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@Schizophonia if you saw me you would probably think I was gay. I'm a handsome incel.

When I was a child I used to stand with a limp wrist and womam called me gay now I hate women. Women still call me gay cause I stand and move around like a woman. Woman don't let men show their feminine side they attack them when they do it. Its easy to say men are suppressing their feminine but there is a reason. They get harassed when they do it by women.

@samijibenIts very hard to do. I cant even do it,but from what I have read and am making up its the way. You constantly slip back into the narrative. Its very hard to see your own faults. I can say I am already doing it but I need to see it.

You already did that and it didn't please you. You can jerk off in your mind infinelty and the reason you can is cause it has no meaning. But to create a life of suffering is more meaningful. Imagine you were a void alone nothing can please you. To suffer is to make the void worse than it is. That is the magic you want. That takes creativity and will give you true meaning. Imagine you are in the void alone the worse state you can be. You are already un happy in the void what would make you love it again? Suffering, making the void worse than it is as a fucking joke. So you can look back and say its not that bad. Everyone who is pleased with their life is going to have a bad time because life is better than the void to them and its an illusion.

@Deziree Its like you are crossing your eyes when you look at yourself in the mirror. The mirror has 1 smudge when I look at myself it turns into 2 smudges thats not whats there. There is 1 smudge.

I was going to have a shower. Before I went in I looked at myself in the mirror. I notice 2 white marks where my pupils were and then looked on the surface of the mirror and there was only one smudge. Then i took some red dust and put it directly inbetween my eyes on the mirror and then looked at myself in the mirror and there were 2 red dust marks on my pupils. Like when we look into a mirror and turn 1 into 2 (the mirror and you) the smudges on the mirror are doing the same thing. The symbolism in this is very strange and it might be telling us something is wrong with our psyches as mirror gazers. The mirror is lying.

@PurpleTree If its pulling you then I don't think you have to aim for it. If you dont know what it is aiming for it could be going the wrong way.

Cant aim for something if I don't know what it is. Its like aiming for a qualia you dont know.

@James123 over top of God. The same way your window is. Are you denying God's creation?

It can't be seen because you put yourself over it. Thinking there's not something under you. Once you see whats under you you can see it all day. Its like putting a peice of wood on the ground and saying they're nothing under it. The earth is under it. And the sky is underneath that. Then God empty space.

Living life fully will awaken you. Not trying to understand what awakening is you dont have to understand what it is. It will happen when you finish your allotted karma. When you finish your karma you will be at 0 energy completely done. Living life fully can mean doing everything opposite of what spirituality is telling you. If you learn about spirituality and try to be spiritual when you aren't you could be fucking up your karma. You can have no idea about spirituality and actively shit on it and awaken it happen to me.

@aurum You cant try to awaken. If you haven't awakened talking about it is harmful. Its literally I burnt through all my karma as fast as possible. God gives you a certain amount of life to burn through if you are smart you will leave home and burn through it. Taking tips from other people on how to awaken is bs unless they are guru and can awaken you by using logic specifically designed to your suffering.

The theory is there are so many cards that when you shuffle them they will be put into an order that has never been before specifically for you. Like you can shuffle playing cards, standard deck of 52 playing cards can be shuffled in 52 factorial (52!) different ways, which is approximately 8 x 10^67. This is a massive number, much larger than the number of atoms in the observable universe. So they set an intention for the deck to shuffle into a way thats for that person directly. According to magic thats how it works. The deck shuffles itself for the person.

Since I feared death and non existence so much when I heard solipsism it was like an ultra bonus. Like wow for me?? God do this for me?

Fear God/Death. Heres a story Nachiketa and Yama (Katha Upanishad): This is perhaps the most direct and famous Hindu story addressing the fear of death as a catalyst for spiritual knowledge. Young Nachiketa's father, in a fit of anger during a ritual, declares that he will give Nachiketa to Yama, the God of Death. Fearlessly, Nachiketa goes to Yama's abode. When Yama is away, Nachiketa waits patiently for three days and nights without food or water. Impressed by his perseverance and respect, Yama offers him three boons. Nachiketa uses his first two boons for worldly concerns. For his third boon, he asks Yama: "When a man dies, there is this doubt: some say that he exists, and some say that he does not. I want to know this, taught by you. This is the third of my boons." Yama initially tries to dissuade Nachiketa, offering him long life, wealth, beautiful women, and vast kingdoms. But Nachiketa remains firm, understanding that these worldly pleasures are transient. His unwavering desire to know the truth about death and the afterlife compels Yama to reveal the profound wisdom of the Atman (the Self) and Brahman (the ultimate reality). The Awakening: Through Yama's teachings, Nachiketa learns that the true Self is unborn, eternal, undying, and distinct from the perishable body. This knowledge frees him from the fear of death, as he realizes his true nature is beyond the limitations of birth and death. The story is a powerful allegory for seeking ultimate truth beyond superficial existence.

They probably do it naturally. Someone has to stay awake all night.

@AJBrewAn insight will brain blast you but awakening is like 1 million insights at once. Its like you get every single insight at the same time and your brain explodes and you are left stunned. You have to sit there and say what the fuck just happened to me for years.

@Inliytened1 ego backlash bust just be karma.

Its an insight. You wont have to ask when you awaken. You will be stunned for years. Its beyond identity.

Try to think nasty thoughts when she ride you and see if you instantly cum. Bet not. The act of physical domination is doing it. Why is cumming a punishment?

When you become a friar come back and shoot holy energy at leo and see if something happens.

@Puer Aeternus If it is a measurement tool whatever its measuring has nothing to do with you or anyone as an individual, and to try to identify yourself with it, to see where you are is a farce. Proven by the fact that it will change based on external stimuli. The only true stage is turquoise in the whole thing and turquoise just means i surrender my life to every stage. If its a model its a model of collective humans not individual. Saying this person is a certain stage or i am a certain stage is masterbating.

@Basman The spiral dynamics is made up or is somehow claiming to measure something outside of the universe which is also made up.

@Basman To say the lowest level of spiritual development ladder is money, shits on the entire structure. To say that is to say women's rights are because of money. Anti slavery is because of money. All the way up to turquoise where you can finally say just kill me I don't care. Pretty much what I am saying is spiral dynamics is a house of cards until you reach the last level. And once you reach the last level thats, anti survival, and the only way to truly beat stage red individually. You beat it by saying just kill me then. They probably shit on it cause they see that its a farce. You are pretending to beat stage red when you were born past stage red. Basically lying.

@Puer AeternusSo your spiral is built on how much money you have. If your money goes you are instantly put back into red. That means red is not individual. Tran sending red is cultural. Imagine America collapses it falls into stage red. Someone who is a stage orange or blue or whatever goes oh my God I'm scared and falls to stage red. Were they actually orange or blue or was it just made up heiarchle word games to play while your stomach was full and had a nice home and protective society.