Andromeda

This post will be dedicated to describing my first experience with 5-meo-dmt in as much detail as I can, for the purposes of documenting the experience for myself and others. Route of administration: snorting. Dosing: I bought a pack of micro scoops (https://www.amazon.com/SuperDosing-Static-Free-Micro-Variety-Milligram/dp/B077VSD8H2) and started of with the smallest one (6mg). These scoops are volumetric, so the 6mg one can contain 6mg of water, but not of other substances for they may be heavier or lighter. I read up and discovered that 5-meo is lighter than water, so a full scoop must have been less than 6mg. Comparing my experience to the dose chart on Psychonaut Wiki, this seems to be true, one 6mg scoop caused only threshold effects. Approach: I decided to keep taking small doses until I reached a point where I felt like I had a trip that was on the border of mild/common. The dosages were as follows: - T: 00:00: one 6mg scoop I felt nervous before I started but this feeling quickly dissipated and turned into a tranquility, which was quite enjoyable. The effects did not get stronger than this so I decided to dose again. - T: 00:15: another 6mg scoop The tranquil feeling increased, but I still felt no more than threshold effects. - T: 00:30: one 10mg scoop Decided to use a slightly bigger scoop. Keep in mind that the two previous 6mg scoops were still in my system. After about 10 minutes I noticed the experience took of and my heart started pounding. I started to have many deep realisations, whilst still being in contact with the outer world. It felt like the perfect dose to have a real taste of the effects. - T: 01:30: two 10 mg scoops The previous experience, which consisted of a buildup of three smaller doses, wore off. I decided to take two 10mg scoops. The effects were slightly less intense than the previous trip, so the peak effects of the different doses must have aligned. One big difference was that I got distracted by nausea, which came in waves and was pretty intense. I started feeling physically unwell, so I sat with a bucket, but never puked. I feel like at this time I also was kind of tired, and that this potentiated the 'negative' physical effects. Next time, I will try this substance whilst I feel more rested. This tryptamine ended up helping me get crazy insights, which gave me a new appreciation of consciousness work, and funnily enough, of how hilarious Leo's 'What does awakening feel like?' video is after having this experience. Insights: - It became hilariously obvious that I'm consciousness and that consciousness is everything. The depth consciousness has to it was very profound to experience, I cannot put in words. It's like a building with infinite layers which you can browse through, this life being just one of the layers. Even though I didn't see other layers, this is how it felt. I remembered this from a very strong thc edible experience. - Life is exactly what it should be. The notion of having or wanting to change anything in the world was hilarious to me and made me crack up. Whilst this is true, this doesn't mean you shouldn't get involved with life and try to make it better, you should. It's just not important in the way people tend to think it is think. You should play the game. - There is a strong correlation between being mature and being able to accept what happens to you in life. This correlation also holds for happiness. Don't fight life. This sounds very obvious now but the depth of it just hit me. It seems like this is something psychedelics do; you kinda know something but then it just becomes very obvious and you realize the depth of how true it is. - Given the points above, it became completely obvious that I should just let go and be myself, and anything less than that is not an act of self-love. Conclusion: I had a very positive experience. I can see how this substance should be treated with respect, if you start fighting it, things will get nasty. I will try bigger doses in the future.

Just now watching Leo's "What does awakening feel like?" video after first 5-meo-dmt experience: Only now do I appreciate how funny this video is. Tears are filling my eyes. The "of course..." and "how could I be so stupid" are rather funny and true. How am I ever going to explain this to my loved ones; they will think I went crazy .

I also have ADHD and Modafinil helped me out very well. It is much less addictive, but the effects are of a similar degree. I used it about once to twice a week for 4 years with great success. You might want to check out modafinil.com and some other resources before trying it, you'll still need to apply responsable use strategies. When it comes to using amphetamines, like someone above already said, it's easy to take it more often than you'd like. So set clear boundaries for yourself and decide on which days you will use it, and do not cross those boundaries once they are set.

24. And I really have a hard time when I perceive someone as better than me in something, especially when I just failed at that thing. Something interesting: narcissism actually tends to not get diagnosed. People with this disorder are not aware of their own problem. I have experience with a narcissist. What I observed is that everything that remotely threatens their self-image, gets projected outwards towards the person that caused the threat. So now it's actually you that did something wrong, and they will not rest until they made that clear to you, which could take years of long winded emails and texts. These person will destroy your life. They manipulate better than you will ever be able to and go to exessive lengths to take you down.

A good man has the power to create stability in his own life and the life of those around him. There is no courage without fear. A good man has true courage.

This is great. I will be checking these out. Thank you all. Btw, I am now listening to Ken Wilber, Religion of Tomorrow. Highly reccomended.

Thank you all very much. I'll provide more in depth responses later. I have never gone on a retreat, but am thinking about doing one in the future. Last two weeks I've been meditating to the transmissions. They work very well, even through a video. Also, I gave every thought some attention and noticed it's importance, which took away a lot of my frustration. I also sit for one hour now. It makes a difference for the rest of the day, I feel more at ease. Limiting the amount of moments I switch tasks also made me more calm and focused.

@mojsterr That's great advice, thank you for sharing this. Funny, I was just taking a walk and got the insight that from the perspective of consciousness, I (the ego/identity) is like my own child. So I am my own child in a sense. This insight left my with a sense of self-love. I think this will apply greatly to thoughts as well. It is indeed not necessary, even counterproductive, to resist the incontrollable, just like with thoughts.

Hi Guys, I've been having a hard time doing my daily meditation practice. I've been doing this practice for about 6 years. Every morning I sit down in half lotus for about 30-45 minutes using techniques like focus on the breath, doing nothing, awareness of sensations and turning consciousness in on itself. At times, my practice goes quite well, resulting in me taking the peacefulness with me into the rest of the day. But most often, my sessions are just a whirlwind of a billion thoughts and I sit there in complete distraction, feeling like I do not benefit from the session in any way. I can manage to remain aware so that I do not get completely lost in the thoughts, but I just hardly ever find quite and peace. My goal with the practice is to find peace and quite, to relax, so that I can feel more free. Some context: I have a really hard time concentrating. I can only really focus on things that I enjoy very very much, all other things are hard for me to focus on. This causes troubles with reading for example. I probably have ADD, given all other symptoms I have. I am looking for some advice. What should I try? I was thinking about maybe trying a type of yoga that requires getting into positions (I tried Krya but run into the same issues as with meditation). Do you guys have any other recommendations? Much appreciated.

Time for some dmt in butthole.

Thank you all very much.

I ingested an edible that was way, way, way more potent than I thought. It made me trip more intensely than low doses of LSD or shrooms ever did, and also in a way that was more productive for contemplation. My best spiritual insights were all during weed usage (but keep in mind I only did LSD and shrooms before in moderate dosage).

I have been listening to a bunch of Leo's material, a lot more than that of other spiritual teachers. I am familiar with Rupert Spira and Peter Ralston, but would like to discover more teachers in order to get more perspectives. Therefore I would like you to point some of them out for me. Especially teachers that have material available in audio format, but books are also fine. Just listing some is OK for me, but if you don't mind, please tell me why you pointed them out. To return the favor: you might be interested to listen to this conversation, which is also available in podcast form: Thanks in advance!