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What's so extreme about not masturbating for a month?

I was vegan for almost 5 years but I never experimented with a raw vegan diet. Durianrider doesn't recommend a raw vegan diet, he thinks it's too hard to get enough calories completely raw without eating too much fats. Ultimately the vegan diet didn't work for me before, but I was more focused on high protein whole plant based foods and not so focused on high carb high calorie low fat intake. I dropped a lot of weight when I was a vegan. This is pretty relateable for me right now. That's me. But not on a vegan diet just on a conventionally healthy diet. But I'm definitely getting a bit stressed out by unusual physical symptoms like twitching, I don't have any tiredness though. But I do have some problems sleeping. I think maybe I have too much cortisol from excercising and I'm not able to regulate it without a lot of carbs, that's why Durianrider caught my attention a bit in a video where he talked about how sufficient sugar/carbs will plummet cortisol levels. Yeah, I've toned down my training and it helps a bit. I went to the gym today for the first time in a week. I started out with 2 whole body workouts per week before but that still stressed me out a bit too much, Day A/Day B type split with only a few compound movements like the one you recommended in that thread. That's what I'm planning on doing right now because it seemed to stress my body out a bit less than what I was previously doing. But it still doesn't feel like I'm 100% like I was a few months before. Right now I'm eating 1-2 meals per day. When I ate more meals than this my heartburn would become worse. I tried to manage my heartburn with Apple Cider Vinegar for a while and it did get rid off the heartburn but my body still didn't feel quite right, like I was having some sort of indigestion for hours after every meal instead of the heartburn. I eat stuff like Potatoes, Salmon, Kale, Quinoa, Spinach, Chicken Breast, Eggs, Tomatoes, Romaine Lettuce, Sardines, Pumpkin Seeds, Walnuts, Olive Oil, Whole wheat Pasta, Bananas, Kiwi fruits. This is my diet I swapped to after getting the symptoms, and this in combination with less rigorous excercise does seem to have helped the twitching a bit. But my acid reflux started getting worse so I had to reduce my meal frequency to 1-2 meals per day. So right now I'm basically intermittent fasting and eating nutrient dense foods.. Before the symptoms started occuring I was eating more plain stuff like Chicken Breast, White Rice, Green Beans and Spaghetti Bolognese with white pasta. And I was snacking quite a bit in between my meals with whey protein shakes, fruit and nuts. In hindsight I think how I ate before was a bit nutrient deficient and not varied enough. Now I think I'm eating quite well nutrient wise but it's not quite working well yet. Maybe I just need to give my body more time to adapt like Osaid's point about the body being able to adapt.

It isn't excactly the mainstream diet because the mainstream diet is refined carbs with fats/oil and protein. According to Durianrider the high fat content in the mainstream diet is the problem, not the refined carbs. He says refined carbs digests quickly, lowers cortisol(which helps recovery and reduces stress in the body), increases dopamine and serotonine and supplies the body with energy for an active lifestyle. He doesn't cook anything in oil, he simply eats extremly high carb(literally fruits & sugar for breakfast, rice & veggies for lunch, fruit/sweet potatoes for dinner style meals) and is very avoidant of high fat foods in general. He thinks intermittent fasting is a cope to deal with the fact that high fat meals are taxing for the body to digest. He thinks there's no need to give the body time to digest/rest with something like a fast if you eat his style of high carb diet because according to him it's easy enough on the body to digest that the body can recover properly at the same time. He thinks people using caffeine for preworkouts etc. is a cope for adrenal fatigue that stems from having high cortisol levels from training that then isn't regulated properly because of too low carb intake. His advice is to use high cortisol to push oneself during training and then to eat a lot of sugar/carbs afterwards to plummet the cortisol levels and put the body into a relaxed state. His advice is to eat more sugar and practically no fat/protein foods. Yeah, a trial and error process is what I've been going through these past weeks. I used to think Durianrider was just stupid but when you're struggling with health issues and you tried the conventional stuff you become more open minded to try new ideas. I've also ate a lot of simple carbs in my life but never without intake of protein and fats. When I was a vegan I used to cook everything in oil, I used to eat lentils, beans, chickpeas, tofu and other high protein plant based foods. I never tried relying heavily on refined carbs and excluding oils etc entirely. But recently I've been eating less carbs and had a bigger focus on protein, I don't know if this was the cause of my health issues but my health issues have definitely gotten worse eating this way. Jon Venus quit the vegan diet, then he came back and recently he quit it again claiming that it caused him joint pain, indigestion, cramps and other health issues as well as causing his son poor dental health. It was a while since I watched Vegan Gains now but last time I watched him he said his mental health was worse than ever, super depressed and he was going on some new antidepressant to see if it would help. He is still a vegan though. That's what I thought too, but according to Durianrider he doesn't eat protein or fats at all. He consumes no oils, no animal foods, eats avocados but not on a regular basis. It really seems like he is mostly eating fruits, refined carbs, sugar, glucose syrup and some occassional avocados and nuts when he is dropping too low in bodyweight. His carb/protein/fat ratio is likely 90/10/10 if not even more carbs than that. But despite the fact he is ripped and has amazing cardio. Sure, he's not a bodybuilder by any means, but he's physically very fit for his age. He ran a 2:38 marathon on his weird all carb diet and he's not really a runner but a cyclist. I realize his diet might not be the best for bodybuilding though, I'm reading Arnold Schwarzenegger autobiography atm and he recommends a lot of eggs, milk and meat.

Mother, you had me But I never had you I, I wanted you You didn't want me So, I I just got to tell you Goodbye Goodbye Father, you left me But I never left you I needed you You didn't need me So, I I just got to tell you, mm Goodbye Goodbye Children, don't do What I have done I couldn't walk And I tried to run So, I I just got to tell you Goodbye Goodbye Mama don't go Daddy come home Mama don't go Daddy come home Mama don't go Daddy come home Mama don't go Daddy come home

I'm in on NNN, don't see why not.

Nice, I really liked this one. I like the moody melody & dark mood/chord progression. Made me think of this one Another one I love

Eraserhead Mulholland Drive Blue Velvet Wild At Heart The Sixth Sense Sweeney Todd Edward Scissorhands

This guys channel is good, many good videos. He was addicted to nicotine and weed and now works with helping people quit addiction.

While not a complete solution to your problem, this video has helped me in times of dealing with a lot of stress. Doing this when you feel you need to release tension that is building up is great.

Yeah that sucks if you liked those. I was never that into the live titles myself so I didn't care much for them being gone. But there were several other features where I had to mess around in the registry editor and do a couple of workaround to keep sane for sure..

There are a bunch of settings that they changed in Windows 11 from the default windows style layout. For example this: But also a few more things like this that you'll need to fix/follow tutorials on if you want more of the classic windows layout & menus and not have your Windows 11 look like an Apple device. As you can see in the video he also has his taskbar icons in the center bottom of the screen. That's another thing where it comes like that by default where as previous Windows versions would have the taskbar icons to the left. There are more of these things you'll have to change if you want it to navigate more like a classic Windows computer. I can't recall them all because it was a few months since I got Windows 11 now. But most things are changeable so whenever u run into something where ur like wtf is this u can usually just youtube or google how to revert that to a more default Windows variation.

Ze Frank is a classic

Sounds like he's socially maladapted and mentally disturbed. Not that this lessens the scariness of the situation for you. But if you view the creep as a mentally ill person who can't control himself rather than someone who is in control and wants to harm you maybe it can help you come to terms with the encounter and feel a bit better. I have recently dealt with a narcicist who has exploited me before and one of the things that helped me become emotionally resilient to his manipulative attacks was to realize that he's hurting deep inside and this is a coping mechanism he has picked up unconsciously to try and deal with the pain, he's really lost in life, his behaviour is outside of his control and he really didn't mean you no harm, he just knows no other way because his mind is disturbed, he is sick. The same goes for the guy you encountered, he is sick and needs psychiatric care. And while it's really uncomfortable and scary to be on the recieving end of a sexual harassment like you were, it's a bit like getting in some sort of an accident, it's just very unfortunate that it happened, not much you can do about an accident. But it can still definitely get your mind running on fight or flight mode and you can get a lot of thoughts about what could have happened or what can happen in the future, it can trigger stress and panic in the mind and body. That's a natural reaction to getting into an uncertain and potentially dangerous situation. I suggest you take care of your mind and body the following days. Make yourself cozy, give yourself time to relax and do yoga or some other stress relief activity. Light a candle, listen to some music. Give yourself some time to return to a relaxed state of being.

I am, but you gotta do some modifications to make it bearable.

My first time playing Minecraft was such a cozy experience. I remember it was raining outside irl as well as in the game and I felt warm inside when I was finally safe in my shelter on survival mode. Such a cozy game!

Rayman 3 is too good

Hmm. I might have been a bit harsh to Talking with famous people. I do like ENTPs overall and I tend to like weed smokers, I have been one myself in the past. One of my best friends is an ENTP and Talking with famous people has that same ENTP charm that makes him very likeable. But it still does bother me a bit that he does multiple bong hits while typing people, because it seems to me like he genuinely gets sucker punched high in some of those typing sessions. But seeing that he comes from a background of doing harder drugs I guess the weed is a healthier coping mechanism. It's just a bit unethical in my mind if his heavy weed use results in mistyping clients who have paid for typing sessions. I like his girlfriend, she reminds me a lot of my sister. Regarding CSJ, his argument for INFPs being the biggest problem is that he thinks INFP is the smartest(most brilliant is how he puts it) out of all the types and that they can save the world but that they are too lazy to the point that they're wasted potential and stuck in idealism. This seems to make CSJ very upset. I get his argument but I feel like he doesn't communicate it in a good way in his premium content. When I watched the premium content it just made me feel bad without getting much insight at all. He was also repeating himself a lot. Over and over he is alternating between talking about how disgusting it is that INFPs are so lazy and how Robert Greene is the greatest human being of our time. What CSJ doesn't seem to comprehend is that the laziness is a coping mechanism for dealing with being an INFP. It isn't so easy all the time. I wish he could be a bit more understanding in his content.

Status update: My problem is still remaining. It is not as intense as before, but it's still remaining and impacting my sleep. No spasms unless resting, either sitting down or especially lying down. I mostly feel good during the day, no spasms, unless lying down for rest and also some while sitting at my computer. But especially at night when I'm tired, the spasms increase in frequency and intensity, although it is better now than it was before. Also my heartburn has made a return and it has been working as a tag team with the muscle spasms to disrupt my sleep. It is hard to sleep if I don't workout, do yoga, eat healthy and avoid screen time for 2-3 hours before sleep. If i don't do all of these steps I only seem to get 3-4 hours of sleep now almost guaranteed. Eventhough I do all of the things I mentioned, yoga, working out, cardio, eating healthy, avoiding screen time and going to bed at 9-10 pm I still often only sleep til 1-2 am then I wake up, usually with heart burn symptoms. Then my muscle spasms make it harder for me to fall back asleep again. These are the hings I've tried so far and how they've worked: Electrolyte power: I tried an electrolyte powder containing Sodium Citrare, Potassium Citrate, Magnesium Citrate, Calcium Lactate, Sodium Chloride, Stevia sweetener. It seemed to make the problem worse. Shortly after taking the powder the spasming would begin, so I've stopped taking it for now. Magnesium Taurate: I tried taking magnesium taurate one day. It's hard yet for me to tell wether it was beneficial or not because I've only tried it once so far. However, my reaction to it was so intense that I'm not sure if I want to take it again for a while, maybe I'll try another form of magnesium/other brand. I took it at night before sleep. 1-2 hours after intake I started feeling mentally stimulated. I was feeling nausea/confusion as well. Anxiety was increasing, I had to run to the bathroom a couple of times, had what felt like anxiety induced shits. I didn't have diarrhea but I had to go badly a couple of times and I felt very anxious, fight or flight mode kicked in. A pretty bad anxiety remained for a few hours, I felt mentally stimulated and couldn't sleep. I had to focus on my breath and surrender to it all in fetus position in my bed, I finally managed to let go and be the observer of the situation and my anxiety melted away and I had a couple of blissful hours of relief before falling asleep. Then the following day my nose was very clogged up, I had a lot of mucus and couldn't breathe through my nose. I felt as if I had the flu or something, I was mentally exhausted. I had some randoms body aches just like when having the flu. That lasted for 2 days, but I was feeling increasingly better, both mentally I was feeling very splendid, but also the muscle spasms got better, less frequent and intense. But I can't tell if the spasms were getting better because I was not doing any excercise or because of the magnesium taurate dose. Changing up my workouts: I have decreased my workout frequency as well as intensity. I am now doing full body with just a couple of compound movements. Then some relaxing yoga in the evenings and light jogging 2 times per week. This seems to help somewhat but it feels like it will take a long time for me to make any progress training wise like this. I tried pushing myself with some progressive overload on one of my whole body workouts and in the evening the spasming was getting worse again. But the workouts feel good and are less taxing mentally than my old style of working out. Diet: I have been trying to include more magnesium rich and healthy foods to see if that can help without giving me the extreme side effects the magnesium taurate supplement did. What I've been eating lately is as follows, I've cut out all that I consider junk. I now eat what I think might be pretty clean, in no particular order: Quinoa, Spinach, Turkey Breast, Salmon, Kale, Pumpkin Seeds, Walnuts, Bananas, Potatoes, Red lentils, Kiwi fruits, Whole wheat pasta, Sushi, Olive oil, Apples, Sardines, Bell peppers, Cucumber, Romaine Lettuce, Cod Liver Oil. This is all I've been eating the past week. I also drank a glass of milk once and ate some yoghurt once. I have been feeling good during the day for the most part, I think my diet improvments have made a positive impact on the spasming so it could be that the increased magnesium intake from food is helping. I have a lot of energy and am motivated to excercise and do yoga. My mind is mostly peaceful, I love running and feeling my breath. But at night when I'm lying down to rest the spasms are still there. Even though they have improved somewhat. And at night my acid reflux acts up too, it wakes me up in the middle of the night. Apple Cider Vinegar: To deal with my acid reflux I've reincorporated 2 tbsp of apple cider vinegar per day. Before I used to have sleep trouble from drinking it because it used to make me feel stimulated in the night, but it did solve my acid reflux completely during the time I was taking it at night. But now I'm drinking it in the morning & at lunch instead. I have no trouble falling asleep because of being stimulated from ACV now it seems. But so far it's not helping my acid reflux at night much either. However, it does make my digestion feel great whenever I use it. When I first take it in the morning I get some slight weird feeling and anxiety, I start feeling stimulated, like I drank a cup of coffee or something. Then that feeling becomes more subtle, the anxiety dissappears and my digestion kickstarts and seems like it's working better than normal in the early part of the day when I'm using it. When I'm not using ACV I have some indigestion/burping throughout the day, especially if I eat a big meal. I'm guessing it's tied to the acid reflux. I can't seem to wrap my hands around my health, it feels like everytime I try putting out one fire another one appears. Really frustrating, I'm writing this after waking up at 2 am from acid reflux and then having some muscle spasms. My plan right now moving forward is to try a couple more days of Apple Cider Vinegar in the early part of the day and to potentially look for another form and brand of magnesium to see if I can take it without getting so adverse side effects.

So I've been upping my workout intensity and consistency, and I'm making progress. However, as often seems to happen in life, I've encountered an unexpected obstacle. When I'm resting, sitting down, but especially when I'm lying down to sleep at night I can feel my muscles having tiny spasms/twitching. In my thighs, calves, lats, back, and sometimes in my abs and even my feet too. Which area is spasming/twitching varies from day to day, yesterday and today it's been mostly in the thighs and calves when sitting & lying down, sometimes when sitting down my thighs are shaking slightly and sometimes occasional muscle twitches in my calves too. The twitching seems to come on in the evening on deadlift or squat day or the day after and lasts a few days before subsiding. It comes back again everytime I hit deadlift or squats which is pretty annoying because I deadlift 1 time/week and squat 2 times/week. It makes sleeping very annoying. I'm loving my workouts, I'm pretty careful with technique and I'm not progressively overloading too fast. I'm never 1 rep maxing, I'm in a 4-8 rep range on squats and a 4-6 rep range on deadlifts per set, 3-4 sets of each. Things I've tried so far: drinking more water, supplementing 1 mg b12(methylcobalamine) daily, eating more potassium(bananas, kiwis, potatoes, hitting 100-200% DRI daily), eating more salt(pink himalayan), apple cider vinegar before sleep, doing yoga for stress relief. Each solution seems to help somewhat, but they only make the twitching/spasming less frequent and intense, it doesn't go away completely until a few days of rest have passed. This sucks a bit because I want to go back to the gym, it makes me feel good and I want to keep making progress. But having twitching/spasms every night is impacting my ability to fall asleep so I'm falling asleep late and fking up my sleep schedule. Has anyone encountered something similar when working out? Did you find any way to fix this or do you just have to live with this until it eventually goes away..?

I didn't know that. I have not looked into Anthony Williams work despite being aware of him. I will look more into the matter.

Sadhguru also says Apple Cider Vinegar is poison, he has some weird takes.

Perhaps the LSD is letting you know it's time for a break to work on yourself through other means. It sounds like you were already shown a lot in your earlier LSD trips, maybe it's time to focus on integration. How do you feel after the dark trips are over? How long does the despair last, is it worse on the come up or does it get worse throughout the trip? When trips start to turn dark like this I take it as a sign I'm in need for a break and time for sober integration of what I've learned, time to work on myself. Yoga, meditation, exercise, working on your nutrition, sleep habits, relationships, carreer, to name a few different possibilities of what you could work on moving forwards to help grow yourself and help release eventual emotions that are stored in the body.

I think Talking with famous people is an ENTP. I think CSJ is an ENTJ. He's smoking a cigar and has a similar talking style like my ENTJ friend. The two people I know who smoke cigars is an ENTJ and an ESTP. CSJ typed Talking with famous people as an ESTP. Talking with famous people typed CSJ as an ESTJ. I think they're both somewhat dishonest with their typing of eachother and doing it mostly to annoy eachother. But I think ESTP is closer to Talking with famous people than ESTJ is to CSJ. But I still think they're both just trolling eachother, which I don't necessarily like. It would be nice if two of the most prominent voices on MBTI took their roles a bit more seriously. I have watched a lot of both their channels and they both have some golden content as well as some flaws. I bought the CSJ premium INFP content and was not impressed with it, I feel he doesn't like INFPs and sadly it shines through in the premium content. Some of it was insightful but some of it was just downright hurtful and didn't feel like it was well intentioned. The premium content is mostly a lot of rambling about how INFPs are the biggest problem with mankind and how basically the only actualized INFPs are Robert Greene and Keanu Reeves. The premium content was not very relateable for me. However, I did find a lot of the content on his YouTube channel very valuable, probably more so than Talking with famous people. Talking with famous people although very theoretically knowledgeable on MBTI, is just too high for his own good all the time. He seems to me like he's a tormented soul dealing with repressed emotions. He's doing multiple bong rips in the middle of his typing session and typing people way too confidently, just to later completely retype them when they do a retyping session. Some of his typing sessions are good but in some of them he just goes for too many bong rips and as a fairly experienced weed smoker I can tell when he gets too high to properly type. It feels irresponsible to me. Some of his typing sessions I think his typing felt way off. With that being said he too has his nuggets of gold on his channel. But man he should really stop getting super blazed when typing people live. I think he doesn't have a healthy relationship with weed or drugs in general, being that he also made a drug tier list where he if I recall correctly recommended people to try opiates and meth.

Nice to have you back man. You seem to be on a good path with the retreat and your other upcoming plans. I'm also working through repressed emotions right now. I think most people these days have repressed emotions resulting in stress, anxiety, depression and physical ailments. I agree with you about intergenerational trauma. I think it's more common than not, and the more sensitive the child is, the more traumatic 'normal' disciplining and upbringing can be. I became aware of this in July when I was triggered to tears by my parents during my visit there, despite having a normal upbringing my relationship with my parents is complex. My mother is a very stressed person in general and my dad is emotionally unavailable. In other words they both likely carry intergenerational trauma that's manifested itself in different ways and it's been passed on to me unconsciously. I've been doing yoga regularly the past months and it has brought up emotions and memories of events which were traumatic to me when I was a child. I now know the root cause of many of my problems and just knowing that has been a big relief. Although I'm still in the middle of the healing process, I now believe growth is possible as long as I keep up my Yoga practice, keep accepting and letting go of the past and getting in touch with my repressed emotions. There is a power there waiting to be unleashed. Good luck with all your endeavours!