Hello. I'm a new joinee to this forum but have been following Leo's content on YouTube and been engaging in self contemplation for a long time now. I just wanted to say something regarding the now removed solipsism video. I had left a comment in the video itself regarding what I'm about to say, solipsism is an idea that I have been struggling with for some time now. My first visceral experience with the concept was a few years ago when I ingested some hash with high THC content. It made me acutely aware that my perceptual bubble is all I have ever experienced and all I WILL ever experience. The thought that I can never get outside of this field made me severely claustrophobic and gave me an extremely dreadful panic attack. The ordeal lasted for a few hours, but still to this day whenever I'm taking any mind altering substance like marijuana or simply trying to attune myself with the present moment I find myself going back to that frightful headspace. This is something that has been interfering with my attempt to establish a consistent meditation habit, and turning out to be a hindrance in my spiritual journey as a whole. I was extremely intrigued when I saw Leo's definitive video on solipsism today, as the past videos have only brushed past the concept (like the videos titled "What is reality" or the videos on God consciousness) with Leo mentioning that he isn't talking about solipsism when he says there is no other, but they didn't fully deconstruct the idea of solipsism and compare it with non duality. I feel truly sad to see the video taken down, so I just wanted to ask if there is a way to access the material as I believe it would've helped with my current struggle in my spiritual journey. I would really appreciate some guidance to overcome this obstacle. Thank you!
