@Voodoo Child im too borderline so i completely understand how it would be going for you.
As the name suggests , its a border between neurosis and psychosis . The person will very neurotic but not completely psychotic &. Possess have more possibility to become one more then normal healthy people.
Its like a cocktail of all usual disorders - depression , anxiety , ocd , ptsd n all.
The person have major mood swings which can be problem for them and people around . And suggests that chronic feelings of emptiness are reflective of a dysregulation of identity. Feels empty inside or lack of emotions almost all the time. We do have less facial expressions because of that. It majorly stems from having a traumatic childhood as in my case too , i did have a very dysfunctional childhood. It do comes from neurological issue then from just having a bad psychology which makes it more difficult from treating.
The scans revealed that in many people with BPD, 3 parts of the brain were either smaller than expected or had unusual levels of activity. These parts were:
the amygdala – which plays an important role in regulating emotions, especially the more "negative" emotions, such as fear, aggression and anxiety
the hippocampus – which helps regulate behaviour and self-control
the orbitofrontal cortex – which is involved in planning and decision making
Problems with these parts of the brain may well contribute to symptoms of BPD.
The development of these parts of the brain is affected by your early upbringing. These parts of your brain are also responsible for mood regulation, which may account for some of the problems people with BPD have in close relationships.
Also as being neglected in childhood they face problem trusting people and are feared they people would leave them . They might not say it but they do fear that people will leave them now or someday.
You might have seen her mood swings too. And her anger outburst too suddenly out of no where . We do have serious action taking tendencies , suicidal intentions and self harm behaviours as of the the symptoms. They even do take sudden serious actions just to make other feel something . And its not like they we are not aware of our issues . We are completely aware of our problems completely but face difficulty to work on.
Bro ya it will be pretty toxic for you but even if you leave her still she'll still be clinging to you and will try to be around you . As you might have seen it would be a big deal for her to move on from things and people.They are also very hypersexual, they have loads n loads of negative coping mechanism to deal with their empty feeling.
I don't hear jordan peterson much but he do says things about bpd which is very accurate
" A person with bdp can analyse , understand , contemplate , reflect back , strategize but they do face difficulty to perform or take action "
Which u might have seen sometimes her words may won't match her actions at all. They might dream big but do nothing , take zero actions or even if they do they leave things in between. As for me forming a habit is the most difficult thing to do. Person also gets paranoid very easily.
Hearing voices as hallucination. This is because hearing voices a sensory experience that isn't real. Delusions are beliefs, not experiences, so hearing voices would not be a delusion . Which i personally never faced but people with bdp do sometimes if the problems gets very serious and left ignored.
They also disassociate with reality sometimes which makes it difficult for them to differentiate between reality and their thinking. And face confusion a big times. Does she gets confused and asked u what to do a lots of times ?
But they do have a good side like people with bpd are natural highly intelligent and are very creative.
Professional and so called phds suggests that it can't be treated completely but symptoms can be improve which is utter nonsense. They themselves don't know how to treat it because it's very less studied and researched. Thay says just what the have read and books .
Its is completely treatable just a good and genuine psychologist is required who can help them in long run.
Dont get in all those limitations and doctor's suggestions much , they"ll fill you mind with all nonsense.
Does she face difficulty in socializing ? Like just being connected to you only and trying to avoid other people and friends ?
I personally have come a long long way and can say without any doubt the person can cured the only thing is that they themselves want to recover from it and is willing to put lots of effort . If not and keep making excuses all the time you can't do anything about it and will affect you more and more.
Break up ties is the only way if she don't put effort on herself . You will be too stressed and she herself too & will keep attracting stress and trauma at the point where it would be too late.
Psychiatric medication can create more problem , keep her away from them instead of it you can go for various nootropics , psychedelic therapy and dbt .
People and doctors are generally too scared deal with a person with bdp. Its not that because of it too complex , just because of its not that much famous like ptsd , ocd , anorexia and all and they themselves have very less or no knowlegde about it .
