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So this state of looking at nothing got scared and that spun your entire life?

@Valach The only reason you want to get into a relationship is so you can give yourself away to another person because you have a hole inside of you that needs to be filled. They need to reveal that hole inside of you and that hole is your death. If you dont die after your relationship you just gotta start over and do it all over again. The entire reason that you got into a relationship, to expose the empty hole inside of you, is wasted cause you just picked yourself back up with your ego. If you totally love that person then when they leave you are dead. You cant fake away that there is a massive hole there and you fall in.

@Valach Then the relationship is a waste of time.

Realize you are wondering if this is it for your girlfriend while imaging other random girls coming for you so you can say this is it.

@Valach All human love is transactional. We cant unconditionally love each other. Only to everyone.

While its not true to love its how humans love and must love. Because we are transactional dissolving being.

@Valach Why God not let you go?

@Valach Then its not real, its fake. When you love something it is you.

Yes but you will have to die. The more you identify with something the more you become it when it gone so must you. You can do it gracefully when you know something else.

You shouldn't be scared wether or not she thinks your too invested you should be scared when you are too invested. Not because of her but because of you. Once you invest yourself into someone you are at their mercy. That is scary.

We hope you the best Hoffman.

Saying they arent elite then saying only 1 person of people can do it is contradictive.

@Monster Energy You are creating the energy you seek then saying you arent doing it. The answer is to be more feminine. You are essentially saying I wanna be more like that.

@ambush Yea its social conditioning. just sit around. Notice you will have these social conditionings coming up all the time cause society makes you feel like useless loser for sitting around. This is programming. You keep having ideas about having to do something. If you wanna do something do it, if you dont, then dont do it. Fulfill social contracts so you wont feel bad about fking people over. But if people push new social contracts on you then dont buy in that you have to do it.

When you awaken it feels like you are atlas putting the earth down after holding onto it for a long time. You will feel yourself starting to fly.

@Breakingthewall The goal was just living with the fear of death. Buddha did not know what he was doing he got scared and said wtf I have to find a way to not die and its more serious than all the riches in the world.

Now religion makes those disorders, not cure them.

@eTorro The same thing happen to me only I do it through drinking alcohol. After I awaken I was like holy fuck I was doing something the entire time.

@ambush I think you are halfway not knowing what you are doing. Like not knowing but getting frustrated because you dont know. Take the frustration away and you will truely no know and will just do whatever you want. Kinda like you still think you know what God wants you to do, probably pre programmed bs. if you really didnt know what you are doing it will be funny.

@Nevon This is the opposite of taking it seriously. You are asking a question from a place you dont know then arguing a point of having knowing while never experiencing it. That means you already have an idea of what it is without knowing if the idea is right. But arguing as if your idea is right.

@Nevon Why are you making a post if you already know? You are speaking from both perspective simultaneously and then asking a question about one state to the other? You are speaking as if the states arent the same but are the same somehow.

@Nevon Then go jerk off in front of your family right now. Theres no difference between them being in the room and not. I say that because you dont act like it. Its schizophrenic logic. You would just walk down the street naked, why not? You cant do it because society deems this insane.

If you can perceive, neti neti means you are not that.

Behind your eyes when you are not thinking, you are essentially a brain dead retard. If you never had a thought again you would be a brain dead retard and have never existed. The idea that you exist will never come up again in your mind. People will talk to you, you will have no idea who they are talking to or about. You can hear them and understand them but you wont have a thought about what they say. You will reply but you dont know what you are going to say or why you say it or where the thoughts come from. You have self experiential data that no one else has on what a brain dead might be like. You can close your eyes and stop thinking and look at it. Now take this experience that you see behind your eyes and look at the entire monitor. Behind that monitor is a brain dead retard. Look at the wall, behind that wall is a brain dead retard. The exact same one that you see and experience when you close your eyes without thinking and look. Behind the sky is a drooling brain dead. This thing is pretending to be something by layering multiple deceptions over itself. It has sounds it has sight it has feeling. It makes up voices and ideas and concepts and infinite possibilities over brain dead retard. This is gods infinite intelligences its a brain dead retard that cant do anything and its making everything without thinking or planning or doing anything. All these infinite perceptions are being created by something thats totally asleep, it dosent even know its there or that its doing it. To God nothing is happening. When you awaken its like this brain dead retard somehow sees itself and goes WHAT THE FUCK!!!! Awakening is impossible to God. Since the brain dead retard behind objects is the same brain dead retard you see when you close your eyes and its somehow seeing itself. Its the most intelligent thing God can do its beyond its own infinite logic to awaken. Its seeing the no sense of life. Its a feeling of making total sense and no sense at the same time . When you reach both ends of the sense making spectrum you realize sense dosent even exist to begin with. Its like talking to someone and they reply but you cant understand them and ask what? and they say again and you still dont understand and ask what again. Only forever. The more brain dead retarded you become the more intelligent you are.

Whenever I play an RPG I max out luck first. If you have infinite luck you are literally God.