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Today's Training - 10km (6.21mi)

I started the process with some stretching to begin the run. The goal was to run 21km without paying attention to my pace, just to finish the 21km. After running 30 minutes, I realized the chosen time was the worst possible for attempting 21km. I ran the entire route in the sun for 2h20m. At 5km, I felt warmed up but starting to get tired, since that was usually my running limit, so my body was used to stopping at 5km. I kept running, starting to hydrate with plenty of water from the 5km mark. At 7km, my mind began conjuring scenarios of death and fainting to make me quit running. At 10km, my pace dropped dramatically. I literally started trotting on the track, feeling pain in my shin/calf. After 10km, hell really began. Pain, hunger, fatigue, heat, heart rate hitting 200bpm (I think the watch was measuring wrong). At 14km, my vision started getting a bit blurry and the fatigue was overwhelming. I persevered to 15km and realized I'd faint if I kept running, causing unnecessary trouble. I managed to run 15km, which is an extreme improvement in a short time. My main mistakes were lack of hydration, nutrition, and the chosen time for the challenge. Still this month, I'll try again with a different strategy and I'm sure I'll hit the 21km.

Ralston will respond on the next newsletter.

I'm 100% sure he will be pissed off.

Question to Ralston:

😂 Skeptical about everything. Tests are made by humans, so...

I don't know why, I'm skeptic this test is wrong.

Actually, I like woman in general between the ages of 18-60. I do not look for appearances. I just want to fuck. Ugly, fat, strange, tall, short, beauty or not, I will do it. For a relationship I would be more specific on details of personality/beauty.

Sure. We as a collective are far-behind a deep understanding of self, language, hierarchy, distinctions.

😉

Chris P. Bacon

What is true abundance? What is false abundance? Abundance of what specifically?

Hard work pays off. They will colonize everyone.

I will contemplate. I will not give my authority to any teacher. This is the core responsibility of this work. You gotta go all in. Thanks Leo

I'm curious about his response. There is a phenomenon called as "Lava Syndrome" (Checkout on TBONK) where you conflict your direct experience of something with your description of what happened after it. (Contemplation - Direct Encounter/Enlightenment Experience - "oh, I felt I was all over the place, shining in glowing energy"). Enlightenment itself is nothing like that description. It was just symptons after you had a direct encounter with what is true. I don't know if he will go down that road.

I did the test - Skeptic.

Sure. I'll ask him about Love. The gap is always there to be closed. Contemplation and not-knowing are deep existential tools.

It seems to me that he doesn't want to represent infinity within human paradigms, distinctions and language. It is not honorable, truthful or honest. My assessment is that he doesn't want to lie or misrepresent Truth. He would agonize for years. This is the kind of seriousness that you need to have to embody Truth.

My personal take is that Ralston is bothered of talking about Love because he doesn't want to appear that he is talking about a "hippie -dippie-new-age" kind of love. I think he knows deep down what Love IS and he knows it is not a "human" thing, idea, feeling, belief system, paradigm. I don't think he shares the idea that everything is infinite love either. He doesn't want to create cosmologies. "The universe is one", "Solipsism", "Everything is infinite love". I don't know, it is just his style.

The problem is that we can't reinvent society from scratch to fit specific kinds of minds. It is sad. This is why you can learn to fit or you have to create new kinds of ways to navigate reality and survive on planet earth. Whatever you do in this world, you need process, steps, consistency, beginning, medium and end, actions, direction, clarity,

It depends on your uniqueness. How do you experience reality? What is consistency? The catch is that there is no one to really do it for yourself. Society teaches you to look for solutions outside of yourself, to mirror other people.

Let's assume that Nikola Tesla and Newton were NDs. NDs will need to create their own careers, paths, mindsets to navigate reality.

You have to understand how your self-view, hierarchy, language, relationships create your humanness. You as an object can't suffer. You have to understand deeply how some activities of mind create your suffering.