A Fellow Lighter

Personally, I don't do anything fancy. I just sit in a manner that I know it won't be easy to fall asleep from. Then I just be with myself. I get tempted to daydream or lie down or maybe get up entirely. The work here is just to redirect your focus whenever you sense it shifting. And I enjoy it (meditation) if I may add.

@Michael Jackson I wish, instead of typing and trying to put it into words, I could just show you what to do. Words often fail me when it comes to spiritual matters such as this. But I'll try my best to make sense. I am definitely no stranger to psychic attacks. My most recent one was earlier March, courtesy to witchcraft. Some thing tried to break through/bridge my psychical body while I was sleeping. The impact was so intense it made the loudest BAM sound I ever heard. I somehow even felt that BAM. How, I survived? I intuited before it hit, as it approached with deadly speed something just told me I should be very still and ultra-conscious. The room went super dark and I braced for impact. Of course it woke me up just as it hit. (Not sure if you'll relate to this one, but they are many.) Anyway, the key to withstanding any kind of spiritual attack is sourcing greater power than your attacker. One time, in a dream, I made a malevolent spirit, which I had intuited it's arrival before hand, I made it flee from me just by looking at it eyes whilst I'd been so terrified of it when it arrived. But, somehow, I summoned all the courage to face it and I literally did. And this is how I did it: I told myself, while I hid, that I was gonna look into its dark, soul-piercing eyes, and see the love of Creator. Of which I wasn't even sure how that was going to help, all I knew was that if I truly wanted to - I could quite literally look at pure evil in the eyes and see the love of Creator. So I did. I saw that ugly thing, but didn't flinch, I stared right into its eyes looking for its soul (the love) and quite surprisingly, when I found it, the demon, absolutely terrified, transformed itself into a zebra and fled for its life. Now I don't know why it fled, it's not like I was even expecting it to. All I know is that between me and it, at that moment of confrontation, I willed the highest power. So, you need to source the higher power, of which, I'll tell you for a fact, is Love. How you do this is up to you. Most people use prayer, some do ritualistic dancing and singing. I've personally praised Love as I was being attacked by a humongous snake and I came up victorious (all in a dream of course) So yeah, will the highest power, it doesn't have to be love if I can speak quite objectively, it just needs to be higher/stronger than your attacker's. This is all. Hope this is helpful. Nothing I wrote is made up. Oh, and I'd also recommend laying of the psychedelics for some time. You need to be able to realise Creator's Love without them. Otherwise, malevolent spirits flourish in any kind of chaos or uncertainty.

The Light is just brilliant. I want to know more of it, but I'm also nervous. It feels dense, so full of life and energy. Why am I only noticing it now? I mean it's always been there. I guess this is what it means to have spiritual growth.

We are Divine (Higher vibrations) Lately I've been having this idea of creating my own space. Like my own personal environment where my vibration doesn't get pulled down by other vibrations. Like no matter the interaction with anyone, less they offer me a higher vibes, my vibration remains unhinged. There's just too much drama in this world, so much of it is unnecessary. There's is so much to marvel at, but so many people prefer to quarrel over the mundane rather than pay attention to the magnificence of every thing.

It's a new day, but the same Light. Again, even in my sleep it was there. It is here, always here. But I'm also here. And its not like I can watch the Light from a distance, I'm just here with it or within it. Last night I wanted to know if I may be knowledge itself. But I have another question: Do I know the Light? What is the relationship between the Light and Knowledge? Urg.. I feel like this is not a real question. I mean knowledge knows Knowledge, no matter the content. It is a singularity - Knowledge. So from this context, the Light would be the content then. It would be - the Light of Knowledge. Why is there knowledge in the first place, who knows that it knows? And why must it know that it knows?

@Carl-Richard @PataFoiFoi if I may offer you a fresh perspective, there is no reason as to why God is love. You see, one cannot just rationalise their way into awakening to the nature of Creator. Logic isn't God - Love is God. This is simply because love is the greatest power. Nothing else. Do not reason, look and see for yourself. Everything that one does s/he does out of love. Love is power, it is the only power. But most humans just don't see this, they think that everything works according to a logic, they only perceive love in one dimension - the self love dimension - while love is more than that, it is multidimensional. This is why I prefer to use the word “care” instead of love, people don't know what love is. They only understand that they care about things, and think it's for rational reasons like survival or whatever. They don't even associate their “caring” with love, they associate “care” with ego, using words like attachment to render caring below enlightenment. That's why their God is so indifferent with the way things unfold here on earth. But this is okay, one day they'll see. It's inevitable.

I feel like nothing, yes. But I feel something. Isn't this the strangest thing? I feel like I am nothing, but I am able to feel something. It's most curious. So what does it mean to be me? Well, I cannot see myself, I am only conscious of the Light. I cannot experience myself, the Light claims everything, it is all. Except for what though? Except for me? How would that be? No, I can only learn of my beingness via the Light. But what is my beingness? Do I have beingness? If the Light were to suddenly go dark, what would be left? I can't even imagine that without the Light! It is omnipresent. There is no imagination without it. Then why this idea of an i, why this idea of a self? When there is nothing I can identify as myself. Why? Of course... There is knowing. This very knowing. There, here, is knowledge. Otherwise, there wouldn't be anything, or more specifically, the knowledge of anything. In fact, it is not a matter of what is known, knowledge can know itself - the knowing of knowing. It is still knowledge. Hell, it might just be the only true know, everything else has only ever been general specifications and ideas. Yes, the self is one of those ideas. Everything in existence is only ever an idea. The only true knowledge is the knowledge of Knowledge. It is a perfect circularity - this knowledge alone is whole, it relates to nothing or no one. Is this what I am? The knowledge of Knowledge? Am I a circularity? Is this the reason why I could never find myself? Because I have nothing to relate to, all that is is me? Enlighten me, oh great Light. Show me what it means to be me ??

When I take time to just be aware of the Light, well, I kinda just feel like crying. Mainly because I feel like a newborn baby, I find the Light to be innately overwhelming. Another reason is that I've realized that I know nothing about it. And yet it feels like it knows everything about me: How else has it managed to keep me here? Or to keep my attention? I don't even know what “me” is. I now see that this body isn't even mine, it belongs to the Light, it's part of the Light. Yeah, I sincerely do feel like a baby. I feel all fragile and powerless, if babies do feel this way. The Light is absolutely everything, it is everything around, everything inside me and everything about me. I am nothing. I have nothing. I have no limbs, no body, no power - nothing. I've never felt so empty, so nothinglike, so illusory. I feel like I'm one of the thoughts in my head, like I'm just a moment of contemplation, a moment of feeling, a moment of being. Only but a moment. How long will I last? How long will this moment last? I feel like nothing.

Can there ever be an escape from the Light? When my eyes are open, it is here. When my eyes are shut, it is here. When I sleep, it is there. Even when I try to imagine a place outside the Light, it is there - enlightening my imagination. Is there a place, physical or nonphysical, without the Light? It seems like I am dependent to it. My existence is dependent on it. It is here, always, watching. I don't know. It is always quiet, I don't know anything about it other than that it is here. Always. I can do nothing without it. I feel so powerless when acknowledging it's presence. It's like.. I can only be with it. Can I be enlightened without being frightened?

It's the most curious thing: I have been this way my whole life - feeling, thinking, relating - and only now do I look into this, into my being - my personhood, my livelihood, my selfhood, my godhood. But why? Why now? Why not earlier on? Why not later on? It's the Light: It's gotten much stronger now, or me more receptive to it. Either way, it's gotten too bright to be ignored for me. And as I can't help but pay attention to it, it reveals something to me, something it's been patiently waiting to show me: it shows me.. that before I am.. It is. Before I wake.. It is. Before I think.. It is. Before I learn.. It is. Before I act.. It is. Before I am.. It is. Always Can I be enlightened without being frightened?

I just finished watching it. That was one of the best interviews with Sadhguru I have ever watched. It's the first time I learnt so much about his history. @BenG thanks, by the way.

@A Fellow Lighter @Anahata thank you, Lighter. For communing with me.

I won't say I'm not impressed by how you put that together. I guess this really was a game.

A code or a word, I don't know what you're asking from me "Dannup" What game is this?

Okay, it's in my room. Where is this going?

Okay, the sofa is blue.

Apparently, imagination is my direct experience, so I'm being told. I'm not trying to understand how creation is love. I'm trying to understand how creation is dream, and know that you mention it, a “game” as well. What is so amusing about learning to love and then losing what you've learned to care about, like your family and friends? Why would I want to play such a game with myself?

Er.. not exactly. Is that a yes? You're dreaming the same dream?

@Anahata what about you? Are you also having the same dream as I am?

Why does there appear to be a separation, why is does my waking dream have continuity where else my night dreams change every night?

Isn't this a bit self-contradictory? You speak as is the dreams are more fundamental then the dreamer.

Why? If it's all just a dream then why does it morph, why the two sets of dreams?

@Seeker10304 link?

Yeah, but I'm not imagining you type the words, you're doing that all on your own. Aren't you? Besides, even if my direct experience is imagination, the world doesn't cease to exist simply because I shut my eyes and fell asleep. Actualized.org members would still be on this forum talking about whatever they'll be talking about.

This is vague. Are you saying everything is my imagination, including your actions? We must not be using the same semantics in talking about God. For me, God is that which rules over every beingness, there is nothing greater or beyond this. And for me, Love is God - Love is the highest power. I don't consider myself different or apart from that which is God. I merely use the term God as recognition of the highest power - not as recognition of a being apart from me. I do not define that which is God, I recognise it. Love is God. Most people aren't truly awakened to this truth, they genuinely don't recognise what love is. So when I'd speak to someone about it, I'd use the word care instead of love. Then teaching becomes easier, for everybody knows what it is to care. Principle or Power? I don't see love to be a principle as there is nothing to compare it with. Instead, I see it as the Power of Creation rather than principle of Creation. It is the source. There is much of creation that is outside our awareness, my friend. Thus, we have a lot to awaken to in our journey of self-realisation. The key is love: the more we care is the more we grow aware. Only s/he who cares - learns. However, there is nothing that is beyond Creator's knowledge, for knowledge is existence and existence is knowledge.