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The explanations are just a backstory for the magic that is happening, there isn't actual limitations as you said, so it needs no process to do anything. The processes that you try comprehend are just invented to make you believe that there is a mechanism behind what is happening. Science is a dream, everything is magic.

I played a lot of games, I also did a lot of programming and hacking (I wasn't very in line with love back then, I loved exploiting everything and breaking rules). I drank a lot and used to smoke, but I quit both of those. School was mind-numbingly boring to me and I put no effort into anything, I used to skip school a lot with the excuses of being sick, I was absent for almost half of the time. I was also very fat and was eating too much and unhealthy food.

Personally as a hobby artist (painting, drawing, etc) in my experience just letting yourself do what you feel is good makes originality spontaneously. Of course looking at other art for inspiration is a part of this, but originality just comes from not trying to be original but just doing what you like.

Yep, love is the only reason to do anything, love is the only thing that matters, everything else is completely irrelevant.

I agree, visuals are definitely not as present in my trips as much as before. Even with compounds like LSD that are very visual, it is more about becoming conscious of God, truth, insights, and so on. Trips also are devoid of confusion or things like that, everything is very clear, smooth, and easy.

I see, thanks for your response. I'll check those books out. I've also had omnipotence experiences, but in terms of practical stuff I've only had a handful of encounters with power(s), but it seems like an interesting avenue to me.

Yes I agree, there never was any ego as far as I've found out. The God can confuse itself that there is an ego, but there is not one. Your descriptions of infinite love are also very accurate and beautiful. I've found out there are infinitely many flavors to God's love, and it is so amazing. Could you also elaborate and open up more on the topic of nonlinear creation and reconstructing your thought system for power, it sounds very interesting.

The baby's consciousness includes their parents and its body, the consciousness literally constructs the body. The consciousness of the baby has always existed, it just constructed time and the baby avatar, but the consciousness already exists, it wasn't passed on by their parents. The brain does not generate the consciousness, the consciousness imagines the brain. Birth is as imaginary as death.

Well I've usually taken a top-down approach to psychedelics, where by becoming conscious, feeling, and experiencing overwhelming amounts of infinite love I blasted away through any possible traumas, insecurities, fears, and so on. I didn't really even try to work on them during trips, they spontaneously disappeared over time with the help of trips like these, which had cascading effects on everything about me. One example is that I used to have social anxiety and it got completely removed with this approach. So I basically used love to heal from everything as a whole instead of trying to work on any individual aspects that I didn't like. I don't know if it's the best approach, but it worked completely for me. It was like a complete transformation encompassing everything about me, powered by love. But whenever I feel emotions, especially during trips, I let myself feel those emotions completely without judging them.

In my experience stimulants do not help with awakening, and I've tried many many different varities.

It's all up to your values, if health is an important value to you it isn't going to be too difficult to eat healthier because it's already something you value. If it isn't an important value to you, then you won't care about health. You can always choose to develop your values or go in either direction. Those are actually pretty good though, maybe not the tastiest, but still good

Normal water won't work, you need distilled. Most tabs don't have the LSD spread out evenly on them

You don't understand what people say when they mean 'you are red'. Without becoming more conscious and understanding that the distinction between 'self' and 'other' is not real, you are not going to get anywhere. The distinction between them does not exist. You need to truly understand that duality is an illusion. You are still holding 'appearances' as an other, even if you are not conscious of this, which means you haven't realized that duality is not real nor what 'appearances' are. You are like someone who is looking at a nightly dream who is too focused on the dream/forms (red in this case), not realizing that it's your own mind, only seeing the dream/form.

Erowid has thousands of trip reports. You can also post here too.

Actual awakening is actually so good that you have no idea, it's the best thing there is.

It's not a guarantee. In my experience I got ego deaths at high dosages, but they go away quickly as they come on. Plus I already was extremely good at letting go. I would load a whole 5 cartridges into a bigger balloon and take all of that. And during the effects you probably won't be in a state to think really anything at all, and afterwards its already gone, so unless if you have a background on this it's hard to connect the dots after the experience, since you won't have any time to even form proper memories about it. But I have experienced some actual awakenings with nitrous even with nitrous only, though usually I would take it at the peak of a psychedelic trip, since that has been a far better experience for me than nitrous alone. It can be used for awakening, but it is far from optimal for it.

Nitrous oxide is a dissociative like ketamine which means it's really difficult to get anxiety with it compared to psychedelics, so it could potentially be good for first time experiences. The duration isn't a good reason for this though, DMT doesn't last very long either.

The real interesting thing is how realistic humans are. After all you believe that others are real!

For me it has been mainly just complete and utter fast ego death, but I didn't become conscious of various facets with it. Though the last time I did nitrous I didn't even know about there being any facets, I was mainly going for ego death, god, love, bliss, and that's it. I did enter a nondual state a few times though. It doesn't feel too fast during it, because during that time time ceases to matter, but afterwards it can feel like it is a bit too short lived. I would say its closer to a feeling of divine bliss, at least personally I wouldn't be in a state to become conscious of different facets, it would be too strong for me to be capable of doing something like that, it just feels like a complete blast-off.

You can have an experience on psychedelics where all your usual senses blend into one meta-sense that is more like consciousness itself, during that state you can see that there really are no different senses (nor are sense organs the source of sensations), it's kind of like synaesthesia. It is experientially very different from a normal state where it seems that your senses are separate.

Yeah it's extremely potent and I agree that it works very well, but it doesn't last very long so it will be harder to integrate and embody that experience, and far more difficult to get something out of the experience if we are speaking in terms of afterwards.

What's the topic of your book if you have decided on it? God Realization? Also are you going to release both a course and a book or just one of them?

Love

God doesn't feel boredom, the only reason why it would want to leave perpetual bliss is because it wants to create or has the desire to experience a specific kind of form.