Nilsi

It's hard to talk to you because none of what you're saying is wrong, but it's still so limited by your scientism. Real courage (or spirituality for that matter) is not doing what science and society at large has already confirmed to be safe and acceptable. You're so obsessed with being factual and maintaining your "integrity," that you just double down on your biases when someone tries to point them out. How many times have I admitted to blindspots and biases and openly laid them out? Is that because I'm a biased idiot or is that because I'm trying to be honest and grow? You never do this, because you're too afraid of destabilizing your mind - which is fine, but don't pretend it's courage please.

Generally speaking, these songs feel quite authentically like me:

I obviously have an infinite bouquet of feelings, but I'm very much in touch with my more braggadocious side right now - this song gets me hyped every time:

This is all good, but why are you so stuck on the body? If you took the same logic and expanded it to the subjective and inter-subjective dimensions, you would realize the limits of your approach and courage rather quickly. Only maxing your physiology is a rather convenient cop-out from some of the real work. This is precisely how being too engrossed in science and academia makes you dumb in a very real sense.

Combine meditation with exposure therapy. You must be anxious of something. Even if it's 20 different things you're anxious of, get clear on that they are; write them all out. Start with the easiest one; create a list of procedures that will progressively get you desensitized to that thing. If you're afraid to talk in public, start by talking to yourself, then to a friend, then to a group of friends... you get the idea. The key is to make these steps so incremental that you actually do them. Then you just put one foot in front of the other. You need to fill your mind with positive reference experiences if you really want to thrive and overcome your anxiety. The story you tell yourself has to become one of overcoming, not of stagnation. Meditation will calm you enough to reflect on your anxiety effectively and to take those steps; but you have to face those fears - that's really what therapy is about. Of course your physiology will contribute to this massively as well, so make sure you get enough sleep, eat the right shit, exercise etc.

Concerts pay well and it's how small artists survive. You only make serious money when you get signed by a label. It's not unusual for a new rap artist (you have to make yourself extremely marketable and skilled) to get paid a few millions for a couple years contract. You can make practically unlimited money in the music industry , if you're willing to go all the way to the top - but few people have the kind of mind that is willing to go to such places. I encouraged you to do it though - you have all the resources available with actualized.org to pull this off.

I could talk about Freud and Nietzsche again and how repressing these desires make you resentful and bitter towards those that exercise their will freely. Maybe I'm just sick in the head and most people don't care for beauty and power that much, but I always did - and I know I'll become twisted in the head if I never actually live that out and burn through it.

Fine. I tend to project a lot when it comes to this stuff. I always assume people repress their more base instincts, because I did that a lot, but you seem to be doing well for yourself. Still, I feel a kind of desire for short term pleasures in my life and in my estimations the best way to deal with them is just to burn though them. When you wanted to quit weed, didn't you smoke so much that it made you sick and nauseous to the point of never wanting to touch that shit again? I'm going with that strategy.

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I literally got an extremely well paying job?!

Fair. Don't you think you're missing something by rejecting "Hedonism" though?

I think I understand him quite well. I'm not suggesting you need to care for or about others. If you choose to care for others by your own will, that would be in alignment with the Nietzschean Übermensch. It's when caring is customary that it's weak. Fundamentally power is about asserting your vision and will on the world - that will look different from person to person. One of the most powerful people I've ever come across is Daniel Schmachtenberger and his vision of the world is one of egalitarianism and universal compassion - power can get quite twisted, aye?

What do people that worship the devil (i.e. Lucifer) actually believe in? Have you ever asked yourself that question? - this is from Wikipedia: "For Luciferians, enlightenment is the ultimate goal. The basic Luciferian principles highlight truth and freedom of will, worshipping the inner self and one's ultimate potential, and to encourage and celebrate the same within all. Traditional dogma is shunned as a basis for morality on the grounds that humans should not need deities or fear of eternal punishment to distinguish right from wrong and to do good. All ideas should be tested before being accepted, and even then one should remain skeptical because knowledge and understanding are fluid. Regardless of whether Lucifer is conceived of as a deity or as a mere archetype, he is a representation of ultimate knowledge and exploration as well as humanity's savior and a champion for continuing personal growth." Lucifer is the trickster archetype - that's it. Doesn't sound so evil after all, huh? Sounds a lot like Nietzsche as well (he used to call himself the Antichrist or Dionysos, which are amongst the synonyms of Lucifer). This is probably the reason why a classic theme in conspiratorial thinking is referring to the "elites" as devil-worshippers and Luciferians -- because, ironically, they are some of the most capable people in the realm of the profane.

You can test for this stuff in a more practical way by giving the person some kind of case study. I spent the last 3 days doing roleplay and case studies.

As if that's ever the case. I'd rather higher a young ambitious person that's bold enough to go after it than some fool who's wasted their prime getting brainwashed in university.

Besides extremely technical engineering and scientific work, I think that's largely a thing of the past. Every idiot and their mother have some kind of degree nowadays. If you know how to communicate well and you can show your employer that you have the necessary skills for the job, no one will ever ask you about some stupid college degree.

I dont see it as an ultimate mean of human growth either. Its intended as an encounter with the shadow, thats all. This is nothing new of course - Im just rehashing Nietzschean ideas here, but I think it needs to be heard. Im not here to preach, Im here to learn, but people are so butthurt by this stuff that it makes me want to push it all the more.

The problem I have with these dismissive arguments is that you act like you choose not to be powerful, yet you wouldn't even know how to if you wanted to. It's easy to demand equality when you're a slave. How about you first become a master and then care for the weak - that's real virtue. "You have to become an absolute monster - and then you have to learn to control it." - Jordan Peterson

One of the satanic tenets is "undefiled wisdom," which Wikipedia links to "Perspicacity" and another is "vital existence" -- now what is our hero Andrew Tates most famous quote? "My unmatched perspicacity coupled with my sheer indefatigability makes me a feared opponent in any realm of human endeavor.”

Try some whippets. They produce the most archetypal "OH MY GOD I FINALLY UNDERSTAND IT ALL -- fuck, I lost it" experience of them all.

Sounds about right. Shiva, Dionysos, Prometheus, Loki - all powerful deities associated with madness, destruction and the intersection between the divine and the profane. Nietzsche infamously went insane in his 40s and never recovered "There is a universal need to exercise some kind of power, or to create for one's self the appearance of some power, if only temporarily, in the form of intoxication."

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27 This is definitely not due to genetics. I used to be very much the opposite of a narcissist, but once you get a hang of how power works, it's very hard to resist the temptation - especially under the convenient guise of "burning through karma." If you want to be competitive, you have to adopt a mindset that will make you as competitive as possible - which is pretty much the dark triad of personality. This is the only thing you ever need to know about power. You can say this is immoral, but it's true nonetheless.

If you dont want to see it, it would be a very serious mistake.