TheOneReborn

Behind what I can't perceive with my own eyes is a field of non-being, it is a state not yet before my eyes, the only eyes that i've ever worn, and the wind upon which is the only feeling ive i've felt and known. It is a field of infinite consciousness, infinite places I might be as I am at the feet of the mystery. The mystery is unknown, but my mind (fed in from the outside world of form and limitation (language)) feels it to be a dark place; yet through meditating on the magic of the moment and the light shining through the still waters of infinite being, I can see light. The infinite field of possibility is light itself and that light is love. The light is love itself. The light behind the field of infinite conciousness is light itself, not light as I see it or imagine it, but light itself, love itself. It is love as I CAN'T SEE IT, love as I know to be there though I can't see it. I am so in touch with the love of God in my heart, through hundreds of hours of practice, that I trust there to be light - real pure, infinite light- where there is thought to be darkness. I hold faith not for others, but for myself because I feel the horizon of love though I see not the fields of love just yet. Feel the light within, and feel the infinite love extant so long as there is something to see and something to be. So long as there is a horizon of unknown to be had. How do I share such a truth with my partners in this lake of love? I feel this truth to be the truth of seeing God, a word they love to use. That I can see God now, that is what I must communicate to be most true. To have emotions most true and comfortable, where I may rest my soul (I say such a word though I share my soul with everyone). Within, I see light, and that light is God. The light is real and that light is God. Light and love within, and God outside. Love on the inside, and God on the outside. How do I communicate this? I do so by enjoying God. I see him everywhere. I could never speak how, but i know it is the most real feeling I've ever felt. The masters I know communicate this through still eyes. The infinite field of conciousness is light itself, it is love itself, love as pure infinite being. Behold he light with your eyes. My ego thought it might do its best describing the emotions of enlightenment.

So well put. I feel the main issue to be that most people feel as if they're "not allowed" to feel this free.

I've been observing and enjoying all of the solipsism "debates" going on here the past week or so but can't help but think that we are all falling to a trap of language. Using words like "you" or "I" while always qualifying which version of said words you're referring to seems a pretty inaccurate way to convey the Absolute. "You" and "I" are very dualistic terms that are ultimately false. Language creates separation where none physically exist. I think if we emphasize the qualitative nature of Self by using the suffix "ness" we would get around a lot of these stupid debates. When we think that there is only infinite "I-ness" it becomes easier to conceive of how "others" don't exist but rather that "you" are simply nothingness experiencing/feeling the particular body and life that "you" are dreaming.

I started doing this after a spontaneous kundalini awakening. It felt good to balance both sides of my body.

We went from polytheism, to monotheism, to atheism as the prevailing belief of global power systems. I think the next logical stage for religious thought to take is for religion to recognize that God is as real as the ego is unreal. Less ego = more God conciousness. More ego = less God conciousness. I truly believe that a new religion is the only way that modern man can find reconcile our enhanced capabilities since the last major change in religious thinking, with out desire for a connection to God. Do you think we will see a serious new religion in the next 200 years that will catch on? I can see new age beliefs in the west coalescing into something more serious and standardized. I think this would generally be a good thing.

Feeling is the key to enlightenment. The false self is sustained maybe entirely through thinking. Awakening feels like absolute feeling. Feeling your fingers, Feeling your eyes, Feeling your crown, everything.

Marhaba. Can you find a way to sneak into Turkey and then travel to Western Europe?

For the past couple nights of meditation, I've felt like I've been right on the threshold of enlightenment but I'm terrified of surrendering. For me, enlightenment experiences have always been extremely physical things, I'm extremely sensitive so I can feel all sorts of strange sensations (especially in my chest and head) when I'm close to enlightenment or actually in it (aka I've surrendered to death). I've had only one real enlightenment experience so far and I've seen the white light and felt the infinite love. I know what lies on the other side of my fear (infinite love and literally everything anyone has ever wanted) but I'm scared. A week ago I was meditating and started to have an out of body experience, and I started visualizing a beautiful white light which just felt holy and divine starting to expand outside of me, I know what it was, I knew that it was the most pure, loving, and dead serious thing in the world, but I was so scared of letting it expand further, so I quickly tensed my body and the vision went away. This fear feels like a highly abstract fear, like im dealing with "fear" itself, and not fear of anything specific. However if I search my heart deep enough I can feel that what I'm really scared of is that "my way of being" will be so radically changed that I will be something else, which is exactly what death is. It's a change in your self-concept. My question is: how can I get over my fear of death when in deep meditative states? How can I learn to instinctively surrender to the sensation of death, instead of running from it. And why dies the ego fear love itself?

I've always thought mantras were a little tacky but I'll definitely give it a shot

I've been trying to embody Yellow thinking more and more. And I notice that the more I do so, the less of a need I feel to form opinions on things. I take more of an "observe and understand" approach instead of choosing sides over things. Is this a sign of Yellow thinking?

It's funny how one has to become "concious" of they're own fruitless attempt to grasp conciousness itself

Hi everyone, I'm happy to have joined this forum. I've been watching Leo's videos for a couple months now and they've helped a lot in helping me face my fears and make sense of my existence (which I've always somehow been afraid of). I recently had a near enlightenment experience a few weeks ago. I say "near enlightenment" because I was on the edge of it but I was afraid to let my ego die. I conciously kept my body tense so I didn't have to go through the full experience. But a thought occurred to me during that experience which got me thinking. When I was on the edge of ego death, I thought to myself that I needed to entirely let go of any conception I had about spirituality, enlightenment, and existence. At the end of the day all these things are concepts or images of Truth, which can never capture the Truth as it is. When I stopped trying to imagine what the mechanical of my conciousness "looked like" I noticed a huge energy shift towards my skull and I really felt like I was on the edge of death. I wonder what others think of this? How can we engage deeply in spirituality and practices and such without getting caught up in thinking that we are actually close to a conception of the Truth as it is.