Johnny Brake

Thank you guys, I do appreciate it a lot! Time went by and I want to update my thread as a "warning" for my future self ... Turned out that she wanted me back and what did I? ... Yep, the big no no. Now, with that being said I am at the same spot, still fighting with her over several useless arguments, nothing improved. It is really sad because I thought it could work.

Hi guys, I am new to the forum and I'd like to introduce myself with this topic. I am 35 now and got dumped by my gf(ex) a week ago. I went on a 7 day bender with drugs and alcohol and got some kind of epiphany. I knew that I could go on like this and waste my life or do something proactive about it. I discovered Actualized.org and the YouTube channel because I typed in ... you guessed it ... how to get over a breakup. With that being said, thank you Leo, thank you so much for making this video. I watched it 10 times in a row and it helped a lot. I have some further questions to the community and thought it would be nice to take action and wanted to connect. I knew that it is just a little step, but it was my first decision to register here and to post my story. So this is much more an accountability log/sharing my story than asking for help. I am 6'6 and not the average chode or anything like that, I think that I am very good looking and very successful in other parts of my life, but I do lack a shit ton of self improvement, needy AF and get really fucking jealously so easy. After watching the video it shook me, I never thought that this is real turn off for girls, most times I did enjoy playing games with girls. Now I realized that this is a really huge issue within myself and I wreaked havoc around me and my loved ones. So the first thing was to admit that I have a big problem within my personality. It may sound arrogant, but I was a selfmade millionaire when I was 22 and I LIVED life to its fullest, trust me! But it stings even more when I realized that there is so much more money couldn't buy. I am really grateful that I can work on myself and I hope that you guys won't judge me as a big douche after posting this. I am really hurt because I lost this beautiful human being and I went really dark on myself. I think this is a baby step into KAIZEN, but I refuse to give up on myself. So thank you anyone in advance, perhaps you have some really cool tips or ressources.

Update: Super strange things happened today ... after posting yesterday my ex called me and wanted to talk. We met up in a public párk and I told her that I take full ownership over the situation and want to improve all aspects of my life. I told her that I see clearly that I had some huge issues within myself and nobody was to blame but me. After a long conversation which I kept really lighthearted and fun she invited me to her place. I declined.

Hey guys, thank you so much for your warm welcome, I do appreciate it! Uhm, well ... I really didn't tell all of my story, I noticed, I am not a native english speaker but I did some inner work like the inner child and some shadowwork. I also have a long history of doing meditation, I am into Rupert Spira and Mooji. I did got some climpses of enlightenment, but I do love alcohol and drugs for my pleasure. I know that this isn't good and 'spiritual' but I used it as a clutch. I know that deep down I am a child and don't have the confidence to speak up sober, so I guess this time around I try getting sober without any substances and get my life together.

Thank you! Neediness, Jealousy, defining myself through looks and money, not a well put together life. I do hate ppl and just wanna work out and make more money LOL As cliche it may sound, this makes me happy.

You don't get it, just do it. It doesn't matter when how whatever .... just do it on a consistant basis

Approach the one who is unattractive AF, the other ones will hit on you, trust me

I made millions in my twenties and give you the only advice you'll need: Try to understand your costumer and learn marketing!

No ... o ... oo .... ooooo! Just kidding, use it as your advantage and throw some jokes in. Please don't make it too serious! You will have the best results, trust me!

Just cut it out, it helped me A LOT! In addition to that it is just awkward to suck some tit liquid LOL

Go Plantbased right now, thank me later (I noticed that those fine gentlemen before my posting did a great job to provide you with the science behind it).

Eventually, you will die at some point in time. Nobody will give a shit about you or your life. Even your family will forget you. Do you need more motivation?

I think you did everything right THB, cold approach does sting from time to time.

Real word just entered the chat. TBH, I don't think that you are boring, I think you had an honest interest in friendship while she did not.

Quit Dairy, that simple. If this doesn't do the trick, try to implement much more plantbased foods. You're welcome.

As any drug, coffee is a stimulant which you wanna use just for purpose and not as a lifestyle gimmick. Just keep your head upright bro and go through it, it's much more brighter on the other side