SeaMonster

The days of Timothy 5LEOry are here...

I mean, you can get carpal tunnel being unemployed and jerking off to porn all day, so there's that...

What are you planning to or wish to major in? Important question. (Is it marketing? Being bilingual could be a selling point, for something like international business.) More importantly, what are your plans as far as graduate education? Are there any? Ultimately, you have to think ahead and decide where you will wish to live and work. If your goal is to work and live in the West somewhere, you'll want to major in something that's valued in the West so you'll have an easier time getting a job and moving there.

Can I just say that "mastering your survival" sounds incredibly pretentious? It's like you're this ethereal being floating on clouds made of 5MeO vapors too good for the grubby world of work and career. But, it's just work and career/business. Unless you're really old, you have to do something in life, otherwise you'll go insane no matter how much money or career accomplishments you've accumulated.

No, because you have to have solid inner game, like I said. If you're getting kicked out, you're probably acting like a fucking moron which is not what a person with solid inner game acts like. It's not difficult to improve at all. Like I said it's about solid inner game, which means you're relaxed and confident and naturally attractive and you're not in your head, which would distract you from observing the girl's subtle reactions and reacting appropriately. I'm saying 99% of the battle is won before you step to the girl. It's WHO YOU ARE stepping to the girl. Because you're wrong, even a dumb girl would sense the weirdness of that approach. It would bore her or creep her out. You've internalized a lot of doomerism from online fuckups, but maybe you simply don't trust yourself and feel like if you don't control every aspect of the process you will say/do something really stupid. This is why, as I keep repeating, inner game first, inner game last, inner game always.

That's actually a really good question. I would say there is a qualitative difference. Spirituality by its nature is a holistic pursuit; it involves the entire being, it involves all your activities; you can pursue music, sports or science and be great at it and still be a fucked up mess who self-destructs because other areas of your life are completely unintegrated or plain undeveloped. You can't be "great at spirituality" and self-destruct; that's a contradiction in terms. The problem with a 17 year old pursuing spirituality is that too much of the psyche is still undeveloped; the person is more inexperienced, less mature, less likely to be fully honest with himself, less emotionally developed, still too concerned with fitting into a peer group and even on a practical level too dependent on the family to fully take advantage of the integration opportunities awakening can provide. There is more temptation to slide into spiritual bypassing. You have to be very mature not to encounter a lot of problems in the process.

They basically describe vulnerable narcissism.

Of course, liberation is the ability to choose to think or not, not to be a compulsive thinker.

I go to the gym and shoot a basketball, that's the best meditation, but whatever works for you. The point is, you sound like you're in a vicious cycle of a bad lifestyle you need to get out of to find motivation.

No, that's a terrible mindset. If your entire approach is to avoid errors, your unconscious mind is going to trip you up and then you will second-guess yourself and get stressed out. You have to basically not give a shit at all and be spontaneously attractive with a solid inner game. It should be FUN, not scary, stressful, risk-averse shit. Sure, but all these things reveal themselves simultaneously; her vibe towards you, how smart she seems to be, her personality features, etc. It's like parallel streams of information that you're reacting to. You don't want to overthink it though. I think your problem is that you don't understand that unconscious mastery is much better than conscious mastery. I can't make shots in basketball by thinking about not screwing up the stance, the elbow, the eye on the rim, the follow-through, etc. It has to be unconscious and spontaneous.

If you did, you'd probably have tinnitus. You can go to an audiologist to test, but if there's no tinnitus you're probably ok or it's really minor. But yeah, wear earplugs, don't abuse your ears.

Yup. That's the entire "mystery" of pickup.

My opinion is that you so habitually lie to yourself, that any kind of real personal growth is difficult for you. This is a crock of shit. If you don't want to feel anxiety calling a mechanic, then focus on real personal growth, not whatever bullshit passes for personal growth in your delusions. "Reptilian" - for fuck's sake, what a silly cope.

It doesn't per se. If you have basic deficits as a man, learning pickup won't directly address them. It's like putting a band-aid on a gaping wound. Like, if you have no passions or any idea where you're going in life or are neglecting self-care or appearance, things like that, learning the techniques of approaching and talking to women isn't going to do much good. You have to get yourself to a point where talking to women is not a big deal at all (the opposite of what game reinforces.) You get there from the inside out -- getting yourself right, and doing right for yourself. The problem with most guys/game is low self-worth. You are not going to be fully engaged and getting the right vibes across to a girl if that's an issue for you. You work on the self-worth issue, and the rest is easy as pie. You won't be self-conscious or desperate or try-hard.

Not to this extent. Sure, some interests and habits can change, but not to the point where you're neglecting everyday things. That's a sign that something is wrong. I don't know the precise nature of your awakening, but it's possible it has brought up issues for you to deal with. Sometimes things come up and we get overwhelmed in life and we have to focus on what has come up. Also, something physical could be happening (maybe there's some vitamin deficiency or an illness.) Of course, like Leo has pointed out, you're young and things change quickly at that age, but it shouldn't be this extreme.

Of course, that's literally in the book. The philosophy is not an absolutist claim, they distinguish between conventional and ultimate reality.

I'm going to put Razard's manic rantings off to the side, and tell you what I consider to be "Admin Mode" in life. Mindfulness. That is, ability to be fully in your senses, without involuntarily going into your head/feelings and not seeing what's actually happening in front of you. If you are observant and focused, that is Admin Mode.

There is no competition if the woman is interested in you from the get-go. Trying to win over a woman that isn't is a losing game, no matter how much you "Andrew Tate" your life. If you get into the mindset that there's competition, you're just installing insecurity and fucking yourself in the process.

Not to get all into semantics here, but "resistance to approaching" IS a mindset issue. Mindset doesn't mean you're consciously ok with yourself or think positively, because that's all bullshit/self-deception anyway. The real test is in spontaneous behavior, your feelings and how open you are to pursuing the possibilities life is offering you. Like, it shouldn't be hard to approach IF you see any glimmer of interest from the woman. I keep harping on this, but most guys just really suck at reading interest signals from women (maybe because they are usually focused on 2 things: either which women out and about they really want or they are in their head focused on their own insecurities.) They have trouble seeing women that are interested in THEM. If you knew that a woman was interested in you, how hard would it be to approach? At that point, you're the one choosing who fits your standards (I would say in my experience it's a solid 1 in 5, which is plenty enough for me.)

Yeah, I would have told you had I seen this thread. A balanced life is the goal; the more you over-focus on one aspect of life, the more your life will turn to shit. The unconscious mind will simply rebel and make you sick and miserable. I'm glad you found this out for yourself, though; it was a valuable experiment to run.

Epistemological Nihilism is self-refuting, because it's a knowledge claim which denies knowledge is possible. Same as post-modernism, really. You're much better off looking at philosophical Buddhism and its idea of emptiness.

If you want to get with a Victoria's Secret model, no offense, but you're stupid. If you're setting your goals as "women who date movie stars and professional athletes, and in some cases historically great professional athletes" then you're not dealing in any kind of reality. We're talking about statistical anomalies here. People no longer deal in reality, and that's due at least partly to the influence of PUAs like Mystery all the way to FnF and Tate. Like, men need to try focusing on what would make THEM happy as opposed to fantasy women; in virtually all cases it's a lot less than fantasy women.

That's actually a pretty good strategy to go forward with. Remember what you experienced when you found material that you felt applied to you, and if you come across that again, try it out and see what results you get.

It's a simple issue: are you better off with or without the porn habit? If you don't know the answer to that question, try an experiment: I will quit for 6 months, and then I will start using it again. Then at the end of six months see what you've discovered. Otherwise you're going to bullshit-cope, rationalize, speculate, etc. Just try the experiment, fully secure in the knowledge that it's not forever.

This is actually great, and you should be grateful you're experiencing these symptoms. It's your body's way of notifying you what's unhealthy for you and protecting you. You can find an activity that doesn't produce ill-effects and be better off in the long run.