Optimized Life

30.11.25 3 Faps in 2 days > 6 Day consecutive Sugar Binge ZERO Net profit & money/career progress for weeks - Complete stagnation. NO Guilt, No Shame, No negative self - talk. But no FAKE Positivity either, This is not a safe trend, this cannot continue, I am going cold turkey, I am not a moderation guy, I do not need sugar in my life, I do not need fapping, I dont even want these things. I want money, women, sex, fun relationships, vitality, success, gym, sunlight, fun. Sugar & Fapping & cheap dopamine are not part of this, they turn me into a weak, numb, boring lifeless bitch and I will not allow this trend to continue. Going full discipline mode. This sheets photo is my 6 day binge compressed into 3 days** (EXCEPT I very very likley have eaten WAY more calories and sugar than this - because the sheets only shows the chocolate wrappers I could find/remember in my room )

29-30.11.25 A NOTE on Guilt & Discipline. The deepest point for this Te Journal. GUILT PROLONGS BAD HABITS. So counterintuitive. I fell into a 5 day sugar binge BUT I WILL NOT HAVE ANY GUILT OR SHAME FOR IT. Guilt > Stress > Cravings Awareness is not Guilt Taking accountability is not guilt Changing direction is not guilt Swift reset requires NO GUILT Guilt takes u away from the solution and traps you I'm surprised Leo didn't mention this in his introspection video. Well he kinda did actually, was just less obvious at first glance Probably did not listen to that video enough times, there's many degrees to how seriously you take something & process it I suppose ALL GUILT COMES FROM FEAR Ultimately

When I do this type of thinking, you might THINK that I am just rambling on with common sense, "obviously". But the thing is that i realized recently. 99% of people, university eductaed or otherwise, "1st worlders" or otherwise. THEY DO NOT UNDERSTAND THE MOST BASIC THINGS. (And to a large extent, I PERSONALLY STILL DONT UNDERSTAND MANY BASIC THINGS) And that is responsible for 99% of all our problems and lack of successful living. What is alcohol, how bad is it, how bad is it relative to everything else Climate, weather, terrain - What type of climate is necessary and optimal for human happiness and peak health and hormones, universally? ... List goes on but POINT 2. 99% OF people world wide do NOT consciously acknowledge that SUNLIGHT, HIGH UV, and TROPICAL/SUB TROPICAL Climates Are extremely important for happiness, optimal health, and should be persued with 100% priority, to be achieved Year round, all year. 99% of people dont understand this, including mediterraeans. You might think : Mediterraens dont understand this why the fuck would you need to? Thing is, a lot of places in italy, spain, france are NOT hot year round, do not have 365 days of summer, do not always have the best climate. Madrid & north of spain has real winters. The idea of "Winter" and just accepting winter and seasons as normal is also arbitrary. WHY NOT JUST LIVE IN A PLACE WHERE ITS TROPICAL SUMMER YEAR ROUND. NO MORE SEASONAL DEPRESSION, NO DOPAMINE DEPLETION, NO MORE VITIMIN D PILLS. People think health is something they can create from gym or diet like nononononoho. Health from gym and diet ONLY works when u already live inthe right place, otherwise its just a coping stategy to have enough energy to survive another day. Climate is specific and precise and has many distinctions too. Saying "hot is good" requires some nuance. ^^ Canary islands in genral == VERY VERY GOOD PERFECT BALANCE MERIDA MEXICO = Very distinct form of climate and health - Deadly hot, humid, no shade, Extreme deadly levels of UV Distinctions, gradations, thresholds, Venezuela (on colombian boarder side) = manageable, better than a cold/grey country but on the unpleasant spectrum end And let me state my point again. People are very fucking smug about health and happiness, man dont get me fucking started on "health coaches" these days. Telling u to eat your fucking vegetables, and the guy looks like a pasty white snowface from iceland or SOMETHING like Bro ... u CANNNOT BE HEALTHY IF U LIVE IN FUCKIJNG ICELAND OR WALES U FUCKING DUMBASS. THE ENVIRONMENT BEATS DISCIPLINE. DISCIPLINE ONLY PAYS OFF LONG TERM WHEN U HAVE THE ENVRIONMENT TO BEGIN WITH.

The subtle skill of intuitive numerical prioritization. I have lost my mind today I can not write or think I need to numb myself with music Bht i feel like this title has somethign to it. Maybe im just a overthinking moron who loves to think and compare everything with such detail and nuance? (I dunno why my brain does this), "Just lift and eat, just quit sugar, just dont drink too much, simple bro, live your life" isn't bad advice and i envy guys like that. But, I dunno i just love the details. Like broad categorizations = "XYZ = Bad" "ABC = good" But what is WORSE, and by HOW MUCH IS IT WORSE How does X compare to Y How much worse is X to y How much more important is A to B ? Look U cant expect a perfect world where we all just workout and have sex and eat vegetables and do are routines. People will drink People will eat sugar, people will smoke, people will put heroin up thier but U cant just stop this. ANd merely saying "X is bad u bad boy dont do this dumbass" doesnt help too m8ch Peopl have traumas and financial stress and feel they need copes or whatever But what we can do is say WHAT ACTUALLY IS THIS THING? Alcohol .. WHAT THE FUCK IS IT? Alcohol vs sugar, whats worse? X amount of sugar vs y amoutn of alcohol whats worse? Mauybe im just a nerd i dunno I think this is useful, possibly not that useful for a personal sucess and life simplicity, but on a societal level or for educating others. UNDERSTANDING HOW MUCH MORE UNHEALTHY ALCOHOL IS COMPARED TO SUGAR IS INTERESTING AND USEFUL. Yes, simple, "just quit both" if that works for you great. P.s This is not a cope to condone sugar, i'm merely stating that it's likely useful in some unexpected way to compare sugar and alcohol and understand that alcohol is even worse for you, even though in general yes you SHOULD quit both. But also understanding that "quit sugar" can become a bit confusing and lack nuance .. Quit sugar when you're walking for 6 hours up a steep mountain in dessert heat carrying heavy loads? snickers is just what you need there nor is it unhealthy at all. But man like, everything comes from deep understanding, once u understand something enough u kinda can't lose honestly. For example, I cannot NOT eat 150 + gramsor protien per day now because i literally just know how much protien men at my weight are supposed to eat and KNOW that this = better face, better jaw, better hormones, more recovery, more strength ect.. and has fucking nothing to do with sports or bodybuilding. Another thing is NO ONE is perfect no matter how much you know. I will never have 365 days of clean no vice. But which vice my demoralised brain succumbs to on that particular moment in space time? That is unconsciously impacted by my level of learnt intuitive numerical prioritization. And this intuition can be dead wrong, so scientific education is important. ^^ NO FUCK THAT CONVICTION, NUANCE, CONFIDENCE, MASCULINE DECISIVENESS. THIS COMPARATIVE NUANCE IS FUCKING USEFUL ON A PERSONAL LEVEL. IT'S A USEFUL SIMPLE & OVERLOOKED SKILL/CURIOSITY (AND APPLIES TO ANY DOMAIN CONCIEVABLE). ... P.s I have to know now in vivid 4D detail how much worse alcohol is compared to sugar/other vices ... in 4D detail, how why its worse ramifications of this, the 20 side effects how u see it day to tday look at that guy, look at that demographic spot him on public transport look at him him vs mcdonalds no alcohol guy ect.. i have to know ACCURATE INTUITIVE NUMERICAL PRIORITIZATION. I HAD A FRIEND WHO HAD A GREAT BODY, HANDSOME (not for long), CHARASMATIC, CONFIDENT, WOULD GO "EWWWW" IF I BOUGHT A MCDONALDS CHEESEBURGER ON A FRIDAY NIGHT - THEN HE WOULD PROCEEED TO CHUG LIKE 2-3 BEERS IN 30 MINUTES. 2 Things were going on 1. Personal arrogance & sense of mascculine invinciblity against poison ("I'm built for this, I'm a tank, I can take it") 2. WRONG INTUITIVE NUMERICAL PRIORITIZATION. 3. Even though he was generally good looking, strong, young, virile ect.. I (as a highly visually observant detail oritented guy) could actually see his losing health in real time, I could see the subtle bags under his eyes and feel his comfort seeking sloppyness and delusion that he couldnt feel (and this is all subtle because im standing next to a lean, handsome 6 foot symmetrically faced dude with surface social confidence and charisma) .. all these subtle developing flaws would disappear fast if he just quit drinking and we aint friends no more, but i bet you he still does it. People are stubborn as hell with their vices and identities & blindspots , we all got them

29.11.25 No fap day 6 Money > $800 - $1000 Gym = 1 Diet -

I have to expand on my point again. The "Self Improvement Bubble". 1 of the main criticisms i have of leo is how smug he is about calling stuff "basic" "Handle the basics" "Escaping wage slavery/earning good income/losing weight ect.." But for 95% of the global population, NONE of these things are just "basic", they are essentially a lifelong losing battle. This is the harsh reality of the world. When u actually zoom out, u realize that NO ONE EARNS ENOUGH EVERYONE IS FAT (Or just unhealthy) EVERYONE IS LAZY (OR overworked/burnt out, or Hard working but paid nothing OR Hard working but doesnt work smart Or hard working but too uneducated/unskilled) NO MAN IS LEAN + JACKED EVERY MAN IS FAT (or emciated, or skinny fat, weak ect..) EVERYONE EATS GARBAGE EVERYONE IS ADDICTED TO LIKE 35 DIFFERENT THINGS EVERYONE IS GETTING A HORRIBLE DIVORCE/Gets cheated on/Dumped/heart broken Everyone is fucked by pollution NO ONE has freedom NO ONE can escape their patterns. EVERYONE IS ENSLAVED UNDERPAID UNDERVALUED. I am not saying all this to be negative, only to not take anything for granted. no matter how "basic" the achievement is. Life is war, can't take anything for granted. Moving country getting freedom earning great money great weather cold approach lifestyle decent work schedule free time gym body beautiful girlfriend, perfect stable pleasant weather safe city ect.. None of these things are basic 1 of these things ALONE is top 0.0000001% Fuck leos arrogance and smugness WHen u realize the rarity of something, u appreciate its value, u can't take it for granted, and u are willing to fight for it, with everything u got, every waking second of the day, every day until you got it.

AND OF THE RARE FEW GUYS U SEE THAT ARE ACTUALLY LEAN & JACKED - OVER 65% (up to 70-80% depending on location) OF THEM ARE ON STEROIDS!!! LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL SOCIETY IS A LIE !!!! ITS A FUCKNG SCAM HAHAHAHAHHA

28.11.25 I've just got caught in a 5 day sugar binge. I am stuck in bad momentum and not making money., I'm struggling to concentrate. And to cope i've been binging on sugar. I've eaten enough sugar to kill an elephant in the past 3 days. I feel like Elvis Presley dying on a toilet with a mars bar up his ass. This : 1. Goes against everything I stand for and my identity 2. Is undoing ALL THE WORK I have done for 6 MONTHS I had been getting ripped for months, walking more, gym, cardio, muscle. And i started to look incredible, I travelled on a trip and spanish women were eye fucking me constantly. And right now I am stuck with logistics, stuck not making money unable to concentrate, its got to my head, the frustration, and this fucking happened. I ate fucking 7 chocolates and a whole tub of ben and jerries today, and added sugar from protien shakes. I literally went YEARS without eating chocolate, I would see family eating it and look at it with repulsion like "why do people do this", I would turn away free chocolate at Christmas, my mum would leave chocolate bag in my room and Id just throw it away, zero temptation. It just fucking happens. Can be on no fap for years and then you're suddenly fapping 4 times a day. The odds are simply against you, you're not meant to win, life is a trap, 99% fall. THis is the crazy thing about life. It takes 100* less effort to undo everything you worked for. You can work for a decade and gamble it all in a month. You can get ripped for months and become addicted to sugar in a day. When I said life is war, I meant I fucking meant it.

Realizing how insanely rare personal growth and optimization is. For years, i have been extremely hard on myself. I am hard on myself for eating a chocolate or 2 in a day, even after 1-2 hours of exercize, eating 150-200 Grams of protien, walking, sunlight & a productive ect.. I am STILL hard on myself if i eat a chocolate or 2. Using chat GPT, Google workspace, google sheets, to learn things, apply knowledge/skills, or for external organization/tracking, is not intellectually complex, it's functionally free, and doesn't take more than a week or less to learn, however it is extremely rare, almost no one does it. Most men -most men use technology to watch political podcasts that complain about policies and society (complete fucking waste of time & life force), this does absolutely nothing for them, changes nothing, doesnt even change society at all. Most men listen to Hasanabi rant about how Jeff bezos is a rich bastard, ironically paying hasanabi that stinky sloth to get paid 5 million a year to sit around all day and blabber. Being jacked and low body fat when you're in an american self improvement bubble can sound "basic and too common" - "everyone goes to the gym bro heard it all before" .. Yeah, sure. but 1. How many people KEEP going to the gym? 2. How many people who go to the gym actually look good, have good posture, are not fat and doing dirty bulk, actually use correct form and take care of their joints, also do cardio/walk ? 3. How many people who go gym actually eat enough protein? 4. How many people who go gym even hydrate much ? 5. And even of the small % of guys who do go to the gym & half do it properlly, how many of those do not go home after the gym and sloth around for 4 hours staring at tiktok? And then people in the self development niche casually talk about "grass fed organic beef" like this this is just standard? Dude ... 90% of the population aren't even eat protein to being with. I dunno why i'm saying all this, but sometimes I'm a bit too hard on myself, when u actually consider what the average person is truly like. The average man has NEVER day approached a single woman in his life sober, and never will. He will simply not do it. He will not ever have the bools to do it, it's too counterintuive, he'll be 45 and wont do it. That isn't to say its needed to "find a mate" (lol that expression is so fucking gay) yeah anyone can fucking accidentally "find a mate" its not hard. But he aint having an abundant, adventerous dating life throughout his life, he'll just "find a mate" (a 4-5.5/10 with zero curves & femininity), sex will dry up after couple years (and she was always ugly af anyway), even the passive guys who do end up with a 6.5-7+ (e.g if they're rich or something) STILL end up with dry sex, low quantity sex, and a stale functional relationship with no passion. THIS is 95% of all men. The average man disgusts me, I don't even wanna look or think about him anymore.

This meta theme genuinely makes me ANGRY AF. U do not understand. This is not about studying plant bacteria with a microscope. I'm talking about the most basic fucking things. 99% of men do not realizes that the average man needs literally 150-200 Grams of protien, ideally 200 grams ... and this has NOTHING TO DO WITH BOYDBUILDING. JUST FOR FUNCTIONING SKIN, HAIR, HORMONES ECT.. U NEED 170 - 200 GRAMS OF PROTIEN, EVERY SINGLE DAY. Jesus christ. Fuck!!!! Dude ALL THAT FUCKING TIME IN SCHOOL, AND THEY DIDN'T EVEN TELL YOU THIS. WHAT THE FUCK. WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK................................DUDEEEEEEEEEEEE DUEEEE DUDE DUDE DUDE FCUKKKKKKKKKKKJ FUCK FUKC FUCK FUKC . WHAT THE FUCK! Who has a father who would make u wait hours to eat, then give u some sloppy big bowl of pasta and tomato sauce, with like a bit of fish or chicken or something that probably has like 30-50 grams of protien, at best. This is what the average male has for the first 20 years of his life, then he still maintains this stupid comfort eating habits for ... for life and he passes it on to his children. And NO WONDER so many people need 3 coca - colas and 4 chocolate every day, and mcdonalds because they're tryna compensate, its not inherently lack of discipline, genuine malnourishment. Society is mostly a lie, society is an ignorant scam and a lie. Forget food quality! Forget organic, forget microplastics and all this low priority bullshit, bro, we're not even close to advanced enough to even think about that shit yet, we're literally a fucking chronically malnourished population. And it's the fucking boomers especially who still arent getting this. Why are boomers especially so fucking stupid? They're honestly so useless & clueless. Fuck boomers. Ignorant fucking chimps. And if anyone blames it on poverty ... Dude Nooo, High quality protein is expensive but ... the 1st priority is lack of nutrient deficiency, and you can get tins of fish for virtually nothing, parents and boomers have no fucking excuse. Literally chronic child abuse from neglectful chrnoic malnourishment, this should be a criminal fucking offence.

God Forgive Me. God forgive all the times I quit : God forgive all the times I self - sabotaged an inch away from success God forgvie all the times I flinched, forgive all the times I hesitated God forgive all my weakness God forgive my ignorance God forgive my stereotyping God forgive my misdirected anger God forgive all the times I pussied out God forgive all the times I folded God forgive all the money I lost working so hard to save just to piss it all away God forgive all my pain & all my misery God forgive my upbringing, god forgive my fathers discouragement and mockery God forgive my family for giving me no education & no nutrients God forgive those I just can't seem to forgive God forgive all my vengeance and bitterness God forgive my trauma god forgive all the times I was stuck all the times I isolated myself God forgive all my failures God forgive all the times I ran away and hid from my potential God forgive all the times I doubted myself. God I will not let you down, God I'll Turn it all around, God I'll make every day fucking count like its my last.

I'm not used to Spirituality as a topic or talking about it so not sure if this idea will make sense or im just blabbering, i havent slept much due to travel/logsitics the 2-3 days & have a lot of internal stress right now : "Self biased, Individualised "shallow" spirituality still significantly makes the world a better place collectively Meditating & body awareness - so that u dont fold under pressure / Or to be more present approaching women Giving positive energy and being in better moods as a baseline (for your selfish agenda so people and women like you, and women are more likely to fuck you) The intention might be "selfish", but the result is a hell of a lot better than being some bitter, stressed out anxious angry guy - Its not only that you get laid less, but you spread that fucking energy around to other people. Now, another key thing is - I might sound hypocritical "bro i bet you get stressed angry in real life, u even sound that way when writing some times" 1. I'm a human not a robot 2. It's a difficult process that requires persistance 3. It's never about being 100% perfect monk, merely spreading awareness and journalling this awareness now will probably subconsicously shift my baseline energy by 2-5%, or signidfincalty more over tie if this awareness & accountavility sets of a momentum that leads to me becoming a completely different guy, and THE ENTIRE TIME, THE ONLY REASON IM DOING IT .. IS TO GET LAID MORE LOL. And i think thats a GOOD thing. Use selfish taboo agendas to become less of the bad guy.

18.11.25 (Belated post) Cold Approaches = 2 Key flinches = 2 Gym - walking No Fap : Day 8 Book Writing = 0 Affirmations & Visualization = 0 Diet : Cheated & ate junk due to transport hunger Key FLinch Key flinches (Strong IOI from hot women who are my exact type)

I reckon Chat GPt will not upgrade the brains of 99% of men because they're simply just not interested in growing and learning new things. It's really hard to explain because im not doing anything particurly smart or complex other than I have an insatiable curiosity to understand anything and everything practical and relevant to myself and society. I am becoming so god dam intelligent and the only limit really now is aging and my inevitable cognitive decline since yeah obviously every man decays eventually, physically cognitively hormonally. But I'm getting towards a hollistic peak and hopefully will be able to ride it out for at least 20 years if im lucky and look after myself. Only regret is this thing dind't blossom 5-10 years earlier. Curious ambitious guys like me who are 18-22 Now need to acknolwedge how lucky they are ... before u had to read fucking books, and still it was 1000X less effective and often didn't really work. Books rarely worked for me, AI is simply 1000 Faster and more direct and practical than 99% of all books combined. I'm not anti books but they have very specific and niche usecases which often arent needed, sometimes I do read books but its normally an intellectual curisoity and not pragmatic, and the real world is pragmatic. Chat GPT is great for the "Stage Yellow" thing too (I dont use SD labels or condone it) but I know the general theme. Chat GPT often might technically jsut repeat back to u what u already know or suspect (e.g about society) > But the way it does it is its kind of like, its kind of like how lifting over time builds denser muscle maturity (not just bulk), accept it deepens and carves your understanding of the depth of societies problems and how fucked society is, before you just "kinda knew", know you really fucking know it. And this is practial because you're in a society and you're an impressoinable social being and so this "knowing" helps you personally, and of course it makes u a better leader. Ohhh and forgot to mention just simply the hard nosed, functional pragmatic side of it too. Like "I have X budget, I want to get a tan, find me a place I can get a tan in X days where there's High UVB between 5-9" & good weather for X budget ect.. and it just does it

The American Sloth There's a few ways to learn to read and build mental modal of differnt archetypes and characters you'll meet, but id say the obvious one is just travel, meet thousands of people for months or years. The American Sloth Travelling gave me an inution of this type because not all americans are sloths and not all rich/well educated people with good childhoods are sloths either and sometimes they become hyper efficient killers who take nothing for granted. But I do believe the American Sloth is like a specific archetype that I will keep meeting, and just this 1 specific guy i met made me think of this. It's just like Everything about him, his voice, the way he spoke, his energy, his accent, his body, his subtly fat face, him "not approaching or risking it with women abroad because he has GF back home" (Sloth Cope) Hard to articulate but i just felt the slothyness inmediatley. He didn't feel like a man to me, he was like a Factory farmed New York Sloth, mickey mouse sloth inc. No substance to him, no trauma, no pain, no struggle, no dawg, no personality no risk. No dreams. Just an easy, "fun" american slothy life. He was unbearable, but next time i'll be able to spot them quicker and avoid them

17.11.25 Cold Approach - TBC No Fap - Day 7 Gym - 1 > Triceps (Skullcrushers & Seated DB overhead twists), Moderate chest (Incline DB BP 14KG*2), Lateral delts (mostly 12KG & bit of 14KG), Front delts (12-14KG), small sets of back delts, kneeling horizontal raises 6-8KG 1-2 short sets. Legs > Leg press, Maxed out at 235 PBs, 4 sets total, 12-14 reps & 6 reps max at 235pb, Walking *3 today Book writing - Affirmations & Visualizations - Money - Expenses - $250 Diet : 1. Afternoon Stomach reaction > Causes > Coffee, Dairy, Eggs, 2. New structure > MPS, 3-4 Meals per day at 40-50G Protien per meal (200G Cooked chicken leg, 270G Raw)

This was sloppy writing. I shouldnt have included the word "sexual". What i meant was approaching, flirting, leading her, her smiliing, giving her contact, meeting again, maybe following into your (or he) place. Maybe synced dancing and some escalation touch too. But actual vivid sexual imagery isn't good, it focues on the outcome and creates a porn loop. U cant control the outcome or sex only the inputs, like approaching and being present, so its dumb to visualize actual sex. Similar with affirmations. Better to say "I act decisively every day, and go after what I want without with extreme confidence" Then "I am a millionaire" - It's stupid and your brain doesnt even believe that. "Abundance of money flows to me because I am a results machine" much better because it's proactive and emergent Understanding affirmations isn't that complicated but it still is a niche skill, and most people dont take a few days or a week to learn it properly. Theres the base structure of how to say it. But then theres also the intuition of what words specifically hit your nervous system, which is individualized. There's even how u say it to yourself which is hypnosis/tonality training ect.. public speakers are intuitvely good at this. And to properly understand it imo it does take days/weeks. Because there's a difference slightly between just writing 5 correctly structured affirmations to repeat vs genuinely understanding it. I'm not sure why but I remember 4 years ago hopelessly saying shit like "I'm a fucking millionaire, im rich" and saying shit like that with a needy, entitled and impatient tone, it just doesnt work, because I wasn't focusing on inputs, and I didn't fundamentally understand the linguistic psychology of affirmations. Learning affrimations lke i said, its not rocket science or hard to grasp, merely that its one of those things that almost no bothers to grasp proprely, but when u grasp it imo, it unlocks a portal of understanding that branches into marketing, psychology, linguistics. Affirmations, lingusitics, marketing, hypnosis, persuasion, "Power words", self talk, subconscious mind, programming, music all connected I am not an expert at all, i still want a deeper understanidng. I give myself another week of study and practice. I dunno who remembers Leo shilling his subconious mind course lol. Well I already believe I half figured out how to reprogram yourself deeply for anything anyway. I had insights about it in the last few months. Obviously i still have to take action on it, cement it in my mind, memory and mental prioritees fade without focus, but I did have some pragmatic insights about it months ago, but need to apply it and structure it now

Structure makes chaos sexy I dont cut my hair anymore, im growing it as long as possible for 1-2 years, no fades no haircuts But i now Sculpt every 6-10 weeks This provides structure and prevents frizz Without it, it will grow into uneven chaos A guitarist can play around and improvise, but only because he learnt the rules enough to effectively break them (most frequent chords, scales, major vs minor, arpeggios ect.), we all know the sound of a silly kid bashing around a guitar and it sounds awful and cringe, because there is no structure When Gym is structured, your mind is more free, you feel more confident & decisive of what, when where you workout - This frees your mind to act spontaneously and decisively, or to be more social

What Affirmations are .. Affirmations and Marketing If u cant even convince yourself, why would you try with others? 2. Affirmations is actually a technical & linguistically advanced technique. Its emoting to language & crafting emotive language in order to convince yourself of something, with a punchy and impactful tone and a concise structure.

16.11.25 Cold Approach - 0 / didn't go out and had a huge nap at 6PM No Fap - Day 6 Gym - Walking Book writing - 0 Affirmations & Visualizations - 1 Money - ? Diet - ?

Its not just sugar, its carbs in general too. I got the wrong idea about carbs again, im so fucking stupid. I got this idea that you need to carb load all day and before/after gym some reason. This isn't necessary. There's a modest amount of Net carbs you body needs daily ... and thats it. Dont need huge carbs before or after gym. Actually will look better to have a carb meal in morning (say u workout evening), less puffy, leaner drier. And that carb meal should just be automated to be the exact amount your body needs for health and nothing more, no less no more. I've been making my life harder than it needs to be. Simplified nutrition and eating is NOT low quality living, its higher quality. It saves mental energy and cognitive load on what u really care about. If I truly had it my way I wouldnt even eat food, i'd just press a button instantly for all the nutrients to fill my body (Resteraunt is obviously completely different but thats about the immersive social experience not eating itself).

This sentence is not linguistically precise and slightly misleading. You should work traps, You should do compound movements Not sure why i used such a generalized word like "compound" as if thats inherently anti aesthetics.. that was dumb. You need both compound and isolation, and compound is the foundation, even simple incline pushups are "compound". Use of the word hypertrophic as a negative there was misplaced Its just about not overdoing them or targeting traps like you're mike tyson. Traps naturally get built by doing the other stuff to an extent anyway and thats a good thing. Squats bench press ect.. none of these are bad But theres some complexity Bench press is good but should go 60:40 or 70:30(?) towards upper chest exercises, so lean more working upper chest Squats i mostly dont bother with because i hate them and i prefer just simple leg press but if i really wanted the full rounded leg aesthetic i should probably incorporate something else - Bulgarian Split squats maybe? Deadlifts can be good for T boost or just adding systemic muscle gain momentum ect.. but i have heard that they can cause posture issues and they look scary to me so i dont bother If all you do is heavy deadlifts and squats all day for years you will eventually look like a powerlifting monster But then if you're a true tall lanky ectomorph? That might be the exact thing you need since you're problem is different. But yeah, I avoid working the obliques since it seems to have little aesthetic value Again, my knowledge and how I use language especially to describe my "knowledge" is constantly being remodled. This is the issue with language and human knowledge full stop, almost everyone is constantly fulll of shit. ... but also foundations for aesthetic physqiue are pretty cemented in stone now : V taper, Wider shoulders narrow waist Prioritize Triceps, lateral delts, chest, lats Triceps > Biceps Upper chest > mid/lower chest (but do everything) 1G of protien per pound of body weight >> 150-200G Protien per day MPS - 3-4 Protien meals per day, at 40-50 Gram of protien each meal > 3-4 meals per day instead of giant meal keeps growth signalling high throughout the day and gives a more stable energy, also enhances fullness in key muscles and your overall look over time. Use repeatable meal & macro-nutrient structure & caloric intake > minimize mental fatigue and automate Low body fat amplifies physique > 10 - 12.5% ideal, 12-14% is decent Dont neglect legs Post pump look is how you're body will look normally in 2-3 months? Carbs are important for gaining size(No well obv everytrhing matters within a quantified range mathetmatical balance) & this is likely unavoidable, carnivore diet wont suffice, but maybe for maintenance it could work. Dont neglect posture work & walking Dont neglect forearms Low bodyfat + Tan makes body pop especially Skull Crushers, incline dumbell BP, leg press, lat pull machine, incline pushups, diamond pushups = my favourite so far

15.11.25 Cold approach - 0 (2 HESITATIONS, clear signals from 2 cute young women, hesitated .. actually 3-4 signals because another 2 women were staring at me post gym, but I was waiting for this other chick, she came out but walked fast it was dark i intented to form an approach but just yeah that first second of hesitation, i messed it up but i'll very likely see her again) I'm very disappointed with yesterday but at least my aura is radiating, women want me to approach, gotta get fucking moving, momentum. No Fap - Day 5 Gym - 1 (Triceps, Lats, moderate chest, Calf raises) Book writing - 0 Affirmations & Visualizations - Day 0 - i will not skip this again Money > Expenses only Diet - OK but too much general carbs Update - "No Sugar Day" - now tracke daily > includes all fruit juice, honey, "dark chocolate" (<90%) & chocolate, NO MORE SUGAR, WAY TO ADDICTIVE, CHEAP & FUCKS UP YOUR BODY INMEDIATELY Alcohol, sugar, fruit juice, diet soda, disrupted sleep ... the gradual slip & justifying it I have been chugging fruit juice for like 1-2 months and somehow justifying it because its "nutritious sugar" & "Its fine because of gym" This is not healthy I have also randomly started eating this specfiic energy chocolate bar, i've probably 12-15 of them in the past 3 weeks if i add it all up, because at the time its "just 1 bar, you've earnt it, quick energy for cardio" and all this nonsense. Boost, snickers marsbar, fuck i had like 2 snickers yesterday morning too WTF It always happens when you're underfed and waiting somewhere theres a vending machine. The threat is the misunderstanding. I dont even lack discipline, i somehow unconsciously convined myself that fruit juice is fine, maybe even necessary with exercise. It's not, it puffs your face and dulls your skin, it leads to a crash, insulin. Its not healthy, fruit juice junk, worse than a mcdonalds cheeseburger, much much worse. Mcdonalds cheeseburger literally is beef, low quality sure but, its not liquid poison. A banana is good but thats not the same as a smoothie, it has its fibre intact, and still you shouldn't eat 15 bananas at once (which is basically what fruit juice is but with much higher GI fruits like oranges, and stripped of all their fibre) So no im done with this justifying phase. And 1 slip always seems to increase other ones subtly U start with fruit juice before gym then you're randomly drinking a bit more beer, then u start eating snickers because without realizing you're hooked on added sugar and it just hits you now. I used to find chocolate gross and now suddenly i'm wanting it a bit ... SUGAR & DIET IS BEING RE - PRIORITIZED IN TE JOURNAL. ALL ADDED SUGAR TAKES MY POWER AWAY, SUBTLY MAKES ME NAUTIOUS & IRRITATES MY STOMACH, THAT IS NOT "ENJOYING LIFE" & MODERATION IS REALLY A LIE. YEAH U CAN INDULGE HERE AND THERE, BUT THE ISSUE WITH "MODERATION" INDULGENCE IS IT BECOMES A PATTERN, NEGATIVE MOMENTUM IS A BRTUAL

"GUY WHO FUCKS" ENERGY DOESNT COME FROM LAY COUNT, ONLY VIBE. U CAN BE A VIRGIN AND GIVE OFF THIS ENERGY. THE ACTUAL TRUTH IN LIFE DOESNT MATTER AND NOBODOY KNOWS OR CARES, ONLY THE ENERGY WHICH U SELF GENERATE. (When done from the right frame/intention*) Vivid sexual visualisation strengthens dominance - (Not Neediness). Most men are so ashamed and sexually repressed that they cant even do an exercise like this without cringing (I was the same), forget even flirting with women lol, u too ashamed to even to do it privately in your own head, fucking thought police!

I THINK THIS IS GOING TO BE A GOOD ONE I AM NOT SANE OR WELL TODAY SO VERBAL FLUIDTY WILL PROBABLY BE ROUGH & PATCHY I MAY NEED A NAP BEFORE I CAN THINK & WRITE THIS PROPERLLY, BUT LET ME JUST TRY RIGHT FUCKING NOW. Leos' introspection video might be the best & most important philosophical work that has ever been done in recent history, by a very clear margin. I didn't quite get it at first, I only "got it" Now i dont just mean that for myself practically, pratically, in vivo I'm still really struggling with it, (which connects precisely back to the theme of that masterpiece and why its precisely so important and why it could be drilled over and fucking over again). And side point, Ironically I sense many of leos opinions or views to either be deluded or just biased to his personality/culture. But ignoring leos personal hypocrisy (which its existence AGAIN highlihgts exactly why the topic is so endlessly important) there's few things from a meta view that could be so 100% correct and relevant and important. (I have fucked up my neurotransmitters again recently and having gut reaction so i am simply struggling here) GOATIS *(Youtube channel) Gd points > should be out in nature, should limit processed foods & grains, try to be in sunlight, eat good quality meat. having children are important for many people and ideally you dont wait around just for children. ... Now thats ALL that i have gotten form him thats good, ALLL. Goatis is relatively intelligent, slightly, maybe like 107-112 IQ or something NOO that was wrong of me too say lol, hes A FUCKING WHACKJOB But he doesn't seem that self aware at all, he's also extremely sure of himself and his repetitive opinions, and seems extremely intellectually arrogant. 1. Goatis is like German or something? ^ Very privileged country with huge economy, high paying jobs, high minimum wage, huge state benefits and funding, stable weather, highly educated, everyone english fluent from day 1. Now those factors dont automatically make him biased or arrogantly privileged and smug, but once you listen to him enough you understand why it doesnt help. 2. Goatis says shit like "money doesnt exist you slave" and "you should have as many children as young as possible otherwise you're a loser ect.." Dude ... do you think most men in the modern world have the fucking choice to casually have 5 children by 25? are you fucking serious, its hard enough just to exist and pay rent. Fucking hell man this guy is a POS. Most people have almost no choice about what weather or climate they inhabit, whether they get to work or not, and if they ever do get a choice over it, its only due to going through the system and slaving through it (being a more productive or intelligent / socially competent slave than the rest), thats just how it is, but to Goatis its just "everyones a normie slave, just go to the jungle bro". 3. Goatis talks about happiness a lot and makes critical videos of other content creators who claim to be winning but "dont look happy" & he sees through their bs ... And funnily enough, he actually may often be right here, so he is showing some critical thinking ... but also ARE U HAPPY GOATIS? BECAUSE I DONT GET THAT VIBE FROM YOU, IN FACT its actually painful to listen to goatis just from his vibe, even though he's having children, eating raw meat, getting sunlight, clean of all processed foods ... does that automatically make him happier than some fat woman who enjoys her beer and lives in a cold city in eastern europe? Absolutely no not necessarily (not saying diet climate ect.. arent important factors) but still, theres people in cold grey ass countries who just eat whatever and have a way more happier and attractive vibe than him JUST LOOK AT HIS VIBE, HIS VIBE IS SO LIFELESS. ALSO WHY IS HE MAKING SO MANY VIDEOS CALLING OTHER PEOPLE LOSERS? WHAT KIND OF HAPPY WINNER WOULD DO THAT? He also doesn't look healthy and looks very skinny, he also has literally zero charisma or energy. He also critiques absolutely anything unatural and, there is some utility to this, I personally love some sunlight and the woods ect.. but he's still locked into an identity, he still just constantly blabbers on and repeats his views. ALl cities are bad to him, all cities automatically make people unhappy becuase anything that doesn't 100% mimic huntergather society and environment is automatically bad to him. Imagine being such a lame ass dude like him constantly trying to spread the same opinions on youtube, and using you're braindead follower fans petty adsense to fund you're boring woods & family lifestyle while claiming that money doesn't exist and calling all his fans slaves (despite the fact that literally his fans slave jobs funding the electricity, phone bills, computers, and extortionate rents that allow them to sit and watch his videos or find him in the firs tplace so that they end up buying his b.s is exactly what funds his "natural freedom") There seems to be nothing human about this guy despite his entire philosophy and ethos revolving around Natural living, its so ironic. I'm actually embarassed that im even taking this guy seriously enough to write a long critique of him, lets be clear, this guy is 100% a complete whackjob, he literally has the vibe of someone with severe CTE, he is not happy, he is not mentallystable, there is something very wrong with this guy and my intuition after hearing him for 5 minutes is enough with this one, I normally give people the benefit of the doubt, and while he does have some good points, its the place its comign from, yes modern life is unhealthy and yes we need nature ect.. but anyone can say that, hes a depressing, boring nutjob with no personality or actual skills/value, his only value is stating the obvious that nature and nutritious food is important, well fucking done u fucking egg head .. ANother random point about leo at his best "Pedophillia outrage has become the modern witch trials in this Epstien era" Conversation I had with 2 uni girls couple years ago ..eads to ohh "my high school teacher he was a pedophile" ... I say "really, how do u know?" .. she says "i just know he was" What she actually means - He had a quirky personality, and without any feint crumb of evidence, let alone hard verified evidence, she has out of pure boredom and modern trend riding brain rot, decided to casually commit criminal defamation on a underpaid public service worker and finds that funny.