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Well, whatever you want to do. I did assume 1G was a higher dose it is, I looked up the dose information and it's lower than I expected. However, keeping it like that might prove difficult in the long run if your life is not fulfilling in all other areas, you could up the dose or create reasons to take it more often to compensate for the lack in other areas of your life, I've seen that happen. If everything else is fine and you find it benefits you, then go ahead. Though I personally have no problem if someone is taking any substances, I've tried out over 60 different substances myself, and I definitely am not trying to moralize you for taking something, it's just that there is a real potential for the usage spiralling out of control if your life is not fulfilling enough as it is. One question that remains is that if you take it that often won't you encounter notable tolerance that will lead to diminishing effects, wouldn't you want to up the dosage at that point?

Most of the high dose trips on erowid can be summarized as 'I felt like I was dying' or 'I thought I was dead/dying'. The kinds of experiences are surprisingly given the dosage usually not that profound even when compared with the kinds of trips I would get at far lower dosages myself.

I disagree. I realized that I am God within 6-8 trips with no previous knowledge of the potential of transpersonal experiences and no previous relation to spirituality or meditation. I originally started tripping recreationally. It was purely due to me surrendering to the trip. After that all my trips were awakening related. God isn't hiding anywhere, whether it takes you a year or 80 years is up to you, but no hurry. Though obviously my experiences at that time were not total, I still completely grasped nonduality and Love with no previous views on these topics.

I love my waking reality more than I love deep sleep, though I do highly enjoy dreams due to them offering so much novelty that I just cannot see in waking reality.

I don't think any substance is going to be good taken this frequently. You have the issue of tolerance, potential addiction, and so on. Infrequently, I see no problem with it, but this seems far too frequent to me.

So far my high dose LSD trips 600-800mcg have been extremely pleasant and usually profound, so I think the user, set, and setting might be a significant factor here. For me mushrooms become extremely 'dirty' at high doses, compared with other compounds, it's hard to explain it, but I do not want to take high dose mushroom trips (Something like over 7 grams for me).

Let it completely dissolve, erase, and melt everything... and somehow everything will still come back later. It's a mind-blowing process that requires total surrender into what feels like complete death.

It's funny how we always want a reason specifically for our suffering. We always form an identity around it. Nobody asks for the reason why they enjoy music, we only care about the reason when it's something negative.

I think enlightenment could be very easy to define: Realization that 'I am God'.

Hello, I am interested in what are some of your most bizarre or weird trips. They don't necessarily have to be profound. I have had numerous weird trips, all very unique, but I thought this one would be a good start for this thread, because it truly is in a class of its own in terms of the trips I have had. Time going backwards Substance: 110mg DMT vaporized (Although my DMT was not completely pure, if pure it would still amount to around 80mg at the very least - I do not recommend this level of dosage to anybody unless if you really want to go deep) I vaporized the DMT. Almost immediately I was shot into some other dimension. I don't remember anything what happened from this point onwards, my ability to recall or store any information in memory was completely shut off. Usually I would be able to recall something, but I reasoned afterwards that the unusually high dosage affected my ability to recall anything at all. After an unknown period of time, I begin to come back. Notably I have actually almost no visuals, for some reason. After coming back, everything is goes slowly back to normal. I didn't get any insights because I was not able to remember basically anything, nor was I really going for insights with this trip, I really just wanted to see what would happen with a dose this high, if I did not specifically have any direction in mind. The trip "ends" smoothly. A long period of time goes by, months at the very least. I'm living my normal life. Then suddenly, months later, something very drastic happens. Something happens to time. It is as if everything starts being rewound in a chaotic fashion. Time starts moving backwards, at an incredibly rapid speed. I'm literally seeing everything in my experience going backwards with no control over what is happening, it feels like an automatic process. As I move backwards through time I lose most of my memories of what "happened" in the future. It does not feel like I am living at all, it feels like a video is being played back in reverse. The time moves backwards at an extreme speed, this feels incredibly intense, it is very hard to describe this. This feeling of time going backwards unlike anything I have ever experienced. This goes on until I am back at the point in the trip where I took the DMT. The experiential time estimate I would give for this rewinding of time is less than an equivalent of 10 minutes, the speed that I was going through my "life" for the past few months kept increasing exponentially. Then suddenly it stops going backwards. It's really hard to describe how it felt for time to stop going backwards, it was a mind-blowing transition. At this point I have regained some of my cognitive functions and I realize that time had flown backwards, that's the only way I can describe it. I immediately feel like I took too much. This was a total mindfuck. I realized I was still tripping, a few months earlier. Slowly I come down, now hopefully for real. I am left wondering if the past few months actually happened or if it was just inside the trip. Crazy. This trip left me with a deep feeling for the unreality of reality, and it took a long time to process this. My memory of what "happened" after the trip "ended" is very fragmented, and it seems like I lost most of my memories. In fact most of the memories seemed to fade away as the trip ended for real. Just like with a dream, the whole experience faded away afterwards, and became largely inaccessible, except it felt much more real than a dream. I was able to recall much more details before I had completely come down from the trip, but I did not write anything specific down, so now I have very little memories left. This left me questioning how can I differentiate at all between so-called "reality" and illusion, and frankly it made me realize that I cannot do that in any way because there is no difference between them. All I know for sure is that I experienced a long period of life that then got erased from my reality. I would love to hear some of your weirdest trips.

I will never understand why people do not just use the most efficient and strongest tools (psychedelics) at their disposal, instead insisting in doing some traditional way, it just seems inefficient. That's not even considering that the tools might get you somewhere where you cant without them, that's assuming they get you to the same place, but in most cases meditation won't get to even near the same places that you would with psychedelics. All meditation does is mostly shut down your mind, I don't see how that can raise your consciousness drastically. Why not just use what is the strongest method? How can you tap into infinite intelligence with meditation?

Truly, it's just God showing itself how awesome it is, falling in love with itself

I just was in a state of consciousness where I felt like I was the object, and in fact everything else, and this feeling got extremely strong and I was just feeling no disconnection between my own actions and everything else, it felt like I was doing everything, and tried moving as the object, and it moved. It didn't feel like I was using my "human" mind to move it, it's hard to describe. It was a nautilus shell.

I really enjoyed 2CB. The whole headspace and visuals of it feel like honey to me in some way. It was useful for consciousness work for me. Never used any psychedelics for therapeutic usage, so I don't know about that.

It's called telekinesis. I've succeeded in it once on psychedelics as well, having someone sober to see that the thing actually moved, and I was not moving my hands in any way nor was the movement subtle. There are people who practice it as a skill and after some years of practice are able to move weak objects such as make psi wheels spin, move some paper, roll some cans, et cetera, completely sober. I knew someone who could also do it through a webcam. It's mostly an useless power, but cool for demonstrating that something is at least possible I guess. I have no idea about developing them - I've had various different powers of many degrees, some straight up like from a dream and some mild and almost useless, that I have gained access to during psychedelics, but I usually have access to zero abilities sober except for rare occasions. You will not find almost anything on using psychedelics for abilities online, I've done a lot of research on this topic, the best you will find are some old vague descriptions of siddhis and iddhis that don't really help. I guess keeping your mind open and not dismissing anything as a possibility is a good start, then actually going about doing things in your direct experience, if you are interested in them.

You don't see people like Rupert Spira (or most others in that list) teach that they are a figment of your imagination, or that you are the full God, not a part of it. He would for example definitely claim to be conscious, et cetera. Yes, a lot of the teachers talk about nonduality and oneness, but they don't teach the highest levels of awakening. Not all of them have realized Love either. They've definitely all awakened to something, but it's more of a question of to how much have they awakened.

Now all the Buddhists will come after you

You can't do anything good if you get punished for the opposite. That's not unconditional love, that's just reward and punishment, it's conditional. God does not employ invisible punishments, even if you do the most horrific things a human could do. God gives freedom, not rules for how you should live your life. Selflessness and love is a choice that doesn't necessitate a reward, and selfishness is also a choice that doesn't necessitate a punishment.

I'm conscious enough to see everyone here is fooling themselves, except me

Then it seems weird for you to exclude yourself and Peter in the other posts you made, no?

These two statements seemingly contradict each other, first you say only I can awaken, and then you say there are two teachers who have experienced an Absolute Awakening. Now I already knew the former, but I don't understand why you keep saying you are awakened then (but others in the dream are not), especially when most people here seem to be saying the same things.

Never mind, I get what you are saying, since you edited the original message.

This. It doesn't matter how many people would tell one they are God, or anything involving enlightenment, unless if it becomes an experientially realized truth. If you start believing what others say, then you still haven't understood the thing. It's just going to be a bunch of beliefs and concepts, having nothing to do with actual realization. Words cannot transmit even a single experience, so how difficult it is to transmit something like actual realization of truth? Not to mention when there is only one who can actually realize it - ultimately it has to come from within. The idea of first and second order is extremely useful.

Well all the ideas about solipsism are superficial compared to the actuality. But they are pointing towards it, in the limited fashion that they can. It is possible to become conscious of the interconnectedness of this unfoldment though, which grants insight into "how" it is done (though really there is no how), I would rather say the way in which infinite intelligence is utilizing itself rather than 'how' this is done. From what I understand it is a very deep involvement of consciousness that requires one to self-construct everything in the experience. Cutting off one part to act as the ego/human is a very big part of this. To actually experience how this construction occurs, is very different from the ideas. It's actually possible to become conscious of the fact that every single thing is being constructed by your consciousness, and the very ways in which infinite intelligence is being used to make this happen. But this cannot be transmitted in words. It is shockingly different from how one would think it is, yet blatantly obvious once seen, since it was you who was doing the thing in the first place after all.

Yeah I agree, there is no such a thing as finite pov. There is an apparent pov in infinity, that's what I meant. The infinite making an apparent pov is what I was trying to convey. If there were finite povs, then yeah it would be very different. But reality cannot actually be this way, once you become conscious of how interlinked everything is, and the fact that there never was anything but infinity.