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@TruthFreedom You belong with God. God is where you are. You are at home you just feel like you dont belong at home with God. You are missing metaphysical home that is everywhere. When you find home your heart will explode as you will see God has never abandoned you like everyone else did.

Deviant art seems like one. Rarely identity involved just people expressing art without censor.

@TruthFreedom The only spirit you are talking from is vodka.

@TruthFreedom You said you were Jesus the character of a story you are citing. Somehow he existed and died for you to hear the story of him. At the same time you are him? And I don't make sense?

Its the path of finding God. Where is home? Jesus wasn't being rejected he was rejecting every home he was in because that's not home. You could be doing the same thing. You never feel like you are at home because nowhere out here is home. You will never feel at home thats why you are drinking.

@integral Yes I agree. Now think of all those times you had to be quiet when you were cumming. You wanted to scream and thrash your body but you couldnt. All that energy is stored in the body. Now you do it 1000 times look how much of that energy is going to be stored inside of you. And its going to start rotting it needs to come out. This energy turns into rapey energy , they can have alot of sexual energy that isnt coming out because of shame and guilting themselves turning it rancid. Even when you have sex with a woman you are so ashamed you are not making any sound. You REALLY want to make sound but storing it even deeper down. Then you will see you never released what you really wanted to do. The energy is now aggressive. Now you dug yourself into a hole where you must release this negative aggressive energy projected onto a woman.

@integralI think it comes from having to be quiet when you are masturbating at home. Basically shame. We compress the emotions then eventually we cannot enjoy sex like we want because of shame.

Yes just another hamster wheel. How do you help a brain dead state? Stop thinking its doing something wrong.

@samijiben i draw it on a peice of paper then scan it and colour it in Krita. Its permanent sharpee. Thank you.

I think the men are quiet and the woman reflects them man. If the man go as hard as he wants he would be yelling. Have you ever yelled during sex?

@Razard86Thats fair you can change hate to I dont fucking like you, aggressively dont like you.

When you awaken it gets confusing on what you should be or do. Its all one, i must like everyone because I am them but I spend 5 seconds doing that and I'm annoyed. What that means is you actually hate everyone and thats who you are, and you are pretending to be nice cause you think you are supposed to. You are supposed to hate everyone and life won't go forward till you stop lying. Once you hate you can see that everything will be okay when you are rude/honest and genuinely not interested. People through out life will gaslight us into thinking we are being mean when we are just being ourselves. For instance people will be like why do you look so angry or sad when just sitting there cause you have resting bitch face.You are sitting there perfectly normal and someone just randomly insults you and tells you what you are doing is wrong. Then you change and act like someone else for some asshole who found your face uncomfortable. When we say everything is love its means love that you hate people not love the person. Love your resting bitch face and fuck the person who insulted you for it. God needs the interaction to happen so you can say to them ,who the fuck are you? Instead we are programmed to take it to heart and insult ourselves when we didnt even do anything and we change for no reason. This hurts the individual everytime they pretend and will actually ruin Gods graceful plan for you. After you do this you will be able to smile all day. You will do what you want and everything will work out and there will be no friction.

Yes the self deception is that you care about anything. Earth is a spooky haunted house ride and you are caring about ghosts. You gotta not care but feel like you do.

When I awaken it only take 1.5 gram it felt like I had a massive reservoir of energy sitting there or that I was crushing my energy into my feet and then let it go. Or my energies were at 0. I was drinking heavily. I think once you reach 0 energy God fills you up thats why they say empty your cup. Empty your cup and God will fill you up. I got enlightened but I didn't stay there i came back down almost instantly. You can shoot so much energy through your body that it sends you to another dimension of reality, similar to if a 2D person in flat land lifted himself into 3D via a massive blast of energy. Like if a dot on your paper created enough energy for itself it blasted off the page into another dimension , up or out. It dosent matter if you stay there once you touch God you are saved by God even if you come back down. Its just about how you treat the experience you had do you beleive it? Do you act like what God said when you meet him? Will you struggle now on death?

The country runs off scared pigs. Americans are scared of everything cause they have it super good. If you have alot of really good things you are scared that it will collapse. When everything can collapse it you are scared of everything. When the mind is chilling in survival mode you are constantly looking for things that are going to hurt you thats why science is getting into super niche shit. You think Iranians are scaree about microplastics and freaking out? No only 1st world countries are cause they are sitting around in survival mode.

I was thinking what the opposite of logic is. I come to the conclusion that beauty is the opposite to logic. You can see God via logic and God is logical, women deny this for the purposes of beauty so they cant find it. Beauty clouds the eyes of logic and obsession with being beautiful blocks being able to witness God via logic. I have also come to conclusion that in order for me to nest myself in truth I need to abandon my logic. I found God with logic and when you do that you need to throw it away and explore beauty. Logic after God is useless except to piss you off. Woman cant see the logical inconsistencies in their arguments and attack when they see the crack, instead of exposing their own hole. Women need morals to exist to survive with men, they cant look at the fact that everything can dominate them, and they have nothing to help them except the graciousness of man. They use logical inconsistencies like morals to hide the fact that they have no logic. Logic with a hole in it is not logic at all its fake words and understandings. This means In general women have 0 logic. None of this is an attack on women its just analysis. I love women I don't hate women I think the things they do are nice and without a woman no one would care about you. Without beauty you are alone with your logic and its not fun. Women bring life to man without woman man is a robot.

You think about something happy. Feel the emotion and hold it for as long as you can. Emotions are energy you are just looking for energy in your body. Once you hold it you can make it grow. Then you start glowing it and then people around you and reality is now happy. If you are holding into negative energy then it won't work cause you will drop happiness to feel that instead

Its the most important part of life. Here you get to work and you get to eat. You can do as little as you want but its important to move your vehicle. Moving your vehicle and day dreaming is a core part of reality. Your body is a vehicle you are using to travel between metaphysical planes. Its supposed to move around. If you do hard work your imagination is super powered. Then it can project more things into your life. Daydream requires no thought. If you move around you will stop thinking. The more exhausted the less you are thinking the more your imagination gets powered.

@Carl-RichardWhat is the observer? And what does the observer do explained to a 5 year old. Do they not focus the object via light? Like they focus all the light waves into one slit.

Double slit says when something isn't being observed by the one observer that it stops being itself and desolidifies into a blob of colour or turns into nothing. When I am not looking at something directly but it is still in my pov its not solid and its a blur of colour. Like if I focus on something it gains solid form and shape and I can know what it is, but I look away and its still at the side of my eye visible but now its not solid or shaped and I can't tell what it is i need to look at it to see. Science is saying thats whats happening in reality not a limitation of my eyeballs? If its true its logical to follow that when you stop looking at something it completely desolidies and turns into the deep sleep space behind your head. This made me think about black holes and how when the buddha says let's eat its him realizing he's a black hole eating light.

@Carl-Richard That cause the physicist is counting on there being outside of what he is seeing right? The physicist can't say thats happening because it breaks his theories. In a sense he's looking at the double slit experiment objectively and saying no. Thats madness. The physicist sees his math breaking in his direct experience via his eyes and is denying it. Cause he made up that object permanence was real.

@Natasha Tori Maru I have 0 understanding about anything. My brain works in images flashing in my mind and I try to decipher them. When I read something I don't even know what I just read as my mind does not compartmentalize things. I'll read and stare and a picture will come into my imagination and then words come. In my original post I was asking a question about whether this is true or not cause I don't know and science never explains it in normal videos. And if you cant explain like im 5 then I won't understand cause I have never read a book in my life. I failed high-school. But I am hyper logical. I don't want so many words and theories dancing around in my logic. If I look and or read something and no reaction happens in my imagination then I discard it. If you explained the double slit as there is a man standing looking through a hole and there was light shining through that one hole. And then he turned his head and then the light went through all the holes then I would understand. But there are 15 million words I don't understand in books thats why I don't read them I don't need these made up words in my head. Scientist have to pretend to be smart so they make up a bunch of stupid words to sound like they are better. Its easier to understand pictures for me. If you can explain it to a 5 year old that means you understand. If you cant then you are hiding behind words.

@Keryo Koffa I think i just thought of the answer. To jerk off and use your imagination but not about sex. Jerk off and tell yourself a story thats not sexual while being erect.