Nilsi

Your sense of self completely depends on the context in which it arises. No it is not. You also exist as and within thought and form.

There is no such "substance."

And who exactly has this realization?

No its not. The notion of water can only arise in relationship to the notions of ice and steam. There is no formlessness without form and neither is more "real." Dont be so righteous, you obviously dont understand what you are talking about.

To me Nietzsche is the beginning of green emerging. He also seems more like an INTP.

https://civilizationemerging.com/what-i-learned-about-being-a-man-from-my-dad/ @Carl-Richard shared this yesterday. I found it pretty sweet and inspiring.

This is a nice little tool to help you diffentiate and become more aware of your emotions

I feel more and more strongly about general systems theory as the best way to approximate existential dynamics in a relatively precise way. At a certain level this framework will break of course but I think it's the best we've got in terms of language. Knowledge is an emergent property of being, just as say behavior is an emergent property of an organism. Is that behavior the organism? No. Is it in service of it? Yes. Can you ever know the organism through its behavior? No, you can know how it behaves in a certain situation in which you happen to look at it. Is there different degrees of quality to behavior? Yes, I can inspire millions of people by delivering a great speech to them or I can sit on my couch on government support and watch reality tv while i smoke pack after pack of cigarettes. In short, when you are being, there will still emerge knowledge from you once your being emanates a certain threshold of subtleness. Obligatory "I don't know this" but it produces a rather clear dynamic model in my mind which really is the best we can do in communication anyway. You have to experience deep states of being that are beyond knowing and you will see this emergence happening as you come back into the more gross realms of existence.

You being a character is infinite Love just as much as you being the Godhead or whatever you imagine this eternity to be. Takes some time and probably some deep mystical peak experiences for that to sink in but it is of course the case as is implied by infinite. You should be more worried about growing your character than about losing it really.

I would recommend you watch some YouTube clips of him in his prime. He really embodies his philosophy well and it might help to drive it home for you.

Also, if you truly care about people and your relationships you should try to cultivate a healthy relationship to yourself regardless. Without overly spiritualizing this topic, there really is no difference between the internal and the external. For me, being social and kind is part of my epistemology. If Im not able to come into proper relationship with my roommates say or dont attend to the need of my plants, thats really no different than being sloppy with my thought process. If you really want to be a good friend, partner, citizen or whatever, you have to clean up your inner world and understand how your own mind works, so that when you show up in the world you can do and be what is needed of you. Ken Wilbers "wake up, grow up, clean up, show up" is really spot on.

You might enjoy this then. The whole album fucking bangs, the production on it is just next level.

Im a big introvert so for me it has always been extremely easy to spend days and even weeks in isolation, but as Im going through the process of really opening myself up to being more social and communal I realise how much joy there is in that. Look at it as a growing process. Its gonna take some time and momentum to get this ball rolling but there is so much growth in stepping outside ones usual mode of being, that its definitely worth the investment.

Beautiful, what a great man.

Lol, no. Where can I read that?

What do you enjoy doing? I also recently moved and i found some friends that I do yoga with and started a bookclub with some others. Its pretty easy to make friends and bond when you have some things in common and do shit together that you all enjoy.

Just get clear on what your goals are and how YouTube helps you in achieving them; find the channels that provide the most value for you and then think about how much time is worth it is investing in watching that content. There is definitely a limit on how much passive intake of information is useful so figure that out roughly. There is no need to delete it or artificially restrict yourself from. For me personally the biggest danger with YouTube is just having it constantly stimulate you while you are eating or cooking or whatever - you probably dont want to do that, takes away from the beauty of life too much. Just watch your videos with full attention and then move on.

Tonight I dreamt that Daniel Schmachtenberger, a buddy of mine and me fought against some kind of terrorist militia - was pretty rad, we showed them good

Mama, just killed a man Put a gun against his head, pulled my trigger, now he's dead Mama, life had just begun But now I've gone and thrown it all away Mama, ooh, didn't mean to make you cry If I'm not back again this time tomorrow Carry on, carry on as if nothing really matters Too late, my time has come Sends shivers down my spine, body's aching all the time Goodbye, everybody, I've got to go Gotta leave you all behind and face the truth Mama, ooh I don't wanna die I sometimes wish I'd never been born at all

Try both and see what sticks.

HipHop music is essentially our generations way of expressing SpiralDynamics stage red. I think its a rather healthy way of expressing this dimension of humanness. It only gets pathological when it is not properly embedded in the other stages, but I dont see that as HipHops problem nor concern but rather as a larger cultural problem we have. I dont hear any rapper talking shit about lower stages, in fact they embrace them very well, all that talk about gangs and sexuality is proper for this stage. The problem is that some nutty stage blue folk are so afraid of their own desires that they cant help themselves but repress and demonize HipHop. They have not integrated their shadow yet.

Well yes thats the pathology of it. I dont see that as innately human, we have gone off-course and thats exactly where I would like to nudge us away from. We need to organise ourselves in smaller tribes (<150 people) to have a meaningful communal life. Im not some kind of romatic though, far from it, so Im not saying lets destroy all technology. The digital is exactly what enables this kind of organisation and what makes big cities obsolete, as we can live in our tribe and still work and connect with everyone else in the digital realm. The only reason we organised ourselves into big cities is because of Metcalfes law (the value or utility of a network is proportional to the square of the users of the network; meaning there is an exponential increase of value for a linear increase in citizens) and the digital is way more suited for that. These tribes would be a fractal of the mega-tribe that is humanity; meaning there is essentially no scale to governance; the way the tribe is organised is the same way the whole is organised. This would probably be archetypal; meaning all essential roles a community needs would be met on a human level in the tribe and on an archetypal level in the mega-tribe. At every 10 tribes or so there could be a new emergent cultural property like a university or a nightclub or whatever. At every 100 tribes a new emergent property, and so on. Governance would work the same way, with every human in the tribe having a vote for issues regarding the tribe. Every tribe having a vote regarding policy for their university and so on. I think every other way of doing things is just suboptimal and pathological and will thus self-terminate sooner or later. As for how to get there, I have no fucking idea But Ill try to figure it out.

It seems to me when we talk about "loving life" and "living well," we talk about it at auch an universal level that the actual living of life gets kind of perverted. The human is like an instrument to express oneself through, but in the same way that mastering the piano produces different music than mastering the trumpet say, the humans design must have some kind of purpose, no? When we talk about consciousness and creativity and health and so on as meaningful things to pursue, I can't help but see the obvious liability that the human is in this case. I might as well be an AI and do all these things better. I'm curious if you see the human as nothing more than an inconvenience that must be overcome, so as not to interfere with ones existence or if you see a way to live a meaningful Human-Life - because I kind of refuse to see myself as a liability. In that case why live at all? Why don't we just embrace our humanness and try to figure out what is uniquely ours to do instead of just waiting for the inevitable progress to leave us behind as just another step that had to be overcome?

Have you tried Snus? If you worry about your lungs and have pain in your chest I would definitely recommend you check it out. Gives you a pretty nice buzz aswell, though I think a good deal of the addiction is also just the act of having the damn thing in your fingers and sucking on it, some kind of oral fixation thing and also just the aesthetics of it - there is really no great alternative to cigarettes in my experience. If you have the will to do it, I think the best thing is to just go cold turkey and stop for a few weeks/months to get back to baseline, let your body heal and then you can try to establish a healthier relationship to smoking if youre still aesthetically drawn to it for whatever reason.

Sure I have. I used to be a music producer and I always wanted to become a movie director but I'm slowly transitioning to becoming a writer as that probably integrates my skills and interests best. Though there is another side of me that feels somewhat called to become a great leader and I definitely feel like I have that in me, but as I get more "mature," the need to be the best and be on top of the world slowly recedes and I really just want to have a more or less chill life in which I can just focus on being creative and solving problems while not being too much in the spotlight.