BlueOak

If it helps to know, that's a widespread social problem now. Connecting through text on phones rather than in person dialogue. Its all done in your/their head. I dislike admitting getting older but when I was growing up interacting socially was the norm. Downsides were it was very much based on cliques, and I remember more physical altercations because of the social interaction, but other than those two issues, things were not extended out over time. Feelings were less likely to be left unresolved or at least unacted upon. It all happened in the moment and engaged much more of life, much more of what we are. There is no substitute for being part of a supportive group in person. Anxiety itself is lessened by a healthy collective experiece, they'd have your back and you'd have theirs. I am an adequate writer that enjoys living partially from the mind's perspective, but I can't tell you how much I miss the feeling of those days and the energy within group activities experienced in person. Maybe I needed this lifetime to learn the value of that in detail and what I suffered through living in a state of self imposed solitary confinement. BTW there is nothing wrong with being anxious, I was a wreck at one time, and I started feeling better when I reminded myself of that every time it came up. It stops anxiety stacking on top of anxiety at least. You'll find people that don't care how anxious you are if you take the time to look locally.

Sincerely thank you. I needed this. If you have any more recommendations about people teaching this, please send them. At the moment I could listen to their advice for a long time.

@Fearless_Bum Sometimes I enjoy working alone, sometimes I look for answers or help from others. I find neither approach wrong, just like I see value/flaws in many models or interactions. This model has allowed me to reflect on who I am and while I don't agree with the premise fully that the way society has developed over the millenia is the perfect method of mapping the modern experience of personal or spiritual growth, it is one method of analysing life and our psychology or spirituality. During that I have found I lack in blue and green. Collectivism generally. Blue I would imagine was jordan peterson and over the years I have resisted ever listening to the man so the last couple of days I did. I find myself wondering if my next job should be in a more structured or orderly role to experience it more, as that is something I naturally pull away from. I also find the collective aspects of green ideas and concepts somewhat hard to relate to, and so I asked for a teacher that well represented green, I suspect I have also rejected them out of hand. Orange I listened to tony robbins in my youth for example so I could name him as a teacher.

I do a bit of that without thinking around the eyes, neck, ears and scalp. Thanks for reminding me of it.

Could anyone name a spiritual or practically related teacher for each color on this chart we are referencing. I have realised what I am seeking, what much of this life has been about, and its to go over each of the states of consciousness, to fill in the holes in my understanding. So any you can recommend would be of great use to me and perhaps others seeking information out. Thank you.

Sincerely thank you all for being here I have realised what I needed. Thanks to you. I inwardly sought to feel more a few days ago, and to experience more empathy, this is what's happening. @mandyjw This is perhaps why thinking is eventually seperated as meditation progresses. Thank you. By thinking continuously I don't have to feel or understand, which is another method of avoidance. @Nahm Yes. Its more of a physical reaction and condition that occurs, if i am carrying out a meditative practice and then I get into an intense argument with someone I feel it a lot more afterwards physically. Like a pressure headache. @Tim Ho Very basic. The last few days I just sat down and meditated, I just cross my legs, palms up, back straight, tongue to the roof of my mouth, press my fingers together, and what happens happens. Sometimes all there is, is space. Othertimes I gain an understanding. Sometimes I would like an answer from my subconscious/spirit. Sometimes I focus on areas of pain within my body but that tends to happen naturally anyway, that pain feels warmth or relief. Othertimes I ask for something from myself like more empathy and I spend some time with those thoughts on what comes up. This thread and my argument was likely a result of me seeking the abilty to feel more, and its only as I type this I realise that's what is happening.

Gratitude for this. @Ulax I meditated on it yesterday, these last few days for the first time in years. I asked and wanted to know when I had hurt someone. So it didn't linger with them. I can't stop mistakes or hurting someone inadvertently but I did want to not be blind to when it had happened. Thanks for your words. @mw711 Are you afraid of what will happen, who you will become or what you will do when you bicker? My father and I bickered every day from about 6 to 26. It was only as I entered my 30's and he his 60's that we slowly mellowed. Its not the end of the world if you bicker, things don't break, or become usually unrepairable. If you talk to people, give them time, space and honesty. Trust and a sense of the relationship between you both can build in even the most tempestuous ones. It may never be flowers and roses but I should thank him because between our bickering he's taught me that.

Maybe we or I see what we don't like and concentrate on that more than is necessary, which skews our bias. Its very easy over an internet forum to only see flat words and no emotion or context behind them. Which means the response can be sharp, especially when it triggers emotion and tries to funnel understanding into text. I can't feel what you are trying to convey to me when you reply. I can only think, orange, rational, from the text sent. Voice helps bring context as does seeing the person talk, and even more being with them or knowing what is going on around them. If I heard your voice or knew you, your community and your backstory I would much more easily demonstrate green to you. On an aside, the internet initially was designed purely from a orange perspective by orange thinkers. Forum software designed in a green way might look and operate differently.