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@Xonas Pitfall they are 60 percent succubus. Men are actually the angels. The angels get conned into this via the body chemistry and society. A man is born innocent and remains innocent until corrupted by outside forces. You are innocent and get gaslit by literally everyone to think you arent. Then you become corrupt. Men arent looking for this type of stuff they want a woman to love. The man will give his life for the woman and the woman never will. Thats true love (from the man). When women look for love they look for someone to take care of them and help them. The man just wants to give himself away to the woman. Men are born and told that true love exists and that they will find a woman and they will be together forever and they beleive it and when they realize its not true they become disdained because they put themselves on the line for someone who dosent actually care about them the same way they put out. And that type of love rarely exists here. All a man wants is to be with someone who will love them. But they get gaslit into thinking that they actually just want sex when women are way more sexual. Then the woman does perverted things to the man and it makes him perverted.

@Xonas Pitfall men are taught they are disgusting for being sexual and woman are seen to not be like that. They are seen to be more loving and caring. There are massive double standards when it comes to me and women in terms of sex and its in favor of women. A woman text me she ask me if she could give me a blowjob I said no I'm not attracted to you. Then she asked again and again and again. I said no I'm not attractive. I tell my mother and she said she likes me and I should give her a chance. If me as a man texted a woman that I want to eat her pussy and she said no and I kept doing it the cops would be called. Society wonders why no ones dating and its because if double standards like this. Fast forward to 4 years later she was still doing it. I thought I was stuck in a karmic loop so I said ok. We did it then she started pushing feelings on me. I trust you you make me feel good. I told her to fuck off. The she goes and talks about how im uncaring I'm always the bad guy in any scenario cause I'm a man. She treated me like a peice of meat and I did it back after hounding me for 4 years and I'm the bad guy. This woman stole my phone number from a list of work phone numbers to do this too.

@OBElerI was in death state for 3 months then I woke up. Basically I was waking up seeing I was stuck in a sleep state and freaking out over and over and then slowly my freak outs got less and less and then I enter a state of no freaking out and both states awake and asleep merge together and you are just brain dead retard staring at nothing forever as you have no idea how much time is passing.I could have woken up as a baby coming out of a vagina and wouldnt have been able to question it. Im not talking about 3 months in reality I am talking about 3 months in sleep state but aware I was in it. And the only reason I knew it was 3 months is because as I was coming back into the dream I saw a calendar that flipped 3 pages on it. When I woke up the next morning I wasnt even hungover ( after drinking 27 beers) I just felt like I had died for that long and I just said it was a dream. I was very happy to be alive for like 2 weeks after then my depression come back.I experienced life normally I went to school and did other stuff, nothing bad happened to my body, but my soul was crushed. Then 8 years later I take mushrooms and the mushrooms told me that I was actually there experiencing it and it happened to me.And it pointed this out and I saw consciousness via logic. Imagine a baby is born. The baby has 0 concept of time or anything. It just wakes up and cries and cries and cries until it falls asleep. Its like that. If the baby wakes up and cries and cries and goes to sleep for 3 months it has no idea 3 months has passed its just waking up and crying for a long time. If the baby wakes up and cries and cries and there no one there to comfort it it feels absolute abandonment.

@OBElerNo I wasnt here. I was in another place. When you leave this reality time dosent exist. You can spend an eternity in a second. It feel like a 3 months. It was 1 night. I woke up the next morning and felt like I was dead for 3 months.

0 I didnt even want to go out with my first girlfriend but people told me I should. Then I fell in love and went mad. Because falling in love is madness. I only had 1 and I saw everything. When we break up I felt like I was dying and I was like why do I feel like I am dying. Then I said Oh my God I am seeing my invisible self. I used to have panic attack cause of fear of death and when me and my gf broke up i started having them the same way. And I connect the dots and see the identity. No woman has asked me out but I have had many ask to give me a bj. They treat me like a peice of meat. It has nothing to do with your attractiveness. If you were in an attractive body the person would be the same. Women are like men when it comes to sex with attractive guy. You just have a made up fantasy that they are fairies and angels. They are just as ruthless and disgusting as men with sex maybe even more.

If you take psychedelic then take weed after even like a week after you will trip hard. One time after shrooms I took weed and it looked like my entire visual field was sand art and something was blowing it away to reveal a void. I was walking down the street when it happened to me and I had to stop and put my head against a wall and stand there like a cray person till it stopped. Its like your third eye is still kinda open and the weed opens it.

Gods in you right now and its not loving a dog turd. The only God. Change it. If you use your imagination and think about dog shit all day you will become more God like.

Its just the internet imo. Take the internet away everything changes back. People arent getting bored or when they get bored they instantly go to the internet. Instead of feeling the emptiness within and running away. Reality moves out of boredom.

@OBEler no there were no objects it was the same as sleeping but you can wake up. Pretend you have no eyes eyes are a fantasy. So you close your eyes and are looking at a void. Then you go to 'sleep' which is just a word for staring at the void behind your eyes without thinking. Then you can wake up realize you dont have eyes and reality is just a void staring at itself no eyes needed. When you sleep you are just turning your thought process off and staring at a void. Sleeping is a word for that. So I would be in the sleeping space but not be able to move or open my eyes. But I would know I was there the same way you can close your eyes now and still know you are there now. But no sound no body no voice no eyes or blinking. No moving your mouth or coughing. Just ! When you die there is no getting away or looking away from the void its there and you can't do anything about it except pout. Life as we know it is the void looking away from itself for a short time.

@OBEler I don't know for me it wasn't like that. My experience of cessation felt like it was 3 months of just looking at nothing. I would wake up or realize that I was still looking at nothing and freak out then after some time I would calm down and just be looking. Then I would realize that I was still just looking and freak out again over and over it happened until I stopped freaking out that I was just looking and became just looking at a void of nothing. it felt like sleeping but you know you are looking at nothing. It was like I would be sleeping but I would wake up in sleep and still be sleeping but conciousnes I'm there sleeping. Like imagine you wake up tommorow morning like normal but you are still sleeping. You dont have eyelids to close or open or eyes to move or a body to move. So you sit there freaking wanting to move for as long as possible and drift back into the state of just looking at nothing ( what we call sleeping ). Then eventually both states merge into sleeping but you know you are doing it you just don't care or cant care anymore. Now sleeping or waking up isn't a thing its just brain dead forever. Time still existed the same way it does now it felt like I would wake up and freak out for 16 hours. Then go back to sleep. Literal months of this. Since non existence was my biggest fear it was hell to me. The shrooms show me I was existing even when dead I just confused it. Sp just calmness down and go into zen mode when you die. When your aware and non aware states merge you can respawn. The only reason I'm saying 3 months is because I saw a calendar while I was respawning that flipped 3 pages on the calendar. And as I was respawning i also saw a skeleton bull. And there was a river of souls circling it and a water wheel.

@OBEler I saw absolute cessation before the shroom trip so I already had data on what death is. If your girlfriend dosent she wont have a starting point. You need a starting point to see conciousness. I had absolute cessation of being as a starting point to point me to what conciousness is. Conciousness can't see itself it can only see itself via then and now. When its pure now, you dont exist, so you have to have an experience of non existence to compare it too. I don't want to say it can't happen but I don't know. When I say i saw conciousness I mean I experienced absolutely nothing and still being there. It has nothingnto do with shrooms because it had to do with my real life experience. The shrooms def helped and saved me but I could have somehow figured it out myself as all the shrooms did was show me what I already knew. When I saw God i saw it via logic. It felt like there was a guru sitting outside my head waiting to tell me something and whispered like 3 sentences in my ear to clean up my logic and I awaken. Tldr I am just saying the only reason I saw God on 1.5 gram is cause I had previous data about God via life experiences but was confused. I had just told myself my cessation experience to be a bad dream but the shrooms told me it wasn't a dream and thats where my logic was faulty. The connection switched and I kundalini because my greatest fear non existence was no longer real.

@OBEler i dunno i only did it once. I feel you need more than 3 grams to trip out. 1.5 is good to start imo. In a tea so it hits harder and is over faster. My depression was cured cause I saw conciousness it probably had nothing to do with the shrooms. 1.5 eaten wont do shit. The only reason I saw conciousness during my trip is because I experienced absolute cessation 8 years before and didn't know after drinking 27 beers and smoking something. When I ate the shrooms within 30 minutes they were communicating with me that I had already experienced God. Like the shrooms told me inside my head. The voice said he remeber 8 years ago when this happened? I said yes and then it said you did die. Then it said how can you know that you died? And I saw it. I must have been there to see it or I wouldn't have qualitative memory of it. Then I saw that you cant die because if I died and experienced something that means I'm still there when I die. Then the void revealed itself to me with my eyes open. Like I was looking at my hand and I could see the void behind it. It was probably a special case.

Unfalsifiable = true. By definition.

Sounds like catholicism created this. You say soccer and gym are hobbies but sex with random men is a life calling? Being attacked and shunned for being gay and having super desires to fuck are the same thing. You are before that. So imo you are still working out your guilt but hyper fucking every hot man you see is the same thing as being enslaved by Christianity. Maybe you need to do it maybe you dont but its not a life calling. Even after fucking all the men you will be in the same spot cause this has nothing to do with you it has to do with catholicism. Listen to death metal anti catholic music.

God celebrates life. You dont need to have kids but to become anti baby shows that no one celebrated your life so you are angry.

Stop thinking about it it goes away. You are studying it and talking about it and getting upset you are doing it to yourself. I said before I dont think you are scared of solipsism you are scared of death and mislabelling it.

@Ramasta9I grew 40 grams under my sink after that and ate 20 grams in one night after 15 beers. Then I saw the alien simulation. I only tripped out for like 2 hours but it was a very intense 2 hours of not being on earth anymore. It felt like where my head is turned into a portal and I got sucked out. There were voices in my head guiding me into a trance state.

@OBEler I did 1.5 gram in a tea that time. So I think it bumps its potency up to 3 gram. 1.5 gram in a tea seems like a good starting point. I was just a home alone.

A television with no television.

@Butters those are metaphysical emotions. Money is a system if money gets infinite the entire system breaks.

@TheSelfHe knows every recipe but dosent know how to cook.

You have like 15 seconds before you forget everything. Not nessesarily forget but you will lose you ability to recall. The same way you forget your whole life right now and have to recall it to remeber. In a sense the only reason you think you exists is cause you keep recalling events that you are making up happened and saying yes or no to them.

Money cant be infinite.

@Ramasta9 There was no way that was gunna happen. I had like 400 voices going off in my head at the same time constantly. It all stemmed from the fear of death. I couldnt sit down without having a panic attack. A big reason I knew I was God instantly is because all the clutter in my mind instantly turned off and I saw a massive change in conciousness very rapidly. When my aura turned off it felt like my soul or energy was crushed into the soles of my feet and it all shot up into my head very quickly. I saw that I was scaring myself on purpose. So that I could awaken to God. Fear of death is intelligence, something that fears death is intelligent. Its creation, fabricating a concept and fearing it intentionally, but not knowing why. Basically lowering your energies on purpose, so you can shoot yourself into another dimension like a slingshot of negative ,going into positive, and know God. People dont fear death so much that have mental collapses because they are not intelligent. If they contemplated the idea they would go mad because its just a ?. Its made up. People get scared of solipsism and all this other nonsense because they havent taken death seriously. Solipsism is a joke compared to non existence. The benfit of death being the ultimate lie you fall for is its literally not even real its completely made up out of nothing. Its God tier intelligence. You cant be dissapointed.

@Ramasta9Yes depression is word /emotional game you play with yourself. Mushrooms show you that you are shooting out energy and that energy is hitting the screen of reality and shooting back at you. When you are depressed you are constantly shooting negative energy out and its coming right back at you and you get stuck in a loop of doing it. The permanent cure mushrooms give you is showing you what you are doing and somehow explain how you are doing it to yourself with 0 language. When I ate shrooms the shrooms turned my aura field off and that instantly cured me of my depression in 1 second. They also nuked the neuron in my brain that was relating everything in my life to death. I had terrible death anxiety since I was 9 and I had subconciously programmed everything in my life to attach to that neuron as I thought about it constantly. The shrooms told me verbally that death isnt real via a logical thought process of mind and the death neuron got deleted. When the death neuron deleted every single neuron that was attached to it like recoiled back from it and was free and it felt like 1 million fireworks exploding inside my head. It felt like every other neuron lit up and exploded in happiness. It felt like an ultimate manic episode where I was screaming at the top of my lungs crying in happiness for 6-8 hours and couldnt stop. I told myselfthat I was going to kill myself if these mushrooms didnt work . I heard they could cure depression so I tried them even tho I was scared. Instead of me kill my self God killed me. It reward me for not making rash decision and giving God a chance to something even tho I never beleived in it. I went from having 7 panic attacks a day to 0 in 30 minutes. I have tried to enduce them as I used to induce them via fear of death and non existence. But I cant do it anymore. I can sit there and feel the sinking and falling feeling like a panic attack but now I know fear is just a bs made up thing and I can barely feel it. Fear of death is a trick of society thats implanted in us purposefully and maliciously. Its a lie.