BlueOak

Not so sure this is universal. If I want to focus on healing muscle pains, removing tension etc , I find it easier to do in the evening. In the morning the state of mind is as you describe and I agree. I also don't think there is anything wrong of meditating just to relax yourself before bed, same with yoga or any exercise. Focusing on the breath is very helpful though to wake up,and perhaps more at times, I agree fully on that.

The benefit to slowing it down as much as possible was so that hospitals could deal with infections in a steady stream, acquire extra respirators and extra beds, get used to operating in these conditions. Without these things death rates were much higher than with, staff were overwhelmed etc. Initially it was also to understand what we were dealing with and buy time to find a cure, put emergancy measures in place etc. Now as we reach the hopeful end, we've had all the time we are going to get to prepare for any large influx. It didn't save my uncle or millions of others but I am still glad we in england fought this as long as possible, sometimes resistance helps and in this case saved lives here at least.

Eventually none. Our ideals and beliefs are often skewed to one or the other. We operate without thinking from that perspective. It frames our existance and life, all our responses, boundaries, ways of interacting etc.

Scare whatever is scaring you right back. Metaphors from the subconscious. For me its often a fear, or an unknown behavior being represented darkly for contrast, or phobia etc. Getting into a state/space of strength so you are no longer afraid, grounding, eventually understanding what that imagery represents and integration is what heals it in my case. Try not to take anything in a dream, vision, third eye whatever state at face value, unless its a basic processing dream but we don't usually remember those.

All the stages are necessary in someone for stability. I hope every time I think on it that we see green based leadership eventually. That alone would be a huge shift from where we operate at the moment.

Different things for different folks. What got you to that place, where the anxiety and thoughts are separate? Where you can cry and open up? But wherever you are now, if you are intune with you and those around you, that's where you need to be.

Collective Thought and Individual Thought Individualism and Collectivism. Too much collectivism you can end up never questioning anything, going along with anything, sometimes at expense of the individual. Too much individualism and you can form your own belief system or structure, that can appear completely detached from the collective, sometimes at the expense of the collective. To integrate these two positions if you are heavily in one isn't always easy, they come with their own problems and challenges. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Individualism https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Collectivism But its a one path of spiritual development that some people consider very important. Eventually they can begin to overlap, because you are part of the collective and an individual. As an example, someone can blindly follow a belief system in either state of mind.

First off I am white and english so don't speak with the same life experience that an american has. I came from middle class at a time that meant a priviledge upbringing, to poverty so i saw both. I come with an outsiders perspective. I would make the complete counter argument. There isn't a proportionally large number of successful people that are so successful they have trouble finding partners. If you reading this are very successful in career and finances great, but don't remotely think that your wealth or success applies to population at large. Even if it did, it'd be the people struggling that were the larger point of any metric of troubled relationships or families. You can't separate out relationships from families, that's where they form and grow, that's where they are learned. When I used to discuss these topics, I would frequently find myself debating people who are very successful and well off, usually they'd tell me at the end of it. They are not the 90%, or more specifically the % of families in the greatest difficulty. Not to dismiss their own problems, for sure, I used to do that all the time coming from a middle class family at one stage before it dived into poverty. However to call something the main cause of anything, when it applies to a minority of the population is missing the wood for the trees. If you'd have said people are working more and more hours. Then said they see their kids less, they have less time for relationships and so there are more single people i'd have agreed. Thats not feminism, or identity politics, that's a whole load of issues nobody wants to speak about. From increasing population levels, to an economy based on consumption, to not producing anything locally but trying to generate more and more demand. To political corruption, to resistance on changing a wealth of industries that need modernizing because of money (corruption). Its based on the changing balance of power world wide and increasing competition forcing prices through the floor. Its based on climate change forcing immigration, and food or living space costing more. Its based on people being treated as robots rather than people. People's want for cheaper and cheaper goods rather than goods that last longer. Its based on rising fuel costs, and you can thank the oil companies for holding back alternative technologies to lower them for many decades through money and greed. Its based on technology causing solitary rather than community activity or ideology. Relationships are not fostered naturally like they used to be, we live in our own little worlds sat at home and then are easily offended or angry when someone has an understandably different view in their own little world. Not even touching on historical issues, like poverty, political, cultural issues or abuse. On and On I could type about why families or relationships are struggling. I haven't touched any black only issues here, mostly because I am not black and didn't go through what you did. There are so many factors to what you are speaking on, to pick identity politics and say that's bad, that's what is doing it. It drives me nuts. It gets in the way of everything these days when there is so much more to look at.

You are welcome it was a nice memory to revisit You do yes. In that you are changed, the bit of you that you keep. I wanted to mention Kundalini yoga is a way of speeding it up, specifically because working with the body naturally is a neutral approach and less prone to resistance. The body has its own blocks obviously but that can be worked with as a physical or energetic process. It can be an intensive yoga, whereas most people think of yoga as just relaxing, this is a way of getting things moving physically. That approach benefits from detox and not eating to excess, not having sex to excess, removing all excess, trying to de stress the parts of the body where we carry resistance. It doesn't require ellaborate yoga poses, just steady routine. I can only at best clear the way for the ego to be washed clean, or cleaner than when it started. I am not sure how I would approach it this time. I suppose continuing to look at collectivism, or social integration, but I keep seeking teachers on that.

Or inward, being inside.

Will represents strength of individual mind or collective identity. Strength is something that has been demonized for its connections to solidarity, connections and community. I would like it to be used more. Force of will. Personal will. These are almost tolerated in the 80's/90's but somewhat mocked in the modern day. The will of society dare I say the 'will of the people'. Those last 4 words have been demonized to trigger people most of all. If anyone reading had any kind of reaction to it stated as an abstract concept well that hints at a preprogrammed response.

Sounds like you feel uncertain or powerless and fear it. Insert whatever emotion is right below. My first advice is being okay with the emotion the next time it comes up. For powerlessness this was very difficult for me and quite horrific to sit with at first, to embrace rather than resist what you are feeling. Really spend some time with this until you are not pulling away from it. Then when you have done that for a time, sat with it, said its okay, the world isn't ending, i'm okay. You can work out what do without the same level of fear, anxiety or panic driving you. You'll be grounded exactly where you are. You are not alone. Much of the world is going through similar states. Internally: Take control of your thoughts or Allow feelings to come and be with them. Find out what those feelings/you need. External: Do what gives you joy. If nothing does. Try many things until you find one that gives you joy. Keep trying. Perhaps write a list of things you want to do in the this year, make a small, simple and easy plan. See if any of them can be done alongside or as part of a job. Work from there. Definitely taking a break from your studies sounds like a good idea if you can. Give yourself some space to re-evaluate if its what you really want long term, or just a break to collect yourself and come back stronger. Hope it helps.

There is a time for seeking. Then there is a time. Then there can be another time for seeking. Then there is a time. Repeat. It's how life works. Chicken - Egg - Chicken - Egg etc. Somtimes it happens in a day, sometimes its 10 years, but so far for me at least it doesn't stop.

Yes it goes off the deep end, but there is more to this state of mind than you are speaking about. There is a lot of corruption around. The vast wealth gap and media shield has created kings that get away with a lot they shouldn't, idealism has been demonized in favor of hard pragmatism or cynicism, groups or collective reasoning have been broken down to individual thought by technology and social policies, trust is at an all time low and still falling because of these factors and more. Once a mind that has otherwise just accepted whatever they were told as true, begins to question what they are told they can begin to question everything. You might say that's healthy, well maybe, until someone else gives them all the answers. Then it depends purely on those people's state of mind or intentions. Sadly there are a lot of people out there wanting to tell you want to think and do. So you can be like them. You can find more harmless examples in your day to day life if you really look. You might say a certain level of that is necessary for human cooperation or society to function. When someone is seeking answers they can fall into these rabbit holes without having the collective balance around them to ground their understanding, because they no longer trust people and understandably so. I trust almost nobody that isn't speaking to me directly face to face, that's a product of all the lies i've seen and swallowed in my lifetime. I realise people can lie to your face but in my experience it's less common. All a conspiracy needs is two or more people conspiring to do something. We could do one right here. So to dismiss them outright is odd.

Yes. Self inquiry got me there, along with some kundalini work. When I had a lot of thoughts and self doubt. There was a lot of ego to unravel. I had a moment at the end of it, after my self inquiry, meditation, detox etc where the ego was lost completely. I had a white light spiritual experience, which I cannot describe to you adequately. What we know as love here if you amplified that so it was everything, if you took a yoga bliss feeling and turned it up tenfold. Then had the cloud of that light linger for the next two days as you walked around. No drugs. Just routine over six months. Only etherium black and gold for dream recall until that stopped working. Then life hits you in the face. You get some pain and suffering. The ego comes back or reforms in its protective role. Slowly the world changes as time passes and the ego has to come back further.

There is no absolute when speaking about something this broad. How many changes in your life have you accepted and they've been difficult for you? Caused a bit of pain, discomfort, suffering etc? There are plenty of examples of people accepting things and still suffering or resisting it and eventually benefiting. Homelessness, health, poverty, violence, abuse etc. In some of these cases you are completely powerless, and accepting that can for example save you a beating in the moment from an abuser who is twice your size, or allow you to go through treatment for a debiltating disease more easily. In other cases, pulling yourself out of poverty, getting away from the abuse long term or seeking treatment ahead of time for illness, resisting the natural course of things can save you suffering. Its always going to come up, then there is a choice to resist and perhaps change it, or accept it and allow it to happen without resistance. Which in the case of other things like living in a different ideology, a change in the workplace, cultural shifts, technological shifts, a family members temperament etc, can still cause suffering for you but accepting it can be more beneifical, or resisting it to carve a niche in business for example can create opportunities that weren't there before.

As people have said you have a lot of life left. Collective apathy and Cynicism is at an all time high and people speak about it. Fatalism however has been at a high for decades now and people don't speak about it. You can make hundreds of mistakes and then go on to have a better life. You can make a hundred mistakes and continue to make a hundred more. Usually combination of these :D. As for what you should focus on, yes survival comes first, but hopefully you'll realise you are surviving right now. What's after survival? What does that look like? That's what i'd be working on, not just surviving as that state of mind is rough. It doesn't mean you have to give up watching something helpful, that only takes an hour a week or so. That leaves a lot of hours in the week to get your life together from the ground up;.

Don't tell everyone that they are stuck and then say you won't go into details about why they are stuck. The forum is based around the videos of one man, so of course there will be a certain similarity in perspectives, on some things. I think you do this place a disservice if you don't see different points of view being offered. I have and i've only been here a week.

Suffering is part of life. You can accept it, or resist it. Neither is right or wrong, it depends on the outcome you are looking for.

@Nahm I appreciate you taking the time to give your thoughts and advice. The conversation has helped me more clearly see where I am stuck or blocked from experiencing love or connection again. Where I differ is that these conjectures are necessary. I realise we define our boundaries and what they are, they are self imposed beliefs. On a personal level with people its necessary thought conjecture when you experience either shaming, aggression, betrayal, or just general condescending behavior to respond. It happens in front of you, and its not healthy or even often safe to allow it. My reaction however is often not conscious, or tempered, its quite abrupt and I would like more space before it happens inside me, so I can consciously choose how to respond outwardly before I say something I might regret for example. So I can avoid decisions like leaving a job when someone crosses one of those boundaries, which happened a couple of years back. What you speak of references the larger world more clearly to me. Thought structures and hierachies are prone to that. With so many people firmly holding the same beliefs, we interact with organizational structures daily as they are very present in the world around us. I only have one mode of interacting with them when I find them overbearing, that is disconnection or if I am forced to confront it, some form of rebellion which is also disconnection. I am trying again now to seek out more teachers on empathy or collectivism generally, so that I can better interact with what I don't like to experience or see day to day.

I am right where you are. I don't know if it helps to know, but we are going through the exact same thing. Albeit mine was a parent who acted like a 6 year old raising a 6 year old :D. The point is, many people are exactly where you are now and hopefully coming to the same conclusion. Have you tried just going to things like https://www.meetup.com/ and finding things going on in your area. Right now with the lockdowns and people isolating this feeling of wanting connection is stronger than its ever been. Good time to go make friends. In my experience I only felt my heart when I am with others or thinking of others.

@BipolarGrowth Could be, when I use to actively practice energy work, do a lot of yoga, detox etc I had a very bad energetic blow out from an argument. It felt like a metal bar had hit me. This is nothing that severe but a similar sensation. @Nahm Arugments for me are not common anymore like they were when I was growing up. Now when they happen they are usually reactive and triggered, not something I often consciously choose to take part in. There is a split second warning, just a rush of emotions and a NO reaction. Setting a boundry usually. I appreciate the prodding. I intellectually know everything is love, I experienced it in a very direct way a decade ago. Not much since then but back then I felt like spirituality altered in a way that I couldn't follow in, and so I stopped meditating, yoga, and adopting a more loving state. Back to being very disconnected from love. Even though I consciously know that doesn't make sense what I just wrote, because all is love, its what I felt and to a certain extent still feel. I am trying to open up again, in things like this discussion, but its not so simple, there's a lot of good reasons to close down and shut yourself off from connection. There is a lot of times you have to be on your guard around people, locations, situations, or for example say very little. @Tim Ho I am trying it now thank you. As I have a mild headache and did a lot of meditating today. Consciousness feels very heavy.

One time it was Powerlessness. Going through and then accepting that was horrific but ultimately very valuable. Shame or Guilt still cut now and again when I focus on them. Oppressive structures or hierachy would be one I have partially accepted but still inspires fear.

Then take a break. Start now. Sounds like you need a vacation or a rest.

None of what she's saying requires dreams or some supernatural ability. Tension has been building on many borders for 10 years, if anything she's 10 years late making the prediction. She's talking about the big countries but there are many small ones experiencing the same thing. Just read this: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_territorial_disputes There is a movement for simplicity, I watched a recent documentary the other day about its success, but I don't know if it'll compete with people's love for material goods on a par. Money still rules much of life. The fact we are still not on solar, wind, biofuels etc, well there has been a resource crisis coming for 50 if not 100 years. So *shrug*. Maybe they will relax the laws on things like Hemp Growth or make laws on designing green engines so they are not bought out before they reach market. I do get the response to teal videos in general, she lectures to the collective on how to be. Switching from making videos helpful, or not, to the individual in 2013, which was in a completely different tone. I usually have the same response myself, but this was something I could get through without turning it off. As far as dreams go they can give you a picture of the day ahead, from my understanding and experience via the subconscious, which stores vast amounts of information. The trouble with it is, its often a metaphor rather than a direct picture, and people fall into the trap of interpreting the subconscious, image for image or word for word. So it becomes difficult to get much from it.