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De nada, amigo! (thanks, friend)

Consider watching Vervaeke's series on the meaning crisis. Great stuff!

Report - Day 05 (Final Day) I started the meditation retreat at 2:08 PM and ended at 6:21 PM. I divided the retreat between 1 hour of meditation and 5 minutes for bathroom breaks, writing insights, and stretching. Process, Events, Insights: I began the last day of the retreat thinking about the next challenges on my list to tackle. I had an insight about making my personal and spiritual development related to hardcore challenges and experiments rather than just acquiring information and reading books. I got distracted for a while listening to rap music in my head. I returned to the focus of the meditation. I had an insight about doing challenges and solving problems that I truly admire and care about. The reason for doing the challenges is about who you become after completing them, having gone through a tortuous process. I had an insight regarding the importance of asceticism, suffering, and accepting the process. The first person that came to mind was David Goggins. I was able to understand experimentally why he does what he does every day. This revealed another insight about David Goggins' mindset and how I perceived myself in the same process after 5 days of retreat. You start to develop an addiction to hardcore challenges, imagining what can be done, realizing how much you'll evolve if you complete them, and how much it will make you an uncommon, powerful, different human being. Contemplation: When you look inside yourself, what do you assume exists? An inner voice? Emotions? Thoughts? An inner world? Is this true or invented to deal with other human beings? I had an insight about possibly using only 3% of my potential as a human being. The retreat certainly raised my expectations and possibilities about what's achievable in my life from now on. I realized how extremely violent and challenging the retreat had been. I remembered Dr. Benjamin Hardy's book "10x Is Easier Than 2x: How World-Class Entrepreneurs Achieve More by Doing Less." The addiction to doing extremely hardcore challenges is possibly related to the amount of benefits gained after completing them. After 5 minutes, I started feeling an absurd level of self-confidence, like a psychopath. I tried to stay still, but it was truly absurd energy. 5-minute break. I returned from the first break with an insight about the meditation retreat itself. The retreat was about everything but meditation. It trains you to do something extremely difficult, go through intense hardships, suffer, feel all possible emotions, and deal with that emotional rollercoaster. I continued meditating, but feeling anxiety and excitement at the same time. I lay down to rest a bit and continued the meditation process. I realized that today was the easiest day of the retreat. 5-minute break. I returned from the break and started having visions related to the future of robotics, imagining various types of robots, functionalities, and how robotics will change humanity's future. I returned to focusing on the meditation, feeling my whole body and breathing in a synchronized way. I contemplated: What happens if I don't connect my concept of being ME with what occurs in my inner world? (Emotions, Thoughts, Sensations, Images) I realized that if I don't connect my self-image/concept of being myself with my emotions, thoughts, and sensations, life STOPS being ABOUT ME. After this insight, a new subjective experience emerged. When there is no I, who is going to think or feel something? I realized I was existing just as a body without a conceptual I. This was one of the most insane experiences I've had. After a few minutes, I continued intrigued with this possibility of being/being in the world. In this experience of being just a body existing in space, nothing feels personal to you, nothing affects you. There is only calm, silence, and extreme tranquility. Contemplation: Who is existing inside my body? 5-minute break. In the last hour of the retreat, I had the experience of how important it had been to do this. The retreat taught me about consistency, persistence, dealing with chaotic processes, and accepting this emotional rollercoaster. I had an insight about the creative process, doing challenges, or solving problems. The process will almost always be messy, non-linear, or chaotic no matter what you're doing CREATIVELY. My mind started projecting noises in the room, and I thought someone was entering my house. But it was no one—just my mind trying to distract me. I did a meditation counting from 100 down to 1. I focused for a few more minutes, and the retreat ended. (Translation made by AI - Portuguese to English)

Writing the final report.

😂😂 The retreat was about everything except satisfaction.

The retreat is done. Lots of pain, suffering and learning. The last day was amazing.

Good. I became much more honest, clear, bold and direct with women. I simply say that I want sex on the first 5 minutes of the interaction. Let the chips fall where they may.

The experience of being complete is one of the most appreciated things for humans but they don't talk about it in a clear form. I really want to know what are your perspectives on being complete, how to do it, practices, processes, ideas, considerations. Do you feel complete? Do you feel like you are already complete on the being, doing and having dimensions? Do you feel like you need fixing? Why do you need to fix yourself? Are you broken? Why exactly are you broken?

I wll contemplate.

Today is the last day of the retreat. I'll do 2pm-6pm.

Report - Day 04 I started the meditation retreat at 2:08 PM and ended at 6:25 PM. I divided the retreat into 1-hour sessions of meditation and 5-minute breaks for bathroom visits, writing insights, and stretching. Process, Events, Insights: I started the day with extreme difficulty focusing on meditation. The beginning of the process is almost always tortuous until it becomes light. After a while, I began generating a sensation of satisfaction throughout my body, becoming increasingly satisfied with the present moment. Some sexual images started distracting me from the process, but I managed to return to focus within a few minutes. I had an insight about becoming a more strategic and responsible person in all areas of life. I might be falling short in some matters. 5-minute break. Returning from the first break, I had an insight about being more pragmatic and realistic regarding my life and goals. Being a visionary is great, but you also need to align with the HOW to make those visions reality. Right after, I had an insight about how important it is to TURN your POTENTIAL into tangible results. You can have all the potential you want, but you need to squeeze the orange. I had another insight related to being extremely results-oriented in certain areas of life. Fooling yourself about your results in some areas is an easy trap to fall into. I returned to feeling my whole body, meditating for a good while without distractions. 5-minute break. I lay down to continue the meditation, as I was feeling tired and with body aches. I focused on breathing very slowly in a synchronized way. I noticed that my tolerance for boredom and monotony has evolved quite a bit since the start of the retreat. I was happy about this specific result. I started remembering friends from the past, memories from when I was between 5 and 14 years old. I felt nostalgic for a good while; it distracted me, but for a good reason. I thanked the people who passed through my life in the past, those who helped me, old friends I haven't seen in many years. 5-minute break. I returned from the break feeling anxious, restless, and tired. I lay down again to meditate, breathe, and regain focus. In the last hour, I had to persist for a good while to not give up at the end. I was tired and wanting the day to end. I did a meditation counting from 100 down to 1 to regain focus, and it helped me finish the retreat day calmly and peacefully. (Translation made by AI - Portuguese to English)

Day 4 is done.

You Don't Really Understand Mechanical Engineering

I'm reading about deep stuff on science, engineering, technology, computer science and physics. I will develop a deep understanding of these fields to create new solutions to humanity. I will share resources, books, lectures on these fields.

Day 4: 2pm-6pm

Observing a huge blue gate. 2002 FIFA World Cup.

You are resentful because you don't communicate what you think/feel.

Sure. I agree. What I'm trying to point is a way to relate to change, transformation or "what should be" in a empowering manner.

Report - Day 03 I started the meditation retreat at 2:07 PM and ended at 6:25 PM. I divided the retreat into 1-hour sessions of meditation and 5-minute breaks for bathroom visits, writing insights, and stretching. Process, Events, Insights: I started the day with extreme difficulty focusing, very sleepy, distracted, and wanting to quit. I remained restless for about 20 minutes, trying to stay focused on the meditation. I had an insight on how to relate effectively to human beings. Imagine that the human being is an inanimate object without a mind, existence, or five senses, like a chair without consciousness. What happens? How do you relate to the human being? I had various visions, imaginations, and ideas to apply in different areas of my life. 5-minute break. I returned to meditating and began having visions related to science fiction and the books of author Greg Egan. He is one of the authors who inspire me to stay in the STEM field and also to want to be a science fiction writer. I had an insight regarding monotony, where this is generally the rhythm of nature, where everything happens in its own time according to specific cycles. I started feeling A LOT of boredom, becoming impatient and tired. Shortly after about 10 minutes, I had an insight on how to create a subjective experience where you transcend power, sex, status, and money to live on planet Earth. I went back to feeling BOREDOM like I haven't felt in the last 20 years. Feeling/getting bored is so hard these days. What ended up leading me to another insight related to the frenetic stimulation that human beings are exposed to nowadays. You should meditate just to get bored and learn to appreciate that mundane and monotonous state. 5-minute break. I returned to the retreat contemplating the question "Who am I?" After a good while contemplating, I concluded that today was the MOST DIFFICULT day of the retreat. I was extremely irritated and bored, just wanting to stop meditating. I had an insight regarding why I have this need to be important in society and in the eyes of other human beings. I lay down for 10 minutes on my yoga mat, continuing to contemplate the question "Who am I?". 5-minute break. In the last hour of the day, I had to persist in staying seated. I really wanted to give up. I started the process of feeling my entire body again. I did a meditation counting from 100 to 1 to refocus. I did some contemplations related to inventions, mechanical engineering, and remote viewing. I had a final insight about the importance of how difficulties are crucial for forging a human being. (Translation made by AI - Portuguese to English)

Day 3 is done.