Vercingetorix

I'm 29, Live in the tiny country of Israel. I have B.Sc In physics and was accepted to a masters degree in Applied physics. I did the life purpose course and from it I understand that my passion is consciousness work and helping others, and also creating beautiful art to an extent. what I'm good at is understanding people and their problems and being emphatic. So my current LP is something like "help people solve their life problems through empathy and raising of their consciousness ". The thing is I spend too much time of my life in my room / university and I feel that I do not know the world well enough to know if those are truly my passions or if there are others things I may like more. I feel I really lack world experience! on the other hand I also lack work experience, I didn't really work for 5 years (1 year of law degree that I dropped and 4 years of physics) so I am quite hungry to earn money. So I have some options but can't decide. My first option is to continue my Physics studies (Two years). Pros: - I find the studied quite interesting (although hard), - I think it will open many doors for different career paths (although i'm not sure exactly what) - It will sure as hell challenge me and grow me - I'll have to be a lab instructor and to do my thesis project - which is a kinda scary for me) . cons: - My motivation for physics is not so great, I studied it because I thought it could help me understand the world but obviously all I feel is that I know it's mechanics but nothing more really. I don't think my Life purpose is in this direction, but maybe it will give me tools to follow my life purpose through science? - I don't feel this path works on my strengths - I feel like physics comes hard for me, like I'm not so talented in it like other people I know. 2nd option: Programming course for high tech - it's a very intensive and hard programming course - 6 months long, 5 day per week, 9 hours every day of studies, but when you finished you almost guaranteed to find a nice job in software development in a high-tech . the course is FREE but you are obliged by contract to work through the company for two years after the course (they get a share of your salary). pros: - after 6 months I get a good salary - Tabula rasa start compared to physics, a new city to live in - Programming is a useful tool that could help me later (I think) - after 2 and a half years I will save money that could help me pursue my LP - could help me achieve my minor LP of creating art (a video game on spirituality :D) Cons: - not directly connected to my Life Purpose, I will probably postpone stuff for 2.5 years - not sure if in a high tech job I will have the time and energy left to pursue my passions 3d choice: pursue / find my passions So like I said what i'm most passionate about is finding truth (consciousness work) but whats the practical things to do with it? become a meditation instructor? travel to India for a year and find a guru/teachers? go live in a monastery for some time? (if you have more ideas they are welcomed! ). on the other hand most people here seem to separate LP and Enlightenment work, maybe it's better? another option, (Like many here...) I guess that I could achieve my current LP by becoming a coach. but for some reason where I live (family and friends) coaches don't have good reputation so it makes me hesitate. I need to heavily research this, maybe move to the US :D. what's the qualities of a good coach? Another option is to go see the world, I have a US and a french passports so I can go live and work in the US or in Europe for a year or so, to see the world and know myself, but I'm not sure how to do this exactly, try to find a job somewhat related to to my LP? I'm not sure where to start and how to research this. Again I would LOVE to hear your ideas / advice. Pros: - follow/understand my passion in the most direct way - getting to know the world cons: - no clear picture of what I want exactly, - probably won't be able to save money (of course I can also play with the options, Maybe First to do the programming course and only when I have some money/decent job to follow my LP full force?) would LOVE to get feedback\ opinions, what would you do in my situation?

@Leo Gura Damn, accurate read of me I'm sitting and contemplating the stuff. [after two days...] I came to the conclusion there are two issues: 1) In a way I really feel like a child who doesn't know the world, I really lack world experience, and that makes me unsure of my life purpose. So I need to fix this first (or together with pursuing my LP), I will focus on experiencing the world while finding, researching, and refining my LP. 2) LP vs Enlightenment the only thing that burns in my heart is yearn for Truth, if there is any greater truth I must find it. It was the theme of my life since I was a small child trying understand existence, then when about 18 years old I bumped into the idea of enlightenment and was hooked, Tried a lot of different meditation techniques and other stuff but ultimately didn't feel I progress in anyway so I kinda lost faith in it after a few years (except in practicing self-awareness which I found beneficial so I continued to do ). After that I decided to pursue the closest thing I thought will lead me to truth, physics. But like i said now i see the futility of it bringing me any closer to understanding my existence. And when I bumped into your videos about half a year ago I finally understood Enlightenment and what it entails much much better then the first time so I have the motivation again. But my intuition right now is telling me to not go live in a monastery, just to keep practicing, reading, maybe snorting and deepening my understanding on the subject. So I feel I know what to do right now. bring it on

It's the only thing you did regarding the issues? I would think they are very beneficial when combined with Actual active practice.

@Skenderberg ok thanks, I'll try it!

@Kvath sounds like it's the right decision, good luck! What's your blog going to be about?

@Skenderberg the point I hit, what is it? I can hit the edge of a table for example? A stick?

INFP I scored ENFJ and ISFP with only F dominant but reading about the traits I'm convinced I'm INFP.

Interesting, how to do the chop exactly? What to hit, for how long?

~30 hours of watching videos ~10-15 hours of exercises You watch online. It's full of insights Like his YouTube videos, some of the advice, at least for me, was pure Gold. You will know yourself better and what's important to you so it will be much clearer what you want in life. You will come out with a sentence that describe your LF. Anyway, Do it in less than 50 days then you will able to refund it if you are not satisfied.

@DimmedBulb do you have experience with other girls? Asking because sometimes when you have nothing to compare it's hard to say if it's "true love" or "first love". It's noble of you to want to save her and help but why do think you can do better than the first time? Maybe you need to work on yourself first for some time and only after growing and gaining more experience decide what to do? I'm not sure I'm getting the situation exactly though

Wow, interesting. What are your feelings towards her?

Have you decided yet? I would say suck it up and do it. It seems to me that you should finish your degree just so who knows it might be useful one day and it's always looks good in a resume, and for the sake of finishing things. One semester is really not a long time, think of all the time you invested in your studies, at least you will get recognition for it and you won't feel you wasted all that time. It's just 14 weeks!

How old are you? Did you see her in real life before? Can you go and take care of her for a period of time before deciding? Is this a romantic relationship? There is kind of consensus about relationships that they tend to not work if the man put the woman before anything else, that a man should have something more important than his woman, otherwise she will resent him. Leo in his dating videos and David deida in "The way of the superior man" advice so.

I would suggest doing the Life purpose course as there is definitely a lot of focus on motivation in it. It would also help you understand yourself and whats important for you, and that can really help in your indecisiveness. If you see yourself wasting your time doing unproductive things that sure as hell you should do it instead.

@Vibivub thanks, sounds interesting right now I'm just a hopefully Videogame Designer

@Live Life Liam Thanks a lot, I'll check out Journey and "the Stanley parable". to be honest I too do not own now any gaming equipment and the height of my gaming career was 10 years ago, but many of my best memories were during those days (games like the Gothic series ;D ), and I still feel a huge excitement thinking of being involved in quality games.

@Alphard If you have different view on the subject, can you share it?

@Leo Gura seems wise So for the sake of communication, someone who experienced a "no ego experience" is an enlightened person and someone who transcended his wife completely is "fully enlightened"?

Eckhart tolle enlightenment experience for example would classify as "complete enlightenment" in your book?

you are a hero and you are on a heros journey, with obsacles and monsters and boses and a holy grail in the end. This moment that you reached right now is maybe one of your boses. Its here to test if you really want to achieve what you want in life, its here to test your resolve, how badly do you want to achieve what you want in life. Its compeletly up to you to overcome it if you want.

what are your thoughts and feeling when you try to converse? Basically you think something and see it as a "truth" - you believe your thoughts. what if I told you your thoughts live in a different dimension than reality, they are just in your head and you don't have to believe them! So there is reality and you are projecting on it your own thoughts and creating a different reality that is usually very negative and thus demanding a negative emotional reaction. But it is not reality! because just as easily you could have noticed a positive observation about the situation. So you have to recognize that thoughts are just in your head!! they are not the reality, and then you can react to what's really happening and not to the distorted reality that your mind invented that required the awkward reaction.

You have to ask her how she views the relationship. It's very bad for you to be in love with someone in a relationship.

@Sarah_Flagg haha I see! But doesn't such things seem to contradict Leo's approach? when you die the ego dies, how could it communicate with the living world if it doesn't exist anymore? and anyway why would someone be interested in such things even if they are possible? isn't it just another distraction in your way to higher consciousness? do you know of the One Million dollar paranormal challenge by James Randy? https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/One_Million_Dollar_Paranormal_Challenge

@Sarah_Flagg I am also a skeptic simply because haven't experienced anything "extraordinary" in my life, and the fact that such claims are seem to be easy to prove scientifically, and if you can prove them scientifically you will get a Nobel prize, a lot of money and recognition and on top of that you will help science advance to it's next stage! what are your thoughts on that?

I have these periods of quite intense suffering, I guess It can be called anxiety? mostly it's when I'm alone, and don't talk to people for a few days, and my negative thoughts are getting the better of me. I tried a lot to solve this through mindfulness and being aware, not identifying with my thoughts/feelings, just watching, but so far my conclusion is that somewhat I only worsen the situation by doing so, my attention keeps energizing the negative thoughts/feeling. Only trick for me that seems to work, most of the time, is seeing my negative thoughts, and telling myself, well yes maybe theses thoughts are true, but it's not for me to to tell if they are, it's not for me to judge them (the thoughts or people/situations). it must works together with an emotional "giving up" as well. (Then sometimes I follow it by saying, don't worry, trust the universe (or I guess god works too if you believe) , it will take care of you! It must work in a emotional level to work of course). why I think it works? our mind is a tool to solve problem, doing a great job when used correctly. The problem arise when It try to solve a problem that he can't solve, or a problem that doesn't exist, or a problem that he is the own culprit of. then he keep trying and trying and trying, without success because he can't solve it, and the frustration and suffering and anxiety arise. The the solution is to make him understand that he can't solve it, and for me it works by telling him it's not his job ("it's not for you/me to judge"). thoughts? does this resonate with anyone else experiences?