Hojo

Everyday feels like a hour to me.

@Princess Arabia im just doing philosophy. You are doing surface level questioning and im in the deep end. Why do you just assume I am not insane? I could be eating my own feces behind the keyboard.

@Princess Arabia Its because I am still questioning. I do not have bad days I just see that I am not in control of my mind I cannot focus on something for more than 15 minutes without losing control of my mind. I cannot focus my imagination on one thing without it drifting to something else and I go unconcious in imagination. To me this is insanity, losing control of your mind. I now have peace but my mind is still out of my control.

@Nemra Alien awakening is lesser than God awakening.God awakening opens the door to alien awakening but God is the best. You always want to keep God with you even if you are an alien you dont want to bring alien with you everywhere. God is the creator of human consciousness and alien consciousness. But the experience of God is alien to human consciousness.

@Nemra You will also just know because you have already been with God before. It will be like you are remembering not learning something new.

@Nemra I used it because its the only logical explanation to me. 3 years earlier I started learning philosophy and when I get into something I look at it all day non stop. I didnt learn anything about philosophers at all I just started doing my own philosophy. I would argue with my mother about God and I remeber saying to her that if God is real and its one then why isnt God that lamp post. She would say thats not right but I didnt understand why that wouldn't be right so that might be why I said it. It could have been my philosophy why I said it.

@Nemra Because I saw I was making myself up why would I use my name its just a random name. I chose the word God because I saw that I was pretending to be Hojo. If I am not Hojo and I saw I was just pretending to be Hojo and Im not sad im actually happy I was just pretending to be sad what other word or name would I use? I saw that reality is just a ball of light that I am looking into and I am somewhere else in a void not in this 3rd dimension. I saw that I was looking through one dimension into another dimension and pretending to exist in that dimension. What other word would I use to describe this insane experience? I would not say Hojo I would say God because this event is monumental and beyond reason and logic and an answer to my fear of death . It might have been a test I went through if i said something else something else might have happened. If I am not real I am nothing and God = nothing. God is nothing that is existing.

@Nemra Its the word for creator of reality. If I am not real I must be the creator pretending to be me is why I used it. I wouldnt be any other character pretending to be me that dosent make sense. All I know is I am experiencing something and I thought I was something that I am not so what would your answer be to understanding you arent what you think you are? If you found out you arent nemra what would you say you were?

@Nemra I wasnt spiritual when I saw God I was an athiest. I will say what happened to me. I take 1.5 gram of shroom to cure my death anxiety then I sit there. 20 mins go by I start to feel pressure on my forehead. I hear a random voice in my head say(it was audible to my ears but in my head) hey remember 5 years ago when you experienced this void experience(I had drank 27 beers one night 8 years earlier and went into a void where I experienced pure abandonment forever, when I woke up the next day I just told myself as it was a bad dream). I said yes. The voice said how can you have qualia of an experience if you werent there? I then said to it I must have been there experiencing it. Then the voice said How can you be there experiencing it if you weren't there? At that moment I instantly realized what consciousness is. I am always there even when Im not! What does that mean????? The voice said. The only explanation is that I cannot die, if I am there when I am not there I cannot die. Then it felt like a piece of glass was put in between my direct first person experience and reality and I felt my emotion hitting this piece of invisible glass and coming back to me. I saw at that moment that I am inside my head creating emotions and sending them out they are hitting a piece of invisible glass and coming back to me. Outside my skull in the environment is completely void of all emotion and feeling there is nothing at all happening outside my mind. The earth or reality dosent feel like anything it feels like what I shoot out and comes back to me. So I saw that I was an idea I was creating and shooting out to this glass and the glass was shooting ideas of me back to myself making it feel like I am real and people are interacting with these feelings but its a lie. I only exist inside my mind as an idea and inside other peoples minds as an idea, not even the same idea every single person has an individual idea of what I am so I dont even exist as anything at all just what I think about myself. The voice comes back again and says if you arent real what are you? The only answer I have is God if I am not real there is no reason for me to be anything but God. If I am not real I wouldnt be Craig or Joe or an elephant or an ant the only logical explanation to me not existing but also existing is God. The pressure on my forehead exploded. I blinked for 5 seconds in that 5 seconds I saw the entire universe behind my eyes. Its was clean and shiny. I stould up and my aura around me dissintegrated The feeling of being me stopped and I was instantly unburdened by everything. I feel my energy being crushed into the souls of my feet and and it starts to come up my feet into my legs into my body and it hits my head and my brain feels like it explodes. It feels like every single neuron in my brain detaches from every other neuron in like a firework explosion It feels like having 1000 orgasnms spontaneously I start to feel so good I start l start laughing super hard. Im sceaming laughing it feels like im going to start flying if I get any happier. Suddenly I start to tear off reality. The void behind me where I think my head is opens up and I literally tear myself off of reality. Its like pulling hair out there are like 10000000 strands that Im attached to reality with and I pull everyone off and I fly into a void of nothing super happy. I fly backward past what looks like a peice of saran wrap with a head on it smiling and I fly further back into nothing and now I am hearing a voice tell me that I am the most beautiful thing and I am the most perfect thing and I am loved forever 1 million times over and over again and all at once at the same time. Then I shoot back into a ball of light which is reality and I am laughing and crying and screaming for 6 hours. This reality is like a simulation and heaven with God is the nothing behind your head.

@Nemra You will know what you are looking at when you see it and the first words people say when they see it is oh my God. Its just what you say. It could be programming if I was hindu I could be saying Shiva. Its the programmed word for unknown. You say it because something HUGE and spiritual is happening.

@Hojo Its like the illusion of you existing stop and you see yourself as like an orb sitting there in a fractal

@NemraAll a human is is a humans burdens.

@Nemra A light feeling. The feeling of being unburdened by your stories you are telling yourself. God is just a word for existence and it feels good when you dont think you exist.

the second I realized that I was making myself up I saw God. If Im not real I have to be God there is no other explanation. Too see God all you have to do is see that you are making up that you exist. There is no you in physical reality your brain is just making up a story and that you are it and you are navigating life. Outside your skull any idea you have of yourself is non existent.

@Kokorec anything you think will be repeated. Your brain is a chat gpt robot that repeats what you store.

You can be attractive and be confident or you can be attractive and be less confident as some people will automatically act negative toward you if they deem themselves lesser than you. If you dont let your attractiveness get to your head this can make life harder.

@Ishanga Its not just that if it was just that they would still engage. Its that they are insane and they have forgotten they are not just the ego complex. That is satan. This society is literally shattering people and breeding people who are insane. The fact that crazier shit isnt happening is showing that we are actually good people. Its like everyone has taken their hands off their wheels and no one is crashing.

They are scared. Whenever you have realization around what is happening you get scared. But when you show people these holes they get scared and they make up that the fear they are feeling is coming from you. And instead of confront it its easier to call them crazy or think they are crazy and not engage with it. Its the definition of crazy. The reason they wont engage is because they are crazy and you are showing them they are crazy and they are getting scared by it. A sane person would ask why did what that person just said scare me?

@Kokorecmy childhood wasnt good and I messed up my thinking well into my adult life so these types of things help me reprogram my mind. I was doing the exact same thing with negative mantras and now I am just trying to reverese what I have done.

@Kokorec its just mantras so why not? What would make it unhealthy?

@Someone here whenever I sound like I am being aggressive i am not it is just the way I type i do not try to come off as being angry its just the way I think. Do not read my comments as aggressive in your head.

@Someone here I dont give him authority I do not listen to what he says I do not meditate I have just seen things and he has talked about what I have seen and experienced. Thats why I trust him but he is not my guru as I do not do what he says to do. Maybe one day he will be but I do not give him authority for no reason. If I am creating him I am creating him to reaffirm that what I experienced was real and we are in a simulation. And I am reaffirming a third time by sticking up for what I beleive through his reaffirmation by saying you are wrong.

@Someone here sadhguru has said things that I have witnessed on psychedelic. He said the other side of the river is whwn you meet your maker and when you meet it you freeze. On psychedelic I went into the hard drive of God and I froze in it. How can you know nothing about anything while criticizing possibly the most famous spiritual guru ever. You don't even know if you are gay but you know sadhguru is wrong?

I think he just wants Indians to rule india not others he wants all the names reversed into Indian names.

The big bang is an orgy the universe had with itself and every perspective is a hole between a void and light where God stuck its dick.