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15.11.25 Cold approach - 0 (2 HESITATIONS, clear signals from 2 cute young women, hesitated .. actually 3-4 signals because another 2 women were staring at me post gym, but I was waiting for this other chick, she came out but walked fast it was dark i intented to form an approach but just yeah that first second of hesitation, i messed it up but i'll very likely see her again) I'm very disappointed with yesterday but at least my aura is radiating, women want me to approach, gotta get fucking moving, momentum. No Fap - Day 5 Gym - 1 (Triceps, Lats, moderate chest, Calf raises) Book writing - 0 Affirmations & Visualizations - Day 0 - i will not skip this again Money > Expenses only Diet - OK but too much general carbs Update - "No Sugar Day" - now tracke daily > includes all fruit juice, honey, "dark chocolate" (<90%) & chocolate, NO MORE SUGAR, WAY TO ADDICTIVE, CHEAP & FUCKS UP YOUR BODY INMEDIATELY Alcohol, sugar, fruit juice, diet soda, disrupted sleep ... the gradual slip & justifying it I have been chugging fruit juice for like 1-2 months and somehow justifying it because its "nutritious sugar" & "Its fine because of gym" This is not healthy I have also randomly started eating this specfiic energy chocolate bar, i've probably 12-15 of them in the past 3 weeks if i add it all up, because at the time its "just 1 bar, you've earnt it, quick energy for cardio" and all this nonsense. Boost, snickers marsbar, fuck i had like 2 snickers yesterday morning too WTF It always happens when you're underfed and waiting somewhere theres a vending machine. The threat is the misunderstanding. I dont even lack discipline, i somehow unconsciously convined myself that fruit juice is fine, maybe even necessary with exercise. It's not, it puffs your face and dulls your skin, it leads to a crash, insulin. Its not healthy, fruit juice junk, worse than a mcdonalds cheeseburger, much much worse. Mcdonalds cheeseburger literally is beef, low quality sure but, its not liquid poison. A banana is good but thats not the same as a smoothie, it has its fibre intact, and still you shouldn't eat 15 bananas at once (which is basically what fruit juice is but with much higher GI fruits like oranges, and stripped of all their fibre) So no im done with this justifying phase. And 1 slip always seems to increase other ones subtly U start with fruit juice before gym then you're randomly drinking a bit more beer, then u start eating snickers because without realizing you're hooked on added sugar and it just hits you now. I used to find chocolate gross and now suddenly i'm wanting it a bit ... SUGAR & DIET IS BEING RE - PRIORITIZED IN TE JOURNAL. ALL ADDED SUGAR TAKES MY POWER AWAY, SUBTLY MAKES ME NAUTIOUS & IRRITATES MY STOMACH, THAT IS NOT "ENJOYING LIFE" & MODERATION IS REALLY A LIE. YEAH U CAN INDULGE HERE AND THERE, BUT THE ISSUE WITH "MODERATION" INDULGENCE IS IT BECOMES A PATTERN, NEGATIVE MOMENTUM IS A BRTUAL

"GUY WHO FUCKS" ENERGY DOESNT COME FROM LAY COUNT, ONLY VIBE. U CAN BE A VIRGIN AND GIVE OFF THIS ENERGY. THE ACTUAL TRUTH IN LIFE DOESNT MATTER AND NOBODOY KNOWS OR CARES, ONLY THE ENERGY WHICH U SELF GENERATE. (When done from the right frame/intention*) Vivid sexual visualisation strengthens dominance - (Not Neediness). Most men are so ashamed and sexually repressed that they cant even do an exercise like this without cringing (I was the same), forget even flirting with women lol, u too ashamed to even to do it privately in your own head, fucking thought police!

I THINK THIS IS GOING TO BE A GOOD ONE I AM NOT SANE OR WELL TODAY SO VERBAL FLUIDTY WILL PROBABLY BE ROUGH & PATCHY I MAY NEED A NAP BEFORE I CAN THINK & WRITE THIS PROPERLLY, BUT LET ME JUST TRY RIGHT FUCKING NOW. Leos' introspection video might be the best & most important philosophical work that has ever been done in recent history, by a very clear margin. I didn't quite get it at first, I only "got it" Now i dont just mean that for myself practically, pratically, in vivo I'm still really struggling with it, (which connects precisely back to the theme of that masterpiece and why its precisely so important and why it could be drilled over and fucking over again). And side point, Ironically I sense many of leos opinions or views to either be deluded or just biased to his personality/culture. But ignoring leos personal hypocrisy (which its existence AGAIN highlihgts exactly why the topic is so endlessly important) there's few things from a meta view that could be so 100% correct and relevant and important. (I have fucked up my neurotransmitters again recently and having gut reaction so i am simply struggling here) GOATIS *(Youtube channel) Gd points > should be out in nature, should limit processed foods & grains, try to be in sunlight, eat good quality meat. having children are important for many people and ideally you dont wait around just for children. ... Now thats ALL that i have gotten form him thats good, ALLL. Goatis is relatively intelligent, slightly, maybe like 107-112 IQ or something NOO that was wrong of me too say lol, hes A FUCKING WHACKJOB But he doesn't seem that self aware at all, he's also extremely sure of himself and his repetitive opinions, and seems extremely intellectually arrogant. 1. Goatis is like German or something? ^ Very privileged country with huge economy, high paying jobs, high minimum wage, huge state benefits and funding, stable weather, highly educated, everyone english fluent from day 1. Now those factors dont automatically make him biased or arrogantly privileged and smug, but once you listen to him enough you understand why it doesnt help. 2. Goatis says shit like "money doesnt exist you slave" and "you should have as many children as young as possible otherwise you're a loser ect.." Dude ... do you think most men in the modern world have the fucking choice to casually have 5 children by 25? are you fucking serious, its hard enough just to exist and pay rent. Fucking hell man this guy is a POS. Most people have almost no choice about what weather or climate they inhabit, whether they get to work or not, and if they ever do get a choice over it, its only due to going through the system and slaving through it (being a more productive or intelligent / socially competent slave than the rest), thats just how it is, but to Goatis its just "everyones a normie slave, just go to the jungle bro". 3. Goatis talks about happiness a lot and makes critical videos of other content creators who claim to be winning but "dont look happy" & he sees through their bs ... And funnily enough, he actually may often be right here, so he is showing some critical thinking ... but also ARE U HAPPY GOATIS? BECAUSE I DONT GET THAT VIBE FROM YOU, IN FACT its actually painful to listen to goatis just from his vibe, even though he's having children, eating raw meat, getting sunlight, clean of all processed foods ... does that automatically make him happier than some fat woman who enjoys her beer and lives in a cold city in eastern europe? Absolutely no not necessarily (not saying diet climate ect.. arent important factors) but still, theres people in cold grey ass countries who just eat whatever and have a way more happier and attractive vibe than him JUST LOOK AT HIS VIBE, HIS VIBE IS SO LIFELESS. ALSO WHY IS HE MAKING SO MANY VIDEOS CALLING OTHER PEOPLE LOSERS? WHAT KIND OF HAPPY WINNER WOULD DO THAT? He also doesn't look healthy and looks very skinny, he also has literally zero charisma or energy. He also critiques absolutely anything unatural and, there is some utility to this, I personally love some sunlight and the woods ect.. but he's still locked into an identity, he still just constantly blabbers on and repeats his views. ALl cities are bad to him, all cities automatically make people unhappy becuase anything that doesn't 100% mimic huntergather society and environment is automatically bad to him. Imagine being such a lame ass dude like him constantly trying to spread the same opinions on youtube, and using you're braindead follower fans petty adsense to fund you're boring woods & family lifestyle while claiming that money doesn't exist and calling all his fans slaves (despite the fact that literally his fans slave jobs funding the electricity, phone bills, computers, and extortionate rents that allow them to sit and watch his videos or find him in the firs tplace so that they end up buying his b.s is exactly what funds his "natural freedom") There seems to be nothing human about this guy despite his entire philosophy and ethos revolving around Natural living, its so ironic. I'm actually embarassed that im even taking this guy seriously enough to write a long critique of him, lets be clear, this guy is 100% a complete whackjob, he literally has the vibe of someone with severe CTE, he is not happy, he is not mentallystable, there is something very wrong with this guy and my intuition after hearing him for 5 minutes is enough with this one, I normally give people the benefit of the doubt, and while he does have some good points, its the place its comign from, yes modern life is unhealthy and yes we need nature ect.. but anyone can say that, hes a depressing, boring nutjob with no personality or actual skills/value, his only value is stating the obvious that nature and nutritious food is important, well fucking done u fucking egg head .. ANother random point about leo at his best "Pedophillia outrage has become the modern witch trials in this Epstien era" Conversation I had with 2 uni girls couple years ago ..eads to ohh "my high school teacher he was a pedophile" ... I say "really, how do u know?" .. she says "i just know he was" What she actually means - He had a quirky personality, and without any feint crumb of evidence, let alone hard verified evidence, she has out of pure boredom and modern trend riding brain rot, decided to casually commit criminal defamation on a underpaid public service worker and finds that funny.

14.11.25 Cold approach - 0 (Did not goout today, no actual flinches) No Fap - Day 4 Gym - 1 (Chest and shoulders and forearms ("farmer carries") Book writing - 0 Affirmations & Visualizations - Day 0 Money > Na Diet - 2 beers (and 2-3 yesterday) *P.s Leos decisiveness video & Alcohol I cannot claim that i have officially decided to NEVER drink EVER, or EVER AGAIN. Seeing my life holistically it isn't realistic. But what can my brain handle and commit to? Never Allow (even "Moderate") drinking to become a regular pattern (4 beers per week ect..) Inmediatley upon sensing pattern or frequent use - Sheets tracking must begin (fine to slip up as long as i can see the data and get scared by it, most men who lowered there testosterone by 10% because of alcohol will have no conscious idea of it, they wont tell u they "had an average of 225 beers per year for the last 7 years, and were often midly dehydrated at least 2 nights per week") lifte just goes by and the dicksuddenly doesnt even go up anymore I dont think "just having 1/2 beer on friday" makes any meaningful difference to health if it isn't patterned. 2 beers every friday for years? Probably a slight difference but could still be miniscule, but even for me I dont like any pattern so it cant be every week for me

13.11.25 Cold approach - 0 Clean chicken day - 0 (Alcohol & 5H Sleep - Due to sloppy dirty cold night game, never again) No Fap - Day 3 Gym - 2 (Leg & back day +) Book writing - 0 Affirmations & Visualizations - Day 0 Money > ?? Frustration 10/10 Anger 10/10 Sense of incongruence with modern domesticated world 10/10 Desire to heavy day game cold approach 10/10 How bad i need money 10/10 May have to get my 1st cold approach in morning/afternoon. even though not ideal connection mode because many people busy with errands or work, need early momentum i think cant just wait until 6pm

Not sure if i'm ready to articulate this properly and this is written as i think about it. umpromted (as i often do write) I may re word whatever i say here But this is a very important basic topic to understand, theres maybe 3-4 key branching threads Wiring, Instinctive Neuro-differences in men What pisses me off about the obsessive use of spiral dynamics on this forum, its not that it doesnt have some general basis of true, but its used in petty, irrelevant & useless ways to condone peoples interests, obsessions ect.. Like "oh he's into pickup, hes going through a ORANGE PHASE" Hehe .. "I remember when I was orange". SHUT UR STUPID, 90 IQ, ROBOT MOUTH UP, DUDE. SHUT THE FUCK UP, YOU STUPID LITTLEE MINI LEO CUCK. Anyway where was I. Most behaviour comes down to instinctive wiring, NOT spiral dynamics Dominance wiring, competitive instincts, status chasing ect.. This combination IS DISTINCT & NON CORRELARY to Somatype/physique/height and "spiral dynamics level" Completely fucking distinct and non correlary. 1. Can be a mesamorph with zero dominance wiring, status chasing, competitive instincts. (I know a guy like this, massive shoulders, tiny fucking bools haha, zero dawg in him (but he's happy being him right). And (Unless this is due to truama/repression/supression/cultural conformity ect..) this is fixed due to wiring. That mesamoprh guy is content being that way 2. (This is also key) Someones natural wiring ((which without any debate or challenge MUST be alligned with ones actions/lifestyle to allow fulfillment and contentment, literally impossible for those two things to diametrically exist)) can (and very often is in the modern world) be heavily suppressed, repressed, shamed out of them ... often unconsciously. Natural/potential wiring needs environment/habits ... a lot of dysfunction and misery in the world comes with this repression and suppression, solid 50% of men could easily be psycholoigcal and lifestyle versions of human zoo animals, imprisoned by their own brain (and/or environment/culture) 3. I'm repeating myself here but I want to just so I dont discourage any1 to think they are/aren't a certain way because of how they currently are : The dominance/competitive/warrior wiring is POTENTIAL/NATURAL BUT A HUGE % OF THESE GUYS ARE NOT ALLIGNED WITH IT. Early life is a myriad factorial lottery ticket and it only takes 1 thing to knock a guy off his natural mode of being, and he likely doesnt have this form of awareness & consciousness of it and so he likely rationalises his own misallingment of just "this is how i am", which is a very tragic and sad modern recursive rut if you think about it. So Yes, just because u are not dominant/bold ect.. now it doesnt mean you dont have the wiring .. in fact if you are struggling with it but your emotional biology is relentlessly pulling u towards going through the process of getting it, and becoming uninhibited .. that imo is likely a very high indicator that you do have the wriing, i notice in low wiring men that they often just simply dont care enough to even go through the process of say cold approach (and in the rare instances that they do go through the process, its like a 1 off pragmatic logical thing where they get any 1 decent 6-6.5/10 GF and then they just stop approaching after that until they're single again).

12.11.25 Cold approach - 1 Clean chicken day - 0 No Fap - Day 2 Gym - 1 Book writing - 0 Affirmations & Visualizations - Day 0 Money > + $120

Envy is a stubborn bitch. Does envy go away once you become consistently successful? I bet it doesn't. dam I want this emotion to go away

11.11.25 No Fap - Day 1 Complete Cold Approach - 0 ** Clean chicken day Gym No - But lots of walking Book writing - 0 Affirmations & Visualizations - Day 0 Money > - $70 Mindset mood & state > 2 Protien bars caused sudden stomach reaction and fatigue > Lost dopamine > Fapped ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ ..................................... COLD APPROACH TODAY : Positives : I went outside during peak hours I at least walked around with the intention to approach, (wasnt fully in denial) I did 1 bold move to rebuild boldness momentum : I was getting on transport with no air-conditioning and felt too hot with my shirt on, so I took it off showing some of my bare chest & all my arms in a tank top on a cold day on transport filled with women. This isn't some liver king flex where im flexing muscles for validation, but i was genuinely too hot to wear my shirt and i wanted to practice dealing with discomfort and standing out, not hiding. a cute mid 20s looking asain woman noticed me as i and briefly made eye contact with me. Negatives : 1. (Continuing from the transport scenario) > Even though i was bold enough to reveal my body and look out of place, I didn't have the presence and inner peace to sit with that discomfort, I still put my big headphones on to pretend to act aloof or some shit when inside i was uncomfortable, the asain girl looked at my chest then initated eye contact, i noticed her eye contact and sensed attraction and watery look in her eyes as she saw my piercing, god tier movie star level eyes. Unfortunately, I wasn't man enough or present enough to hold the eye contact and be honest (non verbally) about my desire for her back, hell I didn't even allow myself to fully feel if there was desire because i just looked and filckered my eyes away instantly with my stupid headphones on. Then to make it worse, she got off the same stop and I had like 1.5 minutes to approach her, but I didn't because my minds said to me "you've made your choise now, u have to deal with the decision (This is completely useless nonsenese, many people approach after hesitating or run back and sometimes that ends up being the best ones) 2. Mindset & Self esteem : Due to (yes it has happened so many times now) running out of money AGAIN & logistics i dont even have a place sorted, I have a net worth of about $3K right now and I feel insecure about it, this subsconsiously is holding me back from approaching, not even jsut 10s but even a 6.5 its holding me back. I know its stupid and i've slept with women when broke before but it definitely doesnt help, but also, clock doesnt stop i cant only approach when i have/get money again. Theres NO fucking time for that. 3. On the health/diet situation - I have CHANGED MY MIND. FUCK DIET*** - Yes the gut thing sucks, but what sucks 10* more? NOT APPROACHING & LACK OF MOMENTUM So i am just forgetting about diet or quitting coffee for now I will come back to it Fuck it i i also have an intuition The benefits of cold approach & doing bold things might be soo dam strong, that I genjinely think it could reduce my symptoms by like 40% instantly. I dont see health from a "stage blue" perspective like andrew huberman (& i do respect huberman especailly for his alcohol video and he has clear value for that type of no bs scientific education but .. guys like him wouldn't consider how cold approaching could raise testosterone by 40% because there would need to be some double blind academic study to prove it) I genuinely think bold cold approaching can raise all your hormones, not saying it gauranteed does that merely every time u just say "hi" to a woman theres context but on some approaches ive done, i literrally once walked around like an absolute king afterwards, beause it felt so bold and movie like, every woman in the entire fucking station was like looking at me differently, it's like i had some aura implant into my brain for a couple hours, I just walked differently, like an actual king or ancient timeless warrior. It wasn't a wasted day Actually ONLY because i took my shirt off on the the transit. Literally at least I did SOMETHING bold again, even if i flinched and bitched out and didn't hold her eye contact, at least i took the shirt off. SO i'll use that as momentum fuel but im certainly not celerbating or congratulating myself, and i need up the ante, raise the stakes. I need to approach. Fuck it, every day i dont approach i have to give a homeless guy $30 (and every $30 matters to me in my current situation. No actually fuck that, "day" is too abstract and gives an excuse to extend my hesiation. Every Approach that involves a clear indicator of interest from a girl, like watery eyes or sustained attention or i just intuit it, and find her attractive, each flinch will cost me immediately $20, I have to inmediately give it to a homeless man. P.s : My problem is not approaching, my problem is approaching on hard mode. When i had logistics for a bit, it was hot and sunny, and i was in a more social city, i just simply was approaching. But i dont want to need perfect conditions, because that means im actually weak (yeah stronger than the average male who never approaches in his life but still) ... theres degrees of strength, and I want the highest fucking degree. No compromise. Have to do it on hard mode, its actually more fulfilling. Men used to go to war jesus Another point on the Gym : It;s not anywhere near as easy as i thought i was I said i made "crazy gains" But that was just the first couple months of muscle memory. Something I'm doing is off and i've platued I became way too cautious about "aesthetic proportion" which is important but, sometimes you just have to lift heavy for a bit to build a base, it's more about the way you do it overtime that matters and not targeting traps too much or widening the waist, but apart from that its quite hard to "overdo" lifting heavy because progress is slow and gradual. I have completely plateued, the main thing for me is losing body fat, thats the only final simple lever i have that will signidicantly raise my attractiveness and look and doesn't require years of training or steroids. 10-12% bodyfat simply force multiplies and exagerates any muscle you already have, even at 170 pounds. Annoying thing is i'm not gonna reach 180-185 pounds at 10-12% body fat for years, it takes fucking years unless I take PEDs. It takes like 2-3 years I never even realized this. I would've happily started this all at 20 but at 20 i dind't understand what it meant to build an optimized aesthetic physique, i just thought "lift eat a bit thats it". Good news is you dont need to max out your physique to stand out, but i want at least another 5 pounds of muscle, im relying on the pump too much, post real pump my whole body gains like 7 pounds of visual mass and loses about 3% of body fat & the veins swell out, i actually look incredible. Whats wild is that your post pump look now is actually like your real look naturally months later if you do everything right. Also post pump i virtually cheat code myself to 3-6 months later of lifting AND have this crazy enhanved vasculafrity asc if im already 1o% bodyfat, enhanced by NO, vasodilators & ideally sunlight too. But even on a cold day it still works because u have the plausible deniabliity of "I just came from the gym im not showing off", women respond viscerally to the post pump and they dont even know what it is.

An ENTP only becomes useful once he commits to and gets a firm, gorilla grip over Hard discipline, Te & Consistency. Without it, he either becomes an drug addict or in some cases, a crafty villain (relying on superior pattern recognition and creativity to scam, charm and manipulate people without any discipline or susbtance The only path for an ENTP is Te & Hard discipline Most of them probably never find it, or take like 35- 40 years to do it and by that point they're already fat af, married to the wrong woman, stuck with kids and debt. Te, Structure, brutal discipline, No Fap, early mornings, the gym, limited diets, little alcohol, planning, daily to do lists, checklists, google sheets, external organization, google calendar, multiple alarm clocks, reminders, daily visualization & affirmations, daily review, morning routine, strict phone and screen disicpline, schedulling, decisiveness.

Very false logical build up there "mike isratel didn't get attraction from women - therefore they dont respond to muscle" He's a stocky, 5"5 bulldog with no symmetry He doesn't train for aesthetics, his goal is always maximum hypertrophy and muscle possible without any regard for aesthetic proportion .. Mike is great for learning about muscle hypertrophy as a base but he isn't a role model for aesthetic balance. His face His Voice No style Nerdy, insecure vibe Yeah but hes not trying to be hot, he's trying to be dominant. It's about dominance and hyper masculinity. He's literally 210 -230 pounds, that would be way too big even on a 5"11 frame Looking good is about a mix of strength, dominance, balance, proportion, not being a juiced up IFBB pro body builder 230 pound bodybuilder You'd need to be at least like 6"3 for 230 pounds to look good but 175 - 190 pounds is the sweet spot for average height men, in 5"8 - 6"0 range. As for height, imo as long as you are at least 5"8 muscles do look great and are worth building My own expereince validates that women absolutely love muscles, I dont need to debate about it and it doesnt mean that I am overcompensating, feeback is giving me absolutely no reason to stop and only reasons to continue, just going to cap out at about 180-190 pounds at 10-12.5% body fat because my goal is to be hot not hyper masculinity Jiu-jitsu 240 pound gorilla dominance.

How could I overcome approach anxiety? How could I overcome dependence on approval? How could I remove that instinctive ego reaction to rejection, even if to soft rejection, even if I realized she wasn't even that attractive, even if I already have proof of concept i can get pretty girls, why does it still occur? Criminals, Mexican cartel members managed to desensitise themselves to the most extreme and gruesome forms of violence, and not all these guys were born psychopaths devoid of empathy, many are just made sociopaths, over time they stop feeling much for their victims of enemies. If a cartel criminal can desensitise himself to brutal torture, its beyond reasonable that a man can, with enough repetitions, become very desensitised and immune to losing frame, changing state, or becoming negative and passive after a "rejection", but the process isn't easy and is by necessity, emotionally brutal. That's the cost of gaining strength though.

10.11.25 Cold approach - 0 Saw a cute girl in gym made eye contact held it. Got in my head about approaching, i made it too big of a deal in my mind "it's the gym its ect.." (I've approached girls outside the gym and its gone really well before, theres no valid reason why approaching in the gym is actually forbidden, its not like spam approaching, there was an authentic look of interst from here she held the look, just fucking "hey you normally train here" or whatever, it not a big deal, anyway, i might see her again if we train similar hours) No Fap - Day 1 (3 faps in 2 days) Clean chicken - Day Gym - 1 Book writing - 0 Affirmations & Visualizations - Day Money > -$4 Mindset mood & state > 2 Protien bars caused sudden stomach reaction and fatigue > Lost dopamine > Fapped So i've got all the elements for success accept a couple things holding me back : Stomach problem still exists since june because i never solved at its root, i never had the patience to go 4-6 weeks 100% clean so it just never fixed, it will literally be a permanent issue for the rest of my life unless i go strict discipline, i will permanently be spending half my week with fatigue and brain fog and low dopamine, just for a fucking a mouth taste and some coffee. Caffiene addiction, both physical and psycholgoical especially and my lack of daily introspection & in denial ness trying to act like the problem will just solve itselvf complicates the whole issue - tired - forget to get my clean quality chicken - wake up, tired af no water ready, dehydrated, under nourished, go to make my instant coffee - instant coffee on an empty stomach - stomach issue sutbly giving me 20% more brain fog, fatigue ect. that subtle difference subtly impacts my day and i sutbly just start expeireicing bad luck or durping > durping leads me to get a protien bar out of convience, now its really flaring up, and now im less likely to approach too because im distracted, then i have to go home, then i get super tired then i crash, then i fap, now that causes negative placebo and guilt too, and then its jsut all a fuckig mess. So yeah, 1 fucking thing at a time man. I do not have bad health genetics like leo, i am extremely handsome and that is a symbol of great genes, but health is is never always genes, can give a gigachad poison he wont be healthy. ANywya, just eat very strict and im fine in 1-3 days i should feel back to my fullself with strict diet if i go 4-6 weeks strict > i may even be able to have a beer again, or a protien bar or some bread, and be fine, dont have to be 100% for life, discipline mf. fucking discipline. NO FAP DISCIPLINE (1) What can I eat ? Chicken, Turkey White FIsh White Rice (no sauce) Banana Small amounts of butter/Olive oil - possibly okay Water, Chamomile tea, Peppermint tea (2) NO MORE : Caffeine Protein bars Dairy / Milk Peanut Butter Beef Fruit Juice Honey / Maple syrup (3) 14 Day Stabilization : Shorter/Lighter Gym Sessions - No failure sets No Jogging or HIIT or punchbag - Only walking/incline treadmill No More Supplements & Creatine for 7 Days (4) Reintroduce heavier workouts after 14 days (5) No Fap 100 Day Streak starts NOW > From 10.11.25, Evening

09.11.25 : L Cold approaches - Zero > 1 big flinch, cute, 18-21 looking mixed race girl, pretty eyes, i made strong eye contact & she was looking at me back, looked cute & lonely but I was already getting off the train ... JUST GET BACK ON THE FUCKING TRAIN 2. Gym - goal was worked back Took too long in gym, wasn't filling a structured plan and wasted time, did some pointless shit chasing vanity pump with shoulders when i already did shoulders yesterday. Stick to the plan dont waste time. 3. Books & prolific writing : None yet 4. Health & Diet - Had a processed protien bar, stomach flare up, too much alcohol the last 1-2 weeks, I have brain fog and some fatigue due to stomach - inmediatley will be solved by chicken only diet for 6 weeks, my health genetics are gigachad tier just need to heal it 5. Affirmations & visualizations & te goals/projections - to do tonight 09.11.25 Cold approach - 0 No Fap - Day 6 Clean Chicken day - 0 Gym - 1 (but wasted time) Book writing - 0 Affirmations & Visualizations - Day 0 Money > -$$ Mindset mood & state > Bad, do affirmations UPDATE ^ Evening Fap - Impulsive explosion and fapped within about 5-10 seconds, Back to war. Day 100 Next.

Ripped, Rich, Cold Approach, Financial Freedom, Logistics, Rockstar Lifestyle Most rich guys are 140 IQ ISTJ Nerds hyper logical hyper organized efficient focused moderate to low sex drive introverts I'm a fucking ENTP who wants to fuck 3 times per day I'm not supposed to get rich But I have to I dont need millions now but I need to make good money travel and all this shit live my life RICH RIPPED & ROCKSTAR LIFESTYLE. I need Te, I need some fucking Te You cant get ripped without Te (And getting rich is much harder too)

I havent posted daily updates on if I wrote anything but thats unecessary empty journal calories I will just post weekly updates. I never started it. Life just got in the way and went by And a part of me started to doubt it as just another hyped idea that no one would give a shit about ... but HOW DO I KNOW THATS EVEN TRUE? I have no fucking idea I will just dedicate 20 minutes a day to it. No more no less. Then I cant lose How could I not find 20 minutes in a day?] Honestly I could probably write 10 books I feel like writing 1 its just like "what's next?" You just get prolific af

May - August I was very strong on my RAS & Affirmations game. 1. It doesnt automatically get you want you want, But it does present you what you want. Still need to act on it and learn, refine, skill. 2. May - August I even had a perfect 10 presented to me, and I genuine think this was only due to no fap + affirmation charge (But I fumbled the 10) in recent months even thought I'm "working hard" and "tracking my expenses" and "going gym" ect.. the fundamental software and internals have become shifted again .. We need to be reminded more than we need ot be taught I have not done a single affirmation, visualization, reprogramming, any of it for months And combine that with some financial collapses and regret loops, fear of aging, fear of wasting my life, fear of so much regret, I've started to lose my edge again, and I can feel it. That bold, masculine, edge, that fire that affirmations build. A lot of testosterone is wasted in the world, much anger is misdirected, many flames are doused. I can feel the sutble constant hum of anxiety and stress within me. I can feel the pressure. I can fee the disappointment. I can feel the regret, I can feel the lost edge, I can feel the negativity, I can feel the misdirected anger, I can feel the over-thinking, I can feel the indecisiveness, everything I was working so hard to carve out of me. I can feel the half-heartedness, I can feel the sadness, I can feel the void. I've started to neglect the software There's 2 core meta components to success & joy in life : 1. Software / Internal / Hypnosis 2. Direct Pragmatic (Te, metrics, logistics, infrastructure, habits, skills, tracking, consistency, communication, fast action, quick decisions ...) But 1. is the meta meta 1. holds 2. together 1. allows 2. And its insidious when you are "improving" on 2 but forget and neglect 1. ... random shit starts mysteriously happening. Bad luck, you smash the gym and track colories but you randomly get injuries You track your sleep and get your 7-8 hours but havent slept probably in months No fap barely works without 1. It took me too many years to take 1. seriously, to really understand it. I'm getting back on the 1. grind I forgot to mention warrior mentality. This affirmation shit can't be done in a cute fad way. It has to be done with psychotic intensity, every monring and night and with inmediate and conssitent action to go along with it. It has to be treated like your going to war, like your churchill rallying a decaying state to fight back against nazi germany, but you are churchill and you(your subconious) are the state.

I may have been slightly harsh in my criticism. 1. The overall premise or meta theme of the video is valid and worth talking about 2. I just didn't like the repetitive examples he used and his fixation with insane moralization and obsession with criticising "pickup" using the word mysogny and spiral dynamics. Its super boring, over-simplified, overdone and cringe. I'm a player precisely because I love women so much, i love to fuck women, its for them not just for me, they get my energy, they get my domniance, they get my muscles, they get my humour and my vibe, they get to enjoy it and eat it, what a fucking public sevice I am for women, I love women therefore I fuck them. Anyway, The video is relevant on a meta-level 1. That thought is NOT your thought - u did not derive that thought yourself 2. U just copied that thought - inmediately acceptd it, maybe connected it to some constructed identity of yours (like being Mrs carefree organic Naturalistic ) and then you just say that shit in a podcast 3. What is actually natural? WHY Brush your teeth when u can just simply, your cavities will just clean themselves right? your teeth will just naturally produce cleansing saliva (obviously extreme comparsion here but, its true that .. in certain climates, there simply are critical nutrients that humans cant get enough of - vitimin D in colder climates, Creatine hard to get the most optimal amount naturally). Many modern healthy things aren't natural. Not that natural base isn't important , dont want a diet of snickers obviously. A "Natural" world is one in which we , die at 30, odorous, have decaying teeth and have to use cattle to get from A to B

BORING AS HELL !!!! DUDE THAT WAS SO FUCKING BORING GOD 1. Good part of the entire video : makin fun of Nord VPN because everyone keeps fucking shilling nord VPN, that was funny ok 2. Peter Ralston larning martial arts within his own way - quite interesting 3. The general theme and idea and lesson of the video is useful and interesting in a sense, u can get the lesson skimming through for about 5 minutes, and it is common sense anyway, but that 3 hour fucking monologue? mostly boring and useless Everything else, SO PREDICTABLE GOD DAM JESUS "Pickup" "mysogny" "Andrew tate" he just SAYS THE SAME FUCKING SHIT OVER AND OVER What happened to leo? so boring man god Think of something new or useful to say for once man

Que Obra de arte hermano! Que obra de arte! Masterpieces. We all know what a masterpiece is intuitively, we feel it. In a song, a film, a speech, a poem. One that stand above the rest, you feel its difference. you wanna replay it over and over, you can replay it a decade later and it still feels almost as good, it never really ages, you barely get bored of it, even a decade later. But by definition a masterpiece cannot be common. I've always been a masterpiece kinda guy, I could just never wrap finger around it but virtually all humans are responsive to a true masterpiece when they see it Not all of are intrinsically motivated to go after it, to hunt for it, horny for it (and could reach sincerely in pain and regret without) Ps. Hearing an incredible song on spotify today (in combination with these incredible quality sony WH headphones I bought) inspired this thought I need to create a grand list of masterpieces, with 2 fundamental vectors 1. Masterpieces I have experienced (but maybe some of them i took for granted or didn't appreciate enough) 2. Masterpieces I havent experienced/seen (once i set an intention to build a database of masterpieces, i will find them).

Leo has made miracles before, I know I sound like a dick. But the only real insult is indifference. If I didn't care, and didn't know what he was capable of, I wouldn't have bothered with criticism. He does have masterpieces : Introspection Become decisive how the left goes far part (1?) probably a couple more Then at least another 5+ ones that were at least very interesting & mentally stimulating But when he just does the same thing "andrew tate, misogyny, u dont need a trophy wife" "billionaires always need another rolex" "mankind needs to increase its consciousness", "u must get through the higher stages, spiral dynamics spiral dyncamics LIke cmon dude. Cmonn We heard it all before, its boring. not all your followers gives a shit about spiral dynamics either, most of us dont even give a shit ! it doesnt even exist

II have tried to quit and failed many times have to humble myself My goal 1. Maximum 1 Coffee (or caffiene source) per day 2. No caffiene after 10AM 3. Reduce Caffiene down to 150M consistently (100MG is ideal dream) (and hard maximum limit at 200MG, above 200MG is meth head territory now) need some form of boundary, and i can work with that If i try to quit cold turkey now it will disrupt my life too much This journal will have no ego, no other comentary, no philosophy or random talk Just pure 1 sentence : Date, caffiene consumption in MG, Time taken Every caffiene I consume I MUST know how much it has I cannot just throw in some instant coffee without knowing how much it is if its 2 spoons, i must know the exact caffiene that brand will approximately equate to for 2 spoon Awareness cures, Measuring demystifies . NO Mystery People think its "addiction, overdose" ect.. But it's mostly lack of tracking and boundaries Addiciton is needing ANY caffiene, maybe 100-150mg to not feel like death But tracking any Te prevents taking 350 mg and drinking it too late > sleeping too late > drinking beer or fapping out of boredom Journal starts now, only 3 things 1. No caffiene after 10am (MUST be followed at all times) 2. Max 150MG Caffiene = Goal but i'll permit 200mg at first if too difficult 3. Every caffiene content must be mesured to gram BEFORE consumption 4. Trajectory is main priority > Goal is no C <10am but if I was drinking at 12-3PM at 300MG and next time its down to 11AM and 230MG then thats progress, the progress must continue every day, Numerical Progression Trajectory is Sacred 5. Journal format > Date, caffiene consumption in MG, Time taken, Conlusion = Win or Fail 6. VIsual Te : Google Sheets table of trajectory > DMY.MG.AM-PM P.s Almost all my journals will follow this format now No more philosophy No more creativity Just Pure Te I've actually built a taste for my own blindspots I'm Horny for Te Now I'm horny to use google sheets i'm horny to be pragmatic 24/7 I'm horny to create these journals I'm horny for numbers, metrics, trajectories, graphs, spreadsheets, diagrams, Mind Maps, hardcore discipline I'm horny to track my cold approaches on a sheet I'm horny to take my supplements in the bill box I'm horny to for no caffiene after 11AM I'm horny to increase my sleep quality I'm horny to get to 10-12% body fat I'm horny to take minoxidil every day so I can stay attractive until i'm 50+ I'm horny for earning USD & spending Pesos and little stress and partying when I want, but still managing my finances & investing I'm horny for doing proper form in the gym and even using physios and massages for optimization and injury prevention & tension & stress management I'm horny for education and learning skills, every day, lifelong persuit, I'm horny for mechanically deconstrcuting any topic so i understand it from its root

Have to just own what you want in life and refuse to care what others think or back down. Inspiring looking Journal!

05.11.25 : There is a strong urge within to have ANOTHER coffee in the afternoon I already had 180-200MG approx about 10AM, and kind of regret not taking 230-240MG approx because I tend to crash more in afternoon and crave more so it feels risky But the morning is gone The decision is there I'm not doing it I'm using music, internal energy sources, exercize, subconscious tools and if needed, fruit juice instead or even a little chocolate energy bar (+ jogging) if desperate (normally 10-20mg caffiene max and more tourine, sugar ect..) NO to afternoon coffee

" Non - Conformity often gets you less sex ect.." Really ?? I think it DEPENDS Strict islamic society? definitely, conform or no family But american/european societies Like being bold and approaching a woman 4PM is not exactly conformity Neither is being in great shape and having good posture and strong masculine eye contact and no fap none of these things are common, they often arouse envy and put some men off (so theres always a "cost") But again im complicating things i guess, depends on the context always and in what context you're conforming or not oh yeah apparently according to leo, even all that ^^ "IS JUST CONFORMING BY BEING NON-CORFOMIST OHHH NOOO" LMAO WHO GIVES A SHIT DUDE Also am i the only one who finds the word "Pickup" really cringe. Notice how leos entire lense of dating is through the lens of being an average looking at best american introvert who "found pickup through RSD", and thats it, theres marrying a woman and being a good simp like 90% of people, then theres being mr andrew tate mysognist american "pickup artist", ohh nooo SO cringe lmao Millions of men simply have very high natural libido and testosterone that doesnt go down easily, and they lift, and they're extroverts, and they're high energy, 3W2 or 8W7 types, wired for novelty and variety, or conquest, or even just love socializing/human connection... (AND Many of those are literally very good looking since some reason i believe all these things seem to coalesce and combine all that with the feedback loop of women drooling over you and eye fucking you right ... its a feedback loop) and thats it. As a consequence, they fuck tons of girls, girls in all situations, often anywhere from 17 - 40 years old if they're horny, but 17-25 prioritized and 17-22 are reserved for true romance due to many biological and sociological factors that hae always existed, married ones, singles ones, pregnant ones whatever ... until they're old as fuck. they just live their life. They'll get stds sometimes, if they test regularly, , yeah thats it. Its life. There is no "pickup", its just human nature. Leo needs to go live in Sicily or somewhere and realize that there is no "pickup" or "Mysogny", just a bunch of handsome well dressed dudes who love the game. Leo needs to join a gang in Sicily and let go of the spiral dynamics shtick, take the schtick out his ass. We also have a depopulation problem and so 1 of the great modern male life purpose is to impregnate as many beautiful young women as possible, this aint no joke, it must be done at volume and scale. "Pickup ohhh no RSD Andrew tate" NO ONE CARES THERE IS A BIGGER WORLD OUT THERE THEN THESE GOOFY CLOWNS Such an american bias but I personally like america, its just that leo only points out the goofy ass mf as examples What about an actual cool rockstar that just gets chicks because they love him his energy & styyle, better authentic role modal than RSD, i mean logistically impossible to copy because 0.1% chance you'll be some celeibrity rockstar, but im just talking about the energy and style, and replicate the energy as a nobody and still ooze aura, combine that with cold approaching because you're not a celebrity This isnt' to say none of leos critical feeling/bias "against pickup" (yes it is a feeling theres no exact truth in it) isnt grounded in some real expereince worth of it - yeah sure that Julian 2014 was treating women bad whatever but why use that as a reference point for dating then label it all "pickup" lmao, 99% of the time "pickup" is consensual and cant even occur unless theres consent and mutual feelings, not in sober day gam, impossible unless you're some rapist animal lmao, so it makes no fucking sense, whats more to critize is this post covid introvereted phone staring culture people are stuck in, but leo doesnt think about that because no offence but hes a bit stupid man, his brain sort of autopilot runs of the same script, u can feel the repetitive moralistic patterns, he moralises everything too much, especially dating, "hes using them for sex", maybe, or maybe 2 people just had sex, because humans are animals that are wired to fuck and reporduce, stop fucking moralizing everything to death and btw, spiral dynamics is fucking gay af, FUCK spiral dynamics, its so fucking stupid. Stop using that gay fucking word u fucking NORMIE, the irnony of the conformity of using spiral dynamics, instantly repelled by any1 using that grabage language, and "consciousness" jesus man that word is the fucking lame af