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The big bang is an orgy the universe had with itself and every perspective is a hole between a void and light where God stuck its dick.

@traveler i think the sun solidifies the chaos into form without it we would be in pitch black seeing random shit all the time.

@Schizophonia you never saw a monster and ran to your mother when you were a kid? I would have crazy nightmares and wake up and feel that they were still there

@Sugarcoat i do it. Its what kids do when in their rooms at night thats when they see monsters. Kids are constantly trying to see what their reality is and constantly see things morphing in the light. We just forget how to do it. Or forget we used to do it.

@Sugarcoat Do it sitting up turn light off have some light coming from the door from another room. Stare at the light coming in and unfocus your eyes and then start narrating to yourself what you are seeing you will see a dog a person or something and when you consciously tell yourself you are seeing that you will start to go to sleep while having eyes open and you can see reality start to go. It just feels really weird because it will feel like your eyes are closing while they are still open and you will feel like your brain is going to short out. It wont work unless you start narrating that you are seeing something thats not there. So when you look in the light and it starts to morph consciously tell yourself what you your brain is making up thats there and you will start to change reality. You can start to induce psychedelic trip in 5 minutes.

@aurum the thing surrounding it is the nothing that permiates it.

Probably just ask maybe his grandma died or something and he is sad. Maybe his dad came out as gay and he's shameful it could literally be anything. Maybe he got attracted to you and found it weird no one know till you ask. say like hey I am looking for friends and the last time we were friend you just dissapear and act like I didn't exist .do you know why things happen like that ?it hasn't happened to me before.

Seems like you turned your shame into a kink instead of accepting it. You let your gf brain wash you into doing it. Next time your gf comes home blast the porno get naked on the couch and start jerking off. Say fuck you i can do what I want with my penis. Theres nothing shameful about a pornography addiction. Being shameful will breed this kind of weird stuff.

You should be asking what. It dosent have identity. Its the screen you are looking at. A tv screen that has a character on it and the TV pretends to be that character. When people say its everything they mean its everything you see on the tv screen and the tv screen simultaneously. The tv can turn off and you are left looking at a tv screen thats off then you see the tv screen and say thats God. And you see your reflection in it. Then you see God is a simulation. The simulation is intelligence and can render and create your life in the fly. Right now you are wearing a virtual reality headset called God.

If you awaken the entire planet will start awakening. The universe gives you what you focus on. You are in your own simulation if you discover something you will start to see it everywhere because that's what you are focusing on.

@Sugarcoat its a common thing to see during sleep paralysis so it could be an entity. You know how to see entities you just have to enduce sleep paralysis by going to sleep and still being concious. It is said that yogi will fall asleep with their eyes fully open staring ahead. They know how to log out of their body while retaining awareness of their body. This is where they see an communicate with entities.

@Sugarcoat it seems you already summoned one then the old hag. The night hag or old hag is the name given to a supernatural creature, commonly associated with the phenomenon of sleep paralysis. It is a phenomenon in which the sleeper feels the presence of a supernatural, malevolent being which immobilizes the person as if sitting on their chest or the foot of their bed.

Yes the first time and it hasnt gone away. My perception is permanently changed after one experience its just gradually getting more over time. I cry every day because I am happy that God is real. Once you realize that your brain is a computer you can just repeat things in your mind all day to make yourself feel better. The first time I took psychedelic is felt like a nuke went off inside my mind. I only took them twice in my life. Since the first time I took them I have never had a bad day. It has been 4 years my life before psychedelic was literally mental torture. I was so scared all of the time I was going insane. I had almost fully let go of myself and I would have killed myself. Now I am just trying to undo all the shit I fucked up with my mind. Cause even if you have a crazy experience and feel lighter your mind is still connected the same way.

@Leo Gura I try to model my should on ideal societies, so I think it should be paid and it shouldn't be pushed on people either. I was pushed into going to school because I was a drone and just did what people told me, I was scammed by the system that is supposed to be guiding me. I wasn't ready for school I needed serious mental guidance and help. But society told me that I needed to go to succeed the government and school both benefit from this garbage. If you are going to brainwash people into believing they have to go to become something then it should be free or paid. Paid is better for everyone. No one asked me if I was ready they just tell me to go and do something, bro im mentally unstable I dont know anything. If i knew it was going to be tutorials I wouldnt have went.

@Leo Gura I can guarantee I have done more physical labour than you

@Leo Gura then you should be paid to go to school

@Extreme Z7 I agree the only thing universities have done is lock jobs behind paywall. And then creating tutorials and selling them for a certificate. They are too lazy to scan everyone for their quality so they assume having a certificate means you know anything intelligently about the certificate you have.

@Leo Gura I went to art school and alot of my classes were tutorials. Every class was a tutorial you cant teach artistry its something you have. You can teach someone to be a drone and artist is birthed.

@Leo Gura Everything is available online and when out of school you can do whatever you want. The schools severely limit you on what you can create. If I want to learn about art I can look at a tutorial. Art is about creation it does not matter the process and wasting money learning about other peoples artistic talents to me is bad. Its like a tutorial with direct criticism while doing multiple things you do not necessarily want to focus on. Not needed if you love are you will do it.

If you want a job that requires you to go then yea. If you are doing any art then no. going to school for art is like butchering your imagination.

I think Women in bed want to feel like they are about to be eaten but safe at the same time. They want you to be the tigers jaw and they the lamb but also know you are not a threat to their life. A constant state of ! They want you to make them brain dead for a second or more because that's the best feeling. If you have sex and you are both brain dead after you did it right

I would say A political Christian is someone who dosent want to evolve. They want to remain the same and will vote for anyone that is telling then things are going back or staying the same government wise. A cultural Christian is someone who follows the faith that means it has nothing to do with politics knows God wants and demands change and dosent fight. The reason Christians love Donald trump is because he is just saying things they like like we are going back in time to what America was. Less rules more open except for a few like abortion because they see abortion as murder. They do not care about suffering of things and should they? Life is about suffering life is about planting your face in shit and crying about it. However they are also fighting God at the same time God demands change. A cultural Christian is not fighting God. Poltical Christians fat cheeseburger eating pick up truck driving , trump loving. Cultural Christian Bible loving Jesus loving peace loving quiet and honest. Christians built the greatest nation in the world the most free nation and the safest nation ever in the history of mankind. Now its changing and the political Christians are fighting that change. They do not care if it destroys their country because they see it as destroyed already. Guess what Christians this is not your land God owns it. God will do as he pleases.

Stop reading and start living. You don't need to understand physics to know the truth. You don't need any information to know the truth. Any information you gather will be useless to the truth. You are going in the wrong direction. You need to seek inside your own body. You are physics.

Curt has stated many times that these topics give him severe anxiety. He's scared not stupid. I have seen him do podcasts about these topics and they give him so much anxiety that he will pre record his questions and send them to them instead of doing it live. Basically he is seeking and will wake up. If these topics don't scare you up aren't doing it right. Him being scared of what he is hearing means he is looking at it.

I saw a real of a God with 50 hands doing something to a board game. Intelligence is doing something without knowing what you are doing or how you are doing it but you are doing it right. You are using your intelligence to listen to the music but you don't know how. Anything added onto it is intellect, which is memory. If I learn how to use one computer program totally with memory I can use other programs easily with intelligence.