Optimized Life

Philosophies of rewards, reward timing, and Dwayne Johnson's Widsom. Dwayne johnson's pizza/ice cream day Why daily micro junk is pointless (worst of both worlds) Why MASSIVE Junk days are worth it, necessary, and there simply is no point having any other type of reward. The inability of humans to mode - switch The danger of habit formation The motivational visionary power of MASSIVE OBESITY Junk Day for losing weight/getting ripped ect.. Best of both worlds - Build delayed gratification, and get to REALLY enjoy that junk day. "1 chocoalte" per day is for losers. Alex hormozi is a fucking loser. Junk Food is calorie DENSE, Nutritionally empty It's the inverse of chicken, which is low calories, high protein. But Junk food is often Calorie Dense, but not satisfaction dense. There is satisfaction, I love junk food. But to love it, I need to eat a fuck ton of it, with zero restraint, for as long as I want, until I am sick. This is how it should be treated. You dont eat it for a month, or a week. Then you eat it until you're sick. Not literally sick. I just mean > Massive Pizza with huge amount of sauces & cheese, hot, creamy, cheesey dough, Massive amount of ice cream and 1/2 box of Lindor chocolate, maybe a video game binge for 4 hours or something too, i dunno, get a blow job high on something? Otherwise what's the fucking point? I had 1 chocolate today as a "reward" for my restraint this week. It had 200 calories. A small chocolate. I felt absolutely nothing, it was too short, no satisfaction. Whereas dairy/meat products can have 200 calories and taste decent and have like 30+ grams of protien in it So you go all the way. You dont half ass your rewards.

15.12.25 Emtotions Te Afternoon 15.12.25 How deep is my pain 10/10 How strong is my regret 10/10 How deep is my rage 10/10 How bad do I want it 10/10 Creative ability 11/10 Underused creativity 11/10 Financial debt 10/10 Stress 10/10 Not the most efficient Not the smoothest Full of talent, handsome af, charasmatic af, energetic 10/10, testosterone 10/10 Talent 10/10 Rarirty level 1/100000000000000000 But with that comes with immense pressure & frustration With that comes with the deepest pain mentally Fumbled a 10/10 in every regret never dies can't find her again 8 billion people in the world cant get over it 10/10 in my specific way, idosyncratic-hollistically physical/spiritual not merely symmetry or curves Wanna kill myself 10/10 Strenght of my pain 10/10 Still not drinking STill not eating 10/10 Wanna kill a man 10/10 Never forgiving anyone ruthless 10/10 SUccess is the only revenge 11/10 Don't give a fucking shit what anyone thinks anymore 11/10 DOnt wanna be liked by anyone any more or be nice anymore only wanna fight the world 10/10 Wanna kill my best friend who fucked me over & betrayed me 10/10 wanna go to war 10/10 Need a million dollars so bad 10/10 Need a 10/10 jsut to get revenge on myself & the world 10/10 Insanity level 10/10 You dont wanna be me You dont wan tthis pressure

15.12.25 1. To do list 2. Follow to do list 3. Top 3 prioritees Logistics setup Remote career setup List everything online to sell Decide set date for moving - fuck realism, have a specific date & a goal > everything framed around that challenge, need to push Learning, Growth & Practice this week Boldness & noticing + conquering Fear Decisiveness & Rapid, Massive Action (No theory loops, no hesitation) Sticking to core priorities list, following tasks rapidly, having structure Growth & Learning tools : Understanding fear part 1 - Act.org Discussion about Boldness with Chat GPT Introspection - Act.org Reprogramming, Visualization, Self Talk - Writing down + audio recording affirmations & repeating every morning & night

15.12.25 Sleep (last night) - 2AM Cortisol, racing heart wakeup (in hell for 1-2 hours) > but, I manged to fall back asleep at about 4AM, and woke up around 8:30AM, but some of that was snoozing So i managed to sleep 6-8 hours, this is good, I dont have chronic insomnia. To remove this cortisol wakeup pattern i need a way to manage stress and remove micro-monitoring with sleep, I need to condition my bed to be associated with relaxation. My mental health is 1/10, i dont care a shit, I just need the money and logistics. I'm leaning much more towards bold & disprespectful energy now, I'm going to be as disrespectful as possible without breaking the law (unless It makes me money & i can get away with it I'll scam some rich mfs), just considering the only succesful people I ever knew were dicks, sometimes boredline psychopaths. When i approach a woman for example, my energy will be very calm and positive, and if she's not clearly interested from her body language i just leave (obviously thats basic social awareness not "respect"). But if i sense even a fragment of interest, I'm going for number close always, when i'm in "MUST BE RESPECTFUL" mode i tend to often not even close, its so stupid but its bad conditioning. So yeah, "Disrespect", dont a give shit what anyone thinks, bold warrior enery, like a wild bull in musth.

14.12.25 Tonight I watched leos video "how to get shit done" (again) As i listened to it it actually really hurt my stomach ... like I know im not enough of a results maker, I know im still too slow. Sub tropical logistics sub tropics online money stability ect.. When is it going to happen? Regrounding this journal to the purpose. 11% bodyfat is cool but its not the top priority, not enough on its own. Logistics really beats looks every time. Have to fight for logistics, Leo calls it projects, I just call it WAR, there are multiple wars to fight, but this is my major one. Big results by next sunday, or i delet my account.

14.12.25 Gym 1 - Biceps, shoulders all sides Cold Approach 1 - Local gym girl > Approached outside. Regret - Didn't number close, wasn't present or calm enough & within a micro second was subconsciously playing it safe "let it unfold naturally". Regret this, I've already shown my cards so better to just close, I have not been approaching recently and yeah, I've lost it, but I did approach. Decision > Going to "Front-load" aggression cold approach again, even before i get good logistics & change location. This is for spiritual and masculinity reasons, I have to do it now. Front loading 3 things - Money cold approach & 11% bodyfat. All together and all feed into each other, without cold approach I lose morale and might as well just drink beer and eat pizza, Front - loading being an actual man and human being and connecting with women, whether I'm broke or not, who gives a shit will die either way. Floss Yes Money like fucking Net $15-30, was supposed to make $130 but doing a stupid niche leech hustle & its brutal. Creativity and intellectual business Te - Been rewatching some of Leos classic blog videos at the gym about business, creativity, other interesting videos like introspection ect... I'm the type of guy who can watch any random video of leos & find a business insight from it, some reason im oddly more interested in that, I like to find ideas unexpected. Sleep 4-6 hours yesterday. Emotional Te - Severe pain & rage & anger & hurt. Decided not to repress it, decided not to fold, decided not to hide it either, felt into it, let the pain sink, people say "be happy", I say sometimes, be way more sad, be extremely sad, get fucking angry af, no comfort no stillness drive doesnt come from bland neutrality. But as i eased into my workout, surrounded by some nice fit women and milfs too, I the pain started to sink deeper into me, jitteryness alchmeized into emotional integration .. I dont know what id be without the gym in these moments. STILL THE EARLY EVENING WHAT DO I CREATE NOW BITCH, WHAT DO I CREATE, WHAT DO I MAKE

14.12.25 What will I do and create today/this week I am too stressed & emotionally broken for optimal structure or whatever, i will be in choas either way I can only embrace this But there must be a meta boundary WHAT IS THE CORE FOCUS Work from there To do list Non negotiables Targets today Specific Success Affrimations & visualization Have to now even do affirmations that i will sleep deep & 7+ Hours THen chaos c an happen but must refer back to the task list over and over again I accept there is war, I accept life is war, I will not drink, I will not eat the chocolate, I will not eat the sugar I will not pretend to be ok, I will not be fake, I will not repress my emotions or do a fake smile But I will not numb my pain either I will work like hell anyway I will not give up

Ok so personally 3 hours, 5 hours, 6 hours, broke whatever I DO NOT GIVE A FUCK I STILL WANT TO TWORK I'm not a pussy It's just AI told me that I need to "break the stress loop" Is it right? Well u have to think for yourself in life But it has some valid points People do mentally burn themselves out oncstantly But i mean, look at what jocko willink did, FOR 6-12 MONTHS I can't stop I can't stop losing bodyfat I cant stop the gym I cant stop working hard I can't stop obsessing about moving to a sub tropical beautiful island with no stress and no competition and sexy women and mountains and no winters. But what i must do 1. Max 200-230MG cafffiene 2. No Caffiene (no coke zero no chocolate) after 12AM 3. STOP working at 9PM 4. STOP thinking at 9PM 5. Forget everything at 9PM. Let go of all my dreams, all my pain, the times I made the wrong bets in business, all the money ki made and lost, the fact I have no money Let it all fucking go It all has to go by 9PM Then i have a fighting chance of sleep Another thing is that I have to narrow down and focus right now, I am not rested enough to juggle 6 different variables. No actor voice training, that can wait. 11% BF challenge stays because : I'm already in momentum I've already built up the skill of - intuitively or just brute rough memorization knowing the calories/protien ect.. content of any type of food and have a rhythym with it It's not very cognitively complex But because of lack of sleep - I should go easy on hard defecit and move up to a light-moderate defecit and just add more walks. Key principle i derived this week (I am too tired to give a fuck and be petty and hoard this because "I need this secret info in a book i'll write" : 1 no one gives a fuck about me on here anyway and this is a tiny niche segment of an already niche forum) Front - loaded Aggression & Early Start Momentum Principle : It's counter-intuitive to front load agression whenver you start a challenge or new domain Most people front load with ease & moderation, they do it in reverse, and never make true progress This is essentially a rewording of the principle of "Momentum" itself, but whats beautiful about this principle is its a blueprint for HOW TO CREATE MOMENTUM. It's not complex at all, its not rocket science, it's simply counter-intuitive. ] Airplane requires a ton of energy to shoot up off the runway much less to continue at full speed. People think "5K" or "10K" is broke (& in america i understand it might actually be with their brutal system & costs), but globally, 5K is like everything. Better to work like hell until you have 5K, then gradually just make $50 a day while chilling, the latter doesnt work, get the first 5K, now u can become a millionaire because you have momentum. It's also math, doubling isn't unrealistic, theres many ways to double your money in life, I just believe thats an underated magical math princple that u can just double shit. But whats $50 *2?? fucking $100, not even enough to survive 1 week. But double $5K? 10K, its exponential. Losing bodyfat > it might be "sane & healthy" to be at a mild steady deficit from the start? WRONG. Be in a 1,000 calorie defict the first day, then 800, then 750 ect.. front loaded agression, especially the psychological momentum. This principle can be mistaken because steady consistent growth is also underated. So arent they contradicting? WRONG. Front loaded Aggression > Steady long term Consistency Dont fucking need agression once you're already at 11% BF lol thats just neurotic and useless stress. ANd like i said, guys at 11% Bodyfat can actually EAT EVEN MORE than a 18% Bf guy becuase : 1. momentum on their side, 2. NEAT is automatically higher, 3. cascade of other psychological reasons (looking hot & that confidence causes them to go outside and walk more, approach women more, chase the sun more, muscle fueling & glcogen system automatically more efficient).

14.12.25 I can assume stress has become overwhelming for me and I simply cannot sleep > 4-6 hours anymore. I really dont want to slow down but I am having to isolate variables and try being "at maintenance" for a few days to fix my sleep. The pattern is suggesting it isn't actual insomnia (which has different pattern), nor is it caffiene (because i removed late drinking and havled my intake, also still had at least 1*8-9 hour day after caffene) It is likely stress, cortisol and distress I am simply unable to sleep 4-6 hours and struggling mentally I have to cut out all this self improvement shit, voice training, bodyfat, whatever, i dont have the stability for it all I might need to close down my account and these journals because it just adds pressure and cortisol If I could at least fucking sleep then I would not give a shit about "cortisol" and slowing down. But life isn't fair. I want to work my ass offf and get results in every area daily and not stop, thats all i want. But sleep is so fundamental, you can get away with "stress" if it pushes you and you rest. But chronic stress + Sleep debt is just guaranteed failure so i have to slow down But I can't just give myelf brain damage and continually sleep under 7 hours for months. This is like reptillian surivval modenow SLeep 7 hours dont do anything stupid Dont start drinking, stay in maintenance Then come back to everything Hopefully i can get back in3 days.

13.12.25 Sleep 5 Hours No fap X Fapped > Trigger, tried to nap in the afternoon, didn't work (never does), ended up fapping. ^ Awake + in bed = Fap. Calories - Was in a deficit, went back up to maintenance or slightly below, can still reduce with long walk ^^ @ 2.15 -2.4K Net >> Reduce with long walk now to 1.8-2K Gym 1 - Back, light shoulders No sugar - 2 teaspoon honey Voice Training - X Net Profit $23 Logistics work and remote career - X Day today - Shitty AF Learning & Growth - found & extracted (derived myself) a very useful pattern that applies to early growth in any domainh 13.12.25 : Introspection Te Every hack, every result, every progress, all the tracking, everything can be undone, 100* faster This evening, I have fallen back into severe pain, regret ect.. Then that shapes my thought patterns - feeds back into emotions > more thought patterns > actions, eat the chocolate ect.. I know the theory pretty dam well, but that only makes me very marignally more adept at this in practice than any other normie. It's tough.

13.12.25 When a normie (the 99%) starts a hobby or starts a challenge (like 11% BF challenge) He shares some gay quote like "success = hard work" shares it on IG then loses all the gains in 2 months anyway because it was just a fad for him When I start a hobbies or challenge I quickly become 4D & holistically smarter in virtually every domain in life because I instantly extract a higher level pattern & then also express it as a decompressed, perfectly worded quote, rule or statement, sometimes in ways no one has ever expressed before. 1. 11% BF Challenge : What I realized after the first 3-4 days : Nope, deleted, going to add this to some book i'll write and make 9 billion dollars from Im not sharing free shit anymore, fucking pay me

13.12.25 Ok lets relax I need 7+ Hour sleep I've unknowingly been misled and been consuming double what I thought i was I had 400MG yesterday and for me thats way too much i'm sensitive I will sleep 7+ hour tomorro w i will make it happen i can not tolerate less i cannot tolerate low performance I cannot lose I cannot be like a normie Fuck that Either I win in life or die, no in between I will sleep 7+ hour tonight, i will not let it not happen

We need to sign a new policy law called : "Principle of corporate numerical transparency and clarity" Caffeine, Sugar, calorie dense foods : name whatever other drug, compound, stimulant whatever (not moralising against it or saying its bad, just obvious transparency) 1. Must be very clear Strength profile in exact numerics in big, bold letters printed across the product : must say 180 MG of caffiene , Level X/10 (as in strength level relative to what people can tolerate), and "not recommended f 2. E.g Macdonalds breakfast whatever "700 calories in big bold writing - X % of typical of male caloric intake, y % of female caloric intake" Clear and pervasive visual numerical clarity reduces the cognitive overload and pushes people to be aware of what they're doing, without judging or controlling them. A lot of people aren't necessarily "weak" or even "lazy", they're just unaware. Some people literally die from caffeine overdose from pre-workouts ect.. if you take a scoop that accidentally have 2-3,000 MG of caffiene, you can literally die. Will this happen? 99% chance it never happens in the near future And what's funny, why the fuck is body management, how you manage your mind, thoughts, body ect.. not a compulsory subject in school? Either people are too stupid to realize this, or there is some kinda conspiracy Yet studying the prophet Mohammad is compulsory? studying random facts about the Spanish inquisition & french revolution, when you dont even know what caffeine is & how to sleep optimally. It's fucking stupid. Stupid motherfuckers. Being even 90 IQ + is hell in this world, people ar efucking dumb af.

13.12.25 Sleep = 5H Woke up like 4.30AM 90MG Caffiene (flat white) slammed at 6AM Took l theonine + valerian combo last night (Mistake) Woke up just after a mentally ill jesus haircut hippie on psychedelics with blood on his face came over to hug (or clinch) me, & he was gonna kill me or some shit ... Never again. ^ To make it creepier, in my dream this was the "psychedelics dealer" who sold me mushrooms in a small room that looked like 1 of those lower manager corporate office rooms .. then i'm in this wide open parking lot type ground floor room and he just starts power walking towards me with that open clinch body language like a zombie lmao 3-4 days of 4-5H sleep in 7-10 days now. It's fine I do not have insomnia It's well known that 1 day of disrupted sleep alone, or 1 day of caffiene abuse, or some other factors often lead to a multi day sleep loss, this happens to normal people with imperfect lives all the time, you mess up your rhythym once, body takes days to recalibrate, i slept 7-9H 2 days ago so its not like I cant sleep. I will maintain a positive expectation and unless this continues for weeks (99% chance that doesnt happen), I will not worry about it, worry & fear create self fulfilling prohecies, and i know this. at 20 I had psychologically induced insomnia. Because i was ruined by fear and anxiety 24/7 I will continue with my cut to 11% BF I will continue with my tasks I will start my top 10-20% actor level deep voice training today I will cold approach today, should a pretty young 17-21 yo girl appear I will make fucking $400 today I will plan & strategize logistics If I crash by the afternoon or early evening (high risk) I will NOT compensate with late caffiene I resisted it yesterday ... still slept 5 hours because sleep is multi - variate and complex and life is difficult I will still not compensate today I will not compensate with sugar I will not break my principles I willl do identity consistency work today & restudy the concept of identity consistency & how to integrate into my life I will resart affirmations & reprogramming work ... Shoul i succeed heavily in this consistency then I, yes I should create a fucking course on it, Leo is too fucking slow and sick, unreliable, he said hed do it years ago, fuck taht, i'll fucking do it, im much more clever anyway. Chat GPT MISLED ME ... I DID NOT VERIFY INDEPDENTLY He told me that my FLAT white had 90-100 MG caffiene I did not realize that it ACTUALLY has 180-200MG Of course i only slept 5 Hours! I actually had a total of 400MG yesterday ... I didn't even fucking know this MUST KNOW THE MATH IN LIFE EVERYTING IS MATH THINK ABOUT IT IM SO PASSIONATE ABOUT THIS TOPIC Leo Gura "the limits of science, important things in life can't be quantified" THIS IS NOT RELEVANT TO 90% OF POPULATION DUDE NOOOOOO WE NEED MORE MOKRE MORE MATH BITCH MORE NO ONE IS AWARE OF THEIR MATH THIS IS A HUGE PROBLEM FXCKDCSHVKC;JSBHSJKDBVJKSDBFGDJK

12.12.25 Woke up 7.45AM Snoozed 20 minutes Got up 8.05AM Started day about 9AM Sleep - didn't track > likely 7-9 Hours Goals Today : No Fap day 2 Gym 1 Controlled Caffeine (timing + Quantity) day 2 7+ Sleep day 2 Floss day 9 No sugar day 3 11% BF calories Target hit (1800 -1900 C) Day 3 > 28 Day challenge to 11% BF Sub Tropical Logistics and movement war Strategy & setup > 2+ Hours Make $400 today > Net profit after all expenses List all items online to sell 10 minutes daily Actor level 4-6 Week voice training practice 30-60 Minutes of evening affirmation & reprogramming work - for core goals (money, logistics, Gd remote job by set date, business creativity & making millions eventually) UPDATE > I am adding in 5 Min presence/breathing meditation morning > I will do daily for month & then introspectively see if I feel a difference/gains > Prescence, women ect.. Evening Update (Wins) Net calories 1,650 - 1,750 (11% BF Day 3 Target hit) > Net calories 1965-2095 (Needed some carbs/milk for sleep and it felt unsustainable to relax, also did a hard cut yesterday, solid 300-600 deficit today still though) Gym 1 > Mostly chest, some triceps (skull crushers, bench & DB push thing forgot name) Sleep today 7-9H Caffeine > 180MG 8-10AM, 1 coke zero 12.30AM, Total approx. 210-230MG No sugar day 3* (I did have 1-2 teaspoon of honey once) Floss day 10 Net profit $160 Failed : Affirmations, Voice Training, Logistics work

This Huberman-esque type nerdy anal thought pattern vibe. This matters when you are fixing sleep or shifting circiadium rhythym, but in general it doesn't fucking matter. 1. Just > Know what your limit threshold is that affects sleep (no matter how early u drink) 2. Have a boundary hour range so no late caffeine (even hot chocolate in the evening keeps me wired) 3. Nothing else matters, can drink when u wake up, doesn't really fucking matter Sleep variables for me are : 1. Max Total caffiene 200 - 250MG (and above 220 is pushing it) 2. Have Most (or at least half) of this before 10AM 3. No caffiene after 10-11AM 4. Hard cutoff (not even a coke zero) after 12AM 5. Disciplined Cool down hour** (What i was doing for years is "trying to grind it out until I collapse" mindset that probably a lot of morons like andrew tate push "you're competing with guys who work 18 hours a day (lol who the fuck is that?? an indian factory worker?) Anyway, counter-intutively, i've started being strict with having ZERO STIMULATION within the hour before I want to sleep. And i my intuition on this is very strong that this makes your life far more productive and leads to far more effective total output on a weekly basis (and obviously much better sleep) ,, I believe this disicpline + caffiene management will give me much more consistent energy baseline, i'm excited to see how I develop in the coming weeks. It's counter-intuitive because you're pressure and convinced by hustle gurus like tate and maybe even Hormozi to "always grind out every hour because you're poor and thats a luxury" whatever but I think this is group think nonsense. The last hour of the day is cool down, and maybe this is a universal pattern, like swimmers and cardio types always transition in training, they don't just go from Max 100 to 0 because the mucles and joints cant adapt back. ^ NO self improvement, no journaling no analysing, no regret loops, no anxiety, no future projection, Either i do some simplistic chore, listen to binaural beats, or listen Joe Rogan Note on Joe Rogan* > Its funny how people think he's a self improvement tool lmaoo (he's literally no different to watching netflix, watching a conspiracy documentary, watching the UFC, or playing Shrek 2 on PS2), he is GOOD for falling asleep and not being anxious precisely because listening to him is so profoundly impractical and useless for your life.

11.12.25 Sleep 5 hours Caffeine MG : 200 - 230MG No Fap day 1 No Sugar day 2 Floss day 8 Gym 1 (front lateral & rare delts, moderate triceps (rope pulls), back 3 sets (just vertical lat pull machine) Net calories:1,800 (11% bf target range > 1,700 - 1,900, max Low 1.5K to prevent flatness/muscle loss, upper limit 2K ) Net Profit + $44 (Made $120-150 today but expenses) Actor Level Voice deepening 4 - 6 week, 10 minute daily practice : X Quick note on hitting 11% bodyfat ^ People think "11% BF = being an anal neurotic and not enjoying life". This is true to REACH 11% BF and lose the fat + the first 4-6 weeks of your body restabilizing. But once u reach it AND ur body adapts, you can actually eat FAR MORE & stay 11% bodyfat, then u could at 17% bodyfat to stay that weight. It's very counter-intuitive. But there are multiple specific reasons for this. So yeah now I'm eating anywhere from 1.5K - 2K calories with a daily target of 1.7-1.8K, and that sucks a bit because its far below my maintenance baseline & means I cannot just casually have a glass of milk for example unless it's within the plan). However at 11% BF > 4-6 weeks of restabilizing, after this, I can literally go like 600-800 calories over typical maintenance in my eating, and due to a multitude of factors, my body will simply stay at 11% or hover around 11-12%. 1 factor being that this extra leanness automatically creates more NEAT. Ready to be flexing shirtless ice cream pics in a couple months (might have to reveal the cock too & see if mr Guru bans me) Motivation right now : 10/10 I dream of sub tropical logistics I'm not going fucking stop or slow down goodbye

This was another low IQ moment They BOTH matter because caffiene has a massive half life lol 400MG at 8AM is just as bad, possibly worse. It's fine, I simply had way too much and started to try and pretend its normal, its not. Today, even after 5H sleep, i have had about max 200MG caffiene, and that is the maximum I could possibly need, this is bodily introspection. Another thing : Late Caffeine is bad, but very early caffiene is also super bad (espeically if your trying to rebalance your coritsol rhythyms, caffiene at 9-10AM > 6-8AM > 2-3PM On a good sleep day, I probably only need 100-170 MG max I dont know how I got in the habit of 300,400,450MG per day, its simply too much to sleep, it's like jumping off a bridge and then trying to act like gravity doesnt exist and im fine. Whats the solution for caffiene control? ALways knowing the math Also Sleep > saving a few dollars I do not use instant coffee because even though its 100* cheaper, its very hard to quantify, its mentally unsatiating, and has a high risk i end up just buying a coffee any way which takes me into the 300-500MG terriotory = 4-6 Hours sleep at best, not worth saving $3-5 a day. No amount of money is worth losing my health or momentum, especially not $5 Cappucino = 180-200MG in just one drink - thats WAYY too much flat white = 90MG, Decaf approx 5-20MG and again if i get really bored at like 2PM then i just simply have a decaf and hypnotically brainwash myself that it has 400MG in it

11.12.25 I've realized this semi applies to caffiene too. (Although caffiene is directly physically addictive, causes physiological (physical and cognitive) withdrawal symptoms, and true cold turkey is bordeline impossible for anyone who doesnt have a holiday booked ... I can significantly reduce the Actual MG total content consumed daily, without losing, even gaining satisfaction itch scratched/psychological micro comfort/routine ect.. through a mix of hot decaf lattes, 1 coke zero ect.. maybe 1-2 pieces of dark chocolate if its a clean brand. Its the psycholgoy of walking to the caffe, getting a decaf, i can even trick my brain that this simply is a normal coffee & use placebo as well P.s : Pizza is only a 1 day per week max thing for me, high carbs simply does not fit with hitting 11% bodyfat. Max 100-150 per day average currently.

By "Flex" I dont mean literally showing off. I mean that the visual result, and the obvious persistence and discipline speaks for itself, and virtually every mentally healthy person respects that. It's fundamentally just about being human Setting a difficult and uncommon achievement as a goal, then fucking achieving it, and people respect it. That feels GOOD, its fun, there's not much else to fucking say. It's not stage orange or blue or whatever It's simply just human condition. Certain personality types are wired to achieve things and get respect and admiration. And the gym is one of the few things that requires a small amount of resources (but a ton of resourcefulness) that universally elicits respect, admiration and attraction from others, and thank god for that. Imagine if having money was the only thing anyone respected or praised people for, 1 reason for this is with the gym you cannot fake the work ethic, you cannot steal your body, you cannot scam it from others, you cannot (*Well lol a lot of guys do take steroids but : 1. A LOT Of people can differentiate between a steroid vs natty these days and 2. the aura difference is massive, steroid bitch doesnt get the aura benefits from the gym because he knows he cheated himself and is destroying his body on the inside. Steroid also massively increases psychosis risk, and even "mild" PEDs (which everyone online wants to fucking normalise and justify these days) have a cascade risk of weird side effects, but the worse one not being acne or natural T suprresion, but psychosis risk. Why did connor murphy lose his fucking head? PED aftermath + psychedelics. Both on their own are a russian roulette, but combining them, fuck that And a lot of people don't realize how much work actually goes into truly mastering the gym, I mean truly percise maxed out aesthetic physique, no PEDS, cutting to 11% bodyfat, not destroying joints, not bulking or going powerlifter, scheduling it all to fit with work, many people go gym, 99.9% of men do not go all in on it. I genuinely believe the rare people who go in on it virtually ALWAYS get rich eventually after, because 99.9% of peoplle, including on self improvement forums, do not actually have any work ethic, but also that's ok, this is for ambitious people, im not trying to force my personality on others, I actually respect Frame, i respect a fat person if they genuinely wnat to be fat, they just decided they love food, love cake, love beer ect.. and their life, their job, their mid girlfriend is good enough and they're happy, I fully respect that. Honestly I LOVE Food, I fuckig love to eat, i could so easily get fat af, I just happen to love ambition more, its just a rare weird conicndence im like this, evolution didnt even design humans to be ambitious, only to conserve energy and just survive.

10.12.25 Calorie defecit : Approx 1,400 - 14700 (Huge deficit, fat loss jump start day, 1800 - 1900 more sustainable daily) Sleep : 5 Hours No Fap day 2 X > Tried to "Fall alseep" early in bed like 7PM, was just tired & wired in bed, stressed, started edging, it happened, was a trap. Simply go to bed only once I'm completely exhausted. Money : - $, tried set stuff up but I dont know whats going on but no matter what I do currently, I just NEVER make money, its a weird phase im stuck in, my standards & ambition are so much higher than the current reality, and this deeply hurts & annoys me. Gym 0, Just walking Floss day 7 Caffeine : 400MG (2*cappucinos) 7.30-8.30AM, dark chocolate 1*coke zero bottle 12.30AM (34MG) > Total 450MG, mostly morning Added sugar/junk : 0 Logistics prep : 0 Stress and pressure level : 10/10 Desperation 10/10 I care about making money & logistics 10000* more than losing body fat or muscles .. The thing is making money is a real struggle, i've been struggling for about 6 years So the gym & getting ripped just 1 of those achievable and tangible things I can earn & flex, feel proud of. It's momentum, its tangible results, numbers, visuals. I just fucking love mintmaxing, and while im still going to keep fighting for money, I refuse to just slave away with zero rewards for antoher 1-3 years just to make money while having nothing to feel proud or confident about, I'm doing it all at once, because mintmaxing is my passion, and I just need positive momentum, the gym is the lowest hanging fruit for it. Because I'm an extremely ambitious and hard working, charismatic and creative guy, I just simply dont have the resources. There's literally hundreds of millions of rich pigs who were just born in the right place in America, are fat, have no character, but because they have a rolex people bow to them like gods, and kiss their ass. And i need the world to know the truth, people judge on externals and often misread others I MUST be ripped and jacked because it's congruent with who I am, and the financial situations is not accurately reflecting that*YET! : Discipline, persistence, creativity, ambition, vision ect.. It's actually weird when u have everything on the inside but the externals arent matching it, it kind of doesnt make It's like the inverse of some random kid winning too much on crypto Introspection & States : I can feel the desperation in my heart, i can feel the fear the anxiety the dread I need to reprogram myself again, affirmations, psychologically, emotionally, I need to reconnect to vision, to ambition, not to desperation, not to hopelessness, I cant slow down, I cant give up, I have to be flexible, if it was so easy no one would value it, if it was so easy everyone would have it, if I came from extreme family privilege & era luck like Leo i would not truly value success and would be all smug and arrogant about it. I WILL GET FUCKING RICH

10.12.25 1. Sleep : Too much late caffeine & late gym Took L theonine + Valerian combo to fall asleep at about 1-1.30AM (worked shockingly well) Woke up approx 6-6.30AM So about 5 hours sleep Do not feel bad about it .. Why? I am waking up earlier = needed in my grind phase now + shifting circadium rhyhtym Before i was sleeping 2-3AM, this is an improvement 2. Improving sleep : Non Negotiable No LATE Caffiene Caffeine Timing > Caffeine consumption 400MG at 7-9AM > 200MG at 3PM Heavy, even upper moderate caffeine in late afternoon RUINS adenosine cycle, THIS is why timing is much more important to control Caffiene today : 1. 400MG (2*cappucino) 7.30-830AM 2. 1*Dark chocolate bar 12AM > **Quit because these brands are causing stomach upset & mild nausea 3. 1*Coke Zero 12.30AM NO MORE Caffeine today I will get back to 7+ Hours sleep Only need 2 variables controlled 1. Early wakeup/movement/sunlight (Circ rhyhytm) 2. Early Caffeine timing, Not even dark chocolate or chocolate in the late afternoon 2. Hitting 11% Bodyfat in 28 Days I thought I was 16% body fat, but I am likely right now, 13.5-14.5% and the visual bloating was merely stress + water retention & sugar binge aftermath ... all the work i did from 6 months has got me to a leaner base already. SO ... I genuinely can get to 11% bodyfat in 28 days ... it wont be easy, but "willpower" alone will not do it either, only a mathematical, AI built plan that I follow rigorously, this is simply mathematics. 11% bodyfat (with a full tan) will make all the muscle and definition i've built absolutely pop, I will look like a movie star literally in 28 days if I do this I have firmly decided I am doing this, and I am writing down the attainment date I have created a tailored chat GPT supermarket/meal plan > NO NEED TO COUNT CALORIES or burn energy > JUST FOLLOW THE PLAN, direct all mental energy to making money & logistics Thats fucking it ... Lol, lets go. 3. Money in bank Account & remote career > Apply same SMT goals /numerical strategy like with BF% Inmediate Goals 1. $6K/M Remote Income (minimum $3K/M start - Within 1-2 months max) 2. Subtropical Logistics 3. 7.5 H Sleep + No Fap + No Sugar/alcohol

08.12.25 No fap day 1 (1 fap in 8 days) Added sugar - 20 - 25 Gram (Sweet Coffee can) Exercise > Total estimated calories burnt 1200 - 1400 ( Treadmill : 552 Calories Walking : 150-350 Calories NEAT (Guess) : 300 - 600 Calories Total 1000 - 1500 Add more since theres many more hours left Estimated 1400 calories brunt Now : How easily could I undo all this work? 5 Minutes from an emotional or unconcious state. Thats ALL. 1 tub of ice cream, a pack of chocolate, literally 5 minutes to consume 2,000 calories. So no, I will NOT have any snacks today. This isn't about "not enjoying life", i'm very big on enjoying life, I just dont get fulfillment from mouth taste AND I get 100* more fulfillment from the challenge of getting ripped (and other forms of pleasure). 4. Vocal Training 10 minutes > will do in evening - set timer & schedulle in 5. Money > This is fucked but I'm going to have to pull through hustle today, I also need to get an online job because what I'm doing is unsustainable anyway. I'm ambitious and never wanted to stop at just a job but, I need to start somewhere, I can do a job and creative business simultaneously, also with sales there are jobs that can pay pretty well, and if its remote thats still powerful. I made this journal to be as authentic and honest as possible. I'm very confident guy and know how high my potential is, but I also no the logistical realities of the world and how tricky it can feel to overcome them. There's literally handsome geniuses stuck in east Africa. No Sugar & Hitting 11% BF Strategy Update : If i need to "grind it out" or need energy > Just 1-2 Tsp honey ^ WAY Less calories + WAY harder to binge my way to 1,000 - 2,000 calories And saves money, much faster Being Decisive : I am using clear targets, goals & decisions now. 1. "Hit/Get/have X by y date, no exceptions" 2. Clear precise pre determined plan/structure/schedule to get there 3. Follow it ruthlessly with 0 slips Applying this to money, bodyfat, logistics ect.. THis cuts through any decision fatigue, hesitation, rationalizations. Challenge 1 : 11% bodyfat in 28 days I have the plan set out, God mode incoming Challenge 2 : Specific Logistics move within 28 days (May have to sacrifice some sleep over this : HARD) Challenge 3 : $7K in my bank account within 14 days

09.12.25 Either was hacked, or data leak or something but lost had like $300 stolen from me and my accounts and entire day wasted Arh fuck man Legit business niche side hustles Its all fucked someones always there to take your money either hacker, or your best friend or your business partner what do i do man I cant work a shitty job again fuck Need to reprogram myself hard Feel like im destined to stay poor and money is impossible i dont dont know how to start winning consistently with this It's so fucked WHAT DO I DO ]AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHI GOD HELP ME MAKE FUCKING MOENY MAN HAHIAHASDFKJFHSDKKDFFHO;IADSOJIPASH;;OWDAFHIPOHIQD;AGHFWGGFFVDFVBEFRBOVFEEVN

In the wild : Hesitation and indecision gets u killed and eaten. Hyenas target the Zebra who looks back, who feints aggression & retreats, a half hearted kick. If a Zebra is committed and has momentum to run, or will kick with full force, the hyenas back off. In the modern world in many places u can be a combination of timid, hesitant, indecisive and still have a job, just about survive, have some friends, and 99% of men in these situations aren't even aware of the meta idea that leading yourself and being full hearted even matters, modern conditioning is insane, might sound so simple and obvious "leadership" ect.. but its not even many mens fault in a sense, can go 20 or 25 years without realizing what leadership is and that it's relevant, no father figure, just a world of alcohol and TV