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Why ask us, if you already did it. And if you dont know or cant hold it then you didn't do it.

Get a job

@EternoHope is a cope. Its actually holding you back.

Before I awaken I was going through the same things but I didnt have any spiritual bullshit ideas like you have gathered. I was athiest so it was probably better. This seems like you have a spiritual ego. Ignore all these ideas of solipsism and everything. All my problems had to do with reality, not metaphysical reality.

Sounds like you are doing good. The path to Spiritual awakening is not fun. You empty your cup of the good emotions then you empty your cup of the negative emotions. Before I awaken I felt impending doom everywhere, I felt demons looking at me from dark shadows. I felt like I was turning into a robot. Then something beautiful happen. Just accept it. Release all hope.

@ZenterusIt relates too all humans. The feeling you had when she was there was being created by your own body. It has nothing to do with the person. You wont grow from this you are giving the emotion away to the woman. You can grow from it by emptying your cup then keep giving all your emotions away to people. You can tell you were being too clingy by what you wrote. 3 dates, upset that it took her hours to respond. Saying I miss you when shes going on vacation with barely knowing the person. It spells C-L-I-N-G-Y. Clingy men are dangerous to woman. You can tell she knew it by this response. 'I'll miss you too, I think?' That means she dosent even know you yet. You are caught in your emotions and the woman is saying she barely knows you.

Live and learn you came off as clingy cause you are deeply lonely. Dont do that you are looking for someone because you dont realize you make your own emotions. You are lying to women you arent telling them you are deeply insecure because you lost a part of your soul. Woman cant give you emotions you cant give yourself. Learn that. Its easy to see when you know.

Woman are just as disgustingly horny as men. It dosent have to based on connection besides I want to fuck you. They might be even more horny. Its like the opposite woman will have sex with attractive man just for sex and then want to be with someone they deem less attractive than them. And me will have casual sex with someone they deem less attractive and want to be with the more attractive one. If a woman is with a man that is attractive or they deem more attractive they will get jealous and lose their mind so they take the lesser attractive one to feel secure that hes too ugly to cheat. The woman needs to feel more beautiful than their counter part or they go insane. Men dont resepect the woman they have casual sex with because they already got it. To a man its like an ego thing can I get this beautiful woman thats how I define my beauty and self worth. A man can be with a woman lesser beauty that him if she makes him fall in love with her. If a man falls in love with a woman she will gain attractiveness out of thin air. She will do this via making him feel important.

You asking leo for his advice on your life purpose is like a baby asking his daddy if its ok. Just fking do it a rapper wouldnt do that. Leos not your daddy God is.

@theleelajokerI have the same experience with my neice and nephew. They are severly mentally ill. I could tell the parents what they are doing wrong but it would just be met with arguments and fights. My neice is so fucked up she already tried to kill herself once at 14. She was born a girl and turned into a guy and now just sits around all day smoking pot. I ask my aunt wtf are you doing here and she says you have to pick your battles. Like wtf is wrong with you retard. When I look at them I see I did pretty good. I cant really help them tho. I see alot of myself in that kid, they were telling me a story about their teacher telling them they are worthless and the same thing happen to me. The best I can do is to take their side against everyone else cause they already have given up on life. My family is cursed. to see God in a cursed family is a blessing beyond anything imaginable.

I think cause the human body is way more complex than this. And since they dont make it they dont know what the parts actually do or what they actually are. Any machine a human can make will always be 1000 times less complex than anything God can make.

Until you try psychedelics you wont know how insanely different peoples minds can be. The variety is infinite between what people are experiencing in the same room. You will be shocked at how crazy human mind is. No 2 people are experiencing reality the same way and no one is experiencing reality the same way you are even if it seems they are.

@Gigsi just an inkling. It explains reincarnation.

I give up alcohol and switched to weed then I quit weed. Environment is a big part as it took no will power to do it for me once I got my own environment. I just stopped because my environment bow allowed me to do nothing as I got my own home. I used to rent rooms or live with parents and it was a constant stress for me. As with with renting a room I don't feel comfortable leaving my room and with parents they constantly ask what you are doing and shit non stop. I also got a job where the environment is very friendly towards me. I still smoke cigarettes tho.

@Shermaningeorgia Pretty much are its the beggining of your dream. Everytime you ask how did I get here your childhood is the root.

https://www.sciencedirect.com/science/article/abs/pii/S0022103109001048 "Who’s chasing whom? The impact of gender and relationship status on mate poaching," published in 2009 in the Journal of Experimental Social Psychology. The authors, Jessica Parker and Melissa Burkley from Oklahoma State University, conducted a controlled experiment to see how "relationship status" affects a person's attractiveness to the opposite sex. Study Methodology The researchers used 184 undergraduate students (97 women and 87 men) and followed this specific process: The Profile: Participants were shown a photo and a brief profile of an attractive person of the opposite sex. The Variation: The researchers "rigged" the computer program so that for half of the participants, the person in the photo was labeled as "Single," and for the other half, the person was labeled as "In a Relationship." The Question: Participants were asked to rate their interest in pursuing the person (e.g., "How interested would you be in pursuing this person?"). Detailed Findings (The 59% vs. 90% Stats) The most famous result from the study focused on single women evaluating a man: When the man was "Single": Only 59% of single women expressed interest in pursuing him. When the man was "Taken": The number jumped to 90% of single women expressing interest. Other Interesting Results: Men’s Reaction: Men in the study did not show this bias. They were equally interested in the woman whether she was single or taken. Coupled Women: Women who were already in a relationship did not show the same jump in interest toward "taken" men. The effect was specific to single women looking for a partner. Mate-Choice Copying: The researchers concluded that this is a form of "mate-choice copying." For women, seeing that a man is already in a relationship acts as a "seal of approval." It signals that he has already been vetted by another woman and likely possesses qualities like reliability, social skills, or resources.

@StickGuru job is to confuse you so you focus on what you dont know.

I think you go insane as God and God created a mechanism for itself to reset itself when that happens. I think your dreams turn so fucked up or you get caught in a loop and can't get out. If you have demented sex dream and you start crying cause you cant imagine anything other than sex and get caught in a corner looping in the most disgusting way. God resets itself and now your life revolves around sex addiction cause of the karma. And your life is way for God to show itself look there's more you can imagine. Like imagine you die and you can do whatever you want and you really just want to have sex with every woman you will just do that and then limit your imagination to just that and you will get stuck and want out but you can't. The same way we get caught in loops irl.

Internet said the best option is to buy a mini computer. The prebuilt ones are all fucked if you wanna do ps2. There are some that are like 500 and it says that their harddrives they use are trash.

Why do you avoid pain. Survival is avoiding pain and having sex.

@emil1234Denying consciousness is denying God. Science is the devil.

Love the demon you chained up.

@Oppositionless Or a way to deny it.