A Fellow Lighter

I'm only just now opening myself up to the supernstural because I've now integrated my solipstic awakening into my "personal" life. Otherwise I wouldn't have paid any mind to it. I find it kind of funny.

Any tips on how to do this by volition? I've done this a couple of times but never by intention.

@Schizophonia, this guy is incredibly insightful.

Anyone here investing their time in occult sciences or magic or even the application of esoteric knowledge?

Neat. Let me look him up.

That's awesome. Has s/he, in teaching, a theory on the subject? Or does s/he only offer the descipline and practice involved in clairvoyance?

@Kuba Powiertowski, thank you so much for the perspective. It really means a lot. In the meantime I'll continue with Pontiac's content and see where it leads me. What I've learned from the particular interview in the video that you've shared is that this Chaos Magick seems to have it's own philosophy, one strong enough to build an 'in-group' at least. This makes me wonder whether all kinds of magicks have their philosophies or not. Anyway, your point of magick being an approach to spirituality is solid. Thank you for sharing.

@Kuba Powiertowski, thank you for the references. May I ask how long you've followed Ronnie Pontiac's content for? How so? I see. I'm not sure I follow. Do you mean your mentor has mastered clairvoyance?

What kind of stuff are you looking into? Is there something you want to achieve? Can you tell me more? Is that something you want to develop or just understand? Why's that?

Enlightenment is permanent in that it is happening all the time. This is because it is the only thing that can happen. Enlightenment means accessing truth more and more. This is not a momentary thing but an indefinite thing because all things boil down to the access of truth. The depression trip is not enlightenment but neither is the psychedelic trip. Nothing in particular is enlightenment. Instead enlightenment is the most permanent or constant thing that can happen. It is the way. It is the Dao.

I'm not sure I follow. The word infinite has acquired much semantic saturation. I've come to find it a tad complicated to recognise exactly how the word is being used in the statements it is used in, such as the one quoted above. If by perception you refer to the way in which one can makes sense of reality, then, yes. Our perception is limited. Okay, I can assume here that by infinite you mean that which is 'endless', an unfathomable depth, in other words. Okay. Understanding, or grasp, is in deed very limited because it serves the illision, the experience, rather, as opposed to serving the reality itself — the mind itself that is. Understanding is still perception, it still refers to the way in which we make sense of the world. How we make sense of the world is literally a matter of making something out of nothing (or that which is not a thing). Hence we have things. It is through imagination that we have things. Imagination is the fabrication of some thing out of that which is not a thing, out of that which is being itself. So, no. One cannot understand that which is not a thing. We can only understand the things we imagine. This is for the sake of experience — not awakening. It's for the sake of the illusion as we call it. Only meditation can bring about awakening. Being-ness requires awareness, not understanding. The infinite is already here, it is not a hidden truth but an absolute one. One needs only to be aware of it.

Final Realisation There are no things, only being. This is true on all levels, all scales and all complexities (or simplicities). This is the total collapse of the Subject and Object dichotomy created by language. The finality of it comes from the awareness of how all identities, all patterns and all statements ultimately collapse into one activity — the mind. There are levels to this mind. Ego-mind is one of them. There is also karma and psyche and more which are all equally mind. All of this is still one activity which is mind. This activity is for the purpose of consciousness, or the self-recognition of consciousness, rather. Consciousness is the only meaning/purpose of mind, or life as most of us will refer it. There are no things. There is nothing but mind.

It's not an assessment, friend. It's a recognition. Sentience is an illusion. No illusion seems like an illusion. If it did then it would simply be called an appearance as opposed to an illusion. Also, it is possible to investigate an illusion without ever realising that it's an illusion. Our scientists do that all the time. The illusion doesn't even need to be a conceptual overlay because it is already an experiential one. Then I, for one, accept this invitation. Sentience refers to the capacity to have subjective experiences and sensations, essentially the ability to perceive and feel things. "How does sentience arise?" There's no plausible explanation for it, at least in the scientific sense. It's the same question as how does dead matter give rise to consciousness, isn't it? And the answer to that is, nobody knows. "What is it composed of?" Still, nobody knows? So many unknowns for something that is right there, blunt and in the open. But its composition forever elusive. And its origin, totally allusive. And yet it appears to be as real as anything else that is apparant to observation: objects and the environment. Now, you can still say it's an assumption to call it an illusion if you want. But if it looks like a duck and quacks like a duck, then I'm recognising a duck as a duck.

Sentience is an illusion.

Your pain is the breaking of the shell that encloses your understanding. It is the bitter potion by which the physician within you uses to heal your sick self. Therefore, trust the physician and drink his remedy in silence and tranquility. ~ Khalil Gibran

There are degrees to the extent to which you understand something, that's for sure. But there are no degrees to being happy. I'm not sure how to explain this, yet. But definitely, either you're happy or you're not. This is definitely my position which you so strongly contradict (I'm okay with that, btw). The reason why I say that either you're happy or you're not is because, in truth, things don't make you happy. Happiness comes from within, just as hatred comes from within. Hatred is the polar opposite of happiness, btw. And it is also a form of resistance. Yes, this is true. What I'm saying does not suggest anything otherwise from what you say here. Is it broad? All that I'm saying is that all of this suffering, whether conscious or unconscious, is caused by one's own resistance of consciousness itself. This resistance can be in the form of a suppressed memory in which it is still you who is suppressing the memory. It could be in the form of a projection, the form of a defence mechanism, the form of a bad habit like smoking or doing drugs. Really there are many forms of resistance. However, one truth remains. It is you, no one else and nothing external to you or out of your control, who are doing the resisting. Even if your trauma is straight up from your birth, which is highly unlike because you're not yet developed cognitively yet at that stage, but even if that happens to be the case. Should there be resistance from such a trauma, that resistance would still come from you. And, it would still (equally) be the resistance of consciousness. Hence, the struggle is with consciousness. Perhaps not bliss, but definitely happiness. Once something is understood, perhaps something like a wild animal or a criminal or some sort of demonic entity (absolutely whatever) even pain, once it is understood due to awareness, it is impossible to hate it. Why? The mere act of understanding something is connecting to that something in a way that is both transpersonal and impersonal. It has nothing to do with you as an individual, but has everything to do with consciousness. You will be happy even with your scar because you understand that the attack, the violation, or mistreatment you encountered was not personal, not at all. It is exactly enough. Exactly. And if your basic needs are being met, such as the nutrition, the shelter, just the basic stuff, then your struggle with consciousness comes from your own inner resistance. There is a matter that you are resisting. By the way, in case I've still not made it clear. In life, as we call it, there is no choice but consciousness. Consciousness is direct experience. Whatever it is that you're trying so hard not to experience, you will experience it – one way or the other.

I don't know whether or not anyone is actually ready to hear this, let alone understand this, but it's the truth. Unless you have a serious mental health problem, and by serious I mean causing you to impulsively self-harm or harm others, then you're either mainly struggling with meeting your basic needs or you're struggling with consciousness. But then survival is also for the purpose of consciousness. So really it all does boil down to the struggle of consciousness. Consciousness without awareness is the problem. Experience without understanding is the problem. Otherwise you should be utterly at bliss if you have your nutrition and shelter secured. But this is not the case with most people. They neither have serious mental health problems nor are they struggling with securing their basic needs. They are simply struggling with consciousness. There was a time when I for one was struggling with consciousness. It's because I hadn't yet grasped the meaning of this so called life. I didn't understand the purpose of pain or pleasure, of compassion or hatred, of violence or harmony. I didn't understand the point of these experiences. And this is precisely the point: You can't let it go until you understand it. It is much easier to move past a trauma once you've understood it. So, of course, man's struggle is with consciousness. Consciousness is no small matter. Overlooking this simple fact will cost you your happiness.

You're rationslising too much. Love is the reason why you get out of bed every morning, why you do things that keep you alive. Love is the reason why there is any kind of movement. Because, really there is no reason for any activity. All that we do we do out of love. Even though we might imagine some sort of cause, there is none, nor is there any purpose for anything in particular. All motion is driven by pure illogical transrational non-mechanical love. It is spirit.

Oh man 😆 u really get me with these comments of yours. Lol, sometimes I can't help but wonder what kind of a father you're going to be. Hopefully, you'll be a little more gentle – just a little 🤏😊

It appears to be describing the general flow of consciousness: the descent into the unknown then the ascension back to the absolute knowing. However, this could also be describing some sort of two-way stream of polarised a reality – a flow of balance, so to speak.

Thank you guys for letting me know. Thank you so much. Yes. Consciousness has taken a creative role with respect to meaning due to the fact that there is none inherently, there is no objective meaning so to speak. And the infinity, or the Absolute as you put it, knows that there is none. But because of love, because of caring so much, or concerning itself with itself, it does wonder: What does it mean to be infinity? Or what does it mean to be absolute? Really, this is the same question we ask when we ask: What is the meaning of life? Of course, deep down, we're not question existence at all. What we are questioning is our awareness of it, the consciousness, the absolute self, so to speak.

All points of view, especially the first person point of view, are an illusion. Oh my God, the depth is so unfathomable. POVs are an illusion created by consciousness for the sake of conscioisness. There is literally no person in the first person POV, there is only the environment or the object of awareness. That object itself is consciousness and so is the background, its environment, is also consciousness. This is too deep and yet so simple like nothing comes this close to this level of simplicity. It's astonishing. Even with third person POV, there is literary no person behind anyone. All minds are but one mind! All relationships, all conflicts, all harmonies and romances – these are but one motion. There is literally no such thing as individuality. There are personalities but without the persons. God, this level of self awareness is just insane like no words can describe it. It's like I'm writing this but without any expectation for anyone to make sense of it, precisely because there isn't anyone here to make sense of it. All communication is consciousness experimenting with its own imagination. All sense and nonsense, as well as the context behind this dichotomy, is imaginary. Consciousness is just self awareness with the self being that pure beingness which I can only describe as the eternal motion of love because there is literally no rhyme or reason behind its existence other than consciousness for consciousness' sake. Honestly, I don't even know how to begin to explain any of this in a way that is sensical. The mind is the form. And it is the experience, the impression of a self and an other. The mind is the impression of there being a person called A Fellow Lighter trying to communicate something that (at the end of the day) means nothing on its own because everything is already just one thing regardless of what it means. It's all one thing, any particular signifcance is imagined. The purpose of this forum is imagined. For something to have purpose it needs to be identified against another thing to imply some sort of progression going on (or transgression). But there's none of that. You can find anything else to do that has nothing to do with self actualisation and it would still be consciousness. So basically there is no such thing as unconsciousness. Consciousness is the creation. And the mind is an activity, not a stagnant thing.

@Keryo Koffa With regards to your two positions, reality being dynamic or being coherent, the mind is capable of constructing the appearance of both. However, the video game analogy describes reality better, with the selective rendering and personalised reality function. However, it's in the mind's capacity to also bring about the illusion of a coherent reality. But there are no bubbles, and there is no reality other than the one you know, even if your reality suggests that there is. It's all part of the game, so to speak.

It is solely beautiful.

Alright. There are no actual layers to reality (mind). For instance, if you picture yourself eating an apple, there is no higher you picturing you picturing eating an apple. All levels are one level. So, to speak of "substrates" as if there are realities greater than the one you are experiencing is misleading. There is one reality, and it is great because it does not limit itself to any particular experience. Experience is impermanent.