Hojo

Repeat this thought to yourself. Whenever you find your mind drifting to wanting something outside yourself say , I am the main character of this story everyone else is a side character. The main character dosent need anything the story dosent give them. This will help you focus your mind on yourself.

Why don't you go pan handle. If you pan handle someone will offer you a job 100 percent if you are that big. Sadhguru said in a story that you can even pan handle in your room at night and it will work.

To awaken you might have to shit on yourself but I think after you awaken you can learn to be confident again. I think you are supposed to do that but I dunno.

I'm saying it in the sense that you are walking around life looking for something outside of yourself. IE checking out woman, trying to impress people. If you are outside your conciousness grasping for something you can repeat i am the main character i don't need to do or look for anything to bring yourself back to awareness, or just remeber that you are.

Haven't been on a date in 10 years. I have only been exclusive to one person. Then I saw the hidden dimension of identity. I don't really relate to woman to want to talk to them or date them. I get along with them perfectly on a superficial level but I'm very edgy and intelligent. I'm not attracted to woman on a intellectual level at all. I actually find them repulsive on an intellectual level. I am attracted to men on an intellectual level and woman on physical level. I wasn't even attracted to the person I was with for 15 years on an intellectual level. But was tricked. Looking back i remeber the person being incredible boring. I'm not saying there aren't woman out there who are intelligent or more intelligent than me but most of my conversation I talk and hear are purely about relations with people they know or family or what happened in their lives recently and it is very snoozefest to me. Seeing as I don't know these people they are talking about. I see woman talk about their families to eachother and they feint interest in eachother families and friends when they don't even know the person they are talking about. I don't want to do that. If I need to converse I would rather just be absolutely retarded in what I am talking about like fart jokes or saying really dumb things cause then at least I am not faking that these conversations hold any serious value.

@Meeksauce Shrooms showed me dimensions of reality are purely subjective and we are witnessing them with our own perception just confusing it as 'human' life.

I think adhd is a form of dissosiation too. Babies cant move and cant run from fear so they have to find another way to get away from it. If your household is chaotic and lots of screaming and fighting the baby will start to do weird shit with the brain.

Yes if people had free will since we come from the same source we would all be doing the same thing. Without free will we are forced to do things. It would be like an Ai that ends up doing the same thing everytime. Since we all dont walk into the same corner it must be we dont have free will.

Probably why they AI him in his videos. The USA president is like weekend at bernies

Yes, it could be like that in the 4th dimension. What I saw seemed like the 1st dimension. It was a string of rooms of consciousness going left to right. Like your field of view is a 'room' of consciousness. you lose all ability to move your eyes and your head and instead move your rooms. Yes it was dry, I was playing video games with my friend drinking and decided to start eating my shrooms cause I have liquid courage. I just opened my bag that had like 30 grams in it and kept eating them until a portal opened behind my head and I got scared. It felt like something scary was sneaking up behind me and I kept turning around in a circle irl because it was always behind me, Then I realized this scary thing was sneaking up behind me inside my head, not outside, cause I every time I turned it was behind me again. So I sat down and let it come and I went into an insane trance. The empty space between me and the wall on the opposite side of the room merged together into a 2d field and it became one thing, like a screen. Then everything became super sharp and crystallized into a golden thing. I entered a weird state that looks like a 2 dimensional board game and I was moving all the pieces on it like a God with 500 invisible arms. Then I lost the ability to move my eyes and it felt like I was in 1 dimension shifting rooms. I lost all feeling of having a body and having a head. Then I saw the akashic records, infinite libraries of different qualities and it felt like I was finding algorithms inside of books of who or what I am. It was really weird cause the trip didnt last that long it was like only an hour or 2 after eating 20 grams. Once I exited the trance I was in a weird place of just colours, purple blue and red zig zagging colours. And I was laying on the ground and I was like hey I dont even know if I exist, and I tried to move my arms, and I moved them, but I couldnt see them, all I could see was my arms moving under the light, like if you put your arms under a blanket and lifted them up. When I got up I returned to normal the trip was very short after eating that much.

I told my grandma I don't think we die and that was good enough. Said thank you for being my grandma.

The fact that you fell for it is deeply unsettling.

@Twentyfirst send them my way. I am the alternative.

Physically working is the most important part of life. I didnt see it when I was younger but when I was a kid my parents made me physically work alot when I was a child and it was actually the hardest I've worked in my life. Now work is easy for me. If you dont physically work you wont evolve. Its the most important part of spiritual evolution. If your parents don't make you do it when you are young they do a disservice to you as you wont be able to handle it when you are older. Working is an intelligence you dont really see animals do it but you see bugs doing it. Working is part of our hivemind with the insects.

I have tonnes of memory from being a kid. But self conciousness came when I was jerking off as a 9 year old and I came and thought I was dying. I have earlier memories but I feel the terror of self awareness came in then. I started edging very early in life. I would lay there and jerk off and feel the feeling and try to make it the best possible feeling ever and then one time I came and thought I broke something in my body and had my first panic attack.

I saw one on 20 grams of mushrooms. I saw we are actually in a long string of rooms. Like 1 d is a room that you cant move your head or look left to right just stare forward. And then you can shift rooms. Your room could be directly beside my room even tho we are on opposite sides of the world.

@Inliytened1 i wanted to use it as a tool to stop the woman here from attacking me and so far they stay away.

Yes its me as a woman. I wanted to see what I would look like and then I said I'm the hottest woman I have ever seen. Via AI.

Your soul.

You can really see trumps devilry these days, automatically deny anything bad from your own team all the time.

@Joseph Maynor You dont even know who you are.

@Joseph Maynor Just like real life . I could be a demon lord.

@Inliytened1 grok_video_2026-01-07-23-30-42.mp4 Here is my female version bouncing up and down as a teaser.

Lol

It is me as a woman if you want i will sell you nudes when grok let's you do it.