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@Flim i don't know dude, there was none after or before and there was also no one who pointed me towards something in the end, it just seemed like an overwhelming experience of agony. but maybe it's just too early to judge now. however i do not fear it anymore.

@Flim There was no spirit of mother aya in there, i was calling for it.

i am not sure if that was its intend. there was so much hopelessness inside that thing, completely shut off from light, in the metaphorical sense. i was still able to love it though towards the end, that helped.

I don't know man, that was the lowest of worst of the worst. so much insanity and maliciousness and abuse and backstabbery and torture directed at me at once, everywhere. and it was enveloping me, like i am something precious to play with now, because of my pureness towards it. i can't even say it was hell, it felt like something way lower than hell. i was in so much agony

but you know what everyone, even if it abuses me and damages me, you still can love it and be in peace, but irregardless, if anyone can or knows how i can free myself, i'd be much obliged

she is sitting fluffed up on the cage bottom mostly sleeping, no singing, no flying. what illness could it be? that is very unsual and happened for the first time today. maybe she caught a virus i brought home?

she is dead. the last calls were terrible..

it seems that she is slowly dying

You guys have to decide which it stage you think these people are, because stage red isn't compelled by social reputation, if these stereotypes are red. I believe you guys are off track. Look inside what self believes constituted such mind set and then look for societal ways of transforming these believes.

You mean you are ok with them being able to build companies that pay taxes and advertise and sell any drug to anybody of age? With a political lobby and all that?

Didn't god show you it is in every person you meet?

you're using me as a canvas to fight your fears. not cool

Because cocaine makes ego more dense and opiods make you a wreck their so addictive. put that in a neighbourhood with a lot of trauma, crime and trauma from crime and you will get more crazy thugs and junkies.

not a good idea to legalize cocaine and opioids.

remove internet access, play only children cartoons on tv and classical music.

I believe many anti-vaccine have the issue of wanting to be able to verify the legitimacy of how vaccines are done themselves, but societal survival issues and distant personality of doctors and profit orietation of pharma make it difficult to trust and get access to relatable education. Antivax is a communication issue in our society where professionals play their part in the blame. Instead of punishment, transparency and honest wide spread free education.

tell me more! tell me more! what was hurting?

Thanks!

I knew you would answer to this as soon as I saw your name here without even reading your replies before I posted. This is going to sound scary to you, you have been warned. Before you decided to have a physical experience, you have chosen for yourself a theme(s) that you want to explore in this life and learn lessons from. Passion is the guide that tells you you are within that theme(s). You will not understand the mechanics of this process in text because passion is a communication from something that can see beyond your finite perspective. When you diverge too much from your passion, you are loosing a form of support and will make yourself prone to negativity and misunderstanding. You have to look inside your feelings, what do you like to do? Maybe you need to work on opening up yourself to passion first?

it works but not on that frequency which you are not in. follow your passion that will set you on your true wave and attract people similar to it.

Hay thanks for your exciting questions. I will work on an example if I become inspired to work on it further again. I was looking for a better word other than subconsciousness for that which is lost due to ego on the left part of the model. So I left it out here, it doesn't feel right. But going with the term Intuition, Envision, Inspiration and Empathy are not within the "subconsciousness" fully, but rather the missing degree that you potentially could experience in the psyche state. Soul group are those souls that have a high degree of familiarity with each other. You would see that when you have someone you can easily relate to without much integration work of their nature into your. Empathy reach isn't as far as with a soul from another soul group. Love is very easy there. Anyway the whole spiritual part of the model has a lot of layers and I am unsure yet myself, so I'd rather keep it simple on one in here. Maybe laterI will see more.

It's presenting a basic simplification of my model. Not sure where else to share it other than on this forum.