KatiesKarma

Hm, since we were only two people this perspective did not come up. We did not think much about possible, impossible, limited, limitless specifically we thought more just about Infinity and Truth. Actually, no. We have concluded that somethings are in fact Impossible. Can consciousness Imagine Nothingness? What the fuck does that mean? Can 0 exist?

@Leo Gura last night I showed a friend of mine, who is into philosphy and a hardcore atheist, some of your videos. Immediately he said: this guy is corrupted, he cannot speak of telling us the Truth because there is falsehood in his work and if he does not tell us what exactly is false about it we might as well have to assume that everything about it is false. Based on the blogpost where you yourself say falsehood is in your work. In another blogpost you go on to say that neither Nirvana, Meditation, Drugs, Void, No Self, Buddhism, Christanity, etc etc etc nor etc etc etc is God-realization and basically that post just screamed "everything is a lie and truth cannot be known because we live in something that is made out of lies"

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If it persists indefinitely it is ... Infinity. The sky might as well appear the second you look at it. Maybe consciousness created itself. We dont know. Infinity (truth) is basically the definition of something that we cannot describe with language or even perceive, ever. It is outside of perception and language. It is with no boundaries. (Is this already a boundary? Did I just limit the limitless by saying its limitless?)

For this you would have to be dead. How can you even verify that the "sensation/awareness" of infinity on DMT, for example, is in fact total infinity and not just some watered down version of it that wouldnt happen if you were dead?

It is 3am right now and I remember vaguely reading an article of Leo on his blog mentioning 'Salvation'. I really cant remember exactly what it said ... You can never truly escape suffering forever, right? So, what should I think? Do I just accept this facts? Is total surrender to everything always the answer, even when tortured, beheaded, raped, etc? ... I am not really talking about Christian salvation from eternal hell in eternal paradise but you could draw some parallels. I am asking whether or not there is (permanent) Salvation from (unneccessary, pointless) suffering. ?

I think its normal especially if an individual has a traumatic history. I will try to have sex on psychs not to heal sexual trauma but relational, it is gonna be interesting

So I will always suffer in a relative manner due to the nature of relativity and experience but never in an Absolute fashion?

This was just a moment of pure Love tbh

I will try my best

Okay.

Do you experience this? Would one want to go back to being unconscious maybe at some point?

@vishnusavestheday If you just forget everything about yourself we cannot really call it reincarnation, its an endless experience of living for the first time. I would be willing to forget absolutely everything I have learned in this life because this knowledge is so deep and true that in the next life, I would simply find it again. God cannot escape itself. Maybe it really just is a very deep level of surrender and self-acceptance i.e. love

Haha I've been telling people and some are into-it most are kind of turned off and blame my mental issues for it Indeed in the Absolute sense, You ARE all there is. In the relative, not so much and so I wonder why we focus on certain teachings so much like Solipsism because in the relative it just really doesn't matter

Wouldn't we just die without self bias

https://open.spotify.com/track/3VYk6DIsTXdNtjfH2KbUoO?si=N9I0SMO5TWyLmWzlUixJTw This one had the most impact on me. Feel free to send me your favourites, could be a completely different genre. I usually don't listen to this type of orchestral stuff, but when high it doesn't matter.

That I just imagine into existence ? With nothing behind it? Total void? I wouldn't be surprised. I am not happy about it. In fact there is no idea I despise more. Maybe I should just believe that you all are conscious and that belief alone will be enough to manifest the illusion of it back into my head. .... Are the deepest Truths of reality just so fucking depressing and we lie to ourselves and say "It's not that bad"? I want to re enter the state of an unconscious Human and forget. I can't, I have depersonalization Disorders and each and everyone of you feels like a bot. What is God's fucking issue in having serveral real people and not just one. God is supposed be limitless. And free. Not infinitely caged into involuntary dreams.

To be exact it was HHC, THC is quite different for me... I don't see psychs and weed as medication in the conventional sense but I see how you could see it that way :')

I don't know if this belongs to emotional issues because the reason for this distrust is psychotic/mystical in nature. Or so... I just noticed at night yesterday that I have this subtle expectation of something absolutely horrible happening when I am unprepared at all times I suspect. In fact I am always unprepared and cannot prepare. It's like I am afraid of existence itself. Sure there are good things,plenty of them, but do they alone justify the horror that comes with contrast needing to exist? This fear comes from some major trauma I have that deals with sudden radical life impairments and isolation for a prolonged period of time, total abandonment. Nowdays I have friends, something to do, perspective etc yet my subconscious is not catching on Sorry for kinda spamming the forum

No and they never will unless we count cannabis as medication

@Razard86 it seems to be an issue for many people and especially for me because dpdr, psychosis, Satan, inability to feel ANYTHING EVER FOR FUCKS SAKE... Thanks ...

alright I am tight on money right now so I'll have to look for a free version or so

... what do you want to hear

As far as I understand it's a part of Infinity

I am over it, the thread can be closed ? but if people want to continue discussing they may do so