. For now there is only this. My Self is Mind

What do you mean?

When your current state of consciousness returned, did it feel like it was you who left the mouse or feel like it was the mouse that left you?

You seem to have a well structured way of going about your chakra work. Could you share this method? Beginning with your first experience of your first chakra. Yes, the crown chakram will not be unblocked if you have not surrendered yourself to the One Creator. And you won't be able to surrender if you have not grasped the meaning/purpose of this experience called life.

Though this may be the case, it is certainly not the experience, thus, not one's level of consciousness. This is chaos, no? When truth does not match experience? What would you call this? I don't wish to control anything, I only wish to do what I do consciously instead of unconsciously. In exactly this context, there is only myself to tame.

Brilliant, you are uncovering the limitations and, ow thus, the dynamics of finitude. Yes.. in the exploration of the One Self, the Infinite One will, as a means of conclusive and thus progressive thought, assume finitude in order to reflect, or be conscious, of its thought own thoughts. This is what I term the crystallisation of the illusive bubble that is Consciousness, for consciousness, as you are to discover for yourself, is but a distortion/illusion of that which is absolutely One. The crystallisation of Consciousness results in the many, cross-dimensional, facets/focuses of.. the modalities, as you call them. However, this crystallisation, as the lessons of consciousness are learned, is to collapse within itself. This is the.. the quality, if we can call it that, of awakening. The focuses merge into one, thus realising a higher Self, so to say. The idea here is that the limitations in themselves are merely projections of Free Will in what one supposedly can and cannot do, be and cannot be, and likewise with every other conceivable polarity. These are mere manifestations of the direction/route which one is willing to take in the learning of the One Self. And yes, they can be dissolved.

This ? answers this ? Your considerations are most careful, fam. I commend you on this thoughtful endeavour. Keep going.

Although I understand exactly what you mean here, it is, as a fellow lighter, my duty/honour to firmly remind you that there is, in truth, no actual running away from your absolute self. Every journey is but a route and reroute towards, inward, your One Self that is absolutely transcendental. I, for one, have caught a glimpse of solipsism, in fact, it was quite a vivid experience, and might I add, the vividest experience in all of my other experiences combined, which I can describe only as that moment of utmost clarity. I awoke to the One Self. But in all honesty, I simply wasn't ready, or perhaps, not willing to let that truth.. this truth which is already here and now.. let it shine so bright, so to speak. I minimised that brightness into something more comprehendible, more receivable, which is what I currently imagine, what you currently imagine, to be what is here and now in your 3rd dimensional vibration. However, to say that one imagines, whatever s/he imagines, simply out of fear.. is to negate greatly the force of Creation which, I've learned, to be Free Will. It is best to always keep in mind the one motive of Creation when considering the aspects of the limited self that is our human consciousness, that motive being the enlightenment of the One Self - learning what it means to be existence itself. In the enlightenment of the One Self, our level/dimension of consciousness is the lesson, and Free Will the teacher, for there is no other mode of learning than the making of the Choice.

That is precisely correct, this is what Mind is, see? To mind is to bring something into your consciousness/awareness, for what is matter other than that which occupies the infinite space of Mind. In the exploration of the One Self, Mind is our Work. To mind or not to mind - that is the true question. Look around, explore your view for a bit, notice all the objects, touch whatever you touch, feel whatever you feel. Then notice that all matter is literally but Mind: matter is the actual viewing of the scenery, the exploration of sceneries, matter is the touching and feeling of anything. There is no matter without the Mind. It is a duality, consciousness is both Mind and Matter. In fact, it is one and the same thing, for one's environment is literally one's Mind. The experience is the Work which is Mind/Matter duality. You may come to postulate any being that you wish, this is absolutely fine, for it is for you and only for you to device the tools which you'll use to further your awakening. See, my mind, the Creator is not I, in the sense that I am a person. In my mind, the Creator is unison, the singular flow of enlightenment which constitutes of those beings which I call, so honourably, Lighters of the One Infinite Self. For their/our Work, whether aware of it or not, is the performance of Light-Work - persons are something like the conductors of Truth, the cords and threads of the Creator which is not a person.. but unison. See? The unison is what orchestrates being in this context. But remember just this, that it is merely all context in your exploration and navigation of Self. There is no finally, so to speak, here. You, the One Self, are thee finally, and i, in context, am only one Lighter in your enlightenment of the One Self.

Yes... The self/existence is a mystery, the whole point of Creation/Thought is the eternal exploration of what it means to exist/to be the self. Hence, fundamentally, life is enlightenment, the present moment is enlightenment, true enlightenment has no beginning nor and end, it is eternal. Hence, by the end of this Creation, upon your Awakening into 4th dimensional existence, you would have learnt something about what it means to be the Self. In fact, if you will it, the lesson could be grasped at this very moment, for the lesson is the moment. You could right now grasp that Love is what it means to be the Self, but you would have to truly learn this in order to realise your highest (truest) Self. However, you are also correct in feeling that You are an eternal mystery, for what you fundamentally are is absolutely transcendental, meaning there is no end to your exploration of self, no end to enlightenment. Although, awakening to this will also be an ascension, one into 5th dimensional existence which is the vibration of Light. Thus, the eternal mystery is also a distortion/imagination for it is a paradox. It will soon then dawn on you that there is a level of awakening that is much higher than the eternal mystery that you, upon that level of existence, will grow bored and soon, if not awakening, tortured by the eternal mystery. You will soon seek to transcend the 5th dimensional existence which is the vibration of enlightenment, into the 6th dimensional existence which is the vibration of Free Will. Here you will awaken to Wisdom that the Self is ultimately what you are willing to be.