BlueOak

https://secretenergy.com/ *Please note I am not affiliated with the group, I was part of their community it in a previous form, so I cannot speak to how effective they are now, only that Sevan's videos are worth watching from time to time. But advice - practice acceptance of self before jailbreaking yourself

Yeah, I've been getting exactly that for not much longer than that, often while resting with my arms over while sleeping. Sometimes, it's intermittent, and sometimes, it's while sad. It's interesting to think that I may be carrying the sadness there specifically. I sleep in the recovery position that people put others in when they are injured, as it allows the best airflow, and weirdly as it rests the arms across the body it can irritate the muscle/heart in that area.

Everyone here is also stage beige. If they accept that part of themselves. My question is: What is fear?

For me: Reality = Patterns + Emotion + Thought and Action (Focus) + Reflection (Environment/Peer Group) I know people hate hearing it: You are the future. I repeat this so people don't fracture themselves as if it's a separate thing. It never is. Only in keeping exploring that concept do we reconnect with anything like what people are talking about here. The duality of free will vs fate doesn't exist in me anymore. There is just this. I could fold emotions into patterns or focus above, but neither would be fully true. Emotions can be focused or appear all by themselves, or be part of a pattern. Reflections can be due to focus, patterns, or emotions.

Putting large mammals aside that we can easily relate to, with trauma trapped in their nervous systems and memory. Even if we take an insect and pull off a leg, that will be a long moment of suffering. Further, you and I know I think that there is only this moment.

Let's flip it on its head then and make this very focused. Wanting to go back and change something is rejecting who you are. Wanting growth and exploration of you (existence) is the opposite.

Again saving 'me' would require the exact opposite. You don't save a self or a me by doing any of this. Existence is entirely dedicated to slowly doing the opposite. You have just chosen to come to a place to speed it up, and are experiencing contrast or resistance to it as the ego kicks back. My ego wants to kick back in a reflection, its been that kind of day for me. In whole and in part. If I was smart i'd wait till tomorrow to reply to you as it'll be a different one generated.

He's giving you the keys off the ride around again. Updated your last line: Maybe the real way to stop reincarnating is to all come together, stare at each other, and tell each other we don't exist until we stop existing.

The number one reason people reincarnate.

As another example, I did some meditation on healing the heart area for the second time, and I felt like it was vibrating very softly, where the nerves were being assisted. Much like a sound bath. I have mild pain in my heart area from time to time.

I find the parts of me holding onto patterns or emotions and integrate them using my own adapted version of teal swans completion process. (More direct and adaptive, less of a visualised routine). This can only occur when I am aware of them. This quite often has a physical symptom attached. Either it already exists and has come to my awareness or is a result of healing, the emotion, pattern or trapped trauma Tiredness. Soreness in a muscle, the ribs are common, but sometimes other areas like the chest. Headaches. Difficulty sleeping full nights. Mild Colds when you detox something out of the body. As an example 13 years ago when I turned on more of my emotional centers again, it felt like someone had ripped open the nerves in my chest for a brief moment. I did a visualization/emotional inquiry on the area of the ribs a few weeks ago, and that felt like they were expanding or trapped nerves were unclenching around them. That was a fear pattern, an anxious freeze response trapped in that area of my body. I distinguish less between physical ailments and emotional states less and less the more I do this work. The two for me are inseparable.

Yes. I've got energy to burn. Exercise + Yoga + Vegan Diet (light foods) + Don't eat before bed + Detox + Don't Drink/Don't Smoke + Retain sexual energy etc. Means I have a lot of energy. Yet still come 5 p.m., it's getting darker and it's a push to keep going after work and housework is done. I was going to post something similar actually as I feel jaded more than tired, things are always slower than I want, perhaps the topic I need to talk about in another forum. But know at least you are not alone, we all have these struggles at some point. It helps to have a non-creative job if your side business is creative though, I've found that out before and again now.

Oh and if you want the paradox to close (a duality). Bliss/Suffering. Ignoring yourself or the bits in pain probably won't integrate them into a healthy life, but other times changing focus is enough to put you on the right track.

Going Meta. You are the universe observing a physical human walking around that you call your'self', or in this case the dude. If you feel you have no control and focus on that, you'll have no control. If you feel its a struggle for control, it'll be a struggle for control. If you feel like you have no influence and focus on that, you'll have no influence. Whatever feeling state you are in is directly manifesting around you, influencing the patterns running through your life, changed by our own perception and filters, and then renewed by our actions. Often we are unconscious of this but you've put this text here to tell yourself that you are now becoming more conscious of how you shape reality. You are seeing a series of patterns repeating in a cycle, that's how infinity is observed in physicality. You focus on the parts of the pattern you wish to observe more of, acting on them to recreate it. Never start to say well if I am the universe, why can't I win the lottery or some other odd language. Because its 13 million to one in the UK, that's why. You are those odds too. What you'll feel is the contrast between one pattern and another, and that's often called pain or discomfort when you want to make a change.

Having faith in you is extremely important. You'll see it showing up more in your reality. An all-powerful intelligence wasn't just watching your self-concept: It is you watching yourself. You still have separation between you and you, where none exists. The self concept you have is inside your observable reality, but not you watching the reality. We find these separations throughout this kind of introspection, often they can be quite subtle at times. The harder bit you'll soon realise is, nobody was responsible for any suffering you've been through but you. That's the bit that's tough to take or understand at first, because we live long enough we experience suffering. It can be enough to repel people from this realisation at all. We can want to point at the illness, or the abuser, or the tyrant and say no that was responsible, but they are all you too. Try not to slip into identifying with the self again when realising this, so you don't start blaming a self that doesn't exist, because talking about 'yourself' and 'you' (or the self and the I AM) are two distinctions its helpful to keep in conversation while going through this, even if they too must eventually collapse together as one whole in practice and understanding.

Yeah true, a bit small but could have been an excellent test for the equipment everyone is designing.

Everyone kicking themselves asteroid mining isn't a thing yet, this has to be the best opportunity to get some exotic metals they've ever had. Could be anything though, I guess.

This is great news because you have become conscious of it to the point you can feel it held in your body. It was always a part of you. Oh and healing like this can be quite tiring, its natural. Sit with this part of yourself and allow it, feel as deeply into it as you can for as long as needed. No distractions. Then see what comes up. I don't want to bias what comes next. It could be a part of yourself to protect, a part that wants to protect you. It could teach, or be taught or both. It could need comfort, or to comfort. It could be lost, or a childhood piece that's been scared to split in two, or unable to express itself, or been rejected by you your entire life because of the fear. Healing, helping etc. My usual method is. Feel the emotion fully. Visualise if there is an image there, sometimes there is, and sometimes there isn't. Be there for yourself in whatever way works, Trust you'll know what to do next. Being there will begin to improve things because so far you haven't been able to. I usually encourage and remain open, treating it as a part of me I wish to connect with again in whatever capacity it needs to. I often visualize myself when I am younger and whatever state this emotion is showing me, in whatever way it is. Sometimes it's bigger than me and leading me, often I am there for it, and sometimes we are equal in the visualization. If there is no visualization don't worry at all, feeling and allowing the emotion itself might be the point. There is no wrong visualization or wrong approach. I've visualized baby me walking around 200 feet tall crushing its problems, or a broken me on a street corner that I could barely see and sat with, more often than anything, a scared or injured younger me in a situation. Othertimes I just felt to a completely blank mind. Only after all that I ask that part of myself in my mind if it wants to integrate fully with me, rather than being a separate part, I don't insist, I ask and allow for whatever happens to happen. Sometimes you'll feel it physically, other times its mental or emotional. Here are the usual videos I drop: Here is a playlist on it above, have a browse. I do sometimes go through the psychological process described in the completion process and bring the piece back to a place it can stay eternally if it wants, if doesn't feel like fully integrating. I realise what this is doing inside myself is reconnection and allowance, given visualized form in my mind.

A standardized way to model reality. They'll always be improving models because infinity is undefinable and our awareness of it constantly shifting. It's useful if you can see people at multiple stages on the spiral in regards to different issues, and how they connect between them. This goes hand in hand with your ability to find some of the roots of what causes all behaviors in them. It slowly becomes impossible to ignore those things in yourself (because all of reality is you). So people have to be able at least to look at their own reflections to see it and communicate it to others effectively. Experts in fields with some communication skill will often put their expertise into a form that best suits a client, patient, friend whatever. They'll use whatever way they have modeled reality in their mind. By the time anything specifically like spiral dynamics is being taught in a practical form, we'll probably be discussing something else.

Let me preface this by saying America's help did save Ukraine a long and bloody resistance struggle like Ireland had to go through. America, like most of NATO, has given or sold on a lend-lease Ukraine APC's that were going to be scrapped. M113's for example, these are paper thin and not suitable for modern combat roles (but nor is a t-60). It was a shrewd move to sell off its old warehoused armor. Its given plenty of small arms, and mid-range artillery. Very few tanks. Very few Aircraft. Few long-range weapons with limits on them. Lots of air defense. And Training Someone made a joke that aging F-16's won't change the war, but then I reminded them Russia is using t-60's. This isn't America's best vs Russia. This is 50-year-old tech (with some notable exceptions) vs Russia in the hands of a relatively new, but now seasoned army. If this America vs Russia in a conventional fight there wouldn't be a ground war, most Russian assets, factories, logistics, and the ability to fight would be eliminated from long range without a shot being fired up close. Certainly anyone near Moscow or its eastern border. America doesn't fight like this, they hit you very hard, and then they send in mobile groups to finish you off, most of the time they don't even need to do that. I don't think you realize how inferior Russia is compared to America now militarily, or NATO as a whole without America. It hasn't been a superpower for decades, that's China's role now. Part of the Reason this is such a mess is Russia is trying to be what it was, when it's not. Its like English people (or anyone) who still think England's an empire, there are not as many of them left anymore, but they still think we can do it all ourselves, not accepting reality. Then we have the practical reality of Russia fighting an opponent that is 20 times stronger than Ukraine with very little war fatigue at all NATO, at the same time they are still fighting Ukraine. It's not happening.

Ukraine is already in a war with Russia. The USA has no forces in Russia. They have a guarantee with Ukraine to protect its sovereignty, signed when Ukraine gave up its nukes. Same with the UK. Most of the East of Europe understands how Russia thinks of their countries, as totally or partly Russian land so they too want them stopped here. Russia can barely handle Ukraine, they certainly can't handle anyone else.

Jumping on the bully? Russia is now the victim? For the last several months Russia has been winning an aggressive land war because they have more artillery and men for a static fight, and its using this line on a map to continually fire missiles, and rockets into Ukranian cities. They have been basing themselves in a safe zone all the while with impunity doing whatever the hell they wanted next door. Scooping up minorities and throwing them into a meatgrinder for a few KM each time. Somewhere along the line people realised how stupid that was. About the time they started attacking from the north again. If the airfields are gone no more air superiority> If the ammo is gone no more shooting. If the border is pushed back, no more artillery or invasions from the north. If Russia wants to continue to invade others it doesn't get to sit behind a wall of impunity, it actually gets to fight a war. They chose this, they continue to choose this.

You are talking to yourself. Always.

Russia does indeed consider Ukraine to be its soil. That is the primary reason why it's fighting the war. The best analysis I saw from the Russian perspective described it as a civil war in their eyes. Of course, in our eyes that position is absurd, which is why we arm Ukraine. Messing the Russians up more is the way you beat them in the war. You don't win wars by being nice to your opponent, you remove their ability (or reason) to fight, or they continue to.

There is a significantly easier way for this to be more generally understood, at least in part. Bearing in mind I just argued for the death penalty to be applied previously, so you do not misread this line, because nobody has countered with data that would change my mind. That is the acceptance of youth being attractive to men and women. I understand this doesn't cover all pedophiles who have harmed younger children, but it does allow you to understand why a man or woman might cross a line that varies country to country for example, showing us that the ethics of communities on the appropriate age differs country to country let alone person to person. I would guess that most pedophilia is in that grouping of teenage years. It is also the understanding of maturity, which is even less talked about. Talking exclusively about consenting adults as it is more palatable and communicable. We do define youth differently. For some it's an abundance of health, for some fertility, their responses to common problems or challenges you yourself have faced, awareness of themselves and life, energy levels, career stability, etc etc. What this leads me to understand is maturity is defined differently by each person, before even considering that maturity isn't even sought out by some people, and I see cases where pair bonding is argued to be easier without maturity or defined behavioral responses to intimacy, for example. It's a difficult subject that needs a lot more open discourse, but you have to preface the discussion with how horrific it is for all concerned. Having suffered a fair degree of abuse as a kid (none sexual), I can see why it provokes a strong response from individuals beyond the biological imperative of the species to protect children, especially when this isn't stated clearly.