YogiCosmos

Congrats on the experience! As the new unfoldment integrates into daily life, this will become the new normal. You tend to notice the contrast at first since the new way of seeing light stands out so much. But this integrates and becomes a daily lived experience.

Sanskrit is an energy based language which has direct impact on your chakras and subtle body. Om will make you a renunciate if you allow it to take you deep into the mind.

It is innate human nature to seek liberation. When liberation is attained, that aspirant needs to relax all seeking. This will calm the uncertainty of the new reality that has unfolded for the aspirant. The moment has to be ripe. Oftentimes, a Guru or a great statement (You are That) can ease the mind of the person who has awoken. You can relax! This is it. When the relaxation comes, the seeking energy disappears and integration and embodiment then unfolds. Forums like this serve as a guru or a great statement for those that are ready.

The issue oftentimes is that people are unwilling to surrender that which blocks the natural flow of wisdom and love. People want to hold on to their ideas of wisdom and love instead of letting it naturally express itself. The key here is renouncing the ego. Relinquishing control. Big thanks to Galyna for this thread. We need more feminine aspect of love and surrender to compliment the often dryness of masculine consciousness.

Thanks for sharing intimately Razard. I too had a lot of childhood trauma and physical abuse growing up. The awakening journey over the years has brought up tons of sludge to face and clear. I’ve also noticed that I would unconsciously associate myself with people and situations that correlated with a childhood trauma. Karma certainly has a way to seek resolution by repeatedly bringing up the shadows. Meditation and going into samadhi has helped clear much of the energetic debris. But there is much more to cleanse. It has also made me aware of the shadows that loom in me. Just because I am awakened doesn’t mean I can bypass the shadows… this would create dangerous blind spots that I often see in awakened teachers. They would act out their unresolved trauma with their students, for example.

Thank you for sharing Galyna. Totally agree… Surrender is letting go of control. Once the ego fades away, we can then begin to act from openness and love. But we must remember that surrender is not doing. It is non-doing, a letting go. It also isn’t the concept of letting go, but rather just being. When we truly let go, we relax and let unconditioned and unfiltered love shine forth. This is why waking up is difficult and can’t be done through conceptual understanding. We don’t truly surrender the ego mind and get stuck in concepts. When we relax and stop, we awaken. Stop for one moment and let grace flow through. Sometimes that’s enough to wake up. As you continue your journey into awakening and beyond, continuous surrender is required to keep the process unfolding. Otherwise, you can get stuck. Can you fathom perpetual surrender? ?

OM is a primordial sound more suited for renunciates. The mantra, when gently recited effortlessly, can help you transcend the mind. But OM will make you a recluse.

Thanks Razard. In later levels of realization, the external Guru falls away. All you are left with is the totality of being. That becomes your Guru. There’s a stanza in the Guru Gita that says: “The Guru protects the disciple from Shiva's wrath, but there is no one who can protect him from the Guru's anger.” The Guru is the totality of silence and bliss. Shiva’s wrath is silence withdrawing itself and causing noise and disturbance.

Wonderful, but the mind is not all there is. Beyond the mind is the Self. Beyond the Self is no-thing. Beyond no-thing is divinity. Keep investigating, but note that you have to transcend the mind to the Self first.

Thank you for your interest. The world doesn’t go quiet in that all the physical sounds stop. There is a lack of mental noise and fluctuation which makes it seem like the world is silent. Yet, as you have said, I have many thoughts and function in the world. But the silence is louder and drowns out the thoughts. It’s like wearing noise cancelling headphones in the mind. Add that to the fact that I don’t have a center of identification anymore… you can imagine how it took some time to integrate to function in daily life. I watched a video from Adyashanti and one of his students when they were speaking on losing identification. The description was so basic and simple, yet it triggered a remembrance into what I really am. I remember that starting the shift. Sometimes it just takes a little grace and moving the ego mind out of the way.

There’s a key element missing here… Your relation to the world. The world isn’t apart from you. But let’s take this one step at a time. The scriptures use the example of a snake and a rope. The illusion is that the rope is a snake. But the snake isn’t there… it’s always been the rope. The snake exists in the mind. The key is to transcend the mind and experience the rope. Actually, you are the rope and always have been. Now transcend the mind and be the rope. Not understand conceptually like a math equation… but BE. You cannot realize and liberate through logic. The ego has to lose its grip and realize it IS this external world you’re talking about. The snake is the dream. It’s not external to the rope. It IS the rope. But only in the mind. The famous Shankara verse: “The world is unreal Only Brahman is real The world is Brahman” …The snake is unreal Only the rope is real The snake is the rope…

Affirmations identify the individual with the ego as separate. “I am” this or “I am that.” It could be useful to break out of the mind, but it could also be a double edged sword.

From the other threads on this forum, it seems that a lot of people in the awakening process are still stuck in concepts. The key here is to transcend the concepts, and transcend your mind. Questions to ask yourself: A deep understanding can be incredible and life changing, but are you living the experience? Once you realize that your being is infinite, is the realization there 24/7? Once the individual falls away, are you still experiencing the world as a separate illusion? Hint: the world as an illusion is still stuck in concepts.

There is no “other” is a late stage of the awakening process. Afterwards, “other” is integrated back into the totality of wholeness. Saying there is no “other” is still subtle duality. That has to be let go.

@Vladimir As part of the awakening process, I ask myself what is real in the current moment. Does the world exist apart from you? Is the world an illusion?

@axiom nicely put thank you ??

@inFlow - haha yes I know. Awakening is so very ordinary and no one around you will know or care. Some folks may exude Shakti or crazy powers, but not me. The world to me became so plain, but the beauty and simplicity of being is astounding. Adyashanti mentioned “extraordinarily ordinary” in one of his videos. I totally agree! @NondualesStudium My first shift a year ago definitely scared me. I remember thinking about crying because everything I knew up to that point was a lie. The beautiful thing about being a human is that the body and mind are so quick to adapt and integrate. The shock wore off in a few weeks, and it was back living daily life as normal. I also did get a sense I was picking up where I left off in previous lives. Right now, the silence is a present abiding awareness. It’s there when I sleep and dream (though I cannot lucid dream), and it’s there when I wake up into the world. It’s a never ceasing awareness. During my second major shift, that internal awareness exploded outwards into the world. Any external objects that used to seem solid were now the same internal silent awareness. Inner had merged with outer. I still have tons of thoughts in order to function in my career and with my family. The ego and mind will always be there since I am not an abstract space of air :). However, the silence is louder than the thoughts. I’m also less triggered by people and events. When things do trigger me, the anger or annoyance arises in the body but let’s go since there’s no story behind it anymore… that took some time to get used to. @axiom - thank you. I still have to use “we” or “I” because the ego is still here haha. I respond to my name at work, for example. But yes, it is not who we truly are. I’m currently a ghost, but hoping for more to unfold.

Another thing I’ve noticed is that I am in meditation 24/7. The background silence is now basically the foreground 24/7. When this snap happened (probably 6 months ago), I did get freaked out and tried to “wake” from it. But the body got used to it after 2 weeks, and here we are. Outside of a lower resting heart rate and being physically relaxed, I have not grown a halo or an aura that I’m aware of.

@inFlow I had RASA and similar light transmissions that took me to Unity. Also received many Shaktipat transmissions from various teachers. Took about a year to fully stabilize in the new state. @Bojan V thank you just checked him out. He may be what I am looking for. @michaelcycle00 This was a passing phase, and this realization has since then integrated. Right now, my reality is that “other” exists in the relative world that I reside in. However, I also simultaneously view the world from the absolute, and “other” also doesn’t exist. Both duality and non-duality are real to me, which was I meant by totality. Everything is included in this wholeness. The neo-advaitans that say that “I” or “others” don’t exist (and therefore there’s nothing to do ) are deluding themselves. That creates a duality by saying that anything dual is not real. Duality and non-duality must coexist in wholeness. True, we are not the ego. I just recently realized we are also not the infinity of the Self. We are totality inclusive of the ego and the Self.

Thank you Axiom. I should also mention that by totality, I mean the merging of the absolute with non-duality. Everything that we think as relative or separate is also part of the total wholeness. Everything just is.

Speaking from experience. My thoughts have reduced, but they still continue to churn thoughts. This is what the mind does - it is a thought generating machine. What’s different now is that the center of identification is no longer on the ego-mind. The sense of “I” has dissipated. But the “I” is still there so that the body can continue to take care of itself in creation. The body still needs to eat and sleep. As an analogy, my right foot is there to serve its function in walking, but I am not my right foot.

Will speak from direct experience here. Nothingness is void and emptiness. Void exists within the context of consciousness because there is an element of space to it. What is beneath nothingness? No-thingness. There is no emptiness here. This is wholeness that vibrates with intense aliveness and infuses the deep silence.

Understand that duality and non-duality are the same and part of the same totality. Everything matters. But do not identify with the story.

I can give you my awakening experience and the snaps that went along the way. A year ago, I realized that “I” did not exist as its own separate entity. “Other” only existed in my thoughts if I couldn’t visually see them. 6 months later, experienced an implosion of silence followed by an explosion of silence into the world. The barrier separating my mind against the outer world lifted. Inner silence and external reality merged into the same silence. Everything in my direct perception and view I know to be me. The Self. Beautiful state of Unity. 2 months ago, the sense of Unity fell away. There was no longer an “I” claiming that the world was me. Went into an intense vacuum and blank state. The world in my view does not appear to exist or have been created. It also feels like the world is contained within my being. Note that I don’t feel like the world is an illusion. It’s absolutely real, but at the same time it was never created. Still stuck in this state as we speak. Everything is just function and appearance. No doer. No devotion. All totality. I feel like a ghost. More to unfold… I really hope. The ego is still there, but no longer the main identification. When I was identifying as the world, I felt like I was the Self. However in this new state, there’s no ego or Self. There’s no identification, yet the ego remains like a foot or the hand. It’s just there to serve a purpose in survival, but you are not the foot or hand.

Hmmm this sounds like Tummo instructions posted by Loco Austriaco.