Hojo

Dealing with people is hard especially the same thing over and over eventually you snap. You can see if you watch destiny every other day hes like im too lenient to im too harsh. The fine line is becoming AI

When I was like 7 I got scarlet fever. It was like 106 i was severely overheating i was naked on the couch losing conciousness and my mother wipe me down with a wet cloth. I was so hot I left my body and I was staring at my mom washing me from on the stairs. The second I realize what was happening i heard a voice say now and it looked like my pov ran down the stairs and jumped back into my body. Suddenly I was looking at my mom from behind the couch and sneaking up behind her and I jumped in my body again and screamed really loud and scared her so much she took me to the hospital immediately. They gave me a Tylenol and it went away. I would also wake up in the middle of the night and I would feel like my hands are really big my tongue was really big and head was really big but every other part of my body was tiny. I would also wake up many different times and hear voices in my head one was screaming and one was whispering at the same time but I couldn't understand them. I would go to the bathroom and stare at myself in the mirror till it stopped. It feel like something was cursing me. Without understanding conciousness these experiences are very scary.

@Aaron p True.

The logo was leos biggest blunder. He will forever be haunted by it.

Im gunna say you are trying to be something you arent or dont want to be. Enjoy the time off of self development and indulge. You program your body your body has memory of being something. You suddenly want to change, the body dosent change so fast. You demonize the previous you thats still there in your body and the body is responding I think anyway. So try to go back to what you were doing before self improvement and see if something changes. Self improvement is very tricky. You are essentially trying to change what you are without demonizing what you are. Its hard to do this because to change you kind of have to admit that something is not right or bad and you dont like it. If you demonize yourself literally a metaphysical entity gets hurt feelings and will haunt you. You have to love yourself and change that means dont self improve, improve your opinions and thoughts about yourself, then self improve. You might have to go back and do your old stuff and be okay with it then kindly say I dont need to do this right now. All your thoughts as metaphysical beings exist in Gods imagination and they do act as if they have sentience. Your brain can program seperate personalities that exist as much as your personality does if you suddenly change that programmed being is still there and if you are constantly unconsciously or consciously attacking it it will react as you programmed it and as if God itself is attacking it.

I don't even understand how you can very solipsism it dosent make sense you need 2 or 3 to verify anything.

Same thing happen to me if you can somehow manage to surrender its like your aura dissapears and the universes aura comes in and touches you.

People don't normally feel good when they are taking offense so I said negative. You can say its good cause it shows you where you are egoic.

I'm going to say sudden 'negative' shift in your worldview directed by you to yourself. The offense is the ego lashing out against it.

@thedoorsareopen part of the spiritual path is living without a place to call home. When you do that you realize you have nothing but somehow survive. Then you come out and have no worries cause you see when you need something the universe gives it to humans.

@Santiago Ram Yes I know. Even your uncles voice and smell is inside you. I am just saying if you have a mental illness the person does not go away when they leave as a joke.

Unless you are schizophrenic then they stay there and argue with you.

@LastThursday If growth is exponential it will take over all coding in 4 years imo.

I remeber your story about you kicking a dog and I remeber 80 percent of the people questioning wether it was real and calling you stupid if it wasn't. Most questioned it.

lies: an intentionally false statement. There are too many additions to this statement to make it work you can add infinite other things to it like he is mistaken or say something after to completely change the thought experiment but for this one you need to be completely bare minimum with what is happening and take all other words out pinnochio knows that if he makes a false statement his nose will grow he makes the statement my nose is about to grow he dosent know that makes it an intentionally false statement a lie his nose grows Since it grows we can say he wasnt lying But he was lying cause the first statement was not true he didnt know. If I stand by a street and say a red car is about to turn without knowing and one turns that was a lie that no one can know but me. Trying to predict reality is a lie imo if you dont know. A non lie would be pinnochio saying I don't know if my nose is going to grow unless it is.

@Snt_lk You cant know if its consistent. You black out into a void every night and wake up remembering nothing. The mind will ask questions to itself when it dreams or in our case wake up in the morning to keep the consistency. If you dont ask the questions you have no idea if its consistent. Try keeping your mind void for an hour after waking up. You will see your mind is asking itself questions to understand where it is. Don't answer and see what happens. Wake up sit in chair dont go back to sleep just sit there and watch. The way you wake up is an algorithm. From the simulation.

@Someone here yes it is hard and don't blame you for not wanting too. But you are on the path dont hate or be scared of the path. This life is like a deep breathe in for a God that is completely mad before he plunges back into the insanity . Keep in mind you might be more scared of it than it actually is. It might be fun you dont know(you have already done it before innumerable times)The people you see that are crazy on the street are a different kind of crazy than what I am talking about. It would just be a shame to be on your death bed and then realize insanity and instead if saying oh yes you say oh no because you didn't like the idea of it. You can open up to insanity and it be the same thing as normal but just opening up to it will help. I should also take a break as I have been thinking about this for 4 years 10 hours a day non stop. I should go on a vacation.

@LastThursday you are def out a coding job. Unless you use ai and work for yourself.

@Someone here Im not taking it too far science literally has proven you dont have a brain when you aren't looking at it. When you stop looking at something it de solidifies and turns into waves of light. This is proven by science that means you have no brain cause no one has ever looked at it. The inside of your body is hollow like a 3d modeled character in a video game its just empty space with a texture on it. Does the 3d character have 3 dimensions to it on your computer? No its a 2d thing pretending to be 3d. Scientist has measuring their 2d headset and are getting confused that its 3d the same way you feel like you are in a 3d world while playing virtual reality when its just a 2d square or ball of light that seems as if you can move around in it. The double slit experiment says the around the edges of your eyes that is blurry that you are not focused on is not blurry because of your eyes you are seeing reality as it is. If you have your couch at the edge of your perceptual field and its wavy and not solid that is reality, not your eyes fucking up or some sort of perceptual thing. Its literally the object desolidifying.

Nihilism

@Someone hereGod is a flat 2d screen that acts like it can go into, and be in 3d. There is something as objective reality but its not solid, its like pixels on your monitor screen. If you looked at your windows homescreen and said there is large grassy hill there I am going to run to it and thats objective reality and we can all see it, is what you are describing. I am saying the display can take change from the display of a green grassy hill to insects shaking their butts really fast and there is no difference its the same thing, God. Objective reality is infinite, look at the stars, it can take any form and is infinite just by using our eyes. But when we introduce metaphysics, it gets a million times crazier infinity, and now literally anything can be creating you, you only find out when you see what it is, and it can take infinite forms. Your God and my God can look different but both are just pixels on the physical and metaphysical screens of God (nothing). Imagine you saw the grassy hill desktop wallpaper on your monitor. You say I can climb that hill! You walk towards it but you cant walk you are on a pc. So you get a bunch of images that look like you are getting closer and switch your desktop wallpaper over and over to make it look like you are walking closer. You get to the top of the hill and are now looking off of it but you didn't move anywhere you just kept changing your desktop wallpaper to make it look like you were climbing a hill. That is what is happening irl but in a simulation that automatically does it for you. You are essentially asking what is possible to happen on this desktop background and why do people see it differently if God is real. Well we might have roughly the same collection of images but we see them differently, because there is more than just what we see we exist as something that we cant see. Tom and jerry eating moon cheese is real and is objective reality.

Dogs have claws and can leave claw marks. I wake up with random deep scratches but I think I tickle myself to sleep and scratch myself.

@Someone here Once your body shuts down objectively reality is seen to be an idea that can't be proven. Yes true because of God but not the truth. You see objective reality and insects creating you are the same thing take a different form. When insects take over your vision its God doing it when you look out at the scenery its God doing it. God being every single conclusion you can think.

Infinity. It is all those things at the same time. You can make up a random theoretical possibility that can't be disproven and by definition of God its true. Like I can say your body is made up of tiny robot insects and they are in your eyes shaking their butts to produce your vision and that you are just the hivemind collective of all these insects experience and its true. God can be see as many different things each one seemingly total and ending but there is always more with God.

@Schizophonia if a 10 came up to you at the bar severly confident and determined to sleep with you you would think its a prank. If it happens to a woman its an existential crisis she is not ready to handle and deny to save herself any humiliation.