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@Schizophonia Its probably the most disgusting emotion you can feel and will consume you. But its important to go through so you can lose it and see what you did. To possess a woman and have her be possessed by you destroys your mind. I had a dream of an ex the other night. A woman I possessed at some point. We were in a theater watching a movie and having sex I would leave and come back and we would do it again she just sitting there. I leave and come back she is looking at me like she loves me we start having sex I look down. Her vagina torn and I could see her vagina was just a penis device for me to use and her face a comfort of love I would use to feel like I was loved by something beautiful. I am disgusted to have turned a human into a possession. Possessing a human is manipulation and wanting to have one is rape. We can't know the other person we can't ever know they exist we use humans sexually like toys when God is in there. Pick up is rape.

How to handle rejection. Don't put anything in the basket to begin with. When you approach you are putting something into the basket that you wish to take back out. When rejection hits you feel like you cant take back what you put in . This leaves you with the feeling like you lost something.Don't put anything into the interaction you wont lose anything. Don't put woman on pedestal. Look at what you are doing at face value you are fishing. Are you rejected when a fish bites your line takes your worm and leaves? No you just put another one on and keep fishing. You have infinite worms and are thinking you are running out.

@Sugarcoat the void of nothing. The cessation of all external and internal experience. Leaving you with just existing and awareness of existing.

The truth is there when you close your eyes.

@Davino when there is no self you are the clouds in the sky you are seeing.

Self has to do with memory. No memory no person existing, just existing. If you want to destroy yourself you destroy your memory by not engaging with mind. Your mind is constantly asking if something is true all day let it ask but dont answer. You dont know you dont exist.

print that and stare at the dot in the middle from an arms length away, at sunset or sunrise.

The problem I think is that buddhist say God is nothing but they dont give the nothingness credit for what it is.Hinduism does it better. Buddhists are right that God is nothing and you can witness it as that but its also infinity and buddhist say no to that. Hindu says God is nothing and that makes him everything so they say God is nothing and infinity. Its like a Jehovah Witness to Christianity. Buddhism is like Jehovah Witness and Hinduism is like Christianity. One says no fun the other says have all the fun. Buddhism might prepare you better because when you die you HAVE to become a void of nothing forever and you will struggle until you do it. Buddhism is like nothing is happening so no parties no birthdays no holidays just sit there ie Jehova Witness. Hinduism says God is real lets party but there are a few laws God created that you shouldnt stray to far from, there is no permanent hell but bad things can happen. Christianity is like that except they teach their children very bad things like satan and if you masterbate you go to hell. This is completely just trash and will destroy the mind of your child for no reason, before they even get a chance to logically conclude anything. God is nothing yes but its also an infinite playground for you to play in forever. The reason they say there is no God is because when you become God there is nothing. Its like being tied up in a dark room you know you want to see but cant you know you want to scream but cant you know you want to hear but cant and you struggle until you forget you want to hear see taste smell. When you are in the void you can be conscious and unconscious. The difference is one you know you are there and the other you dont know you are there but are still looking at it(deep sleep). Imagine life was you woke up from deep sleep and opened your eyes and were still in the deep sleep 'place' and you just sat there. The you forget you are in the deep sleep space but are still looking at it because its all there is. Then you 'wake up' and see you are still in the deep sleep nothing and are looking at it and cant not look at it. Then you forget you are there and are still staring at it but you forget and its just the deep sleep place. You do this over and over again until the deep sleep space 'sleeping' and the deep sleep place 'awake' are one and you dont wake up or go to sleep again and its just that, nothing. Then you respawn. God when its God is nothing, it dosent exist, it is nothing, existing. There is literally a simulation 'playing' you, the simulation doesnt have an identity, its identity is whatever you the simulation makes it, from a different dimension of reality. When you see God as nothing you cant identify it and can only see it when you come back from death. If you didnt come back you wouldnt know, and if you didnt realize what you saw you wouldnt know. If you died and went to the void and became nothing and then turned into a fish you wouldnt know. If you died and went to the void of nothing forgot everything and came back in the same body you can know. Death can be achieved through dying, deep meditation, psychedelics. The problem with the first one is you might not come back, the other 2 you will guaranteed come back and see. The void of nothing is coming for us all and can happen at any instant.

Put leo on speaker the God realization video

Cause I was scared/Had thirst in my heart. Quote by Sadhguru. 'Theres only one thing I'm trying to tell you, I'm just trying to beat my own drum,to blow my own trumpet. That I know I know I know! what which you want to know, is also me. That which can know is also me This is the self trumpet that I am blowing all the time! Dont believe all the other words, all I am trying to say is I know I know! This is somebody blowing his own trumpet all the time day in and day out every opportunity,Whether people are willing or not willing Whether the situation is appropriate or not appropriate, same thing this sounds hedonistic, If there is not thirst in your heart it is a horrible thing, somebody going on saying he knows if there is a thirst in your heart to hear this, that someone can clearly say that he knows its the greatest benediction. If there is thirst in your heart.' I had no option it was my default setting to be terrified of dying and I was looking for a way out. I was looking for truth on accident and found it on accident. I now value it because its the only thing to value.

Yes it has made people insane. It has to do with God and logic. If you are hyper logical you will loop and loop in your mind without finding an answer.

Some are for sure, you can see the streamer Destiny is like that. He saw God and then got scared and now is very terrified of schizophrenic and mentally ill people. His mother is mentally ill and he can see it coming but is ignoring it. This will have the opposite effect on him than he intends. By ignoring truth you actually go insane but not consciously. However this pretty much applies to intelligent people seeking the truth, they hit a point in seeking, like metaphysics and then stop because it unravels everything they think they know. Most dont know and are just terrified about the thought of death imo. In order to not think about dying you have to think about something else the mind will point to it everytime you rest. This makes most people stuck in logical loops because of the fear that they stop one day. Its what being 'asleep' means, survival mode. They cant think about dying because that will automatically trigger a fear response that they know they are dreaming. So they give their life to logic and words because they have to to not think about that big ? their brain will automatically point to if they stop. Its why we are alive.

My parents divorce when I was 4. My father a dead beat thief and my mother a raging lunatic from stress. She would scream all the time I felt like I had to walk on eggshells because I am a baby I don't know how to act like she wants. Evertime I do something she dosent like she scream like a banshee and hit me. So I was happier around my father but he didn't care about me. Since I liked being around my father, because he wasn't abusing my ears and self and body,as obviously as my mother she labeled me as a daddies boy. I wasnt a daddies boy I just didn't like the way my mother was a bi polar lunatic it leaves you feeling unsafe even when she was being nice, as you dont know when you will act improperly and get verbally abused for no reason that I would know of at the time. I don't like either of them. In my adult life my mother has been nicer to me but I have a feeling its only because my 2 brothers stopped talking to her and I am the only one left that will communicate. It felt like my dad abandoned me then my mom abandoned me because I looked like I wanted to be around my father more than her. My mother kicked me out of the house when I was 17 and then my family abandon me. I lived with my dad for a bit but he didn't care about me and would dissapear for weeks without saying anything. I don't love my dad but I love my mom because she tried even if it left me severly mentally ill.

Athiest are more wrong than Christians but on the way to becoming wise. To get out of Christianity and see God you must leave and become less right basically become the most wrong you can than see it. You almost have to be an athiest to see God cause God isn't in this dimension. Its in another dimension looking into this one. God is basically hiding from this dimension. To see God you must admit its not here i don't see it or experience it. I was an athiest arguing with my mother about God and I said if God is all one then it should be that lamp post. She said no because she's a retarded Christian. Little did I know I was about to find out the truth. In that case an athiest is more open minded than a Christian and being that open as an athiest is a prize to God.

Any psychedelic. Psychedelic effect consciousness when consciousness is effected if you are looking you will see it.

Cure yourself then start a business

@Something Funny When I say God is grapsing your sanity I mean like he is holding your imagination down in a tight fist so it dosent go infinite and you can stabalize your psyche.We are here to stabalize our psyche and not be afraid of infinite. Language holds your imagination down.

@Something Funny When you are baby or an elder, you dont get the luxury of language. Now you can say to yourself I am in my home I am safe and beleive it. I am in my room I am safe there are no monsters here mommy and daddy told me and looked. These are mental emotions you keep up and God gave you these tools to keep the demons away. When you were a baby you didnt have the concept of home, or room, or safety you were naked and afraid and you are going back to idea of not having a home,when you are old and lose the concept cause its made up. When these concepts leave you and you go to sleep you are totally vulnerable and the demons can come in and scare you. If you didnt go to bed in a home in a room tonight, but outside in the bushes naked and afraid they would come. God give you a feeling of safety so you can keep lunacy at bay for now. Lunacy comes when a childs home is a wilderness.

@Something Funny I mean a nightmare. Im sure your brain dosent want to think about that.

@Something FunnyWhat about a non regular dream?

@Something Funny Try and think of a nightmare you had when you were a baby you woke up and still felt the nigtmare didnt trust anyone a dark state looms over your mind you are awake but the bad feeling is still there. God sees you dont like it and cant function that way so it takes them away. When we get old and crippled and retarded the same things start to happen. I work in old folks home they have night terrors and wake up screaming and crying and will keep being scared for hours after. They are seeing whats there. Its basically how scared are you without being able to fight the fear and just sitting in it.

Tutorials for programs. Its good to learn a new program and talk to ai. It will give you step by step guides on whatever program you want.

Its solipsism what are you looking for?

I would say imagine your sanity like an invisible fist God is clasping tight so you can move around properly. Without all these concepts and ideas your visual field looses it and your mental field looses it. You wont know what you are looking at and you wont know how you 'normally experience it. Everything you know outside your visual field leaves and you are left with a screen and emotions you dont know what they are and you are not there as a concept to express them the body is unleashed. The feeling of where your body located is sanity. Without it you dont know up down left right its like a swirling ball of colors and sounds that you are in but you also don't exist as anything in it.

They think that countries are leeching off then and are trying to nationalize america. They think they are as big and strong as they are with no other country. They don't know half their population is very unhealthy and the other half won't go back to the factories.