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@Ramasta9Ego is the tension you feel in an argument. Whether you speak peacefully or argue the same thing is happening , nothing. There is no tension 1 cm outside your skull. You speak of ego battles, claiming this forum needs saging is an ego battle. Its a projection. If you feel tension while I speak with you, you should thank me instead of slandering me. If you are playing skyrim and a character in skyrim starts to argue with your character and you get upset you are insane. The same thing applies here. You speak of ego while having no idea. If the character disagrees with your character you can reply with any you want, are you angry when your character replies with anger? Are you upset when your characters theories get challenged? Do you feel tension when your character gets in an argument? Then you are in ego and projecting. Thats why you constantly project insults onto people when you speak with them and they disagree, like we need to be saged, because we have demons. Its not egoic to reply the way you want. Infact changing the way you reply or act based on characters in skyrim is the exact opposite of what you want to be doing. That means you arent even playing your character, you are playing your character the way someone else wants you to play your character. The war is happening in your mind. You are blaming me for your insanity.

When I close my eyes and look i will see tiny dark circles or tiny white dots moving around. Darker than the dark when you close your eyes. Or white dots of light. One time I sat there in the dark and saw it with my eyes open. Anyone else see this stuff or have experience with it?

@InnerviewI have tried to notice what I am thinking about when I see a black one and when I see a white one. To see if what I am thinking about is doing it. I dont know if it changes but maybe it is. Like try to make a white one appear when a black one appears by completely changing thought process in the reversal. I tried to reverse a black one to a white one and it happened when I tried, but I dont know if its just random.

@Ramasta9You can be peaceful and argue. If you can be peaceful and argue you are beyond ego. You are letting the body do what it wants. When it stops being peaceful it means you are in ego. Arguing and peace does not have to be separate things or mean separate things. If it stops being peaceful and you get angry it means your ego is being hit and Im doing what I am doing properly. Where does anger come from in an argument? I wont lie it happens to me but I understand when it happens the person is doing me a favour. If someone does it to me I often just stop replying and reflect. Its either that or I think the person is too stupid to continue.

More instant hypocrisy. Contradiction Every time I asked her for help, she gave me a massive, bad look. Oh, sorry, was I bothering you? Seems these people aren't competent enough to handle others in work settings.

@Natasha Tori Maru And? I do it when it contradicts what they previously said. Thats what I said I do. I listen to the whole then bring up contradictions. Thats where the real person is hiding. The words they say dont matter, the contradictions matter.

@JosheYes, you dont make alot of friends being like this. The type of person this is, is someone who watched spiritual gurus and then moulded themselves to be what they think the guru wants them to be.

@Natasha Tori MaruYes it says, words dont mean anything.

@Ramasta9Its hurting nothing but the ego. If you think you are the ego and I hurt it, its acctually a good deed. You know nothing about spirituality.You are highly egoic. Thinking others are wounded children that must be coddled is more spiritual ego holier than thou BS. When I talk to people I dont listen to the context I listen to the whole and look for contradictions. these contradictions brought forth in conversation 'hurt' the person, or the ego. Whenever I see someone who is acting like life should be sunshine and rainbows I know they are secretly very judgmental people. So I say nice mask, take it off.Via challenging them. They often crack and start insulting me like you do. Cause you are wearing a mask. I dont argue with people by insulting them like you do. I argue with them via their own logic.

I actually get pleasure from arguing with people.

@Ramasta9 its dark energy i think.

@Joseph Maynor Without eyes reality is black and white. Colour don't exist outside your mind. You can sit there and stare at something for 15 mins and it will turn black and white.

Adhd is comfort in moving your eyes really fast. Thats why adhd individuals play competitive video games. Its survival mechanism from being a baby.

@integration journey No i dont think so. I will make a cartoon of what I see and post it later.

@Cred The entirety of life is there to gaslight you out of your positions. You cant hold a position in life without life gaslighting you out of it. Its like a gaslighting sim.

When I saw God is was like 3(b) before i shot out of my body my lower field of vision started doing that also while looking like a curtain blowing in the wind. I took it as my soul was detaching from this field.

@Joseph Maynor I didnt want to go at all but everyone around me was telling me too.

@Someone here i already see them normally. There is an entire electro field you can see filled with nonstop movement.

@Joseph Maynor 3d animation and u didn't finish that either. I made it to the very end and then left probably something about finishing something.

@Joshe Yes I see them especially now in winter time. I was watching a tarot video and the woman said the black holes are thought forms. Its not permanent tho, like I will see them pop up and I will notice and look at it and then it will pop out. Then a light orb will pop on I will see it and then it will pop out. They will last like 5 to 10 seconds. A floater is there all the time.

@integration journey Played video games. Didnt finish a task, didnt care when I forgot something. And was fine with it. Conquering them is accepting them without letting ego attack you.

@Meeksauce yes its flickering in and out of 2d and 3d every second. The 3d being the illusion that you are a thing. Reality is a beautiful painting on a wall that keeps changing. 'But if the world could remain within a frame like a painting on a wall Then I think we'd see the beauty, then we'd stand staring in awe'

@integration journey I didnt go to graduate school to conquer add. School is indoctrination.

@JosheThis has nothing to do with the label. Its the reactions they have been bullied into feeling, because of how their mind is structured. You can throw every label out and blanket state say react however you want to everyone. Its just unconscious karma, the same thing everyone has even regular people. This is not specific to the neurodivergent. Its just neurodivergent people are bullied into using their structures differently so alot of the unconcious karma is negative. The books you read didnt make you realize that you 'dont have the structrues' its teaching you, you are using your structures wrong, because of bullying. When you cry about it means you are throwing this trash out, you arent making realizations about anything, you are finally freeing your mind from its cage. If you ever awaken its like that feeling times 1 trillion.