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Thousands times. And my hemostasis couldn’t come back lol ? ?

Yes you could. But the one who is being cautious will die. Thats what i am saying.

Yea i got what you mean. But i am asking is, for instance, you have never learned anything (god, infinite, enlightenment, you) would you be, as before birth?

Is that being infinite or finite?

If i have never learned anything, including myself?

I have tried 10 gr dried shrooms with fresh lemon and dark chocolate. Trip last 20 hours. It wasnt madness, it was straight to source, nothingness. Felt like billlon of years passed away. Took away my all emotions. I felt like i went to before big bang and come back. Be very careful. If you are not ready surrender everything dont do it.

If you are worried, dont even try psychedelics. Because you aint ready yet.

When the seeker realizes that seeker is an illusion itself.

Krishanamurti, Peter Raltson, Papaji, Ramana Maharshi, Rumi, Echartolle, Buddha.

What is infinity? Is it a word that implies meaning and feelings? If you never learn it, will you be able to know what is it or experience it?

Yea i got. The distinction is between you operate as a person, enlightened one operate as nothing (eternal form. Nothing to lose or gain, free from suffering.

I am just saying sleeping is identical with waking state if you do not attach with thinking, and thats what being is, which is your eternal form. Only thinking makes the so called separation, and if you do not think or know there is no such a thing as thinking or not thinking, realization happens that now is the source. Whatever you do is identical because, nothing is happening, as deep sleep or before birth. Thats why it is called “awakening “ or “enlightenment “.

Learning or thoughts creates you, duality or universe. When you are in so called sleep, where is the so called universe, you (ego) or before birth?

When you do not attach with the thoughts, being enlightened and not being enlightened is identical, and thats enlightenment. Is true but for the description of being enlightened which I am looking for has to not work in absolute terms but rather relative terms. The difference between a person being enlightened vs someone not enlightened this distinction does exist. Distinction is exist because of “you” “think”. If you dont think there will be nor you nor thinking. And that’s enlightenment. Actually thinking is the biggest illusion, there is no such a thing as thinking. Thats why many teacher says you are already enlightened because you are already what you are. Just thoughts makes you so called go and come back. There is story of zen master and his student. The master asks the student can you bring a glass of water to me? And student goes to river to get a water and he met with a girl than get married and have 2 kids. Earthquake happens than that student losses his wife and kids, and he goes back to his teacher and tell him what happened to him and his family. And teacher tells the student, these are just all thoughts, i just asked you can you bring a glass of water to me?

you (ego or self) can not be enlightened, when you (ego or self) drops enlightenment happens. But You are always what You are, so called thought process makes the creation or duality not even. Person can not be enlightened when person dies or drops enlightenment happens. Enlightenment is operating from now. Just now. No past no future, just now, the moment. All the moment is identical if you don’t attached with the thoughts, including word of the “thought”.

Enlightenment simply where you already are as always been, never moved nor began.

They will never get it. ??

What fight club. Only when you loose everything you can let go. Than you are free.

What is phone?

You are not even exist.

Non duality can not be experienced. Non duality happens when the experiencer and experiencing dies. Therefore enlightenment can never be happened with psychedelics. Because thought process still goes on.

father is always father. Mother is just an temporary fiction not even

Now is the source. Only so called thoughts process socalled creates the ego. If you dont get attached with the source, you realize that nothing has ever happened. Enlightenment is simply being where you already are. Thats it. Additionally, you cant not be enlightened “you” must be dropped to be enlightened. Imo, It would be better metaphor for you. Let me know if you need any help.

Definitely. Seriously. Impossible not to cry. I and you too listen every song as a last song , see the people as last time seen, be with the family as last time, Truth burns and melts the ego. Life is too short and will never happen again. As you say, When everyday is last day than so called life is love, divine and bliss. Everything will be missed so much, thats the reason why living every second as last second is the heaven.

After the realization, I feel like so called mind completely turned on the opposite, day by day every meaning falls a part like death. I am getting far from attachments, which created ego me day by day more. And being more being day by day. It feels like completely opposite process from birth to adulthood. This is like from adulthood to going back to birth. I have a deep insight about this, when I forgot the last word of"me" I would be death as an ego. Because I will forget everything. Right now i am 80 percent distance with the body, which is just the thought. Therefore in my opinion my so called brain is dying. lol ? there is nothing physical here. Just thought. When completely disattacments with the thoughts that's the so called death. Day by day disattacments increases of course as an ego. Because it is just an illusion. It feels like following the shadow. Not even there.