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This. A real alfa just doesn't care if he is or isn't.

Well I want to be succesfull, I'm working on that at the moment. I'd like to produce music. This one is already trickier, because it will also take a lot of time to be good at it. I'd like to learn to play a piano. Not professionally, just the basics, so I can make melodies and understand theory and play by hand whatever comes up in my mind. This also takes a lot of practice. And then there's just other activities. Once I start making money, I will go back into producing. I will see how much time I will have left for other stuff in my life, just the casual things. Travelling and such.

Based from the first track I listened to, I guess you like Psystep. Just go down through this playlist. But to be fair, I didn't now a person could study to this. I can only listen to to jam to it.

So, how do you achieve this?

Broooo, me too. There's so many things that it's not possible for me in this life. about the public speaking. Have you heard of Toastmasters? I'm sure they have it where you live. I attended it a few times to get over my fear of speaking and it was great. Then corona came and everything went to a stop. But it's great practice. EDIT: I see it has already been mentioned.

Wow.

Damn. It was the opposite for me. I never smoked cigarettes and then at 35 I bought a vape because I LOOOOOOVED the feeling of it when I tried someone else's (I did smoke joints). I loved that thick vapor coming out of my mouth, I just had to have my own one. Then I started adding nicotine because I wanted that nicotine rush, and soon after that I started smoking cigarettes . Well actually, I smoked tobacco more, because it was cheaper and I had way more tobacco that lasted me longer than cigarettes for the same price. And the high was totally different than cigarettes. Also you can find some pure tobacco that doesn't have all the additives as cigarettes. Frankly, I don't know why anyone would smoke cigaterres. Everything in tobacco is way better. Except that you have to roll it. But that is a ritual in itself and I liked it. This all lasted for about 2 years and then I quit. I didn't want to be a smoker now at this point in my life. And also I am highly addictive person. I'd smoke all the time. When the cigarette was coming to an end, I was already thinking I want another one. I don't know how people do it. I still miss it though. I just like to inhale and exhale smoke. Too bad it chains you to itself that you constantlu think about it and that it gives you bad breath.

I want it all. Whatever I wish for, I want to e able to manifest. Right now I have to work a lot to get to that point. I want to start enjoying life on my terms. But if I have to really say just one thing, which is very hard, then I would say women. A lot of different, hot, women. But this is just one of the things. But I do think about this the most. Or I should say I'm split 50:50 between this and something else.

I'm betting he's going to go for that one 'No'.

Manifestation. Now you have to tell us. If you don't want to do it publicly, you can send me a DM. That way only 1 person will look down on you.

(N,N DMT, not 5-MeO) I can remember only one time, as a complete beginner, I came into an oval shaped room and some humanoid like beings were trying to teach me something with their hands. That was just a really interesting trip. I was "somewhere". Then after that I've had a lot of mild trips. Just the visuals. But the ones that were really strong always show me complete horror. I reasoned to myself that I always took just one hit too litle (2 instead of 3, as everyone keeps instructing) and I came into some waiting room and if I made a breakthrouth it would pass and I would come to complete bliss. Because of this sheer terror I could never get myself to smoke it more than once or twice a year. And each time it was the same. Showing me hell. So I still have some old stash at for some years now, that I haven't really gotten to yet, and a few days back I decided to do it again, after 2 years. I wasn't scared, because I said I'm gonna go easy. I was actually excited for the first time. No jitters. To smoke a little, just to get those visuals. And I liked it, I wasn't scared of it anymore, so I smoked it for the last 3 days in the evenings. Every time putting a little bit more inside. I loved it, I actually just wanted to smoke it again and again, it was that good. So, yestarday I smoked some again and said I need more. Still in a daze I went to the table and put in twice as much as the last dose. It was a pretty neat I lighted it up, took it all in one long inhale. Waited 10 seconds, exhaled, and immediatelly knew this was it. That feeling when the trip just dawns on you. I laid back and it was strong as hell. Immediately I knew I took too much. But I didn't break through to some blissful dimension. I saw a women standing over me, not actually seeing her but feeling her and her voice, as she said "You've overdone it". Like a paramedic telling me this while we are driving in the ambulance. A similar thing happened some years before. In that trip I was also lying somewhere on the ground and some woman yelling at me "Look what you did!". It felt like I have brokend a large window of her street side shop and was lying in the glass in blood, just looking at her and not able to pick myself up. Like I was a drunktard who had a really really bad accident. So now I'm left wondering about yesterday. Was this again just some space before that bliss? Or did I just jump over to some terror space again? All the while I knew I exist, and that "I am", perhaps I didn't know that I am the same person who I am here in this reality. Or perhaps I did. But no loss of ego I think. No complete loss of identity. It was just me - or should I say some person who did something bad, somewhere - with a woman looking over me and telling me I've overdone it. All this time I kept feeling shame for doing something bad and I was just powerless to the people yelling at me. So. Should I put more in next time? I don't get it. Do I need first to get through some deep trauma in me, before it lets me visit the blissfulness? What? I do have a lot of problem with shame and I haven't yet been able to resolve it in my life. Could it be that it is that's why it's taking me there? Is it a problem of just letting go somehow? I just can't imagine taking a strong dose and actually getting to a nice place. Any insights?

Do eet.

That's a good take I guess. I just saw DMT as the ultimate of experiences and wanted what others achieved. Malt? I can't keep up with these new varieties anymore. I kind of stopped keeping up a few years back. I'll smoke the rest of my DMT, but in lower doses. Otherwise I'll stick to LSD.

There wasn't a chance. There was too much going on. I could just observe and try to take in what is happening. Now that I think of it, there perhaps wasn't even a 'Me', it just was 'everything' at once.

Some times you will lick the frog, some times you will be the frog that gets licked. Now let us pray.

With practice. The more you do it, the more you get used to it. You have to really visualize it like you're there and imagine what you would feel if you already had that thing and just radiate that feeling. And sooner or later, the Universe will have to match what you give out. This is the law. You are a magnet and you get what you give out. Everything you have in your life until this point is because you manifested it. Your thoughts led you to your exact current circumstances. If you can't do it before sleep, then do it in meditation after you reach that peaceful alpha wave state. I have troubles while in bed, becase my mind works too much when I visualize it and I don't fall asleep, so I do it like this. Although the ladder experiment worked even though I had troubles. Start doing it with small things first. Don't go for the big ones, because the leap will be too big. Do the ladder experiment and see if it works. It happened for me. Neville has some special energy in him, something that I personally haven't gotten from other teachers, and I could listen to him for hours. He never charged anything, he taught people for free. There are a lot of stories of people getting their desires and also he shares a lot of stuff from his personal life, as you will hear sooner or later. If you want some reinforcement, there's a channel called Nevillution. There are stories of other people applying the law. Also, I bought a book with collected works of Neville and I read a small passage every day before bed, to reinforce my beliefs and keep my faith strong. There is magic in his words and there is a lot of value on every single page. It's the same law over and over again, but each time told in a different way, so you will always find things that reasonate with you. If you want an introduction to him, download Neville's '5 Lessons' PDF: https://www.pdfdrive.com/five-lessons-a-master-class-e195131637.html There are other teachers (Abraham Hicks, Joe Dispenza,...) but Neville really resonated with me the first instant I listened to him or read his stuff. To me he is different than all the others. But you might resonate more with someone else. Yeah

Can you please give some specific examples of your 'Shadow work'? I've seen the term get tossed around a lot, but exact descriptions of the exercises are a lot easier to understand for me.

Well that escalated quickly.

Basically it's this: You have to feel like you already have it to attract it. What you put out, you attract. The things you are focused on are the things you are going to get. But you must not think "I want to get that" - you have to be already in the feeling of having it. Neville Goddard's advice is to do it before you fall asleep. That is when it is the most effective. Try the ladder experiment: If you like this video, listen to Neville himself, there are a lot of his teachings on youtube. He's an interesting guy to listen to. And once again: you have to feel like you already have it. This is the key. "The Universe doesn't give you more of what you want, it gives you more of what you are."

And this is how he cleans his stainless steel wok. I've seen @Leo Gura say he leaves his in water for a few hours if burnt, but this is a lot quicker:

I just found a channel about Woks, since I'll be buying one eventually and this guy explains seasoning. I didn't know that meant burning the oil onto the pan. So, isn't that unhealthy? I've googled a bit and some say that its carcinogenic and some say it's ok. So, which one? The seasoning process is this: He mentiones Canola oil as the best one for seasoning, but I'm staying away from that one. Is just any oil good, in your opinion?

Alright. Exactly this, yes. Also too sceptical. I guess I did break through, but it was just too strong to handle. Ok, but I've met these too. Not elf people, but mechanical looking entities. Something like those indian totems and aztec masks, but in HD and trillions of collors. When I have met them it was always kind of the same. One of them always has some tube going into my body and is draining me of something. It feels like a outer wordly hospital room and they are doing something to me. Trying to help me. This experience is similar with this woman, like some nurse. I have also met them in 2 or 3 other instances, so from my experience, I know they are real, whatever they are. Yeah, I don't have a problem with LSD. Those trips were always good.

I also think this. Twice have I now "met" this woman who is disgusted at me. It's similar same as LSD. I've written a post some while ago how my LSD trips always take me to some place of unspeakable horror. Something that ha happened in the past, in some other place. And it is always the same visions, the same places. I hear screaming of a lot of people at once, like we are together in an airplane that is going down, or something like that. Then there is a vision of a body underwated, stuck in a fish net and it has been there for a few days. Everything is cut into the skin and the body just wants to explode. A grousome scene. It's always the same visions and each time I trip, I go just a little bit further. But I don't mind it on LSD. Actually each time I want to go to that place again, because I want to figure out what these visions are. But to me it's like I've been there in the accident together with all of them. But I was just wondering what do I have to do with DMT. I will take a slightly lighter dose next time and try to integrate it somehow. But these have to be some things buried deep inside of me and I feel I need to solve them. But I don't know how. I've tried MDMA, but on parties. Not for healing. Also, I have a little bit of 5-MeO, too. Will try it aswell. I've only done it once and it blew my brains out a little. But I'd just like to figure shit out. I had the same experience on Ayahuasca. I had a 5 hour horror trip, because I couldn't let go. I have some deep fear of opening up inside. I just want to solve it.

Not a report, but similar I guess

The dose is too much if it is yesterday evening, you are me, and you did DMT. If you ever go back in time, please beware.