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I found this 3rd eye meditation useful. I could definitely feel the energy culminating in my 3rd eye during this meditation, but not in an uncomfortable way. I didn't get any of the crazy visuals which he described yet, maybe just some subtle colors. I liked the part at the end where you kind of stimulate the energy in your eyes and ears. I'm going to do this meditation daily for a while and see what happens.

@Hojo Your conversations for helped, thanks. I understand what you mean, I've had several intense panic attacks a bit before and during the period where I've started to feel strong sensations in my 3rd eye. The last time I had one I was able to relax, and then I just had a very good feeling and I knew I was okay, I wasn't afraid of dying anymore. And since then I've actually had a few bouts of hysteria where I just can't stop laughing, which is much preferred to the panic attacks. A lot of the fear I had surrounding the panic attacks has gone away, I know that truly I'll be fine and actually it's beneficial. I'll take your advice of focusing on the location of death so to speak when this comes up again, and maybe even start to induce it on purpose for further growth. It all makes a lot of sense to me now. When I'm having these panic attacks I literally feel like I'm going to die, and that's because I am. My body will still be here but the conceptual entity will be gone. Now that I know what's really going on I can handle this more effectively.

@LifeEnjoyer thanks man. I'm through the worst of it. I'm coming out the other side now and I'm going to change my life for the better. I'm considering if I should transition to full time consciousness work and how I can do that because this stuff is so damn interesting!

I just rewatched the infinity of Gods episode, and wanted to give some thoughts as well as share some insights and contemplations I had last night, which may somewhat tie into this. The first time I watched this episode when it first released, I shut it off 1/3 of the way through because it went way over my head. However now that I am having some awakenings, I can see the validity of what is being pointed at. I still wanted to deny seperate Solopsitic Gods as a possibility for the first portion of the video because it seemed so contradictory. However once Leo said that once you come into contact with another God, you merge into one and it becomes one, something clicked for me and I realized that what he is talking about is likely the case. Of course, I haven't come close to realizing this at the deepest possible level, but I do feel as if I now understand this to a deeper degree than most people ever will, at least until they leave their human avatar, which is a good starting point for further inquiry. I can certaintly understand the importance of trying to raise others to God realization, and to see underneath the veil of their human actions. The insights I had last night are as follows. It may be the case that a lot of this is pointless speculation, but I did feel as if I was contemplating and having these insights at a deeper level than a superficial conceptual understanding. These are the notes I took while having this insight (which I took before rewatching this episode): God is playing as me in a video game. I'm the consciousness watching the show. Is it possible for consciousness to jump between parallel universes? Does every decision create a parallel universe? I can manifest by literally stepping into a new reality. I can manifest whatever reality I want because that's what I'm already doing with my thoughts and actions and beliefs. My thoughts and emotions create my actions which create my reality. By changing my beliefs about reality through spiritual practice or other means, my thoughts and emotions and therefore my actions will change and that will generate a new reality. That's what it means to be in alignment. When you embody certain beliefs about who you are, you become that person, which over time generates the benefits from embodying those traits. So before I can achieve the material results I'm looking for I have to first be that person. Only then is it possible for the material results to manifest. I wonder if it's possible to jump between parallel universes, kind of like that movie "Everything Everywhere all at Once" but without the need for machinery. If consciousness is creating everything, then why wouldn't it be possible? Couldn't you transfer your consciousness to some other universe? possibly even some other being entirely? Is that what it means to have an out of body experience? After watching this video, I have some more questions. These are speculations, but I find them interesting to contemplate. If parallel universes exist, are those soverign consciousnesses, are or they still a part of this same 'magic black hat'? Either way, given that consciousness is all powerful, it should be possible for God to become conscious of those parallel universes (given that they exist), and to place it's awareness on another universe. It may even be possible to experience multiple parallel universes at once, opening the possibility for a descent into madness, which can make these possiblities scary to contemplate. It's also scary even to just jump into another parellel Universe, another version of myself. If it were possible, would memories of the previous iteration carry over or be erased entirely? My new understanding of manifestation is that it is essentially stepping into a parallel universe which already exists. I'm still grappling with these ideas and haven't done much reading on the subject, but I just ordered the book "Parallel Universes of Self", which I'm excited to get into. Any thoughts? Is most of this utter bullshit or could there be some validity?

My third eye seems to be opening. Recently when meditating, consuming spiritual material, or sporadically through out the day, I can feel a tingling sensation in my 3rd eye. And this is without me ever having researched the realm of chakras and the 3rd eye before I started to feel these sensations. This is one of the symptoms I've been having as a part of the aftermath of a powerful 5meo malt trip (go see my recent post on that thread). My sensory perceptions have greatly increased and I'm waking up more each day to how reality truly works. However, sometimes I don't know what to do when the sensation in my 3rd eye area becomes overwhelming. Sometimes the sensation becomes so strong that I want to stop what I'm doing and get the attention off of it. My intuition tells me I should do my best to keep my focus there and relax, but sometimes it can become very uncomfortable. Has anyone else experienced this? Will training myself to focus on the 3rd eye sensation without wavering in my attention allow me to wake up more to reality? Once the process is completed does the tingling sensation go away?

5meo malt trip aftermath: I wanted to give an update as to the aftermath of my powerful malt trip as it's been almost a month now. Firstly I don't think a "schizophrenic" state is the best way to describe what I experienced during the trip. It was more like a state of sheer terror, and I also forgot to mention that I was shaking violently and uncontrollably. In the days and weeks following, the heightened awareness of my sensory perceptions would at times becoming very uncomfortable and overwhelming. Specifically the day after, I went to dinner with my gf, parents, and their friends. I felt like I could hear everyone's conversations at once, as well as feel a lot of the energies. Even just the visual sensations of seeing how much was going on at my table and around me was overwhelming as well. Several times I had to step away from the table. In the following couple of weeks, I felt some intense tensions in my neck and shoulders, as well as the throat later on. I'd also begin to feel a strong tingling sensation in my 3rd eye at times, especially during meditation - or consuming spiritual content in books or videos. I'd also begin to notice a lot more in my visual and audiotry fields in general, as well as become more attuned to my inner state. At times, a strong emotion like anger or regret would overcome me. I'd try my best to experience it and let it go. A couple times I had panic attack like symptoms, with heart rate elevating similar to what I experienced on my trip, although not quite as strong. I also noticed unconscious urges seemingly becoming stronger than before. I'd find myself wasting days just playing video games or watching videos to escape my symptoms. Other times I'd be able to introspect and read certain material to try and work through it. Despite this being some of the most difficult times I've been through in my entire life, I'm grateful for it because I feel that this process has elevated me to a state of awareness it would have otherwise potentially taken me several more years to reach. I feel that all of this was my way of releasing tension, anxiety, insecurity, and thought patterns built up over decades. From what I've read I think I may be going through a kundalini awakening, although that it just a label. I've realized a lot through this process, such as how much social conditioning and my belief systems are running my life at an unconscious level. I feel that I've now reach a level of awareness to where I can really work on changing my beliefs and attitudes towards life to create an authentic reality and circumstances for myself. I'm also very interested in using consciousness directly to understand deep truths about reality. At this point, I'm much more comfortable and confident that I'm where I need to be, and I know that I'll manifest the reality that is right for me. More and more, when meditating or doing spiritual practice, I've been noticing a tingling sensation in my 3rd eye, which often will become so strong as to become uncomfortable or even almost unbearable if I keep my attention on it. From what I understand this is my 3rd eye chakra opening and I should do my best to keep my attention there, but if anyone else has experienced these sensations and has advice on how to deal with it I'd like to hear it.

@Lynx Thanks for the advice, that could very well be the case. I was under the assumption the MALT would just overpower the weed entirely, and just did it for convience sake of being the easiest way to smoke it. If I do this again, which won't be for a while, I'll go through the extra effort of figuring out how to vape it or use another ingestion method.

5meo-malt trip reports: Excuse the long post here: I want to give people an idea of how powerful this chemical can be, and encourage people to be responsible with this stuff. I've tried Malt a few times now. The first time was a nice experience, but nothing mind blowing. I snorted 2 scoops of the tiny side of my microscooper, which is supposed to be 5mg. Honestly I can't quite remember it as well as my 2 most recent trips, I think I just felt very relaxed and fell into a deep meditative state. The second trip I had was very beautiful. I smoked 2 scoops on top of a hit of weed, and in the middle of the trip I did one more. I just felt so alive and free and full of so much energy. I felt the oneness with my surroundings. I felt as if I was part of the moment I was experiencing, rather than being seperate. I felt the Sakti rising inside me. I felt my heart opening. I felt great and very greatful for a while after this trip, but somehow I ended up falling back into old habits a while after. Now for my most recent and most powerful trip. My title for this one is: "Heaven and Hell" I wasn't feeling fantastic before I planned on taking this, but I thought I was feeling fine, especially after meditating for 30min beforehand. I told myself my intention was to realize my true nature, and in the end I basically got what I asked for. I took 3 of the small scoops on top of a bowl of weed all at once, and smoked it. I took the hit, and the experience hit like a freight train right away. I felt like I was losing all sense of reality and was going insane, and I wasn't able to let go completely. I tried to sit there and meditate, I told myself to just let go, but it wasn't working. I tried to tell myself my name: "I'm John. I'm John Smith", but I wasn't convinced. I was entering into a schizophrenic, paranoid state. I tried to get into my hot tub to calm myself down, but after a few moments I felt my heart rate elevating, and thought it wasn't a good idea to be in the hot tub. I went to go lay down, but I was freaking out. Eventually I got my mom from her room to try to calm me down for a bit. She wanted to turn on the TV for me but I refused and wanted to sit there with no stimulus. It was hard to calm down, but eventually feeling the love she had for me, and attempting to ground myself was starting to work. I was having these weird visions, it felt like the grim reaper was at my window. During this entire time, I was hearing a sort of weird ringing in my ears. It almost sounded like a forest with birds chirping and it was pretty loud. I felt as if I'd been hearing that sound my entire life and just never noticed it. I was in my bed trying to go sleep. At one point I heard a car beep loudly outside my room 3 times (I'm not sure if this was real or imagined), and a voice in my head telling me "go outside". I just felt as if it was something I had to do, so I put on a jacket and went outside to try and meditate. At this point it had maybe been 1.5 hours or so after I took the hit, but it's hard to say for sure. I started meditating and I was definitely a bit calmer, but everything was still very overwhelming. I started to get this vision of birds flying into my head, right into the area where my 3rd eye would be. Then I decided to go back inside. It felt like something was telling me to do so, and I felt safer inside. I picked up a book which I had left on the couch - "Living Untethered" by Michael Singer. As I started to read, I started to feel much, much better. I was recognizing the truths of which he spoke of in the book, I was starting to understand what I was feeling. I was having a very deep awakening into the nature of things of this point, and I was being left in awe to the fact that anything exists at all. I recognized the fact that my entire life is a fiction, that I've been living out a narrative in my head instead of actually experiencing reality. I recognized the miracle of life on Earth, the fact that any of this exists and took billions of years to come to this moment. I recognized the fact that everything I've ever experienced has been experienced internally. I understood that I'd been making myself miserable in life by constructing a narrative, instead of just living and enjoying my life. I saw that there are different planes to reality - the physical plane and the mental plane. After I was done reading, I went back outside to meditate, and this time it was very peaceful. I opened my eyes and saw a few birds land on a tree. I took the opportunity to apologize to the birds. I still felt bad about something that had happened a few months ago, where long story short I had the opportunity to save a bird's life but I let it die. I didn't say anything out loud, I just looked at the birds with that intention, and it felt like they heard me and forgave me. Overall, I'd say I got a lot of benefit out of the trip, but I won't be doing any more psychedelics any time soon. I've seen how horrific this can get when you're not grounded and willing to let go, but I also feel as if going through that first part of the trip burned something out of me. It burned the inner demon out of me so to speak. It felt like I was shown 2 sides of the same coin of how spirituality can go. If I don't take it serious and get frivolous with psychedelics, I could get stuck in Hell, that paranoid, schizophrenic state. But if I take things at the right pace, keep myself grounded, and devote myself to this process, life can become Heaven. Today I feel pretty damn good, much more aware than usual, but still a bit psyched out. I just ordered the book "Spiritual Emergency" to make sure I go about this in the right way in the future and to keep some ground under my feet. This was life changing for me, I'm seeing the true nature of things, and I'm more committed now than ever. If you're going to take a big dose of this stuff, I wouldn't recommend smoking it. I think had I snorted that same dose, I would've had time to ease myself into the trip as it set on. This isn't something to be taken lightly. Be careful out there guys.

@Yimpa I think I did realize it in a sense. I realized that dying wasn't so bad, and just felt that I would merge back into everything in the moment that I accepted my death. I'm not sure that I fully realized what was imagining all of it, but there was actually a great sense of peace when I accepted my death. And the experience definitely gave me a better appreciation for life. I felt lucky to be alive in the days following that, and I still do.

I'm not on the forum very often so there's one more interesting experience I'd like to share and get feedback on while I'm here. Early this year in January, I was meditating. I went into a very deep and peaceful state. Then suddenly, I felt like I was on the brink of losing my mind. My heartrate skyrocketed. I tried to calm down and lay in bed, but my heart wouldn't let up. Eventually I went into my parents room and told them I didn't feel right. My dad put his apple watch on me, and my heart rate was upwards of 150 bpm (my resting heart rate is around 55). I tried to relax, but my heart rate kept going up, to upwards of 170 bpm at one point. I thought that I was having a heart attack and that I was going to die, my heart was palputating out of my chest. At one point I accepted my death, that brought me some peace, but still did not lower my heart rate. My parents called the ER, and I was able to calm down a bit when the paramedics arrived, but even after they hooked me upto IVs my heart rate was still above 150. They brought me into the ambulance to go to the ER, and at this point I was pretty sure I'd be okay, and I'd already accepted my death anyway so I was completely calm, yet my heartrate was still high. After a little while in the ER, my heart rate slowed to the point where I could return home. The doctors didn't know what it was but they said they thought I was sick with a virus. I had also just stopped vaping a week earlier, so my mom chalked it up to nicoine withdrawls. Personally I doubt it, I had zero symptoms up till that point. Is it really possible that this was the ego's defense mechanism to awakening? At first I had just accepted the doctor's explanation that I was sick with a virus, however upon thinking about it more, it is quite strange. Before this happening I can distinctly remember going into a very peaceful state in meditation, and then feeling like I was literally about to lose my mind before my heart rate elevated. A few days following this incident, I went to the doctor to get a physical. They said I was completetly healthy, good blood pressure and everything, nothing wrong.

Here I want to give a trip report of my mushroom trip recently, as well as discuss a mystical expeirence I had while completely sober a couple months ago which somewhat ties into this. I'll start with the trip report. My Intention was: I want to see the true nature of reality and of myself. Show me where I am wrong about reality, and show me the truth about what reality is, and what I am. Trip Report: I cooked a vegan pizza and used about 3.5g shrooms, maybe a little more, as topping. I got in my hot tub to relax before they kicked in, and I was in a good mood. When I started feeling the shrooms I was looking at pictures of my family in the room. Particularly I was looking at pictures of myself when I was younger. I remembered how much self hate I had for myself in those days, and I recognized that a lot of that is still deep inside me. I could see that certain behavior patterns, like subtly avoiding interacting with people while going on a walk, are still present. I realized that the younger me was innocent and deserved to be happier, and that I need to heal the child within me and let him go. Then I started to reflect on my identity. I asked myself if the child inside of me was me. I looked at the picture of my younger self and asked myself if that was me. I came to the conclusion that the child is not me. It was a set of beliefs about myself that I held onto to protect myself. I can let that all go. I tried to ask myself who is the one that is aware? I watched as I was contemplating and writing words down in my notebook. I tried to become conscious that I was not the one writing the words, but I was the one watching myself writing the words. I was able to realize that to a small extent, but more so I realized that I take for granted the perfection that my body operates with. The fine motor skills needed to write the words coming into my mind. The fact that I can eat and drink basically whatever I want and the body can process it just fine. I realize I take for granted the beauty in all of this, and that in some manner I disrespect this by feeing my body toxins. I eat relatively clean but still, I realized that the way I eat and treat the body is not in full alignment with the beauty of the body, and that I need to take better care of it. I then realized it's not just the body that I take for granted, that I take for granted reality itself. I realized that I'm blind to the ultimate perfection of reality, although I've been waking up to this more and more. I then started to contemplate death. I became aware that I'm going to leave this world with nothing. So what is there to worry about? Fear is irrelevant in the face of death. I might as well enjoy the time between my birth and my death. I might as well spread as much love as possible while I'm here. Around this time, I started to peak and stopped writing things in my notebook. I just wanted to bliss out and meditate, but I was having a real hard time being still in the mind. I would close my eyes for maybe 10 or 20 sec then open them. There was a feeling as though it was too intense, and also my awareness would go to a rather painful stomach ache when I closed my eyes. Part of that may have just been digesting the shrooms, but I'm sure part of it was the pizza as well. I realized that I'm not normally conscious of how what I eat makes me feel, and that the pizza made me feel like shit. I committed to listen to my body more and to take better care of both my body and psyche. Once I started to come down a bit I was able to bliss out more, but I still had trouble meditating for any period of time. After relaxing for a bit, I decided to write my dad a letter for father's day, although it was really for both of my parents. I won't share what I wrote there, but they were both very happy with the letter. As I really started to come down, I listened to some music, and then attempted to go to sleep. It was late, but I was still wide awake. I was feeling rather peaceful, then I became aware of just how much seemingly insignificant events can get stored in the psyche for years and decades. I recently reread the book "The Untethered Soul" by Michael Singer. He talks about samskaras in the book, and how impressions get left on your psyche by any event that you were unable to accept and release in the moment. He talks about how if you open these will come back up. I started to notice some pain in my heart while lying in bed, and remembered an event from over a decade ago in my childhood. When I was younger I used to collect a lot of pokemon cards. I had amassed a collection of binders full of them over the years. I started to get a little older and stopped buying them as much, but I'd still look at them every once in a while, and I still had an attachment to them. One day my mom, probably figuring that I was too old to care about the cards anymore, gave all of them away to a kid without asking me. This hurt me more than I was willing to admit at the time. I never told my mom I was upset about it, and I suppressed that negative energy inside of me. I realized how absurd it was to be holding onto this event for over a decade, and I was able to let it go completely. I then laid there waiting for other things to come up, and some more things did. I actually felt my heart burning, but I knew that it was a good thing and my heart was releasing pain it had stored inside for many years. I think the biggest insights I got from this trip are that I am taking for granted the perfection of myself and reality, and that I need to take better care of myself and respect reality more. I also realized the importance of cleaning out my psyche - finding a way to let go of my samskaras. Lastly I reaffirmed to myself how important it is to contemplate death on a regular basis. Death is what makes life so precious, and contemplating death can help fear melt away. Now for the mystical experience. Interestingly, I would say that this mystical experience was definitely more powerful than anything I experienced on this trip, or any trip I've done for that matter, despite being 100% sober. I was on a road trip, driving to visit my Aunt next. I was listening to Michael Singer's podcast series for the 2nd time through. In the episode I was listening to he was talking about how you're too lost in your own mind to actually live your life. He explained how you are not actually experiencing the event in front of you, you are experiencing the neurosis of the mind. He gave a couple examples, one of which being that you've never actually driven your car in your entire life, you've been too lost in thought. After he went through those examples, something clicked for me. I paused the episode, and I was brought to tears. It was as if I was actually living for the first time in my life. I was able to see what was going on around me with almost complete detachment from the ego. I just started crying at how beautiful it all was. Everything was just more sublime. After a while I put on some music and it was like I was listening to it for the first time. I became filled with a great sense of gratefullness and joy. For the next couple weeks, I was able to go through solid chunks of time where I was living like this. I was able to go sometimes hours at a time with very few thoughts crossing my mind, just living in the moment, feeling fantastic. It wasn't all day, but I was practicing becoming conscious enough to realize when I lost my awareness and bring myself back to it. After a couple more weeks, I returned home from my road trip. I was still in a great state of mind, however, then I started to get some ego backlash and backsliding. I started to play a little bit of video games, although I was still maintaining a great state of mind at that point. I convinced myself that I should pick up some weed to supercharge my meditations. I've had an addictive personality, especially with weed in the past, but I convinced myself that I was now conscious enough to use it in moderation, just for occasional meditation and sleep. However, this was not the case - pretty quickly I turned into a zombie for a few weeks. I was meditating daily but besides that I wasn't doing much productive. I just started watching youtube and sports all day. I lost that great state of mind that I had due to the dopamine toxification. My recent mushroom trip gave me back some of this amazing awareness, and I'm now more committed to this work than ever, because I see what is possible with this work, even though I'm just scratching the surface. I'm still able to tap into that great state of mind, or mindlessness if you will from time to time, and I'm confident that I can live my life like that permanently if I work hard enough. One last thing I was wondering is where do we draw the line between mystical experience and awakening. That mystical expirience was so powerful, and had such a profound impact on me during that time that I was tempted to call it an awakening. However I know that I still have much much deeper to go, so I came to the conclusion that this was just a very powerful mystical experience.

Hey Leo, just finished watching your video on the next evolution of your teachings, and wanted to give a couple of my thoughts. I agree with almost all of what you said in that video, I just wanted to give my personal opinion on how you could improve your videos in the future. As for myself I've been following your work for a couple years, and it has greatly improved my life. I've been doing things like daily meditation, I'm finishing up your life purpose course(I love the course), watched a lot of your videos and taken notes and done a couple psychedelic trips. On the topic of you talking to intelligent/dumber people, I'd recommend you speak more to your intelligent audience. Often when I'm watching your videos, it'll feel like your talking to me as if I'm an idiot. You'll go on and on with examples and objections that to me seem painfully obvious. I'll often be able to predict the conclusion you're going to come to before you even say it, after which you'll go into many, many examples. An example or 2 is often useful, but it gets annoying when go on and on when I got the point after the first example. Also, you spend so much time with the objections, personally I very rarely resonate with any of the objections you mention. Many times you have already disproven that objection many times in the video before you even bring it up. I feel that this is especially unnecessary for your more spiritual content. If someone was dumb enough to come up with that objection, there's no way they understood anything mentioned in the video. I understand that there will be dumber people watching your content, but I'd argue that if they are coming up with so many objections, they aren't ready to implement the material in their lives anyway. You've said in the past that the whole reason you're making this content is for those of us that will see this process through till the end, if that's the case I don't think a lot of the examples/objections are necessary - it's the more intelligent members of your audience that will see this through, and for the record I am one of the people committed to self-actualizing and seeing this through till end. You mentioned that you think your videos are 90-95% signal and 5-10% noise. I'd argue that currently many of them are only 70-80% signal, because of the copious amount of time wasted on examples and objections. If you must bring up all the objections, I'd recommend saving them for the end of the video, which it seems you already often do so that is good. You mentioned in the video that one thing you want to do is make the videos more succinct. I think that this is a great idea and something you should put a lot of focus on immediately. I feel that many of your 3 hour long videos could have been cut down to half the time or less and still have the same effect. I don't mean for this to come off as hate - I have a lot more positive things to say about your content than bad and it has helped me a lot, you're a hell of a lot better than anyone else I've found on YouTube. I'm very much looking forward to the courses your working on and to growing along with you in the future!