Optimized Life

I'm on the brink of madness now, my prime truly begins from here. Accumulation of pain made me superhuman And i'm riding out until I'm at least 50, if not longer The deep accumulation of pain is still there but it's fuel. Napoleon hill thing No more posts, prime fuckng starts now

I can't hit a deeper low than this. U it's deep when u just cant articulate, i cant verbalize i cant go into detail its beyond I have not hit a deeper pain point than this Because its not just the present temporary pain, its that in combination with all other accumulated pains and regrets put into context, + a yearning that I just acknowledged this 10 years ago, and how different my life would've been, anbd would be now. I dont want to numb the pain I dont want alcohol I dont want to stop feelng this way Because I get how counterintuitive life is now I don't want any mercy nor will i get any For me at least only once I've reached the deepest pain & karma on the brink of a suicidal rage can I snap into greatness Peace doesn't work for me There is no peace anymore, there is no innocence But there is no fear anymore either, there is no hesitation Because I have gone full circle now There is no moderation or in between now I cannot do normal things now I have only 1 choice now I'm either on the brink of suicide or greatness .. and madness I feel like the joker minus the sadism

I've just realized 1 simple reason why I fucked up and it's so simple and obvious and frustrating that I feel another knife just twist deep into my gut, the fact I didn't realize this years ago either. THe pain is now back and I don't even know what to say It's just beyond annoying and frustrating I'm just suffering at how annoying my life is now looking at it this way I am actually beyond pissed i just cant Would be fine if I was 16 or 19 at this point But it has taking me so fucking long to just understand certain things U dont ever get the wasted time and oppurtunities back, never Life is just brutal like this

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HELL YEAH LFG !!

@Princess Arabia You're literally out of your fucking mind, no logical or sane person take you seriously. Guys just don't even read her posts or comments, if you keep giving her attention you feed into the insanity. We ALL Know what's truly up with this one, everyone knows what you do. Accept your fate and the choices you made, don't bring your insanity and bullshit over to innocent people with a bright future. If no ones got any fucking balls then I'll come over here and say it straight, mods need to ban this fucking clown.

Whhen you watch videos of other peoples dark psychology and have that at the forefront of your mind, what do you think happens to your psychology? Gets dark. You chose how to perceive the world not anyone else