Optimized Life

18.11.25 (Belated post) Cold Approaches = 2 Key flinches = 2 Gym - walking No Fap : Day 8 Book Writing = 0 Affirmations & Visualization = 0 Diet : Cheated & ate junk due to transport hunger Key FLinch Key flinches (Strong IOI from hot women who are my exact type)

I reckon Chat GPt will not upgrade the brains of 99% of men because they're simply just not interested in growing and learning new things. It's really hard to explain because im not doing anything particurly smart or complex other than I have an insatiable curiosity to understand anything and everything practical and relevant to myself and society. I am becoming so god dam intelligent and the only limit really now is aging and my inevitable cognitive decline since yeah obviously every man decays eventually, physically cognitively hormonally. But I'm getting towards a hollistic peak and hopefully will be able to ride it out for at least 20 years if im lucky and look after myself. Only regret is this thing dind't blossom 5-10 years earlier. Curious ambitious guys like me who are 18-22 Now need to acknolwedge how lucky they are ... before u had to read fucking books, and still it was 1000X less effective and often didn't really work. Books rarely worked for me, AI is simply 1000 Faster and more direct and practical than 99% of all books combined. I'm not anti books but they have very specific and niche usecases which often arent needed, sometimes I do read books but its normally an intellectual curisoity and not pragmatic, and the real world is pragmatic. Chat GPT is great for the "Stage Yellow" thing too (I dont use SD labels or condone it) but I know the general theme. Chat GPT often might technically jsut repeat back to u what u already know or suspect (e.g about society) > But the way it does it is its kind of like, its kind of like how lifting over time builds denser muscle maturity (not just bulk), accept it deepens and carves your understanding of the depth of societies problems and how fucked society is, before you just "kinda knew", know you really fucking know it. And this is practial because you're in a society and you're an impressoinable social being and so this "knowing" helps you personally, and of course it makes u a better leader. Ohhh and forgot to mention just simply the hard nosed, functional pragmatic side of it too. Like "I have X budget, I want to get a tan, find me a place I can get a tan in X days where there's High UVB between 5-9" & good weather for X budget ect.. and it just does it

The American Sloth There's a few ways to learn to read and build mental modal of differnt archetypes and characters you'll meet, but id say the obvious one is just travel, meet thousands of people for months or years. The American Sloth Travelling gave me an inution of this type because not all americans are sloths and not all rich/well educated people with good childhoods are sloths either and sometimes they become hyper efficient killers who take nothing for granted. But I do believe the American Sloth is like a specific archetype that I will keep meeting, and just this 1 specific guy i met made me think of this. It's just like Everything about him, his voice, the way he spoke, his energy, his accent, his body, his subtly fat face, him "not approaching or risking it with women abroad because he has GF back home" (Sloth Cope) Hard to articulate but i just felt the slothyness inmediatley. He didn't feel like a man to me, he was like a Factory farmed New York Sloth, mickey mouse sloth inc. No substance to him, no trauma, no pain, no struggle, no dawg, no personality no risk. No dreams. Just an easy, "fun" american slothy life. He was unbearable, but next time i'll be able to spot them quicker and avoid them

17.11.25 Cold Approach - TBC No Fap - Day 7 Gym - 1 > Triceps (Skullcrushers & Seated DB overhead twists), Moderate chest (Incline DB BP 14KG*2), Lateral delts (mostly 12KG & bit of 14KG), Front delts (12-14KG), small sets of back delts, kneeling horizontal raises 6-8KG 1-2 short sets. Legs > Leg press, Maxed out at 235 PBs, 4 sets total, 12-14 reps & 6 reps max at 235pb, Walking *3 today Book writing - Affirmations & Visualizations - Money - Expenses - $250 Diet : 1. Afternoon Stomach reaction > Causes > Coffee, Dairy, Eggs, 2. New structure > MPS, 3-4 Meals per day at 40-50G Protien per meal (200G Cooked chicken leg, 270G Raw)

This was sloppy writing. I shouldnt have included the word "sexual". What i meant was approaching, flirting, leading her, her smiliing, giving her contact, meeting again, maybe following into your (or he) place. Maybe synced dancing and some escalation touch too. But actual vivid sexual imagery isn't good, it focues on the outcome and creates a porn loop. U cant control the outcome or sex only the inputs, like approaching and being present, so its dumb to visualize actual sex. Similar with affirmations. Better to say "I act decisively every day, and go after what I want without with extreme confidence" Then "I am a millionaire" - It's stupid and your brain doesnt even believe that. "Abundance of money flows to me because I am a results machine" much better because it's proactive and emergent Understanding affirmations isn't that complicated but it still is a niche skill, and most people dont take a few days or a week to learn it properly. Theres the base structure of how to say it. But then theres also the intuition of what words specifically hit your nervous system, which is individualized. There's even how u say it to yourself which is hypnosis/tonality training ect.. public speakers are intuitvely good at this. And to properly understand it imo it does take days/weeks. Because there's a difference slightly between just writing 5 correctly structured affirmations to repeat vs genuinely understanding it. I'm not sure why but I remember 4 years ago hopelessly saying shit like "I'm a fucking millionaire, im rich" and saying shit like that with a needy, entitled and impatient tone, it just doesnt work, because I wasn't focusing on inputs, and I didn't fundamentally understand the linguistic psychology of affirmations. Learning affrimations lke i said, its not rocket science or hard to grasp, merely that its one of those things that almost no bothers to grasp proprely, but when u grasp it imo, it unlocks a portal of understanding that branches into marketing, psychology, linguistics. Affirmations, lingusitics, marketing, hypnosis, persuasion, "Power words", self talk, subconscious mind, programming, music all connected I am not an expert at all, i still want a deeper understanidng. I give myself another week of study and practice. I dunno who remembers Leo shilling his subconious mind course lol. Well I already believe I half figured out how to reprogram yourself deeply for anything anyway. I had insights about it in the last few months. Obviously i still have to take action on it, cement it in my mind, memory and mental prioritees fade without focus, but I did have some pragmatic insights about it months ago, but need to apply it and structure it now

Structure makes chaos sexy I dont cut my hair anymore, im growing it as long as possible for 1-2 years, no fades no haircuts But i now Sculpt every 6-10 weeks This provides structure and prevents frizz Without it, it will grow into uneven chaos A guitarist can play around and improvise, but only because he learnt the rules enough to effectively break them (most frequent chords, scales, major vs minor, arpeggios ect.), we all know the sound of a silly kid bashing around a guitar and it sounds awful and cringe, because there is no structure When Gym is structured, your mind is more free, you feel more confident & decisive of what, when where you workout - This frees your mind to act spontaneously and decisively, or to be more social

What Affirmations are .. Affirmations and Marketing If u cant even convince yourself, why would you try with others? 2. Affirmations is actually a technical & linguistically advanced technique. Its emoting to language & crafting emotive language in order to convince yourself of something, with a punchy and impactful tone and a concise structure.

16.11.25 Cold Approach - 0 / didn't go out and had a huge nap at 6PM No Fap - Day 6 Gym - Walking Book writing - 0 Affirmations & Visualizations - 1 Money - ? Diet - ?

Its not just sugar, its carbs in general too. I got the wrong idea about carbs again, im so fucking stupid. I got this idea that you need to carb load all day and before/after gym some reason. This isn't necessary. There's a modest amount of Net carbs you body needs daily ... and thats it. Dont need huge carbs before or after gym. Actually will look better to have a carb meal in morning (say u workout evening), less puffy, leaner drier. And that carb meal should just be automated to be the exact amount your body needs for health and nothing more, no less no more. I've been making my life harder than it needs to be. Simplified nutrition and eating is NOT low quality living, its higher quality. It saves mental energy and cognitive load on what u really care about. If I truly had it my way I wouldnt even eat food, i'd just press a button instantly for all the nutrients to fill my body (Resteraunt is obviously completely different but thats about the immersive social experience not eating itself).

This sentence is not linguistically precise and slightly misleading. You should work traps, You should do compound movements Not sure why i used such a generalized word like "compound" as if thats inherently anti aesthetics.. that was dumb. You need both compound and isolation, and compound is the foundation, even simple incline pushups are "compound". Use of the word hypertrophic as a negative there was misplaced Its just about not overdoing them or targeting traps like you're mike tyson. Traps naturally get built by doing the other stuff to an extent anyway and thats a good thing. Squats bench press ect.. none of these are bad But theres some complexity Bench press is good but should go 60:40 or 70:30(?) towards upper chest exercises, so lean more working upper chest Squats i mostly dont bother with because i hate them and i prefer just simple leg press but if i really wanted the full rounded leg aesthetic i should probably incorporate something else - Bulgarian Split squats maybe? Deadlifts can be good for T boost or just adding systemic muscle gain momentum ect.. but i have heard that they can cause posture issues and they look scary to me so i dont bother If all you do is heavy deadlifts and squats all day for years you will eventually look like a powerlifting monster But then if you're a true tall lanky ectomorph? That might be the exact thing you need since you're problem is different. But yeah, I avoid working the obliques since it seems to have little aesthetic value Again, my knowledge and how I use language especially to describe my "knowledge" is constantly being remodled. This is the issue with language and human knowledge full stop, almost everyone is constantly fulll of shit. ... but also foundations for aesthetic physqiue are pretty cemented in stone now : V taper, Wider shoulders narrow waist Prioritize Triceps, lateral delts, chest, lats Triceps > Biceps Upper chest > mid/lower chest (but do everything) 1G of protien per pound of body weight >> 150-200G Protien per day MPS - 3-4 Protien meals per day, at 40-50 Gram of protien each meal > 3-4 meals per day instead of giant meal keeps growth signalling high throughout the day and gives a more stable energy, also enhances fullness in key muscles and your overall look over time. Use repeatable meal & macro-nutrient structure & caloric intake > minimize mental fatigue and automate Low body fat amplifies physique > 10 - 12.5% ideal, 12-14% is decent Dont neglect legs Post pump look is how you're body will look normally in 2-3 months? Carbs are important for gaining size(No well obv everytrhing matters within a quantified range mathetmatical balance) & this is likely unavoidable, carnivore diet wont suffice, but maybe for maintenance it could work. Dont neglect posture work & walking Dont neglect forearms Low bodyfat + Tan makes body pop especially Skull Crushers, incline dumbell BP, leg press, lat pull machine, incline pushups, diamond pushups = my favourite so far

15.11.25 Cold approach - 0 (2 HESITATIONS, clear signals from 2 cute young women, hesitated .. actually 3-4 signals because another 2 women were staring at me post gym, but I was waiting for this other chick, she came out but walked fast it was dark i intented to form an approach but just yeah that first second of hesitation, i messed it up but i'll very likely see her again) I'm very disappointed with yesterday but at least my aura is radiating, women want me to approach, gotta get fucking moving, momentum. No Fap - Day 5 Gym - 1 (Triceps, Lats, moderate chest, Calf raises) Book writing - 0 Affirmations & Visualizations - Day 0 - i will not skip this again Money > Expenses only Diet - OK but too much general carbs Update - "No Sugar Day" - now tracke daily > includes all fruit juice, honey, "dark chocolate" (<90%) & chocolate, NO MORE SUGAR, WAY TO ADDICTIVE, CHEAP & FUCKS UP YOUR BODY INMEDIATELY Alcohol, sugar, fruit juice, diet soda, disrupted sleep ... the gradual slip & justifying it I have been chugging fruit juice for like 1-2 months and somehow justifying it because its "nutritious sugar" & "Its fine because of gym" This is not healthy I have also randomly started eating this specfiic energy chocolate bar, i've probably 12-15 of them in the past 3 weeks if i add it all up, because at the time its "just 1 bar, you've earnt it, quick energy for cardio" and all this nonsense. Boost, snickers marsbar, fuck i had like 2 snickers yesterday morning too WTF It always happens when you're underfed and waiting somewhere theres a vending machine. The threat is the misunderstanding. I dont even lack discipline, i somehow unconsciously convined myself that fruit juice is fine, maybe even necessary with exercise. It's not, it puffs your face and dulls your skin, it leads to a crash, insulin. Its not healthy, fruit juice junk, worse than a mcdonalds cheeseburger, much much worse. Mcdonalds cheeseburger literally is beef, low quality sure but, its not liquid poison. A banana is good but thats not the same as a smoothie, it has its fibre intact, and still you shouldn't eat 15 bananas at once (which is basically what fruit juice is but with much higher GI fruits like oranges, and stripped of all their fibre) So no im done with this justifying phase. And 1 slip always seems to increase other ones subtly U start with fruit juice before gym then you're randomly drinking a bit more beer, then u start eating snickers because without realizing you're hooked on added sugar and it just hits you now. I used to find chocolate gross and now suddenly i'm wanting it a bit ... SUGAR & DIET IS BEING RE - PRIORITIZED IN TE JOURNAL. ALL ADDED SUGAR TAKES MY POWER AWAY, SUBTLY MAKES ME NAUTIOUS & IRRITATES MY STOMACH, THAT IS NOT "ENJOYING LIFE" & MODERATION IS REALLY A LIE. YEAH U CAN INDULGE HERE AND THERE, BUT THE ISSUE WITH "MODERATION" INDULGENCE IS IT BECOMES A PATTERN, NEGATIVE MOMENTUM IS A BRTUAL

"GUY WHO FUCKS" ENERGY DOESNT COME FROM LAY COUNT, ONLY VIBE. U CAN BE A VIRGIN AND GIVE OFF THIS ENERGY. THE ACTUAL TRUTH IN LIFE DOESNT MATTER AND NOBODOY KNOWS OR CARES, ONLY THE ENERGY WHICH U SELF GENERATE. (When done from the right frame/intention*) Vivid sexual visualisation strengthens dominance - (Not Neediness). Most men are so ashamed and sexually repressed that they cant even do an exercise like this without cringing (I was the same), forget even flirting with women lol, u too ashamed to even to do it privately in your own head, fucking thought police!

I THINK THIS IS GOING TO BE A GOOD ONE I AM NOT SANE OR WELL TODAY SO VERBAL FLUIDTY WILL PROBABLY BE ROUGH & PATCHY I MAY NEED A NAP BEFORE I CAN THINK & WRITE THIS PROPERLLY, BUT LET ME JUST TRY RIGHT FUCKING NOW. Leos' introspection video might be the best & most important philosophical work that has ever been done in recent history, by a very clear margin. I didn't quite get it at first, I only "got it" Now i dont just mean that for myself practically, pratically, in vivo I'm still really struggling with it, (which connects precisely back to the theme of that masterpiece and why its precisely so important and why it could be drilled over and fucking over again). And side point, Ironically I sense many of leos opinions or views to either be deluded or just biased to his personality/culture. But ignoring leos personal hypocrisy (which its existence AGAIN highlihgts exactly why the topic is so endlessly important) there's few things from a meta view that could be so 100% correct and relevant and important. (I have fucked up my neurotransmitters again recently and having gut reaction so i am simply struggling here) GOATIS *(Youtube channel) Gd points > should be out in nature, should limit processed foods & grains, try to be in sunlight, eat good quality meat. having children are important for many people and ideally you dont wait around just for children. ... Now thats ALL that i have gotten form him thats good, ALLL. Goatis is relatively intelligent, slightly, maybe like 107-112 IQ or something NOO that was wrong of me too say lol, hes A FUCKING WHACKJOB But he doesn't seem that self aware at all, he's also extremely sure of himself and his repetitive opinions, and seems extremely intellectually arrogant. 1. Goatis is like German or something? ^ Very privileged country with huge economy, high paying jobs, high minimum wage, huge state benefits and funding, stable weather, highly educated, everyone english fluent from day 1. Now those factors dont automatically make him biased or arrogantly privileged and smug, but once you listen to him enough you understand why it doesnt help. 2. Goatis says shit like "money doesnt exist you slave" and "you should have as many children as young as possible otherwise you're a loser ect.." Dude ... do you think most men in the modern world have the fucking choice to casually have 5 children by 25? are you fucking serious, its hard enough just to exist and pay rent. Fucking hell man this guy is a POS. Most people have almost no choice about what weather or climate they inhabit, whether they get to work or not, and if they ever do get a choice over it, its only due to going through the system and slaving through it (being a more productive or intelligent / socially competent slave than the rest), thats just how it is, but to Goatis its just "everyones a normie slave, just go to the jungle bro". 3. Goatis talks about happiness a lot and makes critical videos of other content creators who claim to be winning but "dont look happy" & he sees through their bs ... And funnily enough, he actually may often be right here, so he is showing some critical thinking ... but also ARE U HAPPY GOATIS? BECAUSE I DONT GET THAT VIBE FROM YOU, IN FACT its actually painful to listen to goatis just from his vibe, even though he's having children, eating raw meat, getting sunlight, clean of all processed foods ... does that automatically make him happier than some fat woman who enjoys her beer and lives in a cold city in eastern europe? Absolutely no not necessarily (not saying diet climate ect.. arent important factors) but still, theres people in cold grey ass countries who just eat whatever and have a way more happier and attractive vibe than him JUST LOOK AT HIS VIBE, HIS VIBE IS SO LIFELESS. ALSO WHY IS HE MAKING SO MANY VIDEOS CALLING OTHER PEOPLE LOSERS? WHAT KIND OF HAPPY WINNER WOULD DO THAT? He also doesn't look healthy and looks very skinny, he also has literally zero charisma or energy. He also critiques absolutely anything unatural and, there is some utility to this, I personally love some sunlight and the woods ect.. but he's still locked into an identity, he still just constantly blabbers on and repeats his views. ALl cities are bad to him, all cities automatically make people unhappy becuase anything that doesn't 100% mimic huntergather society and environment is automatically bad to him. Imagine being such a lame ass dude like him constantly trying to spread the same opinions on youtube, and using you're braindead follower fans petty adsense to fund you're boring woods & family lifestyle while claiming that money doesn't exist and calling all his fans slaves (despite the fact that literally his fans slave jobs funding the electricity, phone bills, computers, and extortionate rents that allow them to sit and watch his videos or find him in the firs tplace so that they end up buying his b.s is exactly what funds his "natural freedom") There seems to be nothing human about this guy despite his entire philosophy and ethos revolving around Natural living, its so ironic. I'm actually embarassed that im even taking this guy seriously enough to write a long critique of him, lets be clear, this guy is 100% a complete whackjob, he literally has the vibe of someone with severe CTE, he is not happy, he is not mentallystable, there is something very wrong with this guy and my intuition after hearing him for 5 minutes is enough with this one, I normally give people the benefit of the doubt, and while he does have some good points, its the place its comign from, yes modern life is unhealthy and yes we need nature ect.. but anyone can say that, hes a depressing, boring nutjob with no personality or actual skills/value, his only value is stating the obvious that nature and nutritious food is important, well fucking done u fucking egg head .. ANother random point about leo at his best "Pedophillia outrage has become the modern witch trials in this Epstien era" Conversation I had with 2 uni girls couple years ago ..eads to ohh "my high school teacher he was a pedophile" ... I say "really, how do u know?" .. she says "i just know he was" What she actually means - He had a quirky personality, and without any feint crumb of evidence, let alone hard verified evidence, she has out of pure boredom and modern trend riding brain rot, decided to casually commit criminal defamation on a underpaid public service worker and finds that funny.

14.11.25 Cold approach - 0 (Did not goout today, no actual flinches) No Fap - Day 4 Gym - 1 (Chest and shoulders and forearms ("farmer carries") Book writing - 0 Affirmations & Visualizations - Day 0 Money > Na Diet - 2 beers (and 2-3 yesterday) *P.s Leos decisiveness video & Alcohol I cannot claim that i have officially decided to NEVER drink EVER, or EVER AGAIN. Seeing my life holistically it isn't realistic. But what can my brain handle and commit to? Never Allow (even "Moderate") drinking to become a regular pattern (4 beers per week ect..) Inmediatley upon sensing pattern or frequent use - Sheets tracking must begin (fine to slip up as long as i can see the data and get scared by it, most men who lowered there testosterone by 10% because of alcohol will have no conscious idea of it, they wont tell u they "had an average of 225 beers per year for the last 7 years, and were often midly dehydrated at least 2 nights per week") lifte just goes by and the dicksuddenly doesnt even go up anymore I dont think "just having 1/2 beer on friday" makes any meaningful difference to health if it isn't patterned. 2 beers every friday for years? Probably a slight difference but could still be miniscule, but even for me I dont like any pattern so it cant be every week for me

13.11.25 Cold approach - 0 Clean chicken day - 0 (Alcohol & 5H Sleep - Due to sloppy dirty cold night game, never again) No Fap - Day 3 Gym - 2 (Leg & back day +) Book writing - 0 Affirmations & Visualizations - Day 0 Money > ?? Frustration 10/10 Anger 10/10 Sense of incongruence with modern domesticated world 10/10 Desire to heavy day game cold approach 10/10 How bad i need money 10/10 May have to get my 1st cold approach in morning/afternoon. even though not ideal connection mode because many people busy with errands or work, need early momentum i think cant just wait until 6pm

Not sure if i'm ready to articulate this properly and this is written as i think about it. umpromted (as i often do write) I may re word whatever i say here But this is a very important basic topic to understand, theres maybe 3-4 key branching threads Wiring, Instinctive Neuro-differences in men What pisses me off about the obsessive use of spiral dynamics on this forum, its not that it doesnt have some general basis of true, but its used in petty, irrelevant & useless ways to condone peoples interests, obsessions ect.. Like "oh he's into pickup, hes going through a ORANGE PHASE" Hehe .. "I remember when I was orange". SHUT UR STUPID, 90 IQ, ROBOT MOUTH UP, DUDE. SHUT THE FUCK UP, YOU STUPID LITTLEE MINI LEO CUCK. Anyway where was I. Most behaviour comes down to instinctive wiring, NOT spiral dynamics Dominance wiring, competitive instincts, status chasing ect.. This combination IS DISTINCT & NON CORRELARY to Somatype/physique/height and "spiral dynamics level" Completely fucking distinct and non correlary. 1. Can be a mesamorph with zero dominance wiring, status chasing, competitive instincts. (I know a guy like this, massive shoulders, tiny fucking bools haha, zero dawg in him (but he's happy being him right). And (Unless this is due to truama/repression/supression/cultural conformity ect..) this is fixed due to wiring. That mesamoprh guy is content being that way 2. (This is also key) Someones natural wiring ((which without any debate or challenge MUST be alligned with ones actions/lifestyle to allow fulfillment and contentment, literally impossible for those two things to diametrically exist)) can (and very often is in the modern world) be heavily suppressed, repressed, shamed out of them ... often unconsciously. Natural/potential wiring needs environment/habits ... a lot of dysfunction and misery in the world comes with this repression and suppression, solid 50% of men could easily be psycholoigcal and lifestyle versions of human zoo animals, imprisoned by their own brain (and/or environment/culture) 3. I'm repeating myself here but I want to just so I dont discourage any1 to think they are/aren't a certain way because of how they currently are : The dominance/competitive/warrior wiring is POTENTIAL/NATURAL BUT A HUGE % OF THESE GUYS ARE NOT ALLIGNED WITH IT. Early life is a myriad factorial lottery ticket and it only takes 1 thing to knock a guy off his natural mode of being, and he likely doesnt have this form of awareness & consciousness of it and so he likely rationalises his own misallingment of just "this is how i am", which is a very tragic and sad modern recursive rut if you think about it. So Yes, just because u are not dominant/bold ect.. now it doesnt mean you dont have the wiring .. in fact if you are struggling with it but your emotional biology is relentlessly pulling u towards going through the process of getting it, and becoming uninhibited .. that imo is likely a very high indicator that you do have the wriing, i notice in low wiring men that they often just simply dont care enough to even go through the process of say cold approach (and in the rare instances that they do go through the process, its like a 1 off pragmatic logical thing where they get any 1 decent 6-6.5/10 GF and then they just stop approaching after that until they're single again).

12.11.25 Cold approach - 1 Clean chicken day - 0 No Fap - Day 2 Gym - 1 Book writing - 0 Affirmations & Visualizations - Day 0 Money > + $120

Envy is a stubborn bitch. Does envy go away once you become consistently successful? I bet it doesn't. dam I want this emotion to go away

11.11.25 No Fap - Day 1 Complete Cold Approach - 0 ** Clean chicken day Gym No - But lots of walking Book writing - 0 Affirmations & Visualizations - Day 0 Money > - $70 Mindset mood & state > 2 Protien bars caused sudden stomach reaction and fatigue > Lost dopamine > Fapped ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ ..................................... COLD APPROACH TODAY : Positives : I went outside during peak hours I at least walked around with the intention to approach, (wasnt fully in denial) I did 1 bold move to rebuild boldness momentum : I was getting on transport with no air-conditioning and felt too hot with my shirt on, so I took it off showing some of my bare chest & all my arms in a tank top on a cold day on transport filled with women. This isn't some liver king flex where im flexing muscles for validation, but i was genuinely too hot to wear my shirt and i wanted to practice dealing with discomfort and standing out, not hiding. a cute mid 20s looking asain woman noticed me as i and briefly made eye contact with me. Negatives : 1. (Continuing from the transport scenario) > Even though i was bold enough to reveal my body and look out of place, I didn't have the presence and inner peace to sit with that discomfort, I still put my big headphones on to pretend to act aloof or some shit when inside i was uncomfortable, the asain girl looked at my chest then initated eye contact, i noticed her eye contact and sensed attraction and watery look in her eyes as she saw my piercing, god tier movie star level eyes. Unfortunately, I wasn't man enough or present enough to hold the eye contact and be honest (non verbally) about my desire for her back, hell I didn't even allow myself to fully feel if there was desire because i just looked and filckered my eyes away instantly with my stupid headphones on. Then to make it worse, she got off the same stop and I had like 1.5 minutes to approach her, but I didn't because my minds said to me "you've made your choise now, u have to deal with the decision (This is completely useless nonsenese, many people approach after hesitating or run back and sometimes that ends up being the best ones) 2. Mindset & Self esteem : Due to (yes it has happened so many times now) running out of money AGAIN & logistics i dont even have a place sorted, I have a net worth of about $3K right now and I feel insecure about it, this subsconsiously is holding me back from approaching, not even jsut 10s but even a 6.5 its holding me back. I know its stupid and i've slept with women when broke before but it definitely doesnt help, but also, clock doesnt stop i cant only approach when i have/get money again. Theres NO fucking time for that. 3. On the health/diet situation - I have CHANGED MY MIND. FUCK DIET*** - Yes the gut thing sucks, but what sucks 10* more? NOT APPROACHING & LACK OF MOMENTUM So i am just forgetting about diet or quitting coffee for now I will come back to it Fuck it i i also have an intuition The benefits of cold approach & doing bold things might be soo dam strong, that I genjinely think it could reduce my symptoms by like 40% instantly. I dont see health from a "stage blue" perspective like andrew huberman (& i do respect huberman especailly for his alcohol video and he has clear value for that type of no bs scientific education but .. guys like him wouldn't consider how cold approaching could raise testosterone by 40% because there would need to be some double blind academic study to prove it) I genuinely think bold cold approaching can raise all your hormones, not saying it gauranteed does that merely every time u just say "hi" to a woman theres context but on some approaches ive done, i literrally once walked around like an absolute king afterwards, beause it felt so bold and movie like, every woman in the entire fucking station was like looking at me differently, it's like i had some aura implant into my brain for a couple hours, I just walked differently, like an actual king or ancient timeless warrior. It wasn't a wasted day Actually ONLY because i took my shirt off on the the transit. Literally at least I did SOMETHING bold again, even if i flinched and bitched out and didn't hold her eye contact, at least i took the shirt off. SO i'll use that as momentum fuel but im certainly not celerbating or congratulating myself, and i need up the ante, raise the stakes. I need to approach. Fuck it, every day i dont approach i have to give a homeless guy $30 (and every $30 matters to me in my current situation. No actually fuck that, "day" is too abstract and gives an excuse to extend my hesiation. Every Approach that involves a clear indicator of interest from a girl, like watery eyes or sustained attention or i just intuit it, and find her attractive, each flinch will cost me immediately $20, I have to inmediately give it to a homeless man. P.s : My problem is not approaching, my problem is approaching on hard mode. When i had logistics for a bit, it was hot and sunny, and i was in a more social city, i just simply was approaching. But i dont want to need perfect conditions, because that means im actually weak (yeah stronger than the average male who never approaches in his life but still) ... theres degrees of strength, and I want the highest fucking degree. No compromise. Have to do it on hard mode, its actually more fulfilling. Men used to go to war jesus Another point on the Gym : It;s not anywhere near as easy as i thought i was I said i made "crazy gains" But that was just the first couple months of muscle memory. Something I'm doing is off and i've platued I became way too cautious about "aesthetic proportion" which is important but, sometimes you just have to lift heavy for a bit to build a base, it's more about the way you do it overtime that matters and not targeting traps too much or widening the waist, but apart from that its quite hard to "overdo" lifting heavy because progress is slow and gradual. I have completely plateued, the main thing for me is losing body fat, thats the only final simple lever i have that will signidicantly raise my attractiveness and look and doesn't require years of training or steroids. 10-12% bodyfat simply force multiplies and exagerates any muscle you already have, even at 170 pounds. Annoying thing is i'm not gonna reach 180-185 pounds at 10-12% body fat for years, it takes fucking years unless I take PEDs. It takes like 2-3 years I never even realized this. I would've happily started this all at 20 but at 20 i dind't understand what it meant to build an optimized aesthetic physique, i just thought "lift eat a bit thats it". Good news is you dont need to max out your physique to stand out, but i want at least another 5 pounds of muscle, im relying on the pump too much, post real pump my whole body gains like 7 pounds of visual mass and loses about 3% of body fat & the veins swell out, i actually look incredible. Whats wild is that your post pump look now is actually like your real look naturally months later if you do everything right. Also post pump i virtually cheat code myself to 3-6 months later of lifting AND have this crazy enhanved vasculafrity asc if im already 1o% bodyfat, enhanced by NO, vasodilators & ideally sunlight too. But even on a cold day it still works because u have the plausible deniabliity of "I just came from the gym im not showing off", women respond viscerally to the post pump and they dont even know what it is.

An ENTP only becomes useful once he commits to and gets a firm, gorilla grip over Hard discipline, Te & Consistency. Without it, he either becomes an drug addict or in some cases, a crafty villain (relying on superior pattern recognition and creativity to scam, charm and manipulate people without any discipline or susbtance The only path for an ENTP is Te & Hard discipline Most of them probably never find it, or take like 35- 40 years to do it and by that point they're already fat af, married to the wrong woman, stuck with kids and debt. Te, Structure, brutal discipline, No Fap, early mornings, the gym, limited diets, little alcohol, planning, daily to do lists, checklists, google sheets, external organization, google calendar, multiple alarm clocks, reminders, daily visualization & affirmations, daily review, morning routine, strict phone and screen disicpline, schedulling, decisiveness.

Very false logical build up there "mike isratel didn't get attraction from women - therefore they dont respond to muscle" He's a stocky, 5"5 bulldog with no symmetry He doesn't train for aesthetics, his goal is always maximum hypertrophy and muscle possible without any regard for aesthetic proportion .. Mike is great for learning about muscle hypertrophy as a base but he isn't a role model for aesthetic balance. His face His Voice No style Nerdy, insecure vibe Yeah but hes not trying to be hot, he's trying to be dominant. It's about dominance and hyper masculinity. He's literally 210 -230 pounds, that would be way too big even on a 5"11 frame Looking good is about a mix of strength, dominance, balance, proportion, not being a juiced up IFBB pro body builder 230 pound bodybuilder You'd need to be at least like 6"3 for 230 pounds to look good but 175 - 190 pounds is the sweet spot for average height men, in 5"8 - 6"0 range. As for height, imo as long as you are at least 5"8 muscles do look great and are worth building My own expereince validates that women absolutely love muscles, I dont need to debate about it and it doesnt mean that I am overcompensating, feeback is giving me absolutely no reason to stop and only reasons to continue, just going to cap out at about 180-190 pounds at 10-12.5% body fat because my goal is to be hot not hyper masculinity Jiu-jitsu 240 pound gorilla dominance.

How could I overcome approach anxiety? How could I overcome dependence on approval? How could I remove that instinctive ego reaction to rejection, even if to soft rejection, even if I realized she wasn't even that attractive, even if I already have proof of concept i can get pretty girls, why does it still occur? Criminals, Mexican cartel members managed to desensitise themselves to the most extreme and gruesome forms of violence, and not all these guys were born psychopaths devoid of empathy, many are just made sociopaths, over time they stop feeling much for their victims of enemies. If a cartel criminal can desensitise himself to brutal torture, its beyond reasonable that a man can, with enough repetitions, become very desensitised and immune to losing frame, changing state, or becoming negative and passive after a "rejection", but the process isn't easy and is by necessity, emotionally brutal. That's the cost of gaining strength though.

10.11.25 Cold approach - 0 Saw a cute girl in gym made eye contact held it. Got in my head about approaching, i made it too big of a deal in my mind "it's the gym its ect.." (I've approached girls outside the gym and its gone really well before, theres no valid reason why approaching in the gym is actually forbidden, its not like spam approaching, there was an authentic look of interst from here she held the look, just fucking "hey you normally train here" or whatever, it not a big deal, anyway, i might see her again if we train similar hours) No Fap - Day 1 (3 faps in 2 days) Clean chicken - Day Gym - 1 Book writing - 0 Affirmations & Visualizations - Day Money > -$4 Mindset mood & state > 2 Protien bars caused sudden stomach reaction and fatigue > Lost dopamine > Fapped So i've got all the elements for success accept a couple things holding me back : Stomach problem still exists since june because i never solved at its root, i never had the patience to go 4-6 weeks 100% clean so it just never fixed, it will literally be a permanent issue for the rest of my life unless i go strict discipline, i will permanently be spending half my week with fatigue and brain fog and low dopamine, just for a fucking a mouth taste and some coffee. Caffiene addiction, both physical and psycholgoical especially and my lack of daily introspection & in denial ness trying to act like the problem will just solve itselvf complicates the whole issue - tired - forget to get my clean quality chicken - wake up, tired af no water ready, dehydrated, under nourished, go to make my instant coffee - instant coffee on an empty stomach - stomach issue sutbly giving me 20% more brain fog, fatigue ect. that subtle difference subtly impacts my day and i sutbly just start expeireicing bad luck or durping > durping leads me to get a protien bar out of convience, now its really flaring up, and now im less likely to approach too because im distracted, then i have to go home, then i get super tired then i crash, then i fap, now that causes negative placebo and guilt too, and then its jsut all a fuckig mess. So yeah, 1 fucking thing at a time man. I do not have bad health genetics like leo, i am extremely handsome and that is a symbol of great genes, but health is is never always genes, can give a gigachad poison he wont be healthy. ANywya, just eat very strict and im fine in 1-3 days i should feel back to my fullself with strict diet if i go 4-6 weeks strict > i may even be able to have a beer again, or a protien bar or some bread, and be fine, dont have to be 100% for life, discipline mf. fucking discipline. NO FAP DISCIPLINE (1) What can I eat ? Chicken, Turkey White FIsh White Rice (no sauce) Banana Small amounts of butter/Olive oil - possibly okay Water, Chamomile tea, Peppermint tea (2) NO MORE : Caffeine Protein bars Dairy / Milk Peanut Butter Beef Fruit Juice Honey / Maple syrup (3) 14 Day Stabilization : Shorter/Lighter Gym Sessions - No failure sets No Jogging or HIIT or punchbag - Only walking/incline treadmill No More Supplements & Creatine for 7 Days (4) Reintroduce heavier workouts after 14 days (5) No Fap 100 Day Streak starts NOW > From 10.11.25, Evening

09.11.25 : L Cold approaches - Zero > 1 big flinch, cute, 18-21 looking mixed race girl, pretty eyes, i made strong eye contact & she was looking at me back, looked cute & lonely but I was already getting off the train ... JUST GET BACK ON THE FUCKING TRAIN 2. Gym - goal was worked back Took too long in gym, wasn't filling a structured plan and wasted time, did some pointless shit chasing vanity pump with shoulders when i already did shoulders yesterday. Stick to the plan dont waste time. 3. Books & prolific writing : None yet 4. Health & Diet - Had a processed protien bar, stomach flare up, too much alcohol the last 1-2 weeks, I have brain fog and some fatigue due to stomach - inmediatley will be solved by chicken only diet for 6 weeks, my health genetics are gigachad tier just need to heal it 5. Affirmations & visualizations & te goals/projections - to do tonight 09.11.25 Cold approach - 0 No Fap - Day 6 Clean Chicken day - 0 Gym - 1 (but wasted time) Book writing - 0 Affirmations & Visualizations - Day 0 Money > -$$ Mindset mood & state > Bad, do affirmations UPDATE ^ Evening Fap - Impulsive explosion and fapped within about 5-10 seconds, Back to war. Day 100 Next.

Ripped, Rich, Cold Approach, Financial Freedom, Logistics, Rockstar Lifestyle Most rich guys are 140 IQ ISTJ Nerds hyper logical hyper organized efficient focused moderate to low sex drive introverts I'm a fucking ENTP who wants to fuck 3 times per day I'm not supposed to get rich But I have to I dont need millions now but I need to make good money travel and all this shit live my life RICH RIPPED & ROCKSTAR LIFESTYLE. I need Te, I need some fucking Te You cant get ripped without Te (And getting rich is much harder too)