Hojo

You are there you are just staring at the back of your eyelids. Your eyes don't turn off you enter meditation state but you forget you are there because you are not conscious to see that you are just meditating. You just forget you exist and enter no thinking. When you don't think you are there you literally are not there until the next time you think you are there. The trick is to stop thinking you are there ever again.

Try it out maybe its a hidden desire you need to fulfill behind the ego

Everytime I trip on shrooms my vision goes alien and then I fall into my mind and I see that everything is just dust desperately trying to find meaning. I look through my mind and I see mounds of dust sitting there another failed attempt at trying to find meaning within myself. Something that cannot be done cause its all ethereal dust. I see the pyramids and I see it was an effort of God to make itself the biggest mound of dust so that it might give it meaning but ultimately another failed attempt. I see Jesus just another attempt to find meaning in the dust that only exists. I see myself realizing this and there is nothing I can do to find meaning and all lives lived are just desperation to get out of what only exists a void of nothing. I lay in my bed setting up my final resting mound for this life and I cry under my blanket because meaning cannot be found all that exists are existential puppets of a sleeping God.

@Breakingthewall thank you I will try to go further

maybe it was your dance moves

If we are in our bodies and our bodies are machines we should always be conscious about what this machine is doing and why its doing it. I have been practising consciously thinking about what I am doing with my body at all times and notice I keep forgetting to keep track what I am doing with my body by being in life. Like say I walk to the grocery store and then I say to myself I am walking I am walking I am walking, I am opening the door to the grocery store I am walking I am looking at juice I am picking juice out I am putting juice in my basket' then someone I know walks around the corner I stop saying I am and I am thinking about interacting with them unconsciously, I am talking to them and listening to them but I am am not saying I am thinking I am thinking of a response I am deciding response I am responding. Should I sit there and wait for a response to appear or should I be using a different part of me to summon an answer like just talking without filter? Is this all ego game? I keep trying to do this, I am washing a dish I am putting a dish in the rinse sink I am washing a dish, I am washing a dish I am putting it into the rinse sink. I am taking the dish out and drying it. then 10 minutes later I am remembering that I entered a thought process and forgot to narrate my life and then start doing it again. Is narrating your life like this normal and do I have a mental illness by drifting in and out of consciousness like this?

everytime you say the word leo you are blaspheming Christ, Jesus told you this when you were 6, you must recognize the original source. You life is a dream it is telling you something Jesus is the creator of this

@Loveeee Satan gives meaning he is your friend

@Loveeee imagine the release you will feel once you have Satan on your shoulder for infinite time and you live the life you were so scared of and realize it wasn't that bad because God is real and it saves you and loves you after !

it dosent matter if you havent counted the number yet, you will have to count the number sometime. You can hit life 349547839450 and say I dont like that I will do it later. The attachment to the dislike of the life number 349547839450 will grow and become satan and you will force yourself to do it through the dislike for that life. You will create an argument with god and it will turn into a nightmare. In infinity you have to live through nightmares it cant just be favourable dreams forever @Loveeee

@PurpleTree No I didnt feel any levitation but like You I had it like 7 times in one night and I was playing around with it. I saw shadows moving arond and I was home alone but I said I didnt care and I kept going in and out a bunch of times. It was fun but the body felt like it weight a million pounds when I woke up and just went back to sleep. Pretty cool you had that too. We can identify that that is what losing consciousness feels like while conscious. We can imagine we were god and then something like that happened and we lost conciousness. Like there is a version of ourselves doing infinite creativity and it felt like it had to pass out and then its itn own creation and it cant stop from passing out, its like a being that keeps passing out over and over infinitely and if you dont sleep you go insane and become it.

@PurpleTree me too. I had it so much i would just watch what was happening. Then i could force myself out of by pushing really hard on my consciousness. I didnt know it was my consciousness at that time but I could do it. If you can push yourself out of sleep paralysis it feels like you are driving down a highway going 100 with all the windows open with the same sound and feeling. When i forced myself out I would wake up and sit up but my body would be in instant sleep mode and I would go back to sleep but within a certain time I would wake back up in sleep paralysis and try again. Kinda like butterfly effect feeling when ashton kutcher changes worlds with the shaky visuals but with the sound of air in a car speeding down the highway.

you need a shelter than you can. you probably had a shelter and then washed in your hut in front of everyone with a cloth or something till summer. And before clothes i think humans avoided cold

You have to experience everything you exist forever. Today is the beginning of the universe. If you fight an experience it turns into a nightmare. You have no choice to not experience everything. You have to do it literally. Thats how god is accepting everything, it understands everything cause it is the king of acceptance and you are God. You have to watch this screen forever and soon enough something you see you aren't going to like especially through mind wipes and you create what you fear. You have to do it. The simulation is infinite you will forget you were human and come back fresh and have an urge to do something and this will be caused by some trauma and you have to live through it to understand it. Im not sure if he meant it as in you need to experience every universe with every atom moved, but even with infinity that would be true. But i think it means more of you have to have a child and then rape your own child cause you identify negatively with that. And you need to understand why God did that. You will experience being forced into a corpse grinder with infinity. Even if its the last thing on your list you exist forever! Have faith in creation, there is a hidden loop hole there. You become unconcious and you fall into traps. Lose consciousness fall into a meat grinder, Gain consciousness become a God. Imagine before this you were high conciousness playing your own game with yourself and you were fighting someone, they hit you the blow felt so real you for one second thought im dead, then boom 30 years later you are a human realizing you just thought yourself into a trap. The infinite power of a god that it can make itself fall into traps that it dosent know it created, but serve a higher purpose of creating itself into a more focused evolved being so it never has to fear again.

@strangelooper you can be too right now, just right now you have something to look at and express gratitude for. You will express gratitude for the void, you are in the void but it has light right now this is God and God is the lonely one who gets a turn every 3 turns. Because two shine their lights on your thoughts to make you happen, and you must give back to them what you took, twice fold to understand why existence is so important. Right now you are bathed in the essence of God. You have two Gods that created you your mother and your father, their life experience formed a chain you must bear. Can you overcome and see yourself as God above. Imagine a world where you give two times the effort in order to satisfy the other 2 yous and live in bliss. And if you do this twice in a row its exponential.

gods infinite trauma screaming out in beautiful ways

mine is what the fuck is even happening

Being serious about suicide is a part of what led me to awaken. If I hadn't thought about it I don't think I would have woke myself up. God said to me not yet let me kill you first. I think eckhart tolle have the same kinda experience where he said God i want to die and God killed him just not physically

People experience that same things without taking them. You cant win an argument with someone who's mind is closed as they will always revert back to hallucination as a defense. Even if you did it naturally you would get the same argument. They are sleeping and don't want to be awoken or its too mind fucky for them to begin to open up too.

Change nothing matters and I don't like it to Nothing matters and God is real

Its just God a moment when you can stop existing and be in bliss. It will feel like that when you die the feeling get so intense you lose all other feelings and just stay in this place without thinking ever again.

i am doing the same thing but not with music i just start crying everyday because i felt gods love 3 years ago and it is recycling in my system, normally when i am working and contemplating or contemplating at home. sometimes i just get random waves of where i start bawling and i get immense pressure in my skull and then i just stop instantly and just go about my day

i have been lucky enough to experience both ends of the stick with nihilism and it wouldnt go back the shoot up is too good. and it gives nihilism meaning, god sees the nihilist and says almost there baby

thats what life is for you were scared of eternity and now you aren't. You cured yourself. Now doing all the cool things you already did sounds awesome

pretend this is you doing this in that body. that can happen and you dont even know you are a raven